Nishinoya has anxiety, but not in the way you might think. He’s fine with standing in front of people and doing presentations, he can just drown out mostly anything with his obnoxiously loud voice. No, Nishinoya has anxiety in different ways. He’ll push off his work because he thinks everything he does isn’t good enough. He’ll then become even more anxious because his work isn’t done. He’ll shove himself into volleyball, even if he’s sick, because if he misses volleyball, he’ll fall behind, and if he falls behind, he’ll have to work even harder to catch up or have a panic attack from all the stress.
When he had a fight with Asahi and he was sent to the principal’s office and heard he was suspended from club activities, as soon as he left the office he had the worst panic attack in his entire life. Uncontrollable sobbing, not being able to breathe, and throwing up in the midst of all of it. It took him a while to build up the courage to go talk to Asahi again, and when he finally did, he didn’t regret it. As much as Nishinoya fights with anxiety, he still will try to look at the brighter side of things in the midst of it.
again, very niche, but very accurate (edited for error oopsie)
tw for cursing
terushima // dated him for a month and a half. he manipulated the hell out of me and held my hand against my will while Spiderman got dusted in Infinity War. good kisser tho.
kageyama // went to go see Avengers: Endgame with him one year after I saw Infinity War with my ex-boyfriend who he was good friends with. at the beginning of the movie I said “please don’t hold my hand” and he said “wasn’t planning on it”.
tendou // stapled various kinds of bread to all the trees on campus senior year and like two days after we made this pact that if we were both single when we were thirty, we’d get married and move to alaska. he’s engaged now 😞
kuroo // smartest kid I’ve ever met, but he knew that he was a genius and also popular and he milked that shit for all it was worth. went into a depression spiral when he got rejected from his dream school but then he got accepted to MIT
suna // he was my lab partner junior year and I was literally in love with him but then he got funny and popular and lost his appeal. sometimes he posts pictures of him doing watercolor with his cat which is just a lot to take in.
nishinoya // jumped down an entire flight of stairs, took a desk from a classroom and pulled it into the boy’s bathroom, got suspended for jumping in a little trash can that exploded into a million pieces. oh, and I lent him my copy of lord of the flies at some point.
yamaguchi // like the only other leftist in that entire goddamn school. has the singing voice of an ANGEL and got really hot after going to college.
matsukawa // I fell in love with him for like two seconds because he very gingerly touched my back as he passed behind me. and when my friends ditched me at senior homecoming, I sat across from him at an otherwise empty table and we exchanged a look that said “I really don’t wanna be here”.
oikawa // we all thought he was gay then he started dating some girl. it was very jarring. not sure what’s happened since.
bokuto // actually one of my favorite people ever. we did theatre together for a long time and he gives these bear hugs where he literally picks you up off the ground. one time he put this kid’s costume pants in the freezer, he said it “builds character”.
daichi // he was a swimmer so his shoulders were just very b r o a d. only went to my school for freshman year, and then I saw him at a football game the following year and we walked around the track and talked for hours. he said he’d call me then he never did. lol.
kenma // was high literally every day of school and only showed up 50% of the time but one day he said I was the most genuine person he’d ever met and I internalized the compliment so hard.
kyoutani // literally hated me for no reason. like I’d say anything and he’d be like “shut up” and I’d just kinda sit there like 🤨 okay ?? we ended up going to the same college and he lived in the apartment directly above me and one time I heard him laugh through the grate while I was taking a shower and I wanted to die.
tanaka // actually the sweetest guy I met in high school. he told me I had a nice smile and I NEVER forgot it. and he wrote something really nice in my yearbook. always had to work after school and had the same girlfriend for like ever. I hope he’s thriving.
warnings: manga spoilers, general drunkenness, mentions of drug use, implied sexual content, cursing, emetophobes beware there is lots of frow up
𝐊𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐎
𝐇𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐚 // Three drinks, this mfer is out. I mean, alcohol touches his lips and suddenly he’s laying out on the pool table like a starfish. There was one night where he got roped into doing Jell-O shots but he thought it was just straight up Jell-O so he had like 20 of them then he threw up radioactive sludge into someone’s pool. He can’t remember whose pool it was, but he woke up at home, so he never got to apologize.
