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So I found out the guy who wrote Dr. Stone is the same guy who wrote Eyeshield 21, which makes me feel a little more optimistic because I really REALLY enjoyed ES21 especially the characters. I still have a sneaking suspicion with Dr. Stone that the make or break with it for me will be its world building

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I'm curious about why Yang was so touched by the candy. Like maybe he used to be down, out, and homeless like his coworkers? Maybe this is his first present in years? Maybe out of dumb luck Robby managed to pick out Yang's favorite candy and Yang took it as some kind of sign? Is Yang falling into that trap you can get in if you've gon for forever with no one showing you that kind of kindness? I have a lot of queestions

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Been watching Killing Eve. I like it though I've not had anything much to say about it yet. I'm up to I think s1 e5 so far. For a while I was having trouble connecting to the characters but the story was interesting enough to carry me through, but yesterday I think I finally connected to Eve, which helps things. Sometimes I forget, in terms of femslash things, how much Revolutionary Girl Utena spoiled me by giving Utena a similar relationship to gender that I had when I read it

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I think I'm beginning to understand why when my friends got super into Fruit's Basket back in the 2000's I didn't. Since this was before I realized I wasn't straight or cis the antiquated handling of such things didn't phase me. However, Kyo would have hit way way way way wayyyy too close to home and parts of maybe Tohru as well. Like the manga started publication here February of my senior year of high school and some my friends had been in the loop about it before then. At the time, I'd finally come to terms with how much a lot of people around me hated me and I'd managed to go from my presence is my only weapon against these people to I have to be careful to who I interact with and how I interact with my classmates or others will treat them badly. I'd started to calm down quite a bit and I think started on the long road to accepting what everyone was telling me about myself was true and I really didn't have much of a place with people in the class of 2004. Most of my friends by then were either from the class ahead of me or one or two classes below me because the notion I was the kid you had to abuse to prove you were worthy of being treated properly didn't really extend outside of our class thank goodness.

Like the more I see of Kyo and Tohru and the more I see how the clan interacts with Kyo, the more it's like "Yeah, I had to heal before I could tolerate this story," which is interesting because like I had to drop Cinderella Nine because it brought back too many intensely negative softball memories from when I did a season and a lot of people around me tried to bully me off the team and I can't watch stuff like Mean Girls (2004) because it's just not entertaining to me in the slightest.

One thing I think that's helped me this time with Fruits Basket is not only do I know what I'm getting into since I didn't mind listening to my friends talk about it as the story progressed, but I'm old enough now that when I look at Tohru, I kind of want to mother her? To kind of like go "That's nice that you like domestics, but please go have fun," so I'm not quite connecting to her on a peer level. I also think in some ways this helps with Kyo too, but I've noticed that he reminds me of how I used to be, which in turn reminds me of how far I've come and so it feels less hopeless than it did before I knew I'd grow up to be a bit isolated but at least free from the depersonalizing abuse I suffered at school.

I'm not sure if I'd say I like it, but I don't particularly dislike it either. I’m invested in Tohru, Kyo, and sort of Yuki (still going to fight Shigure I think), so I’m going to keep watching. Also I think knowing the ending helps in that respect. That said, it's going to be a bit of a let down to get to the antiquated notions of gender and sexuality, but I think knowing that's where this is heading helps temper my expectations. Sometimes it's easy for me to forget this is a story contemporary to Ouran because it seems like something that would be like ten or fifteen years older than it is or something.

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I suppose if this week is that episode for paid users, we only have like 41 chapters of Veno Aureo left to adapt or thereabouts. It's going to go fast

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Decided to put Kyo Kara Maoh aside for a while. When I was watching it I had too many characterizations and future plot points clogging up the experience of watching the story unfold. It's not surprising I wasn't able to connect to any characters at all. Luckily episode three leaves me off at a decent plot point to pause on. Also, I'm pretty sure the classic style tiny yellow subs were giving me a headache since I'm already sick as is. I mean there's good reason that I preferred dubs growing up and it all comes down to how hard it is to read yellow on top of a wide variety of colors (including blonde hair omg what were they thinking putting yellow subs on top of Wolfram's mother's hair omg).

I mean the reason I'm finally learning Japanese (besides the fact it’s finally up on the language service I use) is so I don't have to rely on subtitles I can't read (though I'm still years away from that unless it's Gintama, which was strangely in my vocabulary box). Though I will say it's nice to see easier to read subs like the font and color choice for JJBA subs starting to proliferate the market. I'm glad that we're getting more variety and choices than we used to as someone with visual impairments.

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Trinity's always annoyed me and her edit strongly suggests she's going to win and here I am still watching because everyone else left is a fave and just alsdkfjasdlfkjslkajf eurgh

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This deals with something said in season 7 episode 5. Just as a heads up here. Spoilers.

So, throwback to the whole Rusty, Malcolm, and JJ were all in the same womb for a cloning Jonas Sr. experiment theory I rambled on about two weeks ago, what if Hank and Dean are Rusty duplicating his dad's cloning experiments? What if the answer to the where their mom is question is there is no mom? What if Red HELPeR thought Dean was Rusty because what other cloned personw ould there be roaming about the compound? What if Rusty's always been a clone of Jonas Sr. this whole time which is also how he was able to parasytic twin JJ? What if one of the side effects of the cloning process is gene mutation and that's why none of them, not even JJ, quite look like Jonas Sr. 100%? Like Jonas Sr. probably needed a womb like Mrs. Fitzcarraldo for the earlier experiments but maybe he eventually started using artificial wombs and that's the tech that Rusty used when attempting cloning?

Or something. I know Rusty mentioned he brought the boys into this world with an act of passion and could take them out of it with an act of passion once, but maybe it was passionate science? A need for something more than just HELPeR around?

The theory's still cooking.