i am angry.
i see a lot of things abt how it's okay to be sad or to grieve or to mourn what you lose bc of your disability, and that's so true, it's okay to mourn, it's good to process your emotions, however.
i am past sad. yes sometimes i get hit by the grief, but mostly i am angry. i am frustrated.
i can't do my favorite activities anymore, and for a while i was sad and devastated, but now i'm pissed. i'm angry and upset and so frustrated that sometimes i cry. and that's okay too.
i can't go bowling, or climb a tree, or crochet, or play my instrument for very long, or draw or paint for any length of time, or go for a long walk in the woods, etc etc.
and that makes me sad and it worsens my depression and sometimes i'm so devastated that i can't breathe
but mostly?
i'm angry.
well why the fuck can't i? why the hell are assistive tools so expensive? why aren't there more accommodating spaces? why are the existing accommodations so shitty? etc etc etc
it's okay to be sad, and it's good to feel it. but it's also okay to be angry or frustrated or annoyed or generally upset or a million other emotions.
and it's okay to have conflicting feelings too, each and every person is complex and different and no two people will feel exactly the same about anything
and remember, beyond all of that, it's okay to be happy. you aren't required to feel any one way.