I honestly just don’t understand. We are raised throughout life being told we should find someone to marry one day. To find someone so we can have kids one day and understand what our parents have gone through as well as their parents and so forth. I just don’t understand why there is so much pressure about it. So I’m single again and I’m confused if it is a good thing or not. The entire break up still confuses me. I mean are relationships really that hard? Is school so difficult that you literally have to put all of your focus on it? Growing up I dated people while still going to school. I dated people while I still had a job. Hell, I dated people while I was working and going to school at the same time. Relationships are not always about good times, they’re not always about living a perfect life. Having issues, having problems, fears, anxiety, it is a human thing. It is our nature, and to me relationships are about getting through the tough times with one another. It’s about knowing that while you’re going to class, while you’re going to work you know that there is someone rooting for you. There is someone that is behind you and there to support you every step of the way. Is it so hard to go to class and study and have a relationship at the same time? It is so hard to go to work and make money and have a relationship at the same time? I just feel lost, unwanted, sad, depressed and honestly I just think it is because of the way it happened. The last time that I had really liked someone they told me they wanted to focus on school so I told them I would wait for them. a year later out of nowhere they tell me that they started talking to someone a prior to the message and told me that I’m still one of their best friends. Then a week later they got together with that person...So in the end you could have had a relationship and focused on school at the same time so what was wrong with me? What did I do or didn’t do? Now, I’m being told that we should be friends for right now because they want to focus on school? The only thing that runs through my mind when I hear that is that I did something. I know that you can have a relationship and go to school at the same time. I know that you’re able to work and have a relationship at the same time, so what did I do wrong? What did I do or what did I not do? Was I really that bad of a boyfriend? As I said before relationships are about working through tough times, about compromising with one another. About being there for one another when they need help or anything. So now I am sitting here, drinking coffee and listening to music while the only feeling I can think of describing how I am at the moment is “eh”. The only thing I am thinking right now is what did I do wrong this time? I say all of this but in the end I know everything will be alright. People love, people break up, people get hurt, people move on. Yeah, I still love the girl. There is always the possibility of us actually getting back together one day once she has finished school or the possibility that we could get back together in the next few days. You never know what the future holds for you, you never know what will happen tomorrow. The only thing that you do know is that tomorrow will come, either you’re happy, single, taken, sad, anything. Tomorrow will always come. Life will always go on. It’s life, you never know what is going to happen so I’ll be alright. I hope things do work out and me and her do get back together but at the same time you never know what will happen. It’s life and it’s going to go on with or without you.