you take your final pill as you lay in your bed. you feel the heaviness of your eyelids, the warmth that hugs you beneath the sheets, and you slowly drift off to sleep.
as your eyes shut closed, you wonder,
"I wonder if he's already waiting for me."
before you could even grasp where you landed, a familiar feeling grasped your hand.
the soft, warm feeling of sugawara koshi, the man of your dreams.
“sweetheart—” he calls out to you gently, you open your eyes, startled, but he gently calms you down. “wait no it's okay—its me..”
you sigh in relief, you stare at his face for a few seconds. it's still blurry, you wonder when will you able to see his face in entirety.
he stands up, reaching out his hand for you to get up.
“you're a bit late this time.” he says. “ah- im sorry.. but im glad i get to see you now.”
“i am too,” he replies “maybe you'll stay long enough that ill remember your name.”
“ah it's (name).. by the way.. i wonder how many times ive told you that.” you chuckle.
“come on, let's explore before you wake up." he reaches his hand out, you take it and your fingers interlock. for the first time you see a hint of pink on his blurred out cheeks.
you explore the dreamscape together. he leads you to a pond, although when you try to feed the fish, they open their mouths and show their sharp teeth.
this scares you enough to the point that you cling onto sugawara, seeking warmth and protection in his temporary embrace.
“haha- no it's okay.. they won't hurt you.” you notice a pendant hanging around his neck.
“hey.. can i see this, it looks pretty.” you ask. “well of course.” he says leaning closer for you to see the pendant, although a bit too close. “uh.. o-okay then”
a hint of red surfaces on your cheeks. he chuckles softly.
"oh wow.. a purple pendant.. my favorite color." you say. “wait, you remembered didn't you?”
you once mentioned you loved the color purple because it reminded you of lavender and you loved the elegance and beauty of the color.
“of course i did.” he tells you “now that reminds me, i have a gift for you.”
it was an amethyst necklace. you stared in awe at the item, wondering how it was so beautiful, i mean yeah it's a dream after all.
staring at it made you remember he isn't real. none of this is real. so while your here, escaping the horrors of the real world, you thought,
“maybe i should savour this.”
so, slowly, you lean in, cupping his cheek gently, and you kiss him deeply.
he kisses you back, holding your waist, embracing you. his touch has never felt so real.
you pull away and press your forehead against his, and you mumble.
“oh sugawara.. i wish you were real.”
and just like that, he evaporates out of thin air. your heart thumps, you didn't want him to leave like that, so quick, so early.
"s-sugawara?-"
suddenly the field of flowers around you glitches.
you blink and you open your eyes to find yourself in the woods at night. sweat trickled down your forehead as you tried to navigate through the area
"s-sugawara?! where are you!-"
and then suddenly, you're back, in the real world. you wake up in a cold sweat, but you notice there's something gently tugging around your neck.
the amethyst necklace he gave you.
there was also a note on your nightstand, it read:
“im sorry sweetheart, they're always watching.
ill see you next time.
love,
sugawara”
a/n: i really like this idea!! sorry for not posting in a whileee
(I apologize beforehand if what i wrote is inaccurate, feel free to correct me!)
Tags: Kuroo x asexual reader, ace/lgbtiq+, fluff, insecurity.
Synopsis: How would Kuroo react if, a night like any other, he found out his girlfriend is asexual?
Nights with you always had a special magic.
It wasn't something he could justify, explain or describe. No, Kuroo knew that.
But it had always been that way, at least for as long as he had known you.
Everything just seemed to slow down, as if the ink black sky dusted by shining stars offered to wrap around you and Kuroo like a blanket, like a shield from problems, time, other people and the world itself.
Well, Kuroo knew it made no sense that everything felt so romantic.
Specially with how you were snorting right now.
"No, but seriously" Kuroo insisted, holding back the small adoring smile that threatened to ruin his pout.
"Are you seriously going to make me promise that if we ever have a rooster, and there is a zombie apocalypse, I won't eat the poor thing?" You asked him, a soft laughter of desbelief leaving your lips.
