TW/CW : manipulation, emotional abuse, physical abuse, harrassment, pressure to sex, breakdowns, anxiety, throwing up
Before reading, know that this might be hard for some people to read, so please be careful, escpecially if you’re under sixteen.
Chapter 2 : The Cut That Always Bleeds
Okay, so what the bloody hell was happening? Well, Alastair for sure did not know.
First : Elias was going to the Silent City (for the best) because those bloody idiots thought that a trial will solve everything
Second : Layla will try to help him, and Alastair was going to suffer from trying to hide his fathers secret
Third : Their moving to bloody LONDON, to find allies.
What the- this was not fair. Yes, Alastair knew this was not on purpose, but- Everyone who ever hurt Alastair, or Alastair ever hurt was in London. But of course saying that they wanted Cordelia and that Herondale girl to be Parabatai as soon as possible, was the most believable excuse. Now this was going to be a huge mess.
Although Charles was there too. Which was worth anything, obviously. But that meant the mans brother was there too, who, just a few years earlier, blew up his belongings, along with one of the academys wing. With that other Lightwood, he couldn't remember his name, but he had lilac eyes. Wow, this was so not going to end well. And there was that stupid Herondale boy too. It seems, Alastair was going to stay in the house, all day long, and when there was a social event, he will be with Charles, and everything was going to be just fine.
Well, it was not. Turns out, his lover dissmissed him on any social event, or public space. Even on the streets. This was so not fair, and while Alastair tried to understand the reasons, it was hard to watch Charles ignore him, then walk straight to his fake fiancée. It just hurt, really much. It was like their relationship meant nothing, like Alastair meant nothing. It was a dagger flying straight into the boys heart, every time his love looked at Ariadne, or even mentioned her. It was indescribable.
But after every time he felt like that, Charles noticed, and came to Cornwall Gardens. There were even some times he stayed nearly until dawn, but it was rare.
There was this one time, when (after he supervised his sister and her little friends in a demon fight) the red haired man came to him with news, and (as always) they ended up making out, but this time Charles was the one who pulled away. After, Alastair told him he loved him. And that was the time the other told him "Do not forget, Alastair, that whatever I do, it is with the thought of you ever in my mind" The boys eyes widened at that, and he was quite pleased with it. He truly did, never forget it.
Even when Charles was scolding him for literally anything that was not perfect, or shouting at him, or even when he went up to Ariadne and kissed her cheek.
But there were also times he had no choice but to forget it, because sometimes it was hard to keep it in mind.
For an example, there was this time, when he was at the Fairchilds home, in the master bedroom, sitting on the settee. He was looking at the other man, who was bending over the desk, buried in papers, and was berating Alastair for getting caught up with his sisters friends (again), when he already told Charles a million times before, that no one had a clue about them, and that he was just picking his sister up from Annas flat, after she had tea. It was not Alastairs fault it had gone wrong, after all. So he just could not bear it longer, and burst out.
"Charles, can you stop?!" he shouted. The mentioned immediately stopped in his tracks, and turned to Alastair, slowly walking towards him. "Did you just shout at me?" he asked, and Alastair already felt guilty, he did not mean to shout... "I-I just told you already-" he cut himself off when the other stopped before him, and grabbed his jaw, not too strongly, but it still hurt a little. The boy started panicking, why did he have to say that? It was not on purpose, it just came out... Charles tilted his head up to look in his eyes sharply. Alastair felt his tears gathering, and a familiar sting in his eyes.
"I-I'm sorry...I did not mean to shout-" he was now cut off by the other, "But you never mean to, do you? You did not mean to meet up with your sisters friends, didn't you?" he said, sarcasm clear in his voice. Alastair tried to shake his head, but his grip was too strong. The boy felt a tear escape his eyes, though he was very determined to keep them back. "What did I say about crying?" Alastair just bit his lip, to keep other tears from coming. "Stop it, you have no reason to weep, just like a little kid..." Alastair couldn't hold himself back from sobbing, and the other let go of his jaw, now turning away, slowly walking around the room, shaking his head. Alastair brought his hands up to cover his face, trying to hide the tears, but the sobbing would not stop.
