#grace is dramatic

[wishfularoace]

does anyone want to be best friends that also live together and go on adventures together but like mundane adventures like ikea and target and also wants to lay our heads on each others shoulders when sleepy but also have separate bedrooms but also enjoy spending most of our free time together……. just me? ok

[animalsandskyyy]

the grief of knowing i’ll never get to fully experience life through someone else’s eyes

how their childhood home mixes with new places in their dreams

the memories sparked by the smell of eucalyptus or the mention of hot chocolate

their first experience with the ocean or the mountains and how that memory influences all other interactions with such places

the words their mother or grandparents said that still stick in their mind to this day

the evolution of their deepest thoughts and how they perceive and know themselves

the even deeper grief that no one will ever know me in this way or fully understand me and my thoughts and actions

that I will be the only person to ever know myself to the deepest and fullest extent

that once i’m gone, that understanding and knowledge will be lost to time

that only the inaccurate perception that my extended family and former work acquaintances know will be remembered

grieving a version of yourself that is still here and alive and ever changing and only growing deeper

wanting to be a mystery to those unworthy

but also wanting to be known deeply and truly by all

grieving a self only you know

[awfully-loud-for-an-introvert]

poem

Lay by my side My dearest bride Don’t you start to cry I’ve yet to say goodbye Don’t you weep Just try to sleep And when you wake I’ll be gone But don’t despair for too long My lily, daisy, rose You simply must know That I will still be by your side Although only in your mind So dearest watch the sky And how the birds fly Count the future snows And when and where the flowers grow For I’ll return to thee Although not soon in time you’ll see That I’ll be coming home I’ll no longer have to be alone For I’m in pain you see Without you I’m in such misery But please don’t you worry I’ll be alright when it’s you that I see My sweet little darling My faith in you is not falling Soon we will delight In being in one another’s sight So if I devote my love to thee And you do just the same to me Then soon the time will fly We’ll forget we ever said goodbye

[animalsandskyyy]

I have crocheted an octopus.

he has 9 tentacles because I calculated stitches wrong.

I love him.

[animalsandskyyy]

I took 273 photos of cows yesterday

[animalsandskyyy]

I am friends with my mom

I love my mom

but damn did she really drop the ball on homeschooling

just feeling this hard now, as i’m having to submit a high school transcript and I don’t know if I have one

like when I “graduated” I made a deal about making sure I had one

and I think we did one?

but I have no clue where it is

and I did all the research for it and all the effort for it

because she didn’t see the point in it

and granted part of this is on me for not pushing and for not knowing what I wanted to do next and so yeah it wasn’t the most necessary

but also isn’t it lowkey fucked that she wouldn’t make sure it was all handled just in case?

isn’t that like parental thinking ahead?

“you might not need this now but you might someday and i’m making sure you have it”

like why wasn’t that the case?

i’m just a little pissed about this

[animalsandskyyy]

I have a conflicting love hate relationship with tumblr.com

[animalsandskyyy]

was no one going to tell me that "future me" isnt free anymore