#sugawara

[cassarchives]

“If we go for what’s somewhat safe here, it’ll mean we never changed.” - Sugawara Koushi

Season 3, episode 8 - Manga chapter 180 (but not really said like that)

[cassarchives]

“But how will you win if you don’t keep moving forward?” - Sugawara Koushi

Season 3, episode 7 - Manga chapter 178 (but not really said like that)

[leafyonz]

LEAFY HAIII here’s the gift I owe u :p (i fear i don’t have $800 bc im broke-😔😔) BUT HERES THE NEXT BEST THING

✨Sugawara Koushi✨

The colors lwk might be too saturated but shhhhh

All credits go to the original artist :3

ANYWAYS THIS IS KINDA LATE BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN HEHE

Awww thank you nezu he’s so cute 🥺. We all need to band together and make Sugawara real

That’s me getting held back btw, I wanna give Sugawara a big smooch.

[leafyonz]

never enough

pairing: sugawara x fem!reader

tags: angst | bittersweet | idol x fan (idol!reader x fan!sugawara) | heart to heart | established relationship

tea99 tags: a red cup speckled with purple filled with orange & cinnamon spice tea topped with rose petals and served with a smoked salmon sandwich

for: @d1strict99 tea event, wc: 1.3k, notes at the end.

warnings: reader is kind of toxic, themes of co-dependency

Even when a relationship is built on love a shaky foundation is destined to break

“What’s this about?”

Sugawara asked, holding up a note in front of your face, he clearly wasn’t mad, more amused if anything. You hummed softly, taking the note from his hands as you heard him read the note for you, ‘meet me at our spot’

“I wanted to meet my boyfriend is that too much to ask?”

Sugawara gave a sad smile, already knowing where this would lead. 

“Do you think we are a good match?”

He asked, settling next to you, you paused at his words if only for a minute. This relationship wasn’t working, between being an idol and school it stretched your time thin. And with how much work Sugawara put into the volleyball team and the extra effort that meant staying in the club despite his responsibilities as a third year was a lot. It left little time for the two of you to spend any meaningful time together. 

“Do you?”

You asked, bringing your knees to rest against your chest. It wasn't like either of you wanted to break up, but there was no doubt that neither of you were happy in this arrangement. 

“…why must you always pretend around me? Don’t you see that I’ll love you regardless?'

You felt your blunt nails dig into the sides of your knees, pressing into the bone underneath as you considered his words. Even with Sugawara you tended to mask yourself under the persona you said was just for the fans. 

“You used to like my performances.”

You answered, turning your head to look away from him.

“Then why is every version of you a performance?”

Sugawara asked, reaching out to brush a strand of hair away from your face as he felt you stiffen against his touch. Sugawara had started out as just a fan to you, but overtime he had taught you to break down your walls and be more genuine with him. That was how the two of you ended up together. Those words were the last ones you wanted to hear, because it snapped the last thread tying you two too each other. 

“That’s not true…is that really what you think of me? You make it sound like I never cared about you.”

You stated, your voice becoming sharper as you turned to look at him.

“You just don’t want this to work.” 

You argued, not wanting to admit that even from the beginning Sugawara had been the one to make time for you despite everything. 

“Did you ever feel happy being with me? Like genuinely…or has the Y/n I’ve gotten this whole time been the facade you play for the camera?”

Sugawara, trying to smile despite the tears. It wasn’t either of you wanted to end this, but this relationship had been doomed from the start. 

“Do you seriously think that I would’ve spent my time with someone that I never loved?”

You asked, feeling genuinely hurt that he would ever insinuate such a thing.

“Look, Y/n, we both know where this is heading.”

Sugawara stated, letting out a sigh as you knew what he was trying to get at.

You remembered the first time Sugawara had stopped by your dressing room, how radiant he had seemed as he complimented you. It was

“Suga…I’m all sweaty.”

You giggled, his kisses to your face tickling your skin. 

“You always insist to hug me after games.”