"Charles...Do you still love me?" he couldn't stop himself from saying. At that the mentioned turned around to look at him, with a face that said 'not again'. "Oh no, you are not turning this on me! You, and your delusions of 'love'..." he practically spat the last word out, like it was some kind of poison. "You know, you are the one here who should apologise, but no, instead you decide to turn this whole matter on me!" Charles was now furious. Alastair didn't want to rage the other man up even more, than he was now, so he sticked with apologising. Even though he wanted to scream.
So, the younger boy took a deep breath and looked at the other.
"I am sorry for shouting at you, and for going out with my sister and her friends." the man came back to him again, and tilted his chin up, leaning down, into a kiss. He did not let go of the youngers chin, but reached for his torso with his other hand, and set him up from the settee. Alastair wasn't crying anymore, but the sting was still there, along with the dryed evidence of tears. The elder reached for his belt, but the boy gently tossed his hand away. When he tried again, Alastair decided to tell him not to.
"Charles, I do not think this is the best time for this..." he said, very carefully, with a little bit husky voice from crying. The man looked down on him with half lidded eyes, and Alastair was so exhausted, he closed his. "You owe me this." he said, his lips already touching the others. The boy let a last tear run down his face, but Charles didn't notice, or if he did, he ignored it.
It was about two hours later, that Charles sent him away because 'his brother could be home any time', but that was not true, because Matthew, that alcoholic, was nearly never home. He just wasn't interested in Alastair any other way than physical. The boy didn't want to stay anyways, so without a word he was just about to walk out the back door, when he heard someone in the kitchen. It must be the Fairchilds maid, he thought. Well, it was not their maid.
"Oh, Alastair. What are you doing here?" he asked, shocked.
"I could ask you the very same thing, Lightwood." he said, and Thomas looked down, but answered. "Henry told Kit to use the labor whenever he wished, and I am here to make sure he doesn't blow up the house..." the hazel eyed boy blushed, like as if Alastair had anymore reasons to be here. He wanted to divert the attention from why he was here, so he said what first came to his mind.
"Well, last time you 'made sure not to blow up anything' a whole wing of the academy exploded, along with my belongings, so I hope you do a better job now..." Thomas raised his head at that, "That was Matthew!" he blurted out. He was holding his hands up, as if in surrender, almost looking like a preyer when hunted. But Alastair was no pursuer, and he had no intentions of hurting the other. He had the urge to laugh at the boys reaction, but held himself back, and only let a small smile escape his lips. The other noticed, and was surprised, but returned it.
"So how do you like London so far?" he asked casually, making conversation, still Alastairs heart raced. He didn't react immediatly, so the other started explaining why he asked, "I-I just didn't see you since the demon fight-and-and-I didn't know how you were-and-" Alastair cut him off from his stuttering with "I like it just fine. Though there is a lot of traffic. And dramatic people." Thomas slightly chuckled at his comment on population.
"What makes the difference between London, and your previous address?" he asked curiously.
Alastair found himself wanting to talk to him, to answer the question, to start a conversation. So he did, "The people. They seem much more open minded in the Enclave, than in my previous home. London is much more about freedom than duty. I like that." he finished with a thoughtful look. It was like he was back in Paris again, in their little bubble, away from the world, and it was just the too of them. But, unfortunately, this reminded him of his original task, and felt an ache in his chest. They were not in Paris, and they were not alone. They were at the Fairchilds home, and Charles was just in the room above them. He had to leave.
"You know, I was about to leave, if you don't mind..." but seeing the dissapointed look on the others face made him think of something, "But you can escort me home, if you have nothing else to attend to." he suggested. Thomas opened his mouth, then closed it. It seemed Alastair really did surprise him. Or maybe made him uncomfortable... "But of course if you do not want to-" he was cut off by the other, "I do! I really do! I-I was just about to leave anyways." he said almost too quickly. Alastair raised his eyebrows, Thomas blushed, and looked down. He pretended not to notice it, and just gestured to the door. "Well then, shall we?" the younger nodded, and they headed out of the manor.