"Yes" Kuroo nodded, a smirk making its way to his face.
The comforting feeling of being awake in a sea of sleeping souls made everything more intimate, more you and him.
"I won't promise that" you assured, shaking your head amusedly, "I don't even think we'll ever adopt a rooster"
Kuroo felt personally offended by that, but decided to let it slide this time.
"Mean. Anyways, going back to the actual boundaries of the relationship" he reminded you, tapping a pencil he had stolen from your bedside table on your leg.
"Yeah" you smiled, and Kuroo wasn't sharp enough to notice the nervous waver of your smile.
"Well, obviously no cheating in any degree" he said, pointing you with the red colored pencil, a genuine smile on his face because he knew he could trust you with his life.
You rolled your eyes playfully, unable to return the smile while your thumb drew anxious imaginary shapes on your palm, "I know"
"And no sleeping with other people, obviously"
His grin faltered when he noticed your gaze fall to your lap, her fingers toying with the hem of your shirt.
He could almost see the nervousness radiate of you in waves, sneaking throught his skin to spread inside of him, too.
"What's wrong?" He questioned, trying to find the answer written in your eyes or in the slight purse of your lips.
But he didn't.
"I..." Your voice came out like a murmur, insecure and tense, "I need to tell you... Something"
Tetsuro's brows furrowed in concearn and uncertainty, trying to shoo away the worst case scenarios his mind just kept freely coming up with, "...What is it?"
"I'm..." Your eyes briefly flickered up to meet his, knowing once you said it, there was no going back.
How would he react?
Was it this the moment things changed forever?
"I'm asexual..." Was breathed out. Quiet, insecure, hesitant. The knot in your chest seemed to tighten, your lungs feeling in the edge of bursting out and, hopefully, letting out the tension, which was eating out your body like insects fueled by the nervous energy.
"What...?" He asked, surprise reflecting in his warm eyes as he stared into yours.
"I'm asexual" you repeated, a bit louder this time, avoiding his gaze.
"I... Really?" Kuroo would be lying if he said he wasn't in shock. It was a fairly important revelation, after all.
You nodded, trying to gauge his reaction, to see if this was the end of your relationship or the start of something better.
"When... When did you realize...?" He asked, still trying to process the new information.
"A long time ago..." You said sheepishly, feeling his surprised stare on you.
"And... Why didn't you tell me?"
"I thought..." You took a breathz trying to calm your nerves, "I thought you'd break up with me... I mean, you've always wanted kids, and..."
Kuroo's soft and desbelieving chuckle interrupted her, "Do you really think I'd break up with you because you are asexual? I'm with you because I love you, all of you"
You were the surprised one now, a silver of hope coursing throught your veins, "You won't... Leave me?"
He shook his head, smiling gently, "Of course not, baby. I'm glad you told me" he assured, taking your hand and using his thumb to caress the back of it.
"But what about having kids...? You've always wanted..."
"We can always adopt, it's not a problem" he assured, pressing a kiss to your cheek, "We'll sort things off in a few years. But promise me something..."
"What?" Your eyes lifted slowly to meet his.
"Promise me you won't forget I love you for who you are. I love everything about you, forever, mm?"
And there it was, that spark of adoration in his eyes, that one you had feared not seeing ever again. It was there, brighter than before.
A.n: Hii, I hope you liked it!! Btw feel free to correct any mistake I made, and I genuinely apologize if what I wrote is not accurate to asexuality, i am not very very informed in that toppic, and I investigated but of course it can be wrong... So sorry and thanks for reading!!
Tysm for answering my ask! Sorry to bother but is it fine if i request a few headcannons of Asahi Azumane x a gender neutral reader whos a part of an orchestra, and it worried for the outcome?
Of course!
Asahi Azumane W/ Gn reader who's part of an orchestra.
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Oh he is just excited if you were part of an orchestra.
Asahi seems the type to love instrumentals and classical music.
