#foxie rambles

[icyfox17]

I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm norm--

[icyfox17]

I have spent 3+ hours working on a tier list of fictional father figures... i am finally done

[icyfox17]

I was thinking about Harry and Bobby and how Harry has his thing where he'll make pancakes when he's worried about someone being upset and even though they didn't have as much time together, Harry learning certain things from Bobby and now, Buck furthering his teachings.

I can just picture Harry shuffling over to Buck and asking him for advice on one of Bobby's recipes, and Buck staring in shock for a moment, before snapping out of it and making it a thing. And he dedicates time before they watch the Bachelor to teaching Harry different recipes and things about cooking and and and-

SOBS AT THEM!!!!

[icyfox17]

Omg guys there's a leak for next week's episode!!

[icyfox17]

Today I learned that google reviews exist for fire stations and now I desperately need an episode (or fic) where the 118 read their google reviews LMFAOOO

[icyfox17]

Okay but how much do you think it hurt that Buck didn't call Tommy back right away?

Like I know and support Buck learning to be by himself before he reaches out to Tommy, but there's no way Tommy sees it like that.

He... He made a whole fucking breakfast--not just toast this time-- HE BOUGHT CHAMPAGNE. He was so ready to celebrate their second chance and then-

And then Buck implies that he doesn't have to have feelings for everyone he sleeps with.

And then Tommy leaves.

And then-

Buck doesn't call. Doesn't reach out. And it's just like their breakup all over again except it's Buck who ended things and he's making it pretty fucking clear he doesn't actually want Tommy back--doesn't want a future.

GUYS IM NOT OKAY FYCK

[icyfox17]

Do you ever think about the first time Buck called Bobby, Pops? Do you think Bobby flinched? Or was he already repressing so hard that on the outside it appeared as though nothing happened?

Do you think that was the first break in emotion that Hen and Chimney ever truly saw from the Stoic Viking?

Do you think about them calling Bobby out on being too easy on the kid and knowing?

Do you think Buck noticed? (Buck was so shocked when he was fired. Was Bobby the first person he truly trusted to stay? To let him stay? He acted out, he pushed his boundaries, all so he could feel more secure, but then he fucks it up and he loses it all at once).

Do you think that moment was the actual first time Bobby reminded him of his dad? Of Phillip? Before Bobby was a "Dad™". It was safe to pretend. Buck's not sure what actual good dads are supposed to be like, but surely... It's something like that. Bobby kept the bit along, so it's okay. But then he gets fired, gets reprimanded and in that moment all Buck could think of was Phillip and suddenly all Buck wanted to do was separate Bobby from ever being like his dad.

[icyfox17]

Okay I made myself sad

Let's think about the first time Bobby taught Buck to make breakfast instead.

I picture Buck off handedly mentioning exploding eggs in the microwave... Or saying he needs to run to the store to grab microwaveable dinner. And Bobby just staring at this kid like "how are you still alive at 26 years old" and inviting (ordering) him to the kitchen and teaching him eggs. Just... Eggs. They start simple. Hard boiled eggs, scrambled eggs. Then they move to a bit more complicated. Soft boiled eggs with toast, pan fried eggs. Eventually they move on to omelettes and quiche.

Buck's scared at first. He's always been a fuck up and everyone in the 118 has mentioned more than once that Bobby could be a chef instead of a firefighter. And so him?? Having to cook in front of Bobby?? Nooo thank you.

But it goes...? Okay? It's actually fun? Bobby's a good teacher. In all aspects of life. He's patient with Buck, kind, and funny. When Buck makes a mistake, he no longer feels like a fuck up. The first few times are hard, but he recovers. He learns to fail. And Bobby's quick to teach him that failure in cooking is rarely a bad thing. A lot of times it's just a detour. You can still make something out of it.

Cooking goes from being a chore that Buck needed to live to something he actually enjoys.

It's a safe space for Buck, for both of them. To be vulnerable and completely themselves.