As they started to walk through the garden, Alastair felt a doze of guilt rush through him, but that was almost instantly gone, when Thomas distracted his attention, "So, you did not answer my question though..." he said as he opened the gate for Alastair. The gesture surprised him, but was pleased, and almost forgot what the boy was talking about. He pretended not to know, and put on his best confused and innocent face, then turned to the other and blinked. That made the other blush again, which Alastair did not understand, but decided he liked it. It was quite adorable.
"Which question?" he asked with fake curiousity, hoping not to get an answer. The hazel eyed boy scruched his neck and looked down, while still blushed. Alastair smirked to himself.
"Um...In the one were I asked you what you were doing in the Fairchilds house?" he asked not so confidently, and Alastair cursed himself for failing in distracting him. Atleast it worked in Paris.
It would not be strange if he told the other he was with Charles, right? People had friends... But the boy also noticed when he lied, he did in Paris too. So, he took a deep breath, looked away, and prayed to the Angels that Thomas wouldn't ask questions.
"I was with Charles..." there was a moment of silence, then the other asked, "Charles, as in Matthews brother?" Alastair found himself annoyed with the question. Who else? "Do you know other people named Charles?" he asked, a little sharply. "I apologise. I did not mean to be so snappy." he apologised, truly regretting it. After all, Thomas really didn't say anything.
"It is fine." he said, holding a hand up, and looking hesitant. Alastair felt like he could trust him. And, he also had the sudden urge, to tell someone about Charles. He hated to be a secret, but he would never tell anyone if Charles didn't want to. But Thomas seemed so trustworthy... Maybe if he told him just- "Do you have an affair?"
What-
How-
Alastairs mind stopped working, and nearly stumbled over a rock. Thomas caught his arm before he could fall, and turned to face him. They were already near Cornwall Gardens, but there were no surrounding people, the streets were all empty. It was just the two of them. The dark eyed boy turned away, and started walking again, the hazel eyed walking beside him.
"...How did you know?" he asked after coming out of his daze. The other nodded, and started explaining, "Paris. You did not want to tell me why, where, or who you were with, and somehow diverted the conversation to him (if not even on purpose), and Matthew told me Charles was there. Of course, this wouldn't be enough to confirm my theory, but I also saw the way you looked at him, how you said his name. On Enclave meetings too, you seemed to communicate without words, and I didn't know of you being friends with him. Oh, and I was nearly all the time at the labor with Kit, so I heard whenever you came in. And before you misunderstand me, no, I have not been eavsdropping on you, and no, I did not here what you were talking about, just that you came in." Alastair was truly stunned, of how good of an observer Thomas was.
"You pay quite much attention to me..." he murmured, but the other heard it, and blushed again, looking away. It was so cute, Alastair couldn't help but let a small smile.
"I am sorry if I gave the impression of stalking, I did not mean to." the older boy was speechless. He was happy the other did not hate him for it, he should not be apologising. Though the other did not hate him, he thought, otherwise he wouldn't have come to the Louvre with him.
"You didn't, it is fine. I actually am happy you do not hate me, at least not because of this." he saw the confused expression the boy had on his face, so he started explaining, like the other did earlier. "Well, I know you are not quite fond of me, and rightfully so, but I am glad that this is not the reason." the boy just looked even more confused, and furrowed his brows.
"I do not hate you Alastair, and never have. Maybe you were not so nice to me at the academy, but that was ages ago, and you were there with me in Paris when I was alone." Alastair raised his eyebrows yet again in surprise, and responded. "You do not have to thank me for that, I didn't have to cancel any of my activities." It was Thomas's turn to raise his eyebrows.
"Weren't you there with Charles?" he asked, seemingly curious. Well, he could tell him this, Alastair thought, he will not tell, right?
