#fears can kill

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i think i’ve always wanted to make a difference in this world. i used to think i could do anything that i set my mind to, but to change the world… that’s nearly impossible. i am only one person. one person out of billions so what makes me important? what are the chances that i can make a difference? i try my best to help people whenever i can but i know it will never be enough. how can one single person save the victims of this sadistic world? i know i cannot make everybody happy but i can’t help but dream. my pain is worth nothing if it means healing other’s, especially their hearts. i’m not sure what my life was meant for and that terrifies me. my dreams may be set too high but there’s just so much pain in this world that i can’t help but want to vanquish it. i want to do something, anything honestly. i want to heal hearts, bring smiles, change perspectives, but i am not sure how. i am not sure if it’s even possible for somebody such as myself.

Fears can kill #17 // S.T.

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The thought of being forgotten is something everybody fears but what if I told you that isn't what terrifies me. What if I told you that I'm scared of forgetting others but more importantly, you? I can't imagine my life never having met you, a life where I wouldn't remember your celestial eyes and your elysian smile. We've been through so much together that my life would not be a life at all without you. When I thought my life was slipping away, you took my hand and held me tight telling me that I was no longer alone. You cared for me in a way nobody ever has and my words will never be able explain how much you truly saved me. I don't think I could ever forget you but life can be unexpected. Maybe it's that unexpectedness that scares me the most, but I can't help but wonder what would happen if there comes a day where I no longer remember you. Would my happiness slip away too?

Fears can kill #15 // S.T.

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while they see a breathtaking deep blue ocean with endless beauty, i see giant waves and storms engulfing everybody as they are left as sustenance for the petrifying creatures of the sea. while they see a once-in-a-lifetime adventure traveling from place to place filled with everlasting memories, i see unpredictable drivers violently colliding with one another as their lifeless bodies begin to drown in their own pools of blood. while they see an enchanting view from the clouds above, i see hijacked planes plummeting to the ground never to be seen or heard from ever again. while they see wondrous life i see intoxicating death. these freak accidents may be improbable but the fear of them holds me captive so whilst everybody is having the time of their lives, i’m cowering away in angst.

Fears can kill #16 // S.T.

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You’ve always made me happy but I felt as if I didn’t deserve it so I blocked you out. I blocked happiness in fear that if I felt it, I’d never give it up. I let my life consist of only pain and misery but in doing so, I missed out on what we could have been. I was too afraid to be happy and let you believe that you couldn’t provide me what I needed. I let you believe that you didn’t make me happy and that I needed to find someone who would. You left me so I could seek my happiness and when you did, I couldn’t muster up the courage to tell you I was scared. You were the source of my happiness but I put up a barrier to block it out. Now I’m afraid l never be what I want to be- happy.

Fears can kill #14// S.T.

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You may be as strong as Superman But even you have weaknesses. I love every single bit of you, Even the parts that you find hideous. You hide your insecurities In hopes that they’ll disappear but I want you to know that I will Love them until you finally learn to Fully love yourself. You’ll always be safe with me So don’t carry the weight of the world. I’m here to lift some of those burdens Off of your shoulders and I hope you’ll let me. We’re in this together like We have been since the day we met. You don’t have to pretend to be strong Because showing your weaknesses And fears is what true strength is. Trust takes time to develop But I promise you that I’ll be here When you’re ready to break down All of your walls. I will be here through it all. Don’t be afraid of yourself because You’re beautiful inside out. I hope that one day you’ll be able to See what I see.

Fears can kill #13 // S.T

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I never want to be the one Who breaks your heart because It is you who keeps my own heart beating. At times I try to be distant, Not because I don’t love you anymore, But because I don’t want to hurt you. You alone are my world and If I caused you to crumble I would collapse just as hard. I could never bear to see you in pain And if it’s by my hands I would never see the light of day. I’m not sure what is worse Hurting the one you love most Or losing the one you love most. I want to be with you forever and always But not if it means destroying you. This fear of mine acts as a barrier Between the two of us and I built it to protect you but I now see that It is only hurting you. I cannot promise to never hurt you Because I will even if I don’t want to. But what I can promise is to love you with Everything I have. There will Be pain and conflicts, But we will persevere And our love will become stronger Because of it.

Fears can kill #10 // S.T.

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I'm afraid of never making an impact in this short life that I live. I want to change perspectives, make people smile, heal broken hearts. I'm afraid of being a meaningless blob in the universe who didn't do anything to help the chaotic world we live in. I'm afraid that the life I live, won't have any use. I want to help people, I want to wipe their tears but I can't heal everyone's hearts, I can't make everyone happy and that's scary to me. I want to do something but I'm just one person

my sweet darling, i think this is probably one of the worst fears out there. something that far too many people fear. i just want to say that i admire you so much for wanting to make a difference in this world. i’ve seen how cruel this reality can be and how many people are stooping so low destroying our one home. it makes me so happy to know people such as yourself exist, people who want this to change. it’s hard to make a difference but sometimes pleasing even just one person is enough. stand up for yourself, believe in your heart and dreams and speak up. start a revolution or something. let your voice be heard and make a difference in this world. it’s impossible to do this alone but you will find that people have the same heart and intentions as you. fight with them :)

here’s what i wrote. i took this as a fear prompt i hope you don’t mind :) thank you so so much for sharing, i’m glad to have gotten to know you, even though it was just the slightest. stay golden, love ❤

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You’re mine But for how long? I trust you with all that I have But that doesn’t mean I don’t fear that you’ll begin To love somebody else. The thought of losing You scares me more than anything But I just want you to be happy. I love you and if you do… If you meet another woman Whom you start to gain feelings for, I will support you. I will feel broken and feel pain That I hope I will never have to feel But I will support you. I would never make you choose Between the two of us. I would never be able to stay In a relationship where you Were able to fall so easily for another. Maybe you would choose me, But I don’t think I’d have it in me to stay. Just thinking about this Brings me a great deal of pain. I trust you, But you can’t stop feelings from arising. I guess this is thing about relationships, Always fearing that you’d lose Your partner to another. Always fearing your love isn’t good enough To make them stay.

Fears can kill #12 // S.T