𝐊𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐲𝐚𝐦𝐚 // When he’s drunk, he just kinda goes silent. But like the type of silent that you have to wave your hand in front of his face every ten minutes to make sure he’s not dead. The lights may be on, but no one’s home. One time someone asked him what he was thinking, and he responded in this fake alien language that brought the conversation to a screaming halt for like ten minutes. No one asks him what he’s thinking anymore.
𝐓𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐦𝐚 // He goes on and on about how he’s a beer snob and would never be caught dead doing shots but, next thing you know, he’s at the bar with Yamaguchi downing José Cuervo like it’s water. He always wears a tie to the bar and his friends are convinced he does it on purpose so he can put the thing around his head at some point. Goes absolutely apeshit on the dance floor when “Tub Thumping” by Chumbawumba comes on.
𝐘𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐮𝐜𝐡𝐢 // A very unexpected heavyweight when it comes to most alcohols, but there was one unfortunate night during a very heated political debate between some of his college buddies that he was drinking one Smirnoff Ice after another. Eventually, they all became incoherent and slept in a neat little dogpile and around 3AM, Yamaguchi woke up and felt an elbow right in his stomach which made him throw up Smirnoff Ice literally everywhere. Now whenever he walks into a party and someone tries to Ice him, he gets queasy.
𝐄𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐚 // Took an oath of sobriety after he fell into the dessert table at Tanaka and Kiyoko’s wedding. Granted, he was trying to flirt with the bartender which meant getting as many drinks as possible to have an excuse to talk to them, but the cranberry vodkas eventually caught up with him. He got carried away fake slow dancing with Nishinoya and fell ass-first into the crème puff tower. Tanaka flipped out, Kiyoko thought it was the funniest goddamn thing she’s ever seen.
𝐓𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐤𝐚 // He’s had lots of practice, so alcohol doesn’t really hit for him like it used to, but he’s used his newfound power to win an inordinate amount of beer-chugging competitions. It’s like magic, the beer just disappears down his throat. Then he’ll go down a bowl of ramen right after like, this boy has got to have some sort of IBS by now or something from the sheer stomach assault. The scariest thing is that while he’s chugging the beer, he makes eye contact with his opponent—like as his throat is guzzling down glass after glass, mans is just looking 👁👁
𝐍𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐨𝐲𝐚 // He’s a fun drunk, but only until he hits the wall. What’s the wall, you may ask? Asahi is the only one who knows when Noya is dangerously approaching the wall, so people will literally call him asking why Noya was just trying to scale the pool cage like Spiderman but now he’s floating in the water acting like he’s in an Evanescence music video. The wall is a bit of an enigma because it takes him a while to get there, but it’s straight up Jekyll and Hyde when it happens.
𝐀𝐬𝐚𝐡𝐢 // He prefers to stick to beer and wine because he likes the warm feeling in his tummy. But really the reason he doesn’t drink very often is because he’s mortally terrified of throwing up or being associated with anyone else throwing up, so when someone looks like they’re about to lose it, he literally just leaves. One time he kicked Tanaka out of his car because he started gagging. Asahi literally pushed this man behind a bush to finish his business and blasted “Hollaback Girl” to mask the barfing noises. Tanaka crashed on his couch that night but then thought it would be funny to stand in Asahi’s doorway at 4AM and say “I frew up”. Asahi threw a pillow at his face and left a bruise on the bridge of his nose.
𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐚 // Suga is…wait where’s Suga? Shit, he was JUST here, I swear. Suga disappears like a trained magician, one minute he’s there, the next minute he’s down the road at the drag bar putting dollar bills he stole from Daichi’s back pocket in between some fake tiddies while “Paparazzi” by Lady Gaga blasts in the background. And when his friends come to collect him, he won’t shut up about how they’re “no fun” and “never let him pet the raccoons digging in the trash can”.
