An evil spirit haunted me and my friends until I agreed to go on a gender discovery journey, but at the end of the journey it turned out I was just a vampire with the flu.

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An evil spirit haunted me and my friends until I agreed to go on a gender discovery journey, but at the end of the journey it turned out I was just a vampire with the flu.
Gender Discovery (kinda long post)
Holy fuckin shit.. so I just realized I am a demiboy. Technically. On paper.
Which is funny because when I came out to my friend a little over a month ago and I told him how my gender feels to me, he was like “isn’t that being a demiboy? Have you considered that one before?” And I was like no no that’s not it. But tbh it’s been at least 8 years since I even read the definition of it.
So anyway, I just happened to see something about the demiboy label, so I decided to look it up…
Btw, fuck cisnormativity. Because this entire time, like since I first started questioning my gender in 2013 until now, I thought that being a demiboy meant you felt male most of the time and female sometimes. So I was always like, no that’s not me. Because I don’t feel female.
I just found out being a demiboy means part of your gender is male, and the remaining part is nonbinary or agender or genderfluid. In my case it would be male + agender.
Since coming out (to myself again), I’ve been saying I’m transmasc and agender. I use the label transgender for myself too because I’m afab and I want to transition and look visibly male. I feel like non-binary suits me in a way too, because my gender doesn’t feel wholly male/binary.
Demiboy literally is a single term for that. So that’s so great. Also hi at my friend cuz you apparently know me better than I know myself dude lol.
I feel a lot of connection to the other labels and flags I’ve been using. So it might take me some time to get used to demiboy and the flag for it.
I’m just collecting labels and pride flags like infinity stones at this point I guess. Which I kinda wish there was just one single one that felt right for my sexuality and one for my gender, but nope I gotta be complicated apparently. Tagging my labels so strap in for a wild ride.
(Can I also just say, listening to Pink Floyd when I type this out is an experience.)
There's this inside out theory that Riley is bigender because her emotions are a mix of boy and girl.
I keep getting the mental image of Riley walking down the street and some stranger calls her a boy and its like Joy: Oh that's neat! Boop! One of the other emotions: Isn't she supposed to feel bad about being called a boy? Not good? Joy: Oops.
Then later Anxiety decides to put the memory into the sense of self because 'it'll affirm her gender!' or whatever and they put it in but then the sense of self and Riley shriek in unison: I'M A GUY!?
To be honest I understand the impulse behind chivalry 100%. Idk if it should be as masculinized as it is but well, being polite, helpful and dependable in that traditional chivalric way gives me gender euphoria. Those traits aren’t strictly masculine of course I just much prefer to be on the giving and not receiving side, it aligns more with the person I wanna be.
Yoooooo!! HeyHay upgrading pronouns is such a huge step! congrats my guy! and i wish you luck on your journey of gender discovery (welcome to the club lo)
I will say, this did remind me of a ha ha blooper i did a few months ago that'll ill finally share xD
just wanted to bump one of my favorite works centered around wylan exploring gender identity!!! read it here!!!
here’s a little snippet <3
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A memory flits through Wylan’s memory. A warm vendor, holding the tent open for him, a question on their tongue. I would hate for you to lose them. And something loosens in his chest.
Wylan smiles to himself, slipping back into him and Jesper’s bed, tugging his boyfriend against his chest and pressing a kiss to his bare shoulder. Jesper hums and rolls over to face him.
“Morning love,” he murmurs, voice rough from sleep.
“Hi,” Wylan says with a soft smile, brushing a curl from Jesper’s forehead.
“You feeling okay?” Jesper asks. It's become a routine, the first phrase from Jesper’s lips, Wylan always nodding a tight yes before forcing himself up, away. But he hasn’t been okay, not really.
Now, warm from sleep and love and another thing Wylan can’t place, he cups Jesper’s face and kisses him for what feels like the first time in weeks, and maybe it is.
“Yeah, I really am, Jes.”
Me: 'Yeah, I do think about my gender identity quite often but I don‘t think that this has to have a certain meaning.'
My brain: 'You do know that Cis people don‘t think about their gender everyday, right?'
Me: 'Uhm.. yes.'
My brain: 'And they don‘t look at boys names and are like.. mhh, I like those.'
Me: 'Alright, I think we should continue this conversation at another time.'
resume is finished, I just need to start applying for jobs..
but before then. I did promise I'd finish a WIP ;)
so... all y'alls....
which WIP/fics in my drafts
Strange Jar (wongstrange discord)
My Name is Stephen Strange (trans Stephen fic but he only realizes at Kamar-Taj)
No Title (yet. trans day of visibility. haters get bitch-slapped by nbmasc Wong)
Pronouns (genderfluid Stephen using different pronouns. demiboy ace Wong)
next installment of the stephen mpreg
Stephen mpreg but ✨ d r a m a t i c ✨