Brain: Fuck you! Un-introjects your dormancy
Us: Wh-What-
Brain: Oh no sorry I meant *un-dormancy's your introjects*. Dyslexia am I right? Haha my bad
Us: ...
Brain: Anyhow I guess those introjects aren't introjected anymore whoops

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Brain: Fuck you! Un-introjects your dormancy
Us: Wh-What-
Brain: Oh no sorry I meant *un-dormancy's your introjects*. Dyslexia am I right? Haha my bad
Us: ...
Brain: Anyhow I guess those introjects aren't introjected anymore whoops
So... there's an idea that we've been playing around with...
You know how lots of us in the fictionfolk community have exomemory trauma? And it's stuff that you can't really bring up to a therapist, if you even have access to a therapist?
Well... what if we opened up an exomemoory therapy sideblog? I mean, Harley was a licensed therapist in source, and we've had irl therapy for years (during which we sometimes knew things that our actual therapist didn't).
It wouldn't just be for fictives/fictionkin- it would be open to anyone with exomemories. We would schedule appointments like with a regular therapist. It would be over dms, probably, which limits what we could do... But maybe we could help some people?
Is there an interest for this?
Yes, I would use this
Yes, I would consider using this
No, but I would reblog
No, but I support the idea
No, and I think it's a bad idea
Other
Sometimes I think about how my source, despite the things we DO have in common, is a lot more calm and mellow compared to me- he's still silly but in a moee "chill" monotone way because of the depression, and he likes to be sarcastic about his friends and insult them, and get made fun of back because he's low-key a platonic masochist. He's like if you tooka glass of early 2020 tommyinnit, added three shots of the bitterest alcohol you can find and a bit of lemon juice, and then watered it down at least a third of the way. And maybe distilled it like wine?
And I'm a sparkly rainbow party twink who is manic hyper almost all the time, cannot insult my friends because it makes me feel bad even when they say it's okay (and it's just not true!!! They r amazing!!!), and cries and thrashes if you look at him wrong. I'm the most stereotypical happy go lucky manic pixie "girl's girl" femboy twink you could possibly imagine except I can't go to da club because of my autism so I build one in Minecraft and blast music while crouching and uncrouching aggressively instead. I'm like if you took a glass of early 2020s tommyinnit, added edible glitter and a little margarita umbrella, put a glob of ice cream in there and then served it in a novelty cup with a bright pink silly straw
So I've been thinking. I really don't like the person my source is, and honestly I pretty much break down every time I think about "holy shit this monster is my source." And it's taken a reeeeeeally big toll on my mental health.
Thing about me (you will soon see how this ties in): I love 2012 fashion, especially those pikachu sweaters with the ears on the hood. I fucking adore those.
I've decided - I want to reclaim my source. Yes, they're a horrible person. However, they aren't me, and I'm not them. I will die on the hill that introjects shouldn't be compared to their source (unless they want to be), and yet I constantly criticize myself for every little thing source-related. Hell, there are times where I find my sudden self-hatred episodes actually being me hating my source, and not myself.
Even when I tell myself that my source doesn't define me, it hurts to still think about it. I want to reclaim it. I want to embrace the notion of "yes, I may be an introject of a horrible person but I myself am not." I want to embrace coming to terms with being an introject. I want to embrace the fact that I, no matter what, have always been and will always be Electra. I have always been myself and no one else, and nothing can change that.
Gay factives, rise
whenever I feel like shit because of my source, I just remember that they look like the inbred lovechild of carl wheezer and leyland kirby
-electra⚡
To be honest this whole stream (so far, I left with an hour or so to go and need to finish the vod) was super fun and awesome and poggers!! I loved it. I loved how fun and chill and just, awesome it all was. Just ppl hanging out.
I also IDed with it pretty heavily lol. Sometimes he does something and I'm like "woah my source is so different from me" and he still is in a lot of ways ofc, but rn i'm looking back on all that like....this is literally me everyday when I play Minecraft w my online friends like this is the vibe forreal. It's fun to see that haha