yeah so it turns out that playing Persona 3 Portable and rejecting the male character option while also identifying so strongly with the female character that i wanted to steal her incredibly cozy looking winter outfit might have been a Sign

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yeah so it turns out that playing Persona 3 Portable and rejecting the male character option while also identifying so strongly with the female character that i wanted to steal her incredibly cozy looking winter outfit might have been a Sign
What Its Like To Be Me (a poem i wrote in a psych ward in 2018. a bit later my egg cracked & i became a trans woman)
you ever see a pro boxer corner another boxer, and throw tight rotating punches against his head like he's a speedbag?
bupida bupida!
all at once his head is frozen, and rapidly vibrating, numb and violently tortured. I want to do that with every superstring particle, but with my teeth.
Well, no... i just said superstring particle because that's currently the most-accepted elementary particle.
But there CANNOT BE an elementary particle, because that would mean on that GLORIOUS moment when i stopped bottling the sensations I take in, I would eventually have to put that lid back on, which I can't, because there is an infinity of Hate inside me.
everyone quotes "there is still time" from I Saw the TV Glow which, i gotta admit, that line hit me like a roundhouse kick to the solar plexus
but there's another line that encapsulates Owen's fear/anxiety and his decision to stay closeted
"it's not real if i don't think about it"
fuuuucck, i feel seen. i'd managed to quash these feelings down for so long. to tell myself it wasn't real. to numbly go on with life conforming as best i could. but now i don't know if i can continue to maintain the performance
Last video project of the year, didn't have much time so I did a little 8fps animation. Here's the line cleaned up now I need to add the details and colours
#EggCrack https://www.instagram.com/p/B7cBou_J4MD/?igshid=akeb0w4w26bp
Added a new tradition, #lebanese #eggcrack with my sweet cousin Jessica #funtimes
Egg Drops #eggcrack #artforartssake #visualsoundeffects