"I was, but he was working and I was staying at his apartment, so I only saw him at night." he shrugged, then continued, "And there were times when he didn't even come back for days." When remembering what he just said immediately started again, "I am sorry, you shouldn't have heard that, and I shouldn't have- This whole conversation shouldn't have happened-" but he was cut off by Thomas, gently grabbing his wrist to stop him, and turn to face Alastair.
"Alastair, stop. You can trust me. I am only sorry that Charles treated you that way, no one deserves to be treated like that. I did not know him very well, but I did not think he would be capable of doing such things..." Thomas looked at him ruefully, and he felt tears in his eyes again. He felt like an animal in a cage, the people walking by, looking at him in pity. But he could certainly not cry, so he decided to put his armor on. Which was anger.
Alastair ripped his wrist out of the others soft grip, and looked at him with rage. The hazel eyed boy seemed to instantly regret his words, and opened his mouth to speak, but was preceded by Alastair.
"Do not speak about Charles that way again. He did nothing wrong, I couldn't possibly expect him to throw away his life, just because I wished to be with him." his tone was so icy, the other truly seemed frightened. "Alastair, I did not mean-" but the other cut him off again, "I do not care what you meant. You should forget this whole conversation and go home. I will do the same. We will never speak of this again." Thomas opened his mouth again to say something, but Alastair prevented him in it, "Farewell, Lightwood." as he said this, he turned on his heels, and left to Cornwall Gardens. Thomas was still standing there, watching, as Alastair walked away, and never turned back.
As soon as he got home, he decided to write a letter to Charles. They had to meet, and talk, as soon as possible. So he wrote for the man to meet him tomorrow night, 10pm, Cornwall Gardens. That night, Alastair couldn't stop thinking about what Thomas said. Was Charles really treating him badly? He had no idea. In fact, he had no idea how a relationship should look like. He just based it off what he saw and heard. He knew for sure he did not want what his parents had, but then what should it look like? This was normal, right? Everything Charles was doing was for them. For him. He had to keep that in mind.
This was not how Alastair planned it to be. He was in the parlor, laying on the settee. Underneath Charles. Making out. With only trousers on. He knew where this was going, and he had to stop it. He called for Charles to talk. Right, talk.
The boy pulled away for air, and started speaking, "Charles, I actually wanted to talk about something..." he said, a little uncertainly about what, or how to say this, without infuriating Charles. The latter sat up, and reached for his shirt to put it on. Alastair watched as he buttoned it up, and thought about what to say. He didn't really think this over, did he? He came up on his elbows and took a deep breath, before starting.
"I told someone about us." he said really quickly, in hope of the other not understanding it. But, unfortunately, he did. Charles closed his eyes and said, "You. Did. What?!" shouting the last word. Alastair was absolutely panicking. He was practically hyperventillating by now. "I-I-" he found himself unable to speak, which was really unfortunate, because Charles was about to explode.
"Alastair. Who, where, when?" he asked, so harshly, the boy felt like simply his voice could smash him. "After you sent me away I-I was about to leave through the back door, when someone was there- and- and we started talking- and- and I suggested for him to escort me home- and then- and then he asked me about you- and I- I first didn't say anything- but then- then he asked if we had an affair- and I just- I could not lie- he would know- he always knows-" he would have explained further, but was cut off. "Alastair. Who?" Oh, this was going to be a mess.
Alastair was happy that the man wasn't shouting at him already, so he took a shaking breath before saying, "Thomas Lightwood.".
It was like his name was a key, and now Charles's face was red from rage. "What do you mean by 'he always knows'?!" well, if he wasn't before, now he was shouting.
"W-We met in Paris-and -and he knew about us- but he first ignored it- but-but then he noticed when I was lying about where I was- and -and-" The other took a deep breath and looked at the younger boy.
"Yes?" he asked with a trembling and thin voice. He was surprised it wasn't mistaken for the wind. His eyes were already welling up, but he was holding the tears back, as long as he could.
