youshineinthedarksky replied to your post: Leave me kind messages?
stay strong sweetheart you can do this <3
Thank you. I feel like I'm just barely struggling to get by and then life keeps piling even more shit on top of me. Why can't I either get better already or just not exist? I'm sick of struggling so much and getting nowhere.
divorcingmydisorder replied to your post: Leave me kind messages?
I’m sorry to hear you’re having a rough time :( You don’t deserve to feel this badly. I can so relate to all the body image stuff and it SUCKS. Sending you good vibes. *hugs*
Thank you, Hun. It feels like I do deserve to feel like this, though, especially since things keep getting worse and worse and it's not like I can afford to get help. TW: I know it doesn't help, but I haven't been eating well and actually haven't eaten since yesterday, even though it's after 2 PM here and I've been up since about 9:40 this morning, after barely sleeping. *hug back*
escaping-the-paper-tigers replied to your post: Leave me kind messages?
Try to think of some good things that happened today. It may help you remember that we are always moving and changing, every new moment carries an infinite amount of possibilities, many of which are positive ones. *hugs*
Thanks, Hun. The only good thing I can think of is getting messages of support on here; granted, I barely slept and can't really think, but still. The positive only affects me for no time flat, if at all. The negative shit won't vacate my life. :( *hug back*
megapteranoveaeangliae replied to your post: Leave me kind messages?
<3 Rebecca, you are such a kind, sweet, amazing person. If you need to cry, then cry, don’t worry. We’d all love to hold you and tell you it’s okay. You can do this, you’ve been through so much. You’re amazing.
Thanks, but I have a really hard time believing when people say nice things about me, especially when I'm already struggling. I wish crying would magically make things better. I also wish I knew what I needed to do to get better and how to make it happen. I know I've been through a lot, but it just seems to be dragging me down, not making me stronger.
mentalillnessmedia replied to your post: Leave me kind messages?
It sounds like you’ve had a lot of tense/frustrating situations today. I’m sorry. It’s probably a good idea to take a break. I’ll send you some good vibes for finishing it when you’re ready
Thank you, Lovely. It might not have been the best idea, but I wound up staying up until about 1 AM working on it and got it finished; I did keep taking breaks, which made it take longer, but my well being required breaks. Unfortunately, I didn't get to bed until about 1:33 AM, was still awake until at least 5 AM, and then woke up at least once before I had to wake up for classes. I'm beyond exhausted and wish I could sleep for an eternity, more than usual; I actually want to skip my last class of the day and take a nap, but I might have missed that class too much already, even though it's just a pointless Gen. Ed. I can't stand.