𝐃𝐚𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐢 // Another guy that likes to stick to beer and the occasional whiskey, but Suga bought him this super expensive bourbon one year for his birthday that he kept drinking because it was really good quality. And Daichi discovered that when he’s drunk he gets—naked. Like no shirt, tighty-whiteys, tan line lookin’ ass standing on the roof yelling about god knows what. And it was a really funny story until he went into work and one of his coworkers said they saw him while on patrol and had dashcam footage of the entire thing. His entire squadron now calls him “Calvin Klein” and he has officially banned bourbon from being within ten feet of him at all times.
𝐍𝐄𝐊𝐎𝐌𝐀
𝐊𝐮𝐫𝐨𝐨 // If there is something nearby that can produce smoke, drunk Kuroo is gonna find it and put his lips on it. Vape pen, blunt, cigarette—it literally does not matter, Kuroo will snatch it out of someone’s hand and take a hit. Because of this, he’s gotten punched a lot and he also frequents the doctor for multiple, varied cases of cold sores and other oral ailments. Kenma tells him to bring his own shit to smoke, but Kuroo says it’s not as fun that way. He almost learned his lesson after he took a drag from this girl’s cigarette and her boyfriend turned around and just happened to be his boss. It was a corporate Christmas party.
𝐊𝐞𝐧𝐦𝐚 // He doesn’t drink very often but, when he does, it goes poorly. Kenma has a lot of ~pent up rage~ that he channels through fighting men much bigger than him in the alley behind the bar. He’ll just kinda disappear for thirty minutes then come back with a black eye, a bloody nose, and half of his tooth gone. One time, he fought this guy in a mascot costume because he thought it was, in his words, “furry appropriation” and Kenma has lots of furry friends that he loves and respects (i.e. they give big ass donations in his streams). His least favorite part of the night is walking the back alleys with his friends at the end of the night to look for the other half of his tooth.
𝐘𝐚𝐤𝐮 // This boy literally has to pee every three seconds. Like he’ll get a drink, then pee, take three sips, then go pee, finish a drink, then go pee and order another one on the way back. He’s gone to the doctor to check for infections and stuff, but he just has the smallest bladder known to man. And if he meets a ~special someone~ at the bar, he’ll always drag them to the bathroom...y’know, just in case.
𝐘𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐨 // Yamamoto just doesn’t shut up when he’s drunk. Everyone just listens to him talk on and on about literally nothing. If his friends leave him unattended for just one second, he’ll leave and talk to just random people. But he somehow always makes friends. Like his original group will say that they’re relocating to a different bar and he’s like “Cool, can my friends Carl, Nina, and Franklin come? They’re from South Africa and they snuck a snake onto their flight who likes to wear pirate hats” and then they’ll all go to the next bar. The cycle continues until the group is far too big and Yamamoto has to say goodnight to his weird new friends.
𝐋𝐞𝐯 // He has height to give him a drinking advantage, but he’s very gangly which means that he just breaks shit left and right when he’s drunk. He’s been officially banned from so many house parties because he’ll get a little too excited about Mario Kart and bust three lightbulbs at once with his fist. He knocks over priceless glass heirlooms and framed photos and other people’s drinks. One time he literally stepped on Yaku and the man beat him to a fucking pulp, but Yaku eventually had to stop because he had to pee.
𝐅𝐮𝐤𝐮𝐧𝐚𝐠𝐚 // He thinks he gets funnier as he gets drunker, but it’s only because his audience gets drunk at the same time, so any sober mind would hear the most disjointed jokes ever told but Fukunaga and his friends are losing their goddamn minds. They always get to a point where Fukunaga will just say something like “chicken” and the entire group goes apeshit and pisses themselves laughing over literally nothing. When this happens, he feels like a god.
𝐅𝐔𝐊𝐔𝐑𝐎𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐈
𝐁𝐨𝐤𝐮𝐭𝐨 // He’s a daredevil drunk, which means that if a feat was impossible to Sober Bokuto, it is now magically possible to Drunk Bokuto. Akaashi was his angel protector right out of high school, but now he just jumps off of roofs like nothing is gonna happen when he hits the ground. He has rock climbed multi-story brick buildings and dumpster dived in literal garbage trucks. But when he gets tired, he gets fussy and mopes on the couch with a bottle balanced between his tiddies and his lips.