"You do not know what you just did...How could you trust that child?!" he clamored. Alastair winced at the loudness, and the harsh tone. "He is a child. Therefore he will spread rumors. Therfore he. Can. Not. Be. Trusted." Alastair was now nearly shaking from holding back the sobbs. Charles lowered his voice a little, and looked down. "Promise me you will not see him again. Promise to not meet, speak, or even look at him. Ever. Again." the boy shook his head slowly to himself, not believing what his lover just asked. Why is he doing this? Why?!
"Charles..." his voice was barely a wisper. "Promise." Now he was looking straight into Alastairs eyes, and his gaze was so heavy, he felt like it might crash him in any minute. It was painful to bear. So he looked down on his own chest, and said "I can't..." this time, it was even lower than a wisper. His voice was so thin, it could be mistaken for a mouse's squeak.
"He is just a child, you can not trust him!" Charles burst out. Now Alastair felt more anger than fear. This was so unfair. "Yes, well I am too! I am no more older than him with just a few months!" the man furrowed his brows, "No. You are much more mature than your age." Alastair fought back an eyeroll. This was getting ridiculous. "Of course now you say that, but you never talk to me about anything, because I am apparently 'too young to understand' !"
"I do not talk to you about shadowhunter politics because you truly are too young for that!" Now the boy indeed rolled his eyes, when saying "Yeah, I sure am, but I am old enough to have sex with you 98% of the time I see you, and the other 2% is on social events, where you ignore me!" Charles looked at him shocked. Alastair never talked back, afraid of causing a fight. He regretted the words as soon as they slipped out his mouth. "You can't turn this on me, you should be the one apologising for going behind my back with some kid, and revealing our relationship!" now Alastair truly had enough. This wasn't about him telling anymore. This was about Thomas.
"Charles, this is not about me telling him about us anymore. This is about you being jealous on your brothers best friend. Which you have no reason for!" he tried to say the last part assuringly, but the other just appeared to get even more angry. Really, he had no reason to question Alastairs loyalty! He wasn't the one trying to keep this a secret, with a fake fiancée, and never telling him he loved him!
"No, this is about you meeting up with this kid, and telling him about us, behind my back!" the man said the last part pointing a finger at Alastair, accusingly. He looked at the boy like he just commited the greatest betrayal anyone could ever imagine. Alastair just shook his head. The latter suddenly felt like he couldn't hold his tears back anymore, so stood up, and turned away. But, he wasn't in luck, because the other stood up too, and grabbed his arm, so hard, it was painful. Alastair gave a sharp whimper at the hurt. Charles yanked Alastair to him by his grip. The boy made another whine in pain, but Charles didn't loosen it.
"Charles-Charles stop, this hurts-" he was cut off by the mentioned, gripping tighter. The pain by now was almost intolerable. "Don't you dare shake your head, and ignore me. Do you hear me? Never again dare turn away from me. Do you hear me, Alastair?" the man tightened his hand around the others arm, so Alastair cried out, then nodded quickly. Charles let go, and the boy nearly collapsed to the floor, but tried to stay steady. He was breathing hard, and his eyes were burning from keeping the tears back. The elder looked down at him, then away, before saying "I'm sorry, I got carried away." but there was no regret in his voice. The man looked back at him and tilted his chin up, and gave him an expectant look.
"I am sorry for telling..." he said, and Charles nodded, then leaned down to kiss him. As soon as Charles slipped his tongue in Alastairs mouth, he felt nauseated, so quickly pulled back. The man gave him an odd look, and then Alastair started excusing, "It is getting late. My sister will get suspicious of me..." he finished with a fake smile, but the other didn't notice. He nodded, and started putting on his waistcoat, along with a jacket and hat. Alastair only put his shirt on, then escorted him to the exit, and before stepping out the door, Charles gave him a last kiss.
After he heard the door close, Alastair darted up the stairs, and into one of the bathrooms to throw up. He wanted to cry. He wanted to scream. He wanted to do anything, just not stay quiet.
So, he screamed. And screamed, and screamed. Until someone came in.
