#fictional abuse

[endymion-offical]

[the-ruler-of-rabbits]

Apo being blunt with Pyro but the poor guy interprets it as "I hate you so much and you're the worst ever" because Apo is just. A lil TOO direct. Maybe says that everything is making her not want to be around Pyro or something like that...

And she doesn't understand what Pyro is upset about besides maybe he realized that he can't stay with Scott? She doesn't really fully understand why he would be upset but people are normally upset about breakups.

Also she is seeming very aroacespec so far.. maybe demiaroace + sex neutral in general? I could see her not particularly getting anything out of indulging Pyro in terms of her own sexual enjoyment, but she gets to have the satisfaction of being able to satisfy the wants of someone she cares about and she gives me the vibes of someone who would adore that. She likes being able to do something for Pyro, it makes her feel fulfilled and happy! I feel like she also primarily experiences sexual attraction towards feminine-aligned people (see: Cherri) but doesn't have gender involved in aesthetic attraction.

I could totally see her telling Abolish yeah I probably won't want to have sex with you and he's like oh dw I don't have sex either. And she's like oh okay he's ace too. But the reality is he definitely experiences sexual attraction he's just not interested in the physical acts. But he would rather just agree yeah im ace rather than admit that no actually he thinks Apo is really sexy he just doesn't want to HAVE sex because oh that's a lot of vulnerability and really embarrassing.

I think he's also autistic. The lack of wanting sex is probably a combination of sensory issues and general paranoia about not having his stuff on him. And the fact that the first time he almost got there he started taking off his weapons and the other person was like uhm. Hey. Maybe we should try a later date. And he was like okay. And then got ghosted.

Abolish probably has autism noted on some internal organization files but was never properly diagnosed because a psychologist would realize that he's traumatized.

Apo ALSO isn't diagnosed bc she went from cult where all of those symptoms were called her being a demon to broke. Probably got a peer review diagnosis from cryptid crew

Cryptid crew... I feel like Avid is professionally diagnosed bc of ending up in a psych ward at least once. Shelby.. I'm not sure. Drift probably diagnosed professionally. Possibly during some sort of psych eval for some sort of detective work thing

Pyro isn't diagnosed and probably hasn't realized. He has bigger problems though.

Idk where I even started this ask I just started rambling and rambling so enjoy

Yes!!! Apo is excessively blunt about Scott turning Pyro into a dickhead and Pyro interprets it as a rejection instead of a warning (and an olive branch, kind of. Apo meant that she missed who Pyro was before he started hanging out with Scott all the time, but that's not what she said) and like. It's really hard to see why people stay in abusive relationships, from the outside. This person is treating you like shit, so leave! They're threatening to leave you, let them! Every time you try to do something nice it explodes in your face and it's somehow your fault, stop taking the blame and trying to do nice things for them? People who like you are right here! Why are you spending time with this loser?

Except it's not that simple. If Cherri started treating Apo the way Scott treats Pyro, she would break up with her, but Apo is very... centered in herself and what she deserves, I find, in a way that most people frankly aren't!

she IS aroacespec and that is. because of me. I am VERY aroacespec and it leaks into everything I write (which means making this whole au founded on appleish is hilarious). Someone - probably one of the cryptid hunting crew - will gasp the first time they see Pyro visibly provoke her into pinning him to the wall and tell her that's a kink and she will go "is that not obvious 🙄" without letting Pyro down.

Avid, bright red: what is happening?!

Pyro: she's doing my nails, jesus. I thought you guys went and hunted cryptids, isn't that supposed to require situational awareness?

Apo: he needs Wall Time or he gets weird and annoying

^she's not entirely correct, she also gets weird if she can't push Pyro around she just doesn't notice. she needs to be a Guard Dog regularly for enrichment purposes.

Appleish sexless relationship for different reasons... fuck yes sexless relationship!! Abolish would like sex but only if he can keep all his clothes and weapons on and also not be looked at. but that would make his dick explode. so really Apo saying she doesn't want sex is the best case scenario because Abolish only wants sex Theoretically, every time it might happen irl his partner chickens out and at this point he's decided to cut his losses and stop wasting energy.

APPLEISH AUTISM4AUTISM YESSSSSSSS

Abolish has a note in his file from a decade and a half ago reading "either autism or PTSD probably both" that nobody told him about because they didn't want it to hold him back. Apo doesn't know or care about autism existing full stop, if everyone else stopped being stupid idiots about these social interactions that would be great. Cryptid crew tried to peer review her and got hit with the "I don't see what all these questions have to do with each other 😐" (she has PASSED the peer review with FLYING COLORS). Avid is diagnosed with acute paranoia and has antipsychotics he's supposed to be taking but doesn't (because of the paranoia). Drift tried to get an adhd diagnosis and walked out with an autism one as well bc the psychiatrist went "hm." mid-meeting and switched questionnaires. Pyro has the psychosis diagnosis and meds and frankly that's the important thing! He can deal with everything else later!