𝐀𝐤𝐚𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐢 // It takes a lot to get this man drunk. And, like Sugawara, he kinda disappears halfway through house parties. But instead of being found in a completely different location having the time of his life, he’s usually found crying in the corner with the house owner’s cat cradled in his arms like a baby. Then he’ll go on this whole tangent about how no one understands cats and he loves them so much and he just wants every cat in the world to have a home and it’s so unfair that he can’t adopt more cats in his current apartment—
𝐀𝐎𝐁𝐀 𝐉𝐎𝐇𝐒𝐀𝐈
𝐎𝐢𝐤𝐚𝐰𝐚 // He gets significantly flirtier while drunk, but the flirting gets gradually more incoherent as the night wanes. Like at the beginning of the night he’s pulling numbers and doing questionable things in club bathrooms, but once 1AM hits, he’s complimenting people on their eyelashes and asking to touch them (he always pokes them in the eye) or saying how much he likes someone’s drink before stealing it and downing it. His dancing also nosedives in quality; he just kinda sways back and forth until someone comes to save him and drive him home.
𝐈𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐳𝐮𝐦𝐢 // He’s not a fan of clubs but Oikawa always drags him to them against his will. Eventually, he learned how to mooch free drinks from the bartenders who thought he was hot. This got the better of him one night when he started an unofficial arm-wrestling tournament in the corner of the club and, soon, all of the club-goers were shoved together cheering him on while he absolutely obliterated contestant after contestant. He did have to excuse himself at some point to dry heave in the gutter. And he always wakes up the next morning laying horizontally in his bed which is just strange.
𝐊𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐢 // The most paranoid drunk. This man has a couple shots and suddenly he’s hunched behind a table with his friend talking about how the bartender is a CIA conspirator that is hunting him down for his crimes. He never says what crimes they are, they’re always just “crimes”. He growls at anyone who tries to talk to him because he’s so convinced that everyone is an alien and they’ve come to bite him and make him an alien too. Literally, he saw Iwaizumi once and didn’t recognize him for a moment, so Kyoutani puts this man in a chokehold and asks what he knows about the Panama Papers. Iwaizumi was like “the fucking what?”. Now he’s only allowed to get drunk at home with people he trusts—people being the Sendai Frogs.
𝐌𝐚𝐭𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐚𝐰𝐚 // Crossfaded constantly. Every few words he has to bring up that his body feels weird and everyone’s like “yeah we know” and then he just says it again. This guy will slump on the couch at a house party and just stare at the ceiling and, if anyone joins him, he’ll start explaining the Monopoly game he sees on it on how all of the players are just his friends dressed as his mom. He’s only had his stomach pumped twice, but he’s going for a biblical third. Hanamaki stopped entertaining the thought because the drive to the hospital is brutal and he has no more gas money.
𝐇𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢 // When drunk, Makki turns into the biggest bully ever. He just goes around roasting people on very specific things that they’re obviously insecure about. No one knows how, but he can take one look at a person and know to ask them how their parent’s divorce is going. He can make a girl cry in 30 seconds flat, he had Mattsun time it.
𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐙𝐀𝐖𝐀
𝐔𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐣𝐢𝐦𝐚 // Ushijima’s demeanor doesn’t change much under the influence, but he does suddenly enjoy lifting things. If he’s at a house party, he’ll just go around lifting different pieces of furniture to prove that he can. He usually collects a gaggle of fascinated girls who just wanna watch his biceps ripple as he like lifts up a dresser or something. He’s only a little bothered that he’s never strong enough to lift refrigerators.
𝐓𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐮 // Drunk Tendou tends to get roped into things pretty easily. I mean four tequila shots in and suddenly he’s behind the bar serving drinks to people—like where’s the bartender? Take him to a drag show and next thing you know, he’s sauntering onstage with a feather boa and the highest pair of heels you’ve ever seen. The only time it ever went wrong was when he almost joined a cult because they “seemed friendly”.