Sugawara shot back, his face softening as he met your gaze. He could tell how tired you were after what he could only assume was an intense performance. 

“That’s different.”

You huffed out in amusement, watching as he rolled his eyes playfully.

“Are you feeling okay?”

Sugawara asked, his thumb tracing your cheekbone, his voice losing the playful edge as he went into that classic ‘worried boyfriend’ mode you were used too.

“Yeah…I’m just tired.”

You answered, leaning into his touch. 

The day after you broke up everything felt heavier for Sugawara. What made it harder? No one had ever known the two of you were dating, he was sure Daichi and Asahi had their suspicions but neither of you had ever confirmed anything. It was at your request, and for as Sugawara respected what you wanted it was so hard. He so desperately wanted to show you off to the world to be able to announce his amazing partner is also a widely popular idol. And he knew that you had felt the same, but there was the reality that idols having relationships is a controversial topic. It just meant for both of you, it made it incredibly hard to confide in anyone.

“I knew you’d be here…”

Sugawara sighed, standing at the foot of the tree as he caught sight of the tear stains on your cheeks.

“Do you miss me already?”

He asked, voice firm but not unkind. It felt like he was laughing at you, but you knew Sugawara would never treat you like that.

“...no, dating you was the best and worst decision of my life”

You stated, pressing the heel of your hand against your eyes as you tried to cover the tears threatening to spill from your eyes. 

“So you were never happy with me? Not once?”

Sugawara questioned, giving you a skeptical look. How desperatrly he wanted to hug you, cradle you in his arms knowing you would cling straight to him. But that wasn’t good for either of you.

“…no, I was. I was the happiest I’ve ever been in a while. But I can’t stand to go back.”

You admitted, looking up at him through the blur of tears.

“Why did you come here?”

You asked, feeling curious for his answer. 

“…you’ve been avoiding me lately.”

Sugawara answered, making you scoff.

“I don’t think we should keep seeing each other, like…at all.”

It was the last thing you wanted to tell him, truly, but you knew the more both of you saw each other you’d start to miss everything you had lost.

“I know, but I feel bad to cut you off so suddenly.”

Sugawara answered, fiddling with his hands as he struggled not to embrace you. 

“Please don’t, don’t pity me, Sugawara. It makes me feel pathetic.”

You heard him sigh, hands dragging over his cheeks as he struggled with himself internally.

“Look, Y/n—”

“It’s L/n.” 

You corrected, sucking in your teeth as you watched at how he winced at your words. This whole conversation was painful, but you knew it had to happen. And listening to him say your name with such tenderness reserved just for you, you knew it would only make you want to run right back to him.

“Look, L/n, we can go back to being just friends.”

Sugawara answered, swallowing the lump he felt forming in his throat.

“Yes, but that’s not what you really want, is it? Sugawara I know you better than you want to admit. You want us to go back to before…but we can’t.”

You stated, flinching as you felt your hair brush against your cheek. You were always used to Sugawara moving it away for you, it felt strange feeling the soft strands frame your face. 

“Yes, but we can make it work…”

He tried to negotiate, making you give a definitive shake of your head. Even with those were the very words you wanted to hear, you both had tried to make it work. Or rather, you knew it had always been Sugawara constantly reassuring you that he would do the work for both of you.

“Sugawara…you’re trying to say the exact words I want to hear in hopes I’ll come back.”

You stated, glancing at your phone laying in the grass.

“You have practice today, right? I have to get to my own club…”

Neither of you had club duties, and Sugawara knew that. But he also recognized the tone you were using, you were trying to give him an out to leave.

“Yeah…I can’t have coach on me again.”

You only hummed softly, letting your fingers brush his own as you passed by to leave. 

. . .

notes: yes, this is the story that hurt me 😭. It was actually meant to end at the first cut but I wanted to expand on their relationship. Was debating putting this up for later but it's going up now.

[realucygray]

bark bark!

