So I’ve been to a lot of shit and negativity lately. I’ve been feeding such horrible thoughts to my boyfriend and it’s making a big impact on our ralationship. It’s been few months, I mean the lately that I’m reffering to, and my behavior is getting worse. I’m in such chaos inside my head and I’m such a pain in the ass for my boyfriend. I hate it. I know how much I’m hurting him, and I hate that. It’s unfair for him to love me morr than ever. I love him so much and I have to stop this. I have to stop whatever is going on inside me. I have to kill the monster inside me, before it reached and infect my boyfriend. I know that I’m not yet too late, and so I decided to give him something positive every morning, like for example what I like about him. I’m on my second day of doing so, I’m still having my negative thoughts, but I have to believe that this will work, so far, I think, it’s making me think less negative. Let’s see after the next few days.







