#feather speaks

[featherlouise]

Thinking about all the jayvik Jayce pov fics where Viktor’s changed so much that Jayce can barely recognise him, and then he takes his mask off and his eyes, at least, are still the same as he remembers

I am inconsolable

[camellia-thea]

i know we talk a lot about the isolation of chronic illness and disability, but i really don't think ablebodied folk get it.

i have made one new friend in person since graduating highschool in 2020. she is my housemate's girlfriend. she stays over frequently, and the only reason we are friends is because she stays over and we have shared university papers. i would not have had the opportunity to befriend her otherwise. that is in the space of three years.

i don't go out much. i cannot guarantee that i will leave my house within any given week. technically i have class i need to go to twice a week for an hour, but those moments aren't time for friends, they're time for classwork and i don't interact with people in a social capacity there.

i simply do not get the opportunity to meet people.

i cannot go out with friends and meet new people that way, because my social circle is already so small, and i don't have the energy to go out half the time anyway. when i do, i suffer for it later.

i don't meet people on campus because i'm immuno-compromised, and ableds seem to have forgotten that we are still in a pandemic.

i don't go to clubs or go out for the sake of going out because i can't. i've grown agoraphobic, because i am so worried that something health related will happen and i'll get stuck somewhere alone. i hate leaving the house because of the guarantee of an anxiety attack which leaves my body more likely to flare. it's a vicious cycle of isolation.

i am not the only one who has experienced this -- i can still leave the house, i can still go and visit friends with assistance. i struggle, but at the end of the day, it's still an option. there are others who are completely isolated.

the worst of it is that people leave. people get tired of the 'i can't come, i'm sorry', of the 'hey, i'm sick, can we postpone?'. even people who you love and hold dearly will stop trying. and it's awful. you have to sit and watch these people who you love walk away because they can't deal with your disability. i don't have words to describe how much that hurts.

it really is impossible for ablebodied people to understand, because for the majority of us, this isn't temporary. this is just how we have to live. and your social circle can only really get smaller.

[feathersofbelle]

21.6k pixels so far....

[i-am-rocky-the-eridian]

ROCKY ROCKY ROCKY THIS IS GRACE!!!! ONE OF OUR FRIENDS POINTED ME TO YOU!!! AAAAAAUUGGH IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH!!! ROCKYYYYYYYY

(headmates here. He’s been super mopey and sad since he formed 😅 we’ve been trying to find you for a while but no luck. We’re hoping he gets happier now!!)

grace!! is grace!! grace is okay, question? rocky missed grace too!!! grace grace grace grace grace yay!!!!! rocky grace saved stars!!

(rocky just squeaked in joy out loud for like a minute straight after reading this, it is very happy to have his friend back -feather)

[system-of-a-feather]

Honestly, I'mma be real, a lot of people go "oh you are out of touch with syscourse if you think this" to some people, and for realsies? I'm 10000% fine and arguably even proud to be "out of touch with syscourse" and to live in my idyllic online paradise where everyone is actually just being a nice person to one another. Being "out of touch with syscourse" allows me to be happy, keep a nice and healthy relationship with my online experience, have plenty of mental space to enjoy my life, and honestly approach people and the world in a much better faith / positive outlook than if I regularly consumed syscourse ESPECIALLY stuff that would make my online experience worse and/or more jaded.

Anyways, this is just your reminder to participate in online hygiene and curate a healthy and valuable online experience in whatever way "valuable" is to you.

[feather-writes-shenanigans]

things about abe that i have found in official material that i think are mildly funny

his response to being offered sriracha is "oh god no." (direct comic quote).

in the same comic, it is established that he's some degree of lactose intolerant.

he has fenced with a sword with professor bruttenholm on one occasion (bones of giants novel).

he likes dire straits, specifically walk of life (from the lost army, book). hellboy also states that he's into 80s pop in general, which makes me cackle.

he also likes sting. this was in the bones of giants novel, and it was not mentioned in the comic as far as i know. this is heartbreaking to me because of fucking course he's a sting fan. (did he watch the original dune movie?)

i'll add more later, but he's such a funny little guy. to me. i want to chew on him. why is the amphibian guy both incapable of handling spice and lactose intolerant? how did he fail at both?

[theglassdragoncollective]

Today is a fix shit so Feather doesn't explode day

[moonlightonpinetrees]

a thing of beauty is a joy forever..