When meeting Asahi, you both were inseparable talking and talking about your hobbies and interests and dream jobs. Then you mentioned being part of orchestra and that has caught Asahi's attention.
Loves to listen to you when you talk about how it was like a dream come true to become a part of an orchestra.
Every time you get nervous to perform; he's there for you and when he's not, he'll always send you a message like: "Good luck, __!" or something like that.
makes sure you get lots of hugs before you perform.
Asahi loves to see you practice and sometimes even helps you with whatever you need help in.
He knows how you'd get nervous and worried before a play so before entering, Asahi makes sure you do some excises to help you with your nerves.
After the play, He gives you a big hug and tells you how proud he is of you. I know it's a bit cheesy, but it's always been like that with you and him.
Overall, Asahi is just someone who is very kind and very supportive on what you do in your life, Even comforts you when you have your ups and downs. Maybe sometimes emotional but he's always there for a good long or short talk.
(Honestly, I used to watch Haikyuu and I'd remember how Asahi, Kiyoko, and Yamaguchi were my favorite characters in the show. Also, I didn't know if you wanted the time skip of Asahi or not so, I just did random-)
Hoped you liked this Hcs of Asahi! (I'll probably make the master list for haikyuu and some other fandoms I'll do.)
Pairing: Azumane Asahi x Gender Neutral Reader. (No pronouns. Only "you" is used")
Requested by: @sakhimeansfriend
Things to know: I think this is Angst to Fluff? Hurt-Comfort? Idk. basically some angst on the reader's part. But it is very sweet and fluffy. Happy ending!! <3
Writer's block is a bitch and I will probably go back into the hole I have crawled out of to write this but I finally got some reprieve from my IRL work and I was feeling sort of inspired so here you go
Life with Asahi Azumane as your boyfriend has been nothing short of perfect. You still cannot believe how you ever found yourself a man who is just so thoughtful and caring towards you. Someone who just knows what you need and goes out of his way to give it to you. Someone who is so supportive of your dreams and career and shows up for every single important moment in your life no matter what.
You have seen your friends go through some extremely crappy relationships and be treated like shit. It just makes you all the more glad that you have a man like Asahi in your life. It is like finding a diamond in the rough.
Of course, it is not just a one-way street. Asahi never fails to remind you of how much you mean to him and how he is so grateful for your support every step of the way.
High school had been a rough time for both of you. A little more so for Asahi. And you have stood by his side through it all.
You encouraged him to go back when he quit the Volleyball club; You cheered him on when he rejoined and practiced so hard to be the ace his team deserved; You celebrated when they won the ticket to Nationals; You cried with him when they lost at the Nationals.
And the most important of all, you were his rock when he decided to pursue fashion but faced resistance at home because "fashion is a girly profession and he should man up and get a real education and job". You fought tooth and nail for him to follow his dreams and have been his biggest cheerleader ever since. And he has been yours.
Truly, life with Asahi Azumane has been nothing short of perfe-
"Love, what are you thinking about?"
You break out of your reverie as your boyfriend cups your cheek with his hand, looking at you with a soft smile. You realize you had not heard a word since you zoned out in the middle of the romantic movie you both had been watching, curled up against each other on the couch. Your arms are wrapped around each other's torso, your head resting on his shoulders.
You smile at him. "Sorry, this couple reminded me of us and I started thinking about us."
He smiles wider and adjusts the glasses on his nose, giving you his full attention, "Yeah? What were you thinking about us?"
"I was just remembering everything that has happened, you know? How we met, how we got together and how -" you pause to place a soft kiss on his forehead "-amazing it has been," you say, softly against his forehead. You pull back and see he is beaming at you, smiling from ear to ear and looking at you with that same adoring gaze he always does. God, he still makes you feel like a teenager with all the butterflies he gives you.
"We really have been through so much together, haven't we?" he says.
You nod. "Yeah. I am glad we made it."