𝐆𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐤𝐢 // This boy is way too obsessed with bar games. The minute he walks in he’s stalking the pool table and waiting for his turn to play, even though he’s absolute dogshit at it. He’s also obsessed with that ring on a string game that you try to get it on the hook on the wall and one time, he got so heated that he ripped the hook off the wall and got thrown out.
𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐮 // Drunk Shirabu will literally complain about everything. No matter where you are, this man is gonna find something to bitch about. He’ll complain about the décor or the air conditioning or the amount of ice in his drink or the state of the bathrooms. His friends have started calling him the “Bitch-mobile” and when he got punched by a bartender for complaining about yet another drink, they wouldn’t stop saying he got his headlight busted out.
𝐒𝐞𝐦𝐢 // One word: hornee. This guy gets a couple drinks in his system and he’s prepared to screw anything that moves. His friends have literally started designating one of the rooms in the house party as the “Semi Room” that they have to train him to use like he’s a puppy who can’t find the pee pad. But the following morning, whoever he was with the night prior is always gone and he won’t admit that he’s a little bummed always waking up to an empty bed. He makes a mean hangover omelet, but no one stays around long enough to try it.
𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐙𝐀𝐊𝐈
𝐀𝐭𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐮 // This man will make everything into a challenge when he’s drunk. He can’t even walk in a straight line and he’ll start racing the guy walking in front of him on the sidewalk for literally no reason. He’ll watch someone sip from their drink and make it a point to finish his drink faster. He never gets anything for winning, and everyone is tired of his bullshit.
𝐎𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐮 // It’s hard to tell when Osamu is drunk, but you definitely know he is when he cannot control his limbs anymore. He can’t go out drinking with less than four friends because he’ll eventually need someone to hold each limb and carry him to whatever transportation they’re using. Occasionally his friends will get sidetracked and he’ll lay motionless into the gutter for a little while. One time they forgot him there.
𝐀𝐫𝐚𝐧 // He’s an insufferable ‘I love you’ drunk. He says it to his friends, then he calls his parents to tell them how much he loves them, then he calls each of the Miya twins, then he says it to some kid he sat next to in his freshman Bio lecture. And it was a pretty endearing habit until he told the uber driver one time that he loved him and then proceeded to kiss him square on the lips. Now he refuses to take Ubers, even while sober.
𝐊𝐢𝐭𝐚 /// Kita is almost as bad of an ‘I love you’ drunk as Aran, but he tends to lavish care on random animals he finds outside. Like he and his friends could be walking down the sidewalk and Kita will see a caterpillar who’s been smooshed by someone’s shoe and he just loses it. Automatic tears. He’ll lament about how he couldn’t save the caterpillar and how he can’t protect every animal on earth. He keeps tissues with him when he goes out drinking.
𝐒𝐮𝐧𝐚 // Suna disappears about two minutes into every bar or club outing because he’s just sitting in the bathroom talking to people who walk in. He’ll take his drinks in there and sit on the countertop and have full-blown conversations through the stall door. He’ll also ask people to kiss him as payment to use the stall because 6 times out of 10, it works. And his twitter handle is on every bar bathroom wall in a ten-mile radius.
𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒
𝐓𝐞𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐦𝐚 // Yeah, the douchey frat boy act never went away, so he definitely prefers a house party to a bar or club outing. This guy can tap a keg in five seconds, has used that beer funnel more times in one week than he’s called his mom ever, and owns seven shirts that have some joke using the word ‘bitches’. His drink of choice used to be Four Lokos until he accidentally drank too much and had an out of body experience. He swore he saw God. Now he won’t touch the shit.
𝐊𝐢𝐲𝐨𝐤𝐨 // Kiyoko didn’t have time to eat anything on her wedding day, so when she started tossing back glasses of champagne, they went straight to her bloodstream. Tanaka had to hold her hair and her dress while she puked in the fancy venue toilet and he kept planting kisses on her cheek and telling her how beautiful she looked.
𝐘𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐢 // For her 21st birthday, Kiyoko took Yachi out for brunch where they could order bottomless mimosas, but she got so drunk that she told the waitress she was in love with her then fell into a nearby bush and contracted poison ivy. She was still drunk when they got to the hospital and she kept complaining that they gave her a guy doctor instead of a girl doctor.
