11/30/23
Today is better in many ways.
I am having a period. The pain was less than normal but I am requiring frequent bathroom breaks.
I was able to do some tasks that will make the evening easier. But I probably have to go to the grocery store which i wanted to avoid. Fuck.
I am fighting thru my workday. So close to the end, but struggling with system updates that fuck everything up. Annoyed at everything.
Walked the dogs as much as I could outside.
Got the mail. Did the dishes. Cooked mom breakfast. Cleaned 1 kitty box & set of puppy papers, mopped the floor in that room.
Unwrapped some stuff. Ordered some stuff from Amazon.
Took my leave of Facebook.-Now if I could only quit it for real.
My dog has been sick. Pukey. It sucks to see his uncomfortable.
I am working to accept the seemingly inevitable breakup. I feel like I have been holding on to a fantasy. This gal might be the best person I have ever known and I don't know why we don't have chemistry. We talk all the time, messaging. But in person, we suck at physicality and I think I am just at the point where I am not longer really wanting that. I struggle with it but the fact is, we suck. I just don't have the vroom vroom anymore.
I need to make sure that I am on my shit better. Especially with paying bills, debt reduction, and saving for my future.
I am it baby. No one is going to save me. Get fucking focused and save yourself.
Fix your shit.
Get back into school.
Pay your fucking taxes.
Fucking do it.
Get your fucking head together, woman.
Stop waiting for someone to love you. Maybe just take some time and love yourself.