[anyadanielleee]

hi my lovely anya 🥹🥹🥹🥹

i feel so sentimental after stalking your account i just needed to pop in and say hi

here’s our profiles together to make myself feel better 🥳

HI MY EVEN LOVELIER MAI 💗💗

im very glad u popped in and said hi heheh <3 genuinely seeing like comments posts literally anything from you makes my day ilysm

AND AWWWW THEYRE SO CUTE AKFHCFSBFS

here's one more of our profiles together!!

also on that topic i sometimes just remember that in the manga suga comes to tobios games and like cheers him on and asks for autographs and its just so adorable and precious UGH

[androidfoe]

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[leafyonz]

frosted glass

pairing sugawara koushi x reader

synopsis: sugawara and y/n get caught in a snowstorm, with the lights out they begin to unravel and reveal more than they ever would with the lights on. 

tags: friends to lovers | fluff | forced proximity | some mutual pining

tags for tea event: a pink cup filled with wild mixed berries tea paired with rose crepe cake and a peach-filled cookie choux for: @d1strict99 tea event, wc: 2.2k leafy's notes: Im not funny so sorry if the funny moments are bad, leafy ran out of ideas midway. trying to do the aesthetic tumblr banner.

“Has it always been snowing this hard?” You asked, although it was mostly rhetorical, neither of you had been paying attention. You had asked Sugawara to help you with the homework due the next day and he obliged. It wasn’t like you both weren’t aware it was meant to snow today, it was more you didn’t know it was meant to snow that much. But as you looked out the window you noticed just how hard it was to actually see. The glass had frosted over and the roads just looked…white. 

“No I don’t think so.” 

Sugawara answered, sighing as he stood up, hearing the soft sound of his pencil tapping against the wooden table. You stepped a bit aside as he went to stand beside you, peering through the window that seemed to be completely iced over.

“I can’t see anything, can you?” You watched as he paused, taking a step back from the window, it wasn’t like Sugawara lived far away but you knew your mother would scold you if you made Sugawara go home when it was like this.

“No, its all snow. I guess I should leave before it gets bad, right?” Sugawara suggested, already going to pick up his things. You shifted your feet in place, a loud sigh escaping you as you considered your options. It wasn’t like Sugawara had to go far to make it back home, but still, it felt wrong to send him out with the weather like that. And it wasn’t as if Sugawara had never stayed over at your house before. If you counted that one time years ago when the two of you were still in elementary. 

“You can stay here if you want?” You offered, trying not to make it obvious that you did actually want him to stay.

Sugawara paused, looking up as he heard your voice, you seemed a bit shy to be asking such a thing of him, it was cute.

“Yeah, sure. Was there any other problems you wanted to ask about?” He asked, trying to think of what you both had been doing before the change in topic. 

“Uh, I just think this one.” You came back, sitting next to you as you pointed out the problem you had been wondering about listening to as Sugawara explained the problem to you.

“Were there any other ones?”

He asked, watching as you took the paper back to look a little closer. You brushed away some of the excess eraser shavings, trying to remember if there had been any others. 

“No, I think that was it.” You said, a sigh of relief escaping you as you stretched your tired arms. Even if you had just gotten up moments ago, it felt like the two of you had been working on this homework for ages.

“Are you sure there isn’t anything you need?” Sugawara asked, his voice as patient as ever.

“No, I’m sure.” 

You answered, glancing up to give him a confused look, he wasn’t usually this insistent. Not that you minded, but still. 

“Do you want some tea?” You asked all of a sudden, trying to kill the dead silence that fell between the two of you. You weren’t even sure your family had any tea leaves left, but it was too late for that. 

“Uh, sure?” Sugawara stated, feeling a bit caught off guard at the suddenness of your offer. 

You quickly stood up, giving only a swift nod as acknowledgement as you left your room to go to the kitchen to make tea. If Sugawara didn’t know you any better he would’ve thought he did something wrong by making you want to leave so suddenly. But it didn’t take that long until you came back with two mugs of black tea, thanking whatever god there was above that you actually had tea leaves. 

