#focus issues

[imheretoreadafic]

Having memory and focus issues sucks most of the time. But every once in a while I'll shove a candy bar in my pocket, forget about it, and get really happy later.

[ribbonessa]

Posting on my alt because I just got my phone taken away. @ribbon-heartwise will be inactive for a little while. @beavininabean @moonmeetmoon @spidadraws @x-rayray-x @sincerecinnamon @frethepotatohunter @randylastname @moobloom11 @bylerspaintbrushes @lesbians4leprosy

I got my phone taken away because I couldn't focus on school. I have ADHD, and I don't have medication. I've tried focus music, headphones, focus stones, pure silence, noise, staying hydrated, making schedules, being well-rested, and fasting. NOTHING works. I need medication, but she refuses to get me my prescription because last time I had it (when I was eight), I refused to take it. I. Was. EIGHT. Obviously I wouldn't willingly take medication. Now, I NEED my medication because my lack of it is negatively affecting my life. Suddenly, it's my fault for having a disorder and I need to be punished for it by having my only access to my friends and partners taken away. I'm already depressed, and now I have zero contact with my peers. I fear that I may be, as they say in the industry, fucked. Just don't ask what industry.

[mickeymouse-house]

Adhd fun:

*goes to store for milk*

*get distracted by fruit*

*buys fruit*

*and crackers*

*and chocolate*

*and a spray bottle, for some reason*

*walks out*

*looks down*

“I forgot to buy milk.”

[serpentinesomebody]

me, through tears: p,,please,,,please let me do this one (1) task I’m begging u

my brain: I cannot. I simply do not Vibe with it

[chispas-and-broken-bindings]

Am I trying to simultaneously work on too many stories at once? Yes. Is it going well? Not really. Am I going to narrow my focus? Probably not...

[christiandomme]

Morning epiphany: I've always said that requesting certain tasks from my sub(s) were most emotionally challenging. And I used recieving certain kinds of soft care as my go-to example - like having someone read aloud to me as I wind down to fall asleep.

But I realized there is a kind of care that I am even less likely to name a desire for that feels extremely vulnerable: direct help with managing focus/organizational/executive function struggles.

It feels very against the grain of Tumblr Dom energy. I know that the chorus of "provide structure" that crosses my dash fifty-seven times a day isn't meant to exclude Dom's with certain kinds of processing or executing struggles but boy howdy can it be frustrating.

I even know that "provide structure" itself isn't one size fits all and there are some great dynamics on here sharing the ways in which Dom's cognitive/emotional needs become an opportunity for service which works as part of their structure and doesn't undermine the Dom's leadership one iota.

But even knowing that, letting my sub be a support in those specific kind of ways is a sort of vulnerable very different from sharing kinky wish lists but in the end that probably makes it all the more valuable.

[awww-brain-no]

I'm stressed so I started a project and now I've run out of steam but I'm only halfway through so now I'm stressed about that too

-an autobiography

[marzspacezout]

Is this an ADHD thing?

So my brain requires constant stimulation, which means I’m either stopping my work to put on a YouTube video or draw play with putty every few minutes. I can focus better while playing with putty/chewing on things/ fidgeting in general, but with listening to things (although I usually multitask a lot when it comes to drawing and planning animations and stuff) I am usually either paying attention to the video/music or my work (or neither). So I don’t get much work done because everytime I stop listening to something I just NEED MORE STIMULATION, and can’t focus on my work. But everytime I listen to something I get too involved in it and can’t focus on what I’m doing. And when I try to force myself to focus, sometimes I literally just fall asleep. Until the deadlines almost there or I hit a groove and I can finally focus a bit more. But like... I don’t want to spend hours daily on my phone just scrolling or watching videos cause it’s free stimulation without needing to really pay attention. I’m wasting so much time. Will this go away a little more with adhd meds? I just recently got diagnosed and have only been on a low dose of meds for a few days now (no effect yet that I can tell), but this has been a problem for like my whole life.