𝐂𝐨𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐔𝐤𝐚𝐢 // It takes a lot to get Ukai drunk, but he should get his phone taken away as a precautionary measure no matter what. When this man hits the wall, he’s calling and facetiming literally everyone in his contacts. He’ll call Takeda, then he’ll call his dad, then suddenly he’s video chatting with his chiropractor. Lots of incoherent texts and downright concerning voicemails.
𝐓𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐝𝐚 // If you’ve ever seen Yuri on Ice, think Yuri at that banquet. Takeda’s a pretty standup guy, so going out drinking is his only time to really let loose—and Takeda lets loose. He will remove his pants and start grinding on complete strangers. And one time, he was out at the club and was just going ham on the dance floor when he tried to tap this tall beefcake on the shoulder to ask him to dance. It was Daichi. He cried in the bathroom.
𝐀𝐤𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐮 // He’s a big softy, so he’ll always end up at home flipping through old photo albums and crying about it. If he’s with Tsukki, he’ll just cry into this boy’s shoulder about how they’ll never get to be kids again and how beautiful their mother was in her youth and how much he misses that carnival they used to go to. And he’s a snotty crier, so he’ll wake up with the entire neck of his shirt crusted with boogers.
𝐒𝐚𝐞𝐤𝐨 // She’s at the tattoo parlor getting the bartender’s name printed on her ass. I’m kidding—kinda. She’s definitely getting some kind of tattoo, and maybe a piercing while she’s at it. She swears to her friends that she won’t make them drive her to get some kind of body mod, but she always ends up scrolling through nipple piercings on Pinterest and whining about how cute she would look with them and they eventually take her just so she’ll shut up.
𝐒𝐚𝐤𝐮𝐬𝐚 // You wouldn’t catch him dead at a bar or a club and he’s usually pretty responsible with alcohol while at home with his friends. However, he had dinner with his parents this one night so they could meet this person he’d been dating for a little while, but he was so nervous that he kept asking the waiter to refill his wine and, eventually, he was tipsy out of his mind. He started dishing to his parents about his own sex life (particularly with this current s/o) and ended up zonking out in the backseat of his dad’s Toyota Corolla before they could even leave the restaurant. He woke up at home with a killer headache and a note from his significant other that said they should probably see other people.
haikyuu pairings as my chemical romance songs pt. 2
pairings: sakuatsu, kuroken, bokuaka, asanoya
cw: angst, manga spoilers
part 1
Atsumu & Sakusa: The Only Hope For Me Is You
Remember me
Remember me
In their own ways, both Atsumu and Sakusa have always felt like outcasts. Atsumu can’t help but feel constantly associated with his brother while Sakusa avoids social life altogether for fear of everyone disovering how truly incapable he is. As they realize their new feelings for one another, they recoil and run in opposite directions
If that’s the best that I could be
Then I’d be another memory
Can I be the only hope for you?
Because you’re the only hope for me
With foreheads pressed together, Atsumu questions why a man like Sakusa would even look twice at him. He tells Sakusa that he’s the only hope he’s ever really had in love. Sakusa doesn’t respond, even though he wants to say the same. What if they rely so heavily on each other’s crumbling bodies that they both end up falling?
And if we can’t find where we belong
We’ll have to make it on our own
Face all the pain and take it on
They can run as long as they want, but love’s pursuit is unrelenting, and they always end up back in each other’s arms. If the world refuses to love them, they will love each other recklessly. They will face every ill of the world, but only if they can face it together. While they can poke fun at one another’s brokenness and deformities, no one else is granted the same permission.
Kuroo & Kenma: The Kids From Yesterday
And you only live forever in the lights you make
When we were young, we used to say
It’s no mystery that they’ve always loved each other. Their parents predicted it years ago, Kuroo’s sister never shut up about it, and even Hinata would drop not-so-subtle hints to Kenma about the whole ordeal. The night that Kuroo graduated, he picked Kenma up in his car and sped down the road with his windows down to make sure their music blasted down the entire street.