“Thank you.”  He mumbled, taking the mug from your hands as he occasionally took sips. A more comfortable silence falling between the two of you. The only real sound being the soft rustle papers or the quiet click of ceramic as one of you sat your mug back down. It wasn’t any different from being in class together.  The only thing that could ruin this moment was…a power outage? You already knew it was coming from the way the power came in and out, the lights flickering once then twice, before it would go out and come back on again. Until, the power didn’t come back, and the two of you just sat there, in the dark. Sugawara was the first to break the silence. 

“Do your parents keep any flashlights?”  You considered the question for a moment. Flashlights? You didn’t think so, although even if they did you had no clue where you would find one. 

“I dunno…” You mumbled, voice a bit muffled as you turned your head away trying to make what you could of your dim room. It was late, and the little light coming through the window wasn’t putting in much work. 

“Your phone is almost dead, right?” He asked, already knowing the answer from how you looked at him. You turned it over, watching as the dead battery screen stared back at you, you didn't know why Sugawara even bothered to ask, he already knew.

"My phone is always dead according to you."

You stated pointedly, it wasn't like he was wrong. Your phone was almost always dead, but it didn't mean you wanted to admit that to Sugawara of all people. You sighed. laying back on the floor as you looked up at the ceiling. 

"And I thought studying was boring…" You mumbled, a loud sigh escaping you, the only thing interrupting your sorrow being Sugawara and how he laughed at you. 

"You're being dramatic y'know, Y/n?"  He laughed, relaxing somewhat as he absorbed the familiar atmosphere. 

"Says the guy who willingly agrees to study every night." You argued, actually sitting up to look at him.

"Because I'm responsible, unlike you." He joked, mostly, I mean it wasn't like studying wasn't the responsibility of students like you. And that was likely why Sugawara always seemed to do better on exams and tests, because he actually studied.

"I can be responsible…I just choose not too."  You stated, earning another laugh from Sugawara, this conversation really felt so unserious, but sometimes that was best. 

"I think everyone sees that, y'know." 

You paused, squinting to look at the clock for a moment before going back to looking at Sugawara staring at you. 

"Is it really that dark? I thought your eyesight was better than mine." 

You asked, half joking and yet half serious. You didn't look at him as you spoke, glancing at the window to gauge what time it was. Not like it would tell you much of anything, but your phone was dead and it was too dark to read the clock on your wall. 

"Hey, Koushi?" You prompted, hearing the way he paused as he hummed, an invitation to continue.

"Can you read a clock?" You asked, wondering if he could read it considering he could see better than you.

"Like an analog?" 

"What else would I be asking about?"

"I dunno, when do I ever know with you?" He asked, mostly as a joke as he turned his head to read the clock on your wall. 

"It may be dead, I always forget to change the batteries." You noted softly, watching Sugawara huff softly, although considering you could still hear it ticking it was safe to assume it wasn't dead yet.

"I don't think it'd be running if it was dead, Y/n." He noted, stifling laughing at you again. 

"It says, 7 pm, I think."

"You think it says 7 pm? You don't know if it says 7 pm? Koushi…I thought you said you could read a clock."

You said, faking a concerned tone as you teased your friend. 

He only rolled his eyes, not paying you much mind.

"Can I ask you something, Y/n?" He asked, considering wether he genuinely wanted to ask or not.

"Sure." You answered, trying to shake off how cold the room suddenly felt. I mean…there was no power, and it was snowing. 

"Why did you ask me? You usually ask Kiyoko for stuff like this, right?"

Your breath hitched, out of all things to ask, why that? It was true you and Kiyoko were friends, it was just that Kiyoko had told you to go ask Sugawara knowing you liked him. But you couldn’t tell him that, right? “Uh, Kiyoko was busy today.” You could tell Sugawara didn’t fully believe you, but it wasn’t like he had any reason to not believe you either. 