"Dadash..." Layla gasped, then slipped down to the floor, beside Alastair.
"Abji! I-I am so sorry I woke you up-" He said in a hoarse voice from screaming. Cordelia shook her head.
"No, it is okay. It was just matter of time." Alastair looked questioningly at his sister.
"Of what?" he asked with slightly furrowed brows.
"You know, there is only so much of sorrow we can bear, until we break. That is why you need to let it out. You need to let yourself feel, Alastair. Or cry, or scream, just do not keep it in. If you do not let it out piece by piece, it will fall out in one big." when did his sister become so wise? Maybe she always was, he thought, they just did not talk that much. "You have to let your heart out..." she said, and put her hand on Alastairs chest, the place were ones heart was. The gesture was so warm, he felt like crying again, and hugged his sister.
"I love you, dadash..." she wispered, and in response he hugged her tighter. After a while they pulled away.
"What happened?" he just realised, he didn't give any explanation to what just happened.
"I-I cannot tell." Layla nodded, "I understand. But if something happens, let me know. Yes?" Alastair nodded too, and wiped at his eyes.
"Did maman wake up?" she shook her head, "No, I wasn't sleeping either, I just came home from Lucie and the Merry Thieves." that made him remember...
"There is still something I have to do before going to sleep..." Cordelia raised her eyebrows at that, "I promise I will be back until you wake up." he assured her, and she nodded. She told him to be careful on the streets at night, and to be safe, then left the bathroom, with a final kiss on the cheek.
After she was gone, Alastair washed his mouth out, (he was surprised Layla couldn't smell it) and rushed down the stairs, and to the door. He put on a jacket and his boots, then slipped out the door, and into the cold, dark night.
It was about half an hour later, he was standing before the Lightwoods house, and knocked on the door. Their maid opened it and asked who he was, and what the hell was he doing there. After putting on his most charming smile, he said "I am Alastair Carstairs, and I am here to see Thomas Lightwood.". The maid nodded, and told him to wait there. After a few minutes, she led him in the house, and up the stairs. Apparentaly, only Eugenia and Thomas were awake, and they were both in the boys room. She gestured to one of the doors, then walked back down, muttering something. Alastair nervously knocked on the door, and heard a female voice (probably Eugenia) shouting cheerfully "Come in!", then someone (Thomas) scolding her for doing so. He opened the door and found Eugenia stretched out on Thomas's bed (upside down), and the boy sitting next to her foot, legs crosssed under him.
"Hello." he said a little shyly. The girl wildly smiled at him, "Well hello, dear Alastair! I have to say, I am surprised to see you at this hour, but I must say, Thomas is delighted to see you, as always." she finished with a wide grin at her brother. The boy gave her a warning look, a one that Alastair recognised as something he gave Layla when she embarrassed him too much. This was a look only siblings could give the other. "Eugenia!" Thomas hissed at her, then looked at Alastair, "Hello. I am too, surprised to see you in the middle of the night."
Now that he said it out loud, it did sound ridiculous. But he couldn't have come earlier. "So why did you come? What was so urgent, it could not wait until the morning?" the hazel eyed boy asked.
"I wanted to apologise for earlier. And also speak with you in private." Thomas raised his eyebrows, and Eugenia was sipping a drink (Alastair didn't know what it was, and didn't want to), and not seeming to know who to look at. She was watching them like she was watching her favourite movie, eyes bouncing from one to the other. "In the middle of the night?" the boy asked.
"Yes?" Alastair said, but it sounded more like a question. The other boy nodded, and looked at his sister. "Would you please leave us to talk in private?" at that the girls mouth twitched, and she looked very dissapointed. "But our guest just arrived! she said looking at Alastair, as if asking for help. Thomas gave her a look that said 'I won't ask anymore', so the girl stood up, with a groan. As she left for the door, Eugenia patted Alastair on the shoulder, and wispered "Good luck!" with a wink. It was one of the rare times the boy blushed, and Eugenia giggled as she closed the door. After a moment of comfortable silence, Thomas spoke "You know you can come in, right?" and tilted his head a little to the side. "Oh, yes...Right..." the dark eyed boy muttered, as he sat down on one of the chairs near the desk, Thomas was gesturing to.