[befuddled-calico-whump]

I wish you would write a fic where...

forgive me if this sounds weird but a while ago you mentioned an AU where Vic’s mentor died and young Vic got passed over to another mentor who treated him actually well but Vic was constantly on high alert and terrified of them. That idea has just stuck in my head…

(Maybe Vic’s new mentor could even be Sahota, like a role swap au…)

well apparently my brain just ran with the idea lol. Realistically Vic would just be on his own if Nichols died, but I like this concept enough that I can and will handwave that skdjrj

cw: implied (past) noncon + abuse

next

•••

He hates the feeling of eyes on him.

They've followed him since his arrival; watching and waiting, analyzing him, marking weakness. His new master is about as quiet as Sir was, and while that should be a familiar comfort, he's still unsettled by it. By the silence, by the unknown.

"You're with Black Kite, right? Afraid I have some bad news."

He'd been with Nichols for close to three years. Missions and training. Making sure he was prepared for anything. Victor had no love for his master, but he needed the experience, the guidance from someone who knew better, even if he hated it sometimes. You have to suffer to get good, don't you? You have to earn it.

Sometimes he's felt like he's earned it, like he's good enough, like he can take on the missions alone, but other times he's struck by how out of his depth he is, how much he has left to learn. It wasn't his choice in any case. Some three-letter agency took over the compound and handed him to a new master.

And now Victor is waiting, and being watched.

How long will it be? They've run through several drills in the week he's been here, testing Vic's speed, agility, accuracy. Gauging where he's at. (Marking weakness). He was with Sir for months before resistance was added to the mix. He's not sure he can wait that long again. By the time Sir started, it felt like it was already too late, like there was no going back to a normal life, like he had no choice. He can't do that again; even if it's still true, he wants to know now.

Is it going to be framed as training? As a discipline? The last time he'd been captured, after his recovery...

"I can see that this is something that bothers you a great deal, so I'm using it as a corrective measure. Do you understand?"

It just felt like an excuse, but Vic knew better than to do anything but endure it.

Sir is dead now, replaced with another. Maybe by the time this one dies he'll be good enough to go alone. Maybe.

"I think we'll cover some sparring drills today," his new master says over breakfast. "If you're up for it."

What kind of a question is that? Training is non-negotiable; whether or not he's 'up for it' shouldn't even factor in. Maybe the tension he's been carrying is unwarranted. Maybe his new master doesn't have Nichols' experience. Or maybe it's a test.

"What time?"

"Hmm... 0800, if you want."

If he wants. It's never supposed to be about what he wants. It's about what he needs to become. Victor responds with a nod. That's been their primary form of communication. An order or a time and a nod. Silence otherwise, but not the same as Sir's silence.

Victor makes sure to be at the mats early. Waiting again. For a trick or a trap, for a sudden test where he shows what he's worth. But the new master only strolls in at eight on the dot. They warm up, run through some movement drills, and then...

"How many more evaluations before I'm back in the field?" Victor asks as they circle each other, fists up to guard. He can tolerate anything if it's all for something.

"Do you think you're ready?"

It sounds like a challenge. Vic lunges.

His last mission was a month ago, last real fight even further back, but Nichols never let a day go by without some form of training, and even with a slow week behind him, Victor is fast.

Somehow, his new master is faster.

He lands exactly one hit before his legs are knocked out from under him in a sweep he didn't anticipate. Can't regain his feet in time to avoid having his arm twisted behind his back, the new Sir straddling him, and he knows ways to break out of this submission.

But he can't.

His thoughts all flush out of him as if through an open airlock, his body slack under the weight of the man, no part of him willing to move. Not in the sparring room anymore, but somewhere else, somewhere he's pinned, somewhere he can do nothing.

He can't... He can't...

Suddenly, the weight is off him, new Sir crouching by his head, snapping fingers in front of Vic's face.

"Hey, hey, kid, can you hear me?"

He's back on the mat. Smell of rubber under the bleach it's cleaned with. He bites down on his tongue until he's sure of what he's feeling, trying to hide his face as he pushes himself to his feet, trying to act like that didn't just happen.

It shouldn't have happened. Not against one opponent, not when Vic knows how to fight back. He's better than that, he's trained better than that.

But when new Sir lays a hand on his shoulder he still flinches back violently, breath hissing through clenched teeth.

"Don't fucking touch me." He shouldn't react like this. Shouldn't he be used to it by now? Shouldn't he be able to push through it? Wasn't that the whole damn point of Nichols putting him through this? He can't. He's so fucking tired of waiting for the worst.

A rise to the challenge is what would logically come next. The master asserting his dominance, showing Victor that he's not the one in power, not yet, and he'd do well to learn that, but...

New Sir just takes a step back, palms open at his sides.

"Alright. We can break there."

Just like that. Is he unpracticed? Is he weak?

"I can go again," Vic says. He can. He should. It's the quickest way to put that slip-up behind him.

"Do you think you should?"

"Why wouldn't I?"

A pause, an exhale from his new master that sounds almost disappointed. "Why do you think you need to?"