He pulls you in closer to him so that your face rests against the crook of his neck, one hand stroking your arm. "Me too. I wouldn't want to do it with anyone else."
"You sure about that?" you say, "You sure you wouldn't prefer one of those beautiful models you work with?" you say, laughing lightly.
Asahi doesn't answer. You pull back from him and see that all traces of happiness have gone from his face.
"Asahi! I was joking!" you say, starting to panic a little at how serious he looks.
"Is it something that bothers you?" he finally asks, worried brown eyes looking into yours.
His question gives you pause. You were being honest when you said you were joking. And for the most part, you were. You trust Asahi completely and you know he loves you and he would never do anything to hurt you. Yet, you cannot help but sometimes question if you're enough for him. When you see the kind of people he works with, some of the most beautiful faces and bodies in the country, who at times flirt with him right in front of you, you can't help but feel he could do so much better if he wanted to.
"I was joking, Asahi, I promise!" you say, trying to smile at him but it falters when his expression just grows more serious.
"You didn't answer my question. Does it bother you?"
"No. Well... I mean... maybe? I don't know!"
"You do know that there is no one else, right?"
"I know, I know. It's not that, it's just..."
You fall silent, thinking about what to say. He waits patiently.
"I feel like if we had met at a later stage in life, you wouldn't have gone for someone like me."
He looks a little confused by that. "What do you mean?"
"I mean that, well, you're surrounded by all these beautiful people now, right? If I had met you now, at this stage in your life, you would never have gone for someone like me when you have so many better options around you."
"Well, first of all, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you. And second of all, even if I was-" he takes both your hands in his and squeezes them gently, "I would still go for you. Because you're my soulmate."
You smile softly at him as he continues, "I don't know if you believe in soulmates or not. But I do. And I know you are mine. You are my safe space. My home. The most beautiful person I have ever known.
This... industry I am in. Fashion. The competition, the creativity blocks, the fast pace. It can get brutal. And the only thing that keeps me going sometimes is knowing the fact that you're by my side and, after all of it, I get to come home to you."
You're both tearing up at this point.
"I have never loved anyone like I love you. And I never will. You are it for me. I hope you know that."
Happy tears roll down your cheeks as you whisper, "I do know that. I just needed to be reminded of it, I guess."
He finally smiles at you and pulls you in closer, his arms wrapping tightly around you. He buries his face in the crook of your neck "And I will keep reminding you that for the rest of my life."
Hope you like it <3
I am feeling very soft after writing this. I missed writing for Asahi. I love him so much.
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A/N: Ever since I heard that sound on tiktok my heart kind hurts because I know this feeling too well and its hurt so bad. So, I’m being a bit self-indulgent today. This is for everyone who’s ever had an unrequited love. Also I didn't proof read. I love all of you so much <3 ~ Sar-chan.
Warning: angst kinda, unrequited love and sadness.
“Y/N-san … Y/N-san… Y/N-san!” you jump in surprise as Yachi calls your name.
“Ah! What is it Yachi-san?” You ask embarrassedly.
“Who are you looking for?”
“Just Kei-kun. He said he’d join me for lunch today but maybe he got kept back in class,” You look down at your lunch. You were getting hungry, but you were going to wait for him.
“umnumm… You… guys got pretty close huh? You even use his first name,” Yachi said while chewing.
“Us!?,” your cheeks instantly warmed up, “Maybe a little we’re just really good friends you know. He can be really … nice sometimes,” your voice softened down to the end.
“Hey, I’m sorry I’m late the teacher head to talk to me about something,” you jump as Tsukishima sits down next you, your cheeks heating up even more. “You can’t scare someone like that you idiot,” you shouted as Yamaguchi followed behind him snickering. “She’s right tsukki what if she was eating, you’d make her choke,” Yamaguchi stated. “Whatever… Didn’t I tell you to not wait for me to eat. Your stomach will hurt again. Such an idiot. Come on eat now…,” he ruffled your hair as you looked down embarrassedly.
