#existential depression

[getspins]

Day 1 of the rest of your life - July 22

[getspins]

I would never give this for anything

[getspins]

Keep fucking shit up until something fucks you up

[guesswewillfindout]

My anger

Is no flash in a pan

Or constant low flame

It ebbs and flows like the tides

Licks up the shore of uncertainty

Soaks me in a despair

So thick it's in each breath

Until I wonder why breathe

[lazyanimation]

I don't hate myself but I couldn't say I like myself.

Let me put it this way:

There's a lot of characters in a show. You have the compassionate person who always there for a fun time, you have the sarcastic funny guy who says what's on his mind, you have the annoying jerk who is sometimes nice. All these characters invoke a feeling within the viewer. Whether that's anger, annoyance, or even laughter. But every show has one character that everyone ignores. That one character that eat up screen time. That one character nobody hates, but nobody really like them either. There's nothing WRONG with the character, there's just nothing to them. Sure, they'll have a few people who would say that they are underrated and people shouldn't ignore them, but that's like 0.5% of people. They're just forgettable and not memorable in the same way other characters are.

That's how I view myself.

[strudlacek]

i just came home from a walk with my dog, and i was having inner monologue about depression and stuff like this and how empty i feel and i was just trying to keep that thought in my head, like some sort of article or whatever so i can spill my poor heart here and then i came home and took a pear and sat down to my PC and that thought disappeared??? maybe i will find it again but my head is like a fucking abyss or whatever...

[guesswewillfindout]

What is this thing life?

It takes and takes and takes

And yet everything it takes

It also gave to me

So in the end

All that is left

Is to be grateful.

[futilereality]

Yeah, right.