"So what did you want to talk about?" he asked, as soon as the other settled down. Alastair thought for a moment. He did not prepare any speech on his way here.
"I wanted to apologise for being so harsh with you. You were right, and I shouldn't have-" but the other put up a hand to stop him, and shook his head.
"Stop. I should not have said those things, after all, it is your life, and you know the people surrounding you. I do not know your- I do not know Charles, so I have no rights to judge him, in fact, I should not have asked any of those questions. It was none of my business, and I have no rights to judge your life at all. So I should be the one apologising here, you did what any other person would if they are angry." Alastair was absolutely shocked. Why would he say these things? Why is he so...kind? It almost made Alastair uncomfortable how much the other was taking responsibility, and was being so nice to him.
"Do you want anything to drink? I do not have anything at the moment in my room, but we can go downstairs if you want to." Well, Alastair was not thirsty, but he had to do this to accomplish his plan. So he nodded.
"Yes, I would like that." Thomas stood up, and so did Alastair, but instead of heading for the door, he walked towards the other boy. He stopped in front of him. The other was quite surprised, even confused.
"The door is the other way..." he said, pointing at it.
"Do you like me?" the taller boys eyes widened, and opened his mouth, then closed it. Alastair smirked to himself.
"Wh-What?" the shorter boy chuckled, and looked the other in the eyes. Those beautiful hazel eyes, he thought.
"Do you like me? Like me...romantically?" That just made the others eyes widen even more, and he opened his mouth slightly, and Alastair just smirked even more.
"I-I-" he chuckled again, then looked at him.
"I will take that as a yes." he said, and laced his fingers around the tallers neck, to pull him down, and into a kiss. It was a moment until Thomas's brain reacted, and realised what was happening, then put his hands around Alastairs waist to pull him closer. The latter gave an approving moan for that. The younger was quite unexperienced, but Alastair had no problem with teaching him. He took his hands from the others neck, to unbutton his waistcoat, and then tossed it to the floor. The younger was clearly about to repeat the motion with Alastairs shirt, but he accidentally touched his arm, and Alastair gave a muffled whimper of pain. Thomas immediatly pulled away and looked at Alastair, very concerned.
"What did I do?" he asked, worried about hurting the boy. Alastair gave him a tired half smile.
"It was not you. It is nothing, really." he said, trying to sound calm.
"Alastair, it isn't nothing. Show me, please."
"Thomas, really, you shouldn't be worried."
"Show me the bruise. Please." Alastair started unbuttoning his shirt instead of an answer. When it was hanging on him openly, Thomas gently slid it down his shoulders, then gasped when he saw the nearly black bruise. The boy just looked down, not sure why, but he felt his eyes sting again.
"Alastair...Who did it?" when there came no answer, he asked "...Was it Charles?". There was still no answer. "Oh Alastair...I am so sorry..." he wispered, when he hugged him, this time careful not to touch the bruise. The dark eyed boy started sobbing, his face burried in the others chest, staining his shirt with tears. He suddenly felt like the ground was disappearing, but Thomas had no trouble with reaching under his knees, to craddle him up, bridel style, if you will. The taller boy carried him to the bed, and gingerly placed him on one of the sides of it, still a little curled up, and crying. Thomas first drew an iratze on his arm, then climbed behind him and hugged around his torso.
"He will never hurt you again, I promise." Thomas kissed his jaw, and started murmuring soothing words. After he kissed, cherished, and hugged Alastair until he stopped crying, they both fell into a comfortable, calming silence. Alastair finally felt safe. He felt like he was home.
"He will never come close to you ever again. I will make sure."
So, what do ya'll think?
Ik its been really angsty, but you made it here! So, I promise, the next chapter will be super fluffy! And that dick will finally get what he deservessssssssss
Yupp, Thomas will totally beat him up lol
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