familiar from steven universe is unironically one of the best songs in that show, and i think what makes me relate so much to it is just how like...ME i feel is in it.
like i was the youngest child in a family, i found it hard to connect with literally anyone, being autistic also kinda exacerbated those feelings, i was also kind of annoying, i tried to be kind but i was susceptible to hurting others and saying and doing horrible things if i didnt manage my emotions well.
i don't really know how to make friends. i didnt back then. i always thought the more i said something funny, the more someone would stick, but it kinda...doesn't work like that. there isnt really a rulebook on friendship.







