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MDNI!

So I may have written the next chapter of Let Me Be Your First during a half-hour break at work on my phone (shhh 🤫). It still needs heavy editing, but hopefully I’ll post it soon.

Here’s a little sneak peek of what you can expect 🤭💦:

“Only if you want to.”

Those five words were all it took to bring Trafalgar D. Water Law—the infamous Surgeon of Death—to his knees before you.

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I didn’t think posting the epilogue would hit me this hard. Maybe doing it on my period wasn’t the smartest move, but here I am, rereading it with tears in my eyes because I got way too attached to my own story.

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I'm making another SMAU, and I so need a name and a pic for a group chat with Law, Shachi, Penguin, and Bepo (for Modern AU). Any ideas?

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So, um, today is my birthday—30 to be exact—and I’m having so many mixed feelings. It’s like a rollercoaster. Due to various not-so-pleasant life experiences, I feel like I lost so many years and a bit of my childhood, so I definitely don’t feel my age.

I was definitely that “acting too old for her age” kid, turned into a very childlike adult. And it’s something I’ve struggled with. But lately (not gonna lie, with the help of my fiancé), I’ve started to embrace that childlikeness in me. In a way, it’s been really healing, like returning to things I used to enjoy when I was younger, which includes writing and sharing fics as well.

Life is still shitty sometimes, for sure, but I’m finally able to experience peace sometimes. At the same time, all the expectations about being an adult, especially as a woman, have been messing with my head. Like how I should look, act, or where I should be in my career.

I am still an awkward nerd with mental issues, and I’m not exactly proud of where my career is at. But I also know things are better than they used to be, and I’m trying to learn how to be more grateful and build confidence from within instead of relying on outside stuff.

Not even sure why I’m sharing this, but I do like to yap. It’s a nice outlet, so it is what it is. Concerning this blog, I love that I found joy in writing and sharing. I missed it.

So yeah, here’s to me, I guess, and here’s to still being able to find joy in silly little hobbies even as you age.

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I cannot.

My workplace is now teaching workers how to use AI to write for them. The examples are literally about turning informal, natural text into a “better” version. So instead of writing “I need it ASAP,” they teach you how to write an elaborate prompt for AI so it spits out something like “Could you send it out soon?” (This is all in my native language—I did a lovely translation here)

And like, I could get why people who can’t write would use AI for fancy, elaborate emails or whatever. But a workplace teaching working adults how to use AI to write a basic text they should easily manage on their own is fucking insane

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Work is killing me. I’m so behind that I’m genuinely scared of the repercussions, but my mind just refuses to cooperate.

I hate adulting

I just want to indulge in my silly little hobbies, not work my ass off just to afford living 🫩

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I have tons of WIPs to get through and quite a lot on my mind right now, so I’m not sure I’ll be able to finish anything longer before my holidays (though I’ll definitely try). But I don’t want to leave you completely empty-handed, so I’ve prepared some SMAUs to keep my blog active in the meantime. They don’t require as much brainpower, which makes them easier for me to work on.

So if you have any ideas for SMAUs (for One Piece or Love and Deepspace), feel free to send them my way, and I’ll try to make them happen.

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Hello!! I just want to say I love "Let me be your first" ;v; on a personal level, I myself didnt have a good first time for sex so this was very healing for me. Its brought me a lot of comfort and joy. Thank you so much for writing it!!

Thank you so much for reaching out ❤️❤️ I’m really sorry your first experience wasn’t a good one. I really hope it didn’t take away from your ability to experience intimacy in a way that feels positive and meaningful for you, because you absolutely deserve that.

And please know that you’re not alone in feeling this way. So many people have complicated or difficult first times, even if it’s not something that gets shared openly (honestly, mine was kinda just meh).

It truly means a lot to me that the story could bring you some comfort and a sense of healing. I really hope the rest of it continues to feel that way for you. Honestly, it’s probably why I take so long to write this story. I tend to overthink those scenes because I want to focus on the growing connection and intimacy between the characters, not just the act itself. I’m trying to make it feel as real as fiction can be, while still keeping it engaging (does it make sense?) and hopefully not making Law too much ooc in the process.

Sorry, I started rambling a bit there. It's a bit of a bad habit of mine, but that’s just who I am, so I’ll leave it in 😅

Anyhow, thank you again for sharing this with me. I’m so glad the story could offer you some comfort, and I hope life is kind to you 💛