#feeling existential

[hizerain]

2025.11.30

It feels strange to post on here. There is the desire to recap everything that has happened, but there is an equal desire to anonymize this blog as much as possible, to that extent, even to delete it. November is indeed the cruelest of months, but we have endured and lived to see its end once more. I have been writing, again. Going as far as to send in submissions to journals. Even this post has a different rhythm compared to entries from the past. I am such a different person but when I browse through old posts I still see so much of that young man in myself today. I ache for him, I dislike him, I can't imagine being him, I want to be him again. Such is life, I suppose.

[fionns-meadow]

“things many eyes have seen” to “you are not made for human eyes”…….

it’s such a beautiful progression of thought that has affected me in every single aspect of my life. i see my wife, who many eyes have seen, and i become aware of the fact that she was not made for human eyes. i see a sunset, which many eyes have seen, and then i remember: it was not made for human eyes. cats, dogs, the rivers, the sky, the grass, myself.

we were not made for human eyes, nothing was. we are just lucky enough to see it.

[moralmolar]

It’ll be so embarrassing when I die and its just nothingness and it turns out I wasnt seeing signs or getting visited I was just schizophrenic

[hoonieyun]

i think life gets so scary sometimes and we get overwhelmed and feel like we're getting swallowed by the earth but i refuse to let something i can't control have so much power over me.

i will continue to be scared but i will continue regardless, you cannot stop me.

[kkba-tblr]

just shouting into the void part 36549832

[v0lcan1c-ash3s]

I love rainy days

They inspire me to write and read and thus are beautiful.

[deerstar4]

Something so sexy about photography. Like we will never be able to go back to this moment ever again but it’s also right here in our hands, captured forever.

[weedsmokingmacca]

isn’t it sick as fuck that the beatles were real and not just a mass hallucination