Lunch carried on and you guys went off to your respective classes, Yachi was walking with you. “You like him, don’t you?” Yachi asked. “Is it that obvious?” You walked looking down at your shoes.
“A little bit. Why don’t you tell him? The worse that can happen is he rejects you,” Yachi shrugs her shoulders.
“I wanted to try today but he says he has to go out tonight…,” you fiddle with a thread on your sweater, anything to avoid looking up right now.
“Well, there’s always tomorrow Y/N-san. Let’s get to class,” you nod in agreement as Yachi tugs you by the sleeve to enter class.
…that evening
You were laying in bed reading a book when your phone lit up.
Kei-kun: I just got home
You: Hey. Where did you go? I hope it was ok.
Kei-kun: I went out with someone that’s all. It was good and I got some news.
Went out with someone does that mean…
Kei-kun: G/N and I are dating now.
A single tear slid down your face. You thought to yourself… There is not tomorrow Yachi-san.
You: That’s great. Congratulations.
You: I think I gotta go to bed now. I’m tired. I was just… waiting for you.
You: Good Night Tsukishima
Kei-kun: Oh ok. See you tomorrow.
You: Yeah… tomorrow
You laid down clutching your phone to your chest as you sobbed. You couldn’t think of much, even if you didn’t think you’d end up with him, this doesn’t mean it hurts any less. You put on your headphone to listen to some music, but it seems even that didn’t work out.
“I’m in love with someone. Who’s in love with someone. And that someone will never be me….”
(i wrote this on my other blog) this is timeskip! shinsuke kita headcanons. some are nsfw, so minors dni. tags: fluff & gender neutral , mentions of sex later on. this is for a friend <3
. . ⌕ genuinely enjoys grocery shopping trips, especially if you’re willing to come along. he finds them endearing & a good way for bonding. shinsuke likes to watch you pick out specific foods that you like all while keeping a note of it mentally to get next time when you aren’t there with him.
. . ⌕ shinsuke is someone whose love language is quality time & acts of service. there isn’t anything more appealing to him than going on a well thought out picnic and just being wrapped up in each other’s company. will occasionally reach over to graze your thigh with his calloused hand, all before giving you a reaffirming smile.
. . ⌕ though he never outright admits it, shinsuke is the biggest fan of packed bentos, especially when they’re made by you. the idea that you put so much work into providing something for him, well, he just might marry you on the spot. he always opens the container with shaky hands due to being a bit excited to see what you might’ve prepared. when he was still in high school, he could always hear the constant bickering of the miya twins in the background arguing that they can never have lunches like that because they can’t even get girlfriends, an insult only they’d give each other. preparing his bento has been a tradition since the beginning of your relationship.
. . ⌕ shinsuke is the type of lover to walk behind you rather than beside you, only because he wants to place his head on yours while his arms engulf you from behind. if there’s too many people, then he will stick with the typical side-by-side, fingers intertwined with yours. but he prefers the walks where it’s just you two, and the view.
. . ⌕ many people wouldn’t assume shinsuke to be into sex, however, it’s one of the many activities that he feels brings you two closer. he enjoys the sounds you make, the squirming of being overstimulated, and the constant praise of your love for him. he knows it’s reserved for only him, and because of that, he thrusts a bit deeper, moans a little louder, and loves with his whole heart.
. . ⌕ he will even hold your hand during sex, face hiding in your neck as he peppers you with kisses and whispers of how good you feel. shinsuke could get lost in the feeling all day knowing just how well you suck him in. prefers to climax with you though he doesn’t mind watching you cum first.
. . ⌕ you already know aftercare is a must, at least in shinsuke’s book. he is placing a gentle kiss to your forehead while mumbling against the skin how lovely you look. grabs a rag to wipe the cum off your stomach before he rubs circles into your hips. “didn’t hurt ya too bad did i?” there’s humor laced in his voice, something only you can really come to appreciate. at the end of the day, shinsuke is yours. all yours. he wouldn’t have it any other way.