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break
Now we are the kids from yesterday
‘He’s leaving’, Kenma reminds himself. The music sounds bittersweet now, especially with Kuroo’s departure on the horizon. Perhaps that’s why Kenma can’t hep but bid him goodbye with a kiss that he’s been holding off on for nearly a decade. And when they’re forced to stare at one another after the kiss breaks, they can only think about how little has changed since they were young. Kuroo keeps driving, even past the border of town, just for the illusion of freedom. It’s a moment to pretend that they can keep driving forever and ever.
We don’t care about the message or the rules they make
I’ll find you when the sun goes black
Everyone told Kenma that it was foolish to be with someone who is leaving for a while. They say that Kuroo is moving onto bigger and better things, but Kenma can’t help but see himself in those bigger, better things. They promise each other to reunite, come hell or high waters.
Akaashi & Bokuto: Demolition Lovers
I’ll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
There’s nothing that can dampen the love they feel for one another, and there’s been attempts on all fronts: sickness, distance, uncertainty. But when Akaashi tells Bokuto that he wants to take a break, Bokuto doesn’t know how to respond. It isn’t that Akaashi doesn’t love Bokuto, it’s the constant uncertainty that will kill him if he continues. His mind won’t stop flooding with questions and doubts about how much he really cares for Bokuto, and he’d rather die than see Bokuto hurt by it all.
All we are, all we are is bullets, I mean this
All we are, all we are is bullets, I mean this
In essence, their love is bullets shot from old guns, fast and deadly. Akaashi’s words are lethal. And as Bokuto’s face falls, he feels the bullets travel through the center of his chest. Akaashi hopes to die before he has to watch Bokuto fall in love with someone else.
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame
We’re burning forever and ever
But Bokuto refuses to leave until he understands. He stands still like a statue until Akaashi explains himelf. He doesn’t understand why Akaashi would doubt, why he’d be confused about their love. Why isn’t there anything he can do? Why can’t he make it all better by just loving him even more than before?
And as we’re touching hands, and as we’re falling down
I’ll meet your eyes, I mean this forever
Bokuto finally concedes. Akaashi promises that he’ll come back once he’s gotten help, but as Akaashi falls into the darkness, Bokuto wishes he was doing the same. He wishes they were holding onto one another, descending into mutual madness. That’s it, Bokuto would go absolutely mad if it meant keeping Akaashi.
Asahi & Nishinoya: Summertime
When the lights go out, will you take me with you?
And carry all this broken bone
Through six years down in crowded rooms
And highways I call home
At some point, Nishinoya grows tired of the jet-setting and the distance from home. As beautiful as the Italian landscape is, he feels infinitely more lonely every time he looks at it. He wishes there was someonoe beside him, someone accompanying him on his adventures. And when he finally returns to Japan, he fears that he’s asking far too much of an Asahi whose life is structured and composed. As they drive the country roads together, Nishinoya can only criticize himself for all his missteps.
Terrified of what I’d be
As a kid, from what I’ve seen
Every single day, when people try
And put the pieces back together
Asahi is insistent on helping Nishinoya piece his life back together. He is even more deliberate in leaving a space for himself. He promises that Nishinoya will never feel lonely again, not if he has anything to do with it.
If you stay, I would even wait all night
Or until my heart explodes
How long until we find our way
In the dark and out of harm?
Eventually, they agree to travel together, crawling out from beneath the suffocating air of their home and finding it, instead, in each other. And at the bases of pyramids and near the entraces to jungle trails and on the shorelines of massive oceans, Nishinoya feels most himself with Asahi beside him, planting reassuring kisses to the crown of his head.
haikyuu pairings as my chemical romance songs pt. 1
this is for a very niche group of people, but if ya'll are out there, I want to be friends with you
pairings: kagehina, iwaoi, ushiten
cw: light angst, tiny manga spoiler
part 2
Hinata & Kageyama: S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W
Make a wish when your childhood dies
Hear the knock, knock, knock when she cries
We're all alone tonight
Adolescence, open fields, the sun shining against the tall grass, the buzz of junebugs in late summer. Hinata and Kageyama know that a day will come when their childhood will end, but that won’t keep them from holding onto each other, blinding themselves by staring at the setting sun.
