#ej speaks

[stevelacystud]

bought my femme perfume & i can’t stop thinking abt how it’s a subtle way of claiming her. others might not know but she’ll never forget me when she puts it on. every time someone asks what she’s wearing or tells her she smells good she’ll have to think of me. possessive butches i think i’m on to smthn here

[anxietyspoons]

me trying to be honest with my therapist but not so honest that i get involuntary committed

[thatartsyej]

I’m bored at work rn so imma just drop some hc for Toby LMAOOOO

(This is more based in my au btw lol)

Ticci Toby Headcanons

- Very big guy, like big big. As an adult stands at 6ft 4inches (193.04 cm ) and 185 lbs (83.92 kg)

- Used to be pretty scrawny as a teenager but gained some weight as he got older thanks to Brian and Tim borderline forcing this guy to eat

- Still a skinnier guy but definitely got some weight to him.

- Pretty much one of those guys who doesn’t LOOK like he’d be that strong only for him to be able to actually throw another person if he wanted to LMAOOO

- Dudes arm strength is insane. But when you you’ve been throwing around hatchets and axes since 17 that’s to be expected.

- But no seriously dude could throw you and has definitely thrown people before

- When he first became a proxy though Toby actually struggled a bit with the whole killing thing. Not cause of the morality issue but more so because dude was an anxious mess.

- Toby was ,,,,, a bit awkward to say the least. Was very wary of everyone and everything. Didn’t trust Tim and Brian. Honestly was slightly scared of them

- Would freeze up sometimes during his first missions because he would get so overwhelmed with everything going on.

- Finally put actual effort in to getting better at fighting after Tim told him straight up if he couldn’t take care of missions successfully, the operator would kill him.

- Brian gave him the advice that it’s easier to do it if he just took all his pent up anger out while doing missions.

- Yeaaaa he definitely took that shit to heart bc when the next mission came around? Oh boy

- Safe to say he realized that he isn’t a little kid who couldn’t defend himself anymore. That he is the one people were afraid of now.

- And boooyyy did that feel great

- When it came to actually completing his first mission on his own he was a nervous wreck. Took Brian an hour to calm him down. For the first year or so he had Tim and Brian to fall back on when things got tough, now it was gonna be just him though.

- “What happens I- if I fuck it up?”

“You won’t “

“ but what if I do?”

“Toby just go do the damn job. You’ll be fine”

- He did do good, a little too good actually. Soon Toby would have more successful missions than he did failed ones. And was a lot more confident in himself than before.

- Which made Slender’s interest in him peak. Whether that’s good or bad depends on who you ask.

-Nowadays he usually will stick around whatever area Masky and Hoodie is in but will still go off on his own.

- Hates being away from them for long. They’re kind of the only “positive” father figures he’s had his entire life, but would rather jump into oncoming traffic than admit that.

- Still an anxious person, has just learned how to conceal it very well.

- Personality wise, it can really vary what version of Toby you get depending on what the situation is.

-If you’re a fellow proxy, Toby can be fairly laid back, hyper even. Likes to hang out with Kate and Rouge when they’re around. Will do whatever with the others, he’s just happy to tag along.

- If you’re someone he doesn’t like, he is quite insufferable lol. Will purposely go out of his way to antagonize you and pick on you.

-Will also call you the wrong name on purpose. Sometimes it’s not even close to what your name is, he just thinks it’s the funniest thing ever.

- If you’re a target? R.I.P

- Will not say a word. Nothing at all just stares you down silently.

- He’ll just watch you for a long time before he actually makes his move. Will just ever so slightly move things in your place when you’re not there. Maybe the photo on the wall is slightly crooked, or a favorite item of yours is missing.

- just little things that you might not notice right away, but when you do you think “huh that’s weird”

- then it escalates to windows/doors being slightly ajar, unlocked or even just straight up opened all the way.

- He wants you to be nervous. The more scared you are, the less able you are to think clearly.

- You hear him before you actually see him. The small sound of bones popping and quiet grunts and swear words

-Then you see him

- Whether it’s at the end of your hallway, the corner of your room, or in the woods.

- He stands there for a moment, not moving an inch besides the occasional tic

- At this point there’s nothing you can do. You can’t outrun him and you sure as fuck can’t out power him. You’ll still try and like all the others, fail.

- There is a small blessing tho, and that is that your death will usually be quick.

- Toby is not one for torture. Not very good at keeping people alive long enough for that but better believe he can sure as hell make it hurt

- Definitely enjoys it a lot more than he is willing to admit. Not that he would need to admit it everybody knows

- When he’s not working or hanging out with others, he tries to find anything else to distract himself. He’s actually quite good at drawing, but gets frustrated with it when his tics mess him up

- Will also just go on walks. And not just short lil ones either this man will go missing for HOURS

- Made Tim and Brian panic at first when he started doing that but eventually just accepted he’ll come back at some point.

- Absolutely will smoke weed to chill out as well too. It helps with his nerves and tics. Also helps when he is having manic/ depressive episodes.

- Just does anything to preoccupy himself. He hates doing nothing because then all he has is his thoughts which never leads anywhere good

[therearebetterdaysahead]

hi! a message if you’re a sick or disabled or just exhausted student right now. you matter more than school does. education only means ANYTHING if we’re doing something good with it. if you’re forcing yourself through classes you don’t like, you can’t focus on, or that are physically hurting you to attend? you’re allowed to take a day off from that. you’re allowed to take a week. a month. you can just fucking leave indefinitely, if that’s what’s best. everyone has different needs, if yours include being away from a place like school? that’s that. your value is not determined by how well you’re doing in class, or how much you’re attending. you can only do what you can do. that sounds obvious, but no one believes it. if you’re sick, hurt, whatever, that’ll affect your life! negatively! what you NEED to make something of your one and only life takes precedence. maybe that is school, but maybe that’s staying home and writing because that’s the only thing you can bring yourself to do. maybe it’s drawing, or making videos, or talking to someone you care about for a few hours, or just laying down. education is important, now more than ever, but if being at school is worse for you, and you’re able (emphasis on able, because not everyone is due to family, money, or countless other factors. it’s a different conversation but it’s one i think is necessary to bring up) to step away for a bit? it will not end your life. you will still be able to find ways to learn, to make your life meaningful for yourself. school is important, but your health is your priority. you are so much more than school.

[firefoxfag]

nothing else to do in a time like this than finally start watching the terror

[someforeignband]

guys i found out im bowlegged because of a destiel fic can i sue jensen for damages

[beetled-juice]

Character opinion Boingo: Charles Deetz!

Ok I'm going with musical Charles for this, but I certainly have opinions about both movie and toon Charles as well

Not included on this chart: I wanna fuck him so hard he can't get out of bed for two days. dilf extraordinaire. I wanna tag team him with Delia while we high-five over his shoulder. makes my brain go to static because I want him so bad it makes me look stupid

[astoryofej]

hi ya, hello,

I’m waving at you from the beginning of ms2 with a psych final on the horizon and neuro block coming up next and boards being six months away

I’ve been coping with plants and have been reading dramione since April and have been reminded just how lovely a ship you once refused to have any interest in can be just the outlet you’ve been looking for

As always, I’m still here and still lurking