“Are you cold?” He asked instead, moving the conversation forward, it wasn’t you could lie about that one. Sugawara could actively see you shivering.

“Uh, maybe?” You stated, as if it was embarrassing to be cold. Which it wasn’t, but you were surprised that Sugawara didn’t seem the least bit cold himself. 

“You aren’t cold?”

You asked, already getting to grab a blanket off your bed. 

“Do you want a blanket, Koushi?”

You asked, stopping in your tracks as you noticed Sugawara taking off his jacket.

“Oh, uh, I’m fine.”

He stated, feeling a bit embarrassed at having took off his jacket for seemingly no reason now. 

“no no its fine!! I can take your jacket!” You stated, dropping your blanket back on the bed. Maybe it was a bit too obvious? And a bit perverted…but you didn’t really care. As you pulled it on you realized how it fit you a bit better than you initially thought, sure, it was a bit big but it didn’t completely engulf you either. 

“It suits you.” He smiled, trying to ignore how the sight made his ears feel hot.

“Koushi your ears are red, are you cold?” You asked, trying to ignore how you knew that he likely was flustered seeing you in his clothes, but you also felt it was your mind being self-indulgent trying to convince yourself he liked you too. You hesitated for a moment before kneeling in front of him, covering his ears with your hands, not even taking in the fact that that the two of you were so close. Or that your actions were only making him more flustered. 

“uh, Y/n, you’re a little close.” He stated as gently as he could, watching as you flinched as you finally realized how close you both were. You backed up almost immediately upon recognizing his discomfort, before feeling the way Sugawara gently grabbed your arm. 

“Here, Y/n…was Kiyoko really that busy? I mean I know she’s more responsible than the two of us but I doubt she would be too busy to help you out with some homework.” You opened your mouth to protest the comment that Kiyoko was more responsible than you, you didn’t care about Sugawara saying that about himself, before you fully took in just who he was talking about. 

“Well. no, she just recommended that I come ask you instead.” 

You stated, shifting to face the floor, that felt such a lie even if it was in part true. Kiyoko had not been busy, but she had recommended Sugawara in recognizing that you had a crush on him and possibly in turn granting you a chance to confess. 

“Um, Koushi what do you feel about me? Because I really like you so…” You trailed off, feeling yourself tense up as you moved to slap a hand over your mouth. Neither of you spoke for a moment as you tried to process that you seriously had just said that. 

“Huh? Y/n…you said you just liked me?” Sugawara asked, feeling completely dazed, his usual calm composure completely gone by that point. You were just glad the room was too dark for him to properly see your face, or at least you hoped so considering you could only make out his silhouette in the dark room. 

“Mhm…” You sighed, feeling your fingers curl against your cheeks as you closed your eyes, bracing yourself for his answer. Except it never came, other than the lights coming on causing you to basically jump from your seat at the scare it gave you. But upon realizing Sugawara was staring straight at you, you took of the collar of his jacket to cover your face. You squeezed your eyes shut, not wanting to risk meeting his gaze again. 

“Y/n?” He called, gently tugging his jacket to hopefully reveal some of your face. 

“What…?” You asked in response, almost sounding like you were crying as your voice cracked.

“Come on, I want to see your face when I say this.” He asked, giving his jacket another gentle tug as he huffed a small bout of laughter. You could only imagine how cute he looked at the moment laughing like that. As you opened your eyes, he gave you the sweetest of smiles, the one where it reached up to his eyes. 

“I like you too.” He basically whispered, a voice just loud enough for you to hear. You pressed your lips together for a minute, trying to test your next moves before you shifted a bit closer. You took a deep breath before leaning in, kissing his lips, you felt how his body tensed against the sudden force before relaxing. You felt how once Sugawara relaxed he reached out to brace himself against your arm. Both of you felt out of breath after pulling away, but you couldn’t help but be grateful that the power was back on so you could see Sugawara’s face properly.