Hold your breath when a black bird flies
Count to seventeen and close your eyes
I'll keep you safe inside
Effectively, they’re now scarecrows in the world that once granted them unquestioned freedom. When the nasty demon of death flies over, they hold onto one another in hopes that they’ll see each other when they open their eyes.
Blow a kiss at the methane skies
See the rust through your playground eyes
We're all in love tonight
Even as the world ages around them, they will keep each other in perpetual youth, playing and laughing like they used to. And every night they will thank the heavens for one another.
Iwaizumi & Oikawa: Boy Division
Well, it better be black and it better be tight
And it better be just my size
I'm stalkin' these metro malls and airport halls
And all these schoolgirls
When Iwaizumi finally decides he’s going to California, Oikawa can’t help but feel like he’s being abandoned. And as he dies in Iwa’s absence, he wonders if the boy has any idea that he’s built the coffin where Oikawa now lies. Time and time again, Oikawa finds himself roaming aimlessly, surrounded by girls who want his attention—but he can’t be bothered.
Out nowhere, take me out there
Far away and save me from my
Self-destruction, hopeless for you
Sing a song for California
“Come back,” Oikawa whispers to his phone each night after Iwa texts him a nonchalant goodnight. He wants nothing more than to be far away from his current self, the destructive thoughts have begun to eat away at him. Every love song he hears belongs to Iwaizumi now, and all he can do is wait.
Tsukishima & Yamaguchi: The World Is Ugly
These are the eyes and the lies of the taken
These are their hearts, but their hearts don't beat like ours
‘I hate everything and everyone’ was what Tsukishima used to say. That was, until, he saw Yamaguchi’s honest eyes. They could never lie to one another, even when they had to admit that things had gotten too difficult and it was best if they took a break. Tsukishima thought he’d get over it, just like all the other times, but when he laid down at night, his heart would thrum in his chest. No one could love Yamaguchi like he could. 'I hate everything and everyone' he would say, '—but you'
That the world is ugly
But you're beautiful to me
Well are you thinking of me now
It’s a reassurance given after a bruising kiss. Yamaguchi’s eyes are full of confusion, he doesn’t know where this all came from. All Tsukishima wants is to know that Yamaguchi thinks about him as often and as intensely as he thinks about Yamaguchi.
Stop your crying, helpless feeling
Dry your eyes and start believing
There's one thing they'll never take from you
Tadashi thought he’d be the one crying, but he ends up gently slipping Tsukishima’s glasses off his nose to wipe at the hot tears that were streaming from both eyes. He promises to stay.
But you'll never fight alone
Tendou & Ushijima: Light Behind Your Eyes
If I could be with you, tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take
The light behind your eyes
When the two of them are finally separated, Ushijima doesn’t know how to express everything he feels to an eager Tendou. Each night that they are apart, he says the same thing: “If I were there—” but he never knows how to finish it. Usually, Tendou says “I know” to spare him the difficulty of saying what he really means. What Ushijima wants to say is that he hopes there is not a single person in Tendou’s life that treats him any less than he deserves.
Be strong and hold my hand
Time it comes for us, you'll understand
We'll say goodbye, today
Whenever they get to visit with one another, they can’t unwind their fingers. It keeps them both upright. And in the evening before one of them must depart, they feel the oppressive weight of time pushing whispered affirmations from their mouths.
“I’ll see you again, I promise.”
“I know.”
As we fade in the dark
Just remember
You will always burn as bright
As they succumb to the night, Ushijima finds it hard to sleep with such a bright light burning beside him.
peep the lanyard...you know they’re picky about their enamel pins
[Hot Topic Manager Kyoutani: misses the old Hot Topic, growls at Karens, plays only pre-2010 pop punk, doesn’t understand that all their employees are only there cause they think Kyou is hot]
[If you’re gonna steal buttons, at least try to be discreet about it...]