Why is he asking stupid questions? They're supposed to be operatives, aren't they? Nothing should stand in the way of completing an objective.

"On a mission, the danger doesn't back off just because you falter," Vic responds gruffly.

"You're not on a mission," new Sir says. "This is a training scenario."

He doesn't have an answer for that, at least not a quick one. Practice like you play, he should say, but new Sir speaks before he can.

"We're done sparring today. You can continue movement drills on your own, if you'd like. Or you can hit the gym. Up to you."

It isn't supposed to be up to him! In the last three years, nothing has been up to him. It's training, it's a rite of passage, it's necessary. Black Kite was supposed to be the best of the best, the ones who took on jobs no one else could. That was what Vic was supposed to be, and he's not going to let his time be wasted just because someone else doesn't understand.

"Then I'll be in the gym," he says, turning his back and refusing to look over his shoulder as he storms out, even though it feels like a trap, like he'll be snuck up on, like he's earned a punishment for acting up.

He can feel the eyes on him as he leaves, can feel himself being watched. It's different from Nichols, different from the employers who look down on him and the captors who take.

He hates it anyway.

•••

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[tsundereho]

Habit relationship headcanons (aka I got upset with others headcanons so I created my own!!)

I use it/it's pronouns for HABIT in this

Warnings: HABIT, talks of torture and abuse, it does NOT love y'all I promise, stabbing, Cannibalism, sexual content near the end MDNI.

If you guys are ‘dating’ that's a label you put on y'all's relationship, HABIT does not give a FUCK. You are genuinely just a piece of meat to it, something to hit and abuse

Good luck communicating with it, oh you're feeling sad today? Sorry rabbit. It doesn't fucking care.

It wouldn't make you do chores, most of the time, unless HABIT has come up with some twisted fucked up version of a chore. Hold a severed arm between your teeth well you scrub. Or better yet, use a severed arm to hold the sponge.

Any hobbies you are doing when HABIT gets home? It's probably gonna be scattered on the floor and blood stained so HABIT can get its hands on you easier.

You will always be bruised and scabbed, HABIT likes to hit, and cut especially. Sure it isn't trying to kill you just yet, but you will feel like it is.

HABIT is carved into your body, maybe it lets you choose sometimes when one starts to fade, when it's feeling charitable.

It will play games with you. find the meat is a favorite of HABITS. Then the sequel: which one of your friends was the meat?

Okay NSFW

HABIT will perform oral on you. Yes it is biting your bits. It likes to. Good luck getting HABIT off.

Sex is at random hours of the day, whenever HABIT gets home from a good kill he is stabbing your thighs if you DARE to close them.

HABIT will hurt you emotionally during sex. Letting you know about any and every mistake you've ever made.

Your orgasms are second to none for HABIT, sometimes it likes the taste but that is rare, if you want to cum. You do that yourself, HABIT will make fun of you when it catches you though.

Overall HABIT is the worst.i love it

[youknowicantlove]

(before anyone replies to this post i want to say, trans woman/girls, trans men/boys, & nonbinary people all experience transphobia & it is never deserved.)

i feel i'm the only person who thinks Dr Habit being a trans woman (or otherwise tranfem nonbinary) is basically canon supported.

i have also thought a bit about Habit being intersex & having an inconsistant SIG (socially imposed gender) but i also haven't seen that. i have seen a few people headcanoning Habit as intersex though & that's very cool!

i'm fine with other gender headcanons, hell i'm a fan of Dipper from gravity falls being a trans girl, i'd be a hypocrite if i wasn't.

but i just don't get why Habit is almost exlusively fanon-ed as a trans man or otherwise transmasc. We see Habits backstory, we see Habit get punished for doing something stereotypically feminine (gardening) & unless Habit is a trans man with an inconsistant SIG i don't get why Habit would be punished for being feminine by a transphobic person.

[virovac]

I'm not gonna let my sympathy and fascination with Jax let me forget he is an abuser to Gangle

Gangle is terrified of upsetting Jax, this is far beyond the "schoolyard teasing" Jax tries to frame it as in the last episode

Gangle is afraid to fight back against him to the point, yet Zooble oddly rarely intervenes , likely due to Gangle just getting upset in past that "Zooble made it worse" by upsetting him

[oblisker]

shitty and dangerous friend vs literal eldritch god physically and psychologically abusing his ex-worshipper to the brink of complete insanity

[normiewizard]

this is an esoteric one sorry to my followers who arent into the riverdale abuse cycles niche. but wrt the hirarchie kiss ask going around i do think its interesting that it goes without saying for everyone that hiram would kiss archie. and like yeah of course because hes obsessed with him and a monster and a loser creep and the whole hirarchie thing is generally a desire to explore archie's feelings of being taken advantage of by someone sexy and horrible. BUT i would like to pose a scenario where at some point, early in their partnership and still reeling from the black hood hurting fred and ms. grundy, archie goes in for a kiss. and hiram does not do anything at all but just knows that about archie for the rest of the show. that aould also be fucked up and interesting right