#he's traumatised

[xxstillattherestaurantxx]

I just *know* Gabe was hooting and hollering when Matt shaved his head in February. He still wakes up panicking with nightmares about it. Matt also wakes up to Gabe just petting his (now thankfully fully grown back) hair like a dog to comfort himself.

[sillygoofyqueer]

Uhhh hi! I've been seeing your mad scientist Wei Wuxian AU on my dash for a while now and I finally decided to screw it (and by it I mean all the stuff I am supposed to be reading for lab haha wdym I have stuff to do that isn't scrolling tumblr) and binge it all the way from the bottom and may I just say

AJSBWKDNXMDNDMDNDMMDMSMZMSDSNDNDMDMDMSMSSMSN I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE WAY YOUR GALAXY BRAIN WORKS TY FOR BLESSING US WITH YOUR THOUGHTS

(I might be going only slightly feral I promise (that is a lie I am vibrating with the joy this has brought me) but honestly if I could give you a cookie (or any other treat of your choice) I absolutely would)

Anyway I hope you know that I am giving your brain a gentle smooch and I hope you have a wonderful day ahead <3333 (also I am shamelessly asking for any more tidbits that you might be willing to throw our way. Pls and ty)

Sniffle sniffle.....I love you so much new person in my inbox AKA happy-bookworm...you're so kind and you've made me very happy. Who needs to read things to do with lab when you can read about blorbo being a mad scientist!?!? I certainly don't!! Be-Because I'm writing it, y'see, so it shows that I care much more about mad scientist Wei Wuxian than anything lucrative-

Anyway thank you so much for appearing in my inbox with such aggressive affection, like a cat that you stroked once and now will not leave you alone. It very much made me feel alive and like I could take on the world so you can take a post about the mad scientist man. When Wen Qing comes back to camp with Xue Yang and Wen Ning pressed into her sides, the most distressed she's ever been, Lan Wangji is concerned. He immediately walks over to assist in any way she can because he's worried and trying to learn how to react in an appropriate manner when it came to situations like this. Of course, then he sees that Xue Yang is clutching A-Yuan in only one hand because it is also being held up with a stump because Xue Yang is missing a hand. Wen Ning has some sort of stab wound in his side and looks incredibly pale, which is not a good sign, so Lan Wangji takes A-Yuan from the young boy and (despite how much he dislikes touch) hooks Wen Ning's arm around his shoulder to take his weight off Wen Qing. Wen Ning is obviously trying to stay upright on his own but his feet keep stumbling and dragging against the floor, and he's shaking against him.

A-Yuan is thankfully asleep and looks to be fine, so he supposes it's one less concern, but Wen Ning is getting more sluggish by the second and that's a big worry right now. They get to the medical tent, shoving aside bodies of all sects to the side with muttered apologies because they don't have time for courtesy and placing the two into patient beds. This is where Lan Wangji's ability to help drops off, because he has no medical knowledge, but Wen Qing does so he rocks A-Yuan with one hand while darting around to grab anything she snaps for so that he isn't just standing around and becoming more worried by the second. No, he's moving around and becoming more worried by the second. Wen Ning either falls unconscious or is knocked out by one of Wen Qing's needles - he isn't quite sure which, but Wen Qing isn't panicking so he assumes it's the latter - and Xue Yang is staring at nothing, not even reacting to the tight bandages tied around his wrist in place of his arm guard becoming red with his blood and having to be changed.

A-Yuan eventually wakes up and starts crying instantly, which is nothing but fair, and Lan Wangji is soon busy trying to soothe him to keep on staring at the two in the beds and letting his concern override his logic. He stumbles out of the medical tent with the only thought in his mind being "make A-Yuan feel better," and bumps into Wei Ying as the other boy is rushing over to the medical tent from information sent with one of the crows by Gege. Wei Ying actually stops to check over him, noticing the crying baby in his arms, and Lan Wangji feels inclined to say "I am going to get him some food" so he doesn't look like a horrible human being that can't soothe babies. Wei Ying nods, grips his arm tightly for a second, before darting off into the medical tent because he apparently does just trust Lan Wangji with A-Yuan even outside of emergencies and without his supervision. That is something to be unpacked later, because A-Yuan is still sobbing and he of course comes before anything.

The war camp is in complete disarray, and he has to just focus on A-Yuan because he does not stop crying as he's carried through the camp, breathing through any other thoughts at the back of his mind. The kitchen tent of the Lan is completely empty, everyone likely helping out outside, so he takes it upon himself to tuck A-Yuan into the front of his robes and go about making congee for the baby; it's not the first time he's made congee. Shufu had never been one for 'one-on-one time' (as Wei Ying would put it) that didn't involve learning of some kind - playing music, reading books, even just meditating with one another - and so one of the things they learned together as 'one-on-one time' was how to cook. It was entirely due to a spur of the moment decision that involved Lan Wangji accidentally dropping his food when he was young and getting rather upset over it because someone's time had been put into making it.

Shufu had found him in a state of emotional turmoil over it, and so led him to the kitchens both so he could apologise and then learn how to make the congee he had dropped so that he could do it himself if it happened again. Of course, Shufu also didn't know how to make congee, so this was the start of them learning how to make food together. It's easy to move through the steps of making the congee, muscle memory at this point, allowing him to enter a meditative state while he works through it, then waits for it to cool down before finally feeding it to a bawling A-Yuan. There's a moment of tenseness where he's ready to watch the baby start crying once again, but then A-Yuan relaxes and allows himself to be fed until the bowl is empty, before finally going back to sleep because there was truly nothing more to babies that doesn't involve eating, sleeping or crying.

Now that A-Yuan is asleep, however, there is nothing distracting Lan Wangji from what has just happened. He steps out into the general disorder of the camp, staring down at the bodies that he had pushed aside and walked over in his panic earlier, seeing faces that he recognises from just helping around camp. While the war camp is still a war camp, this has been where he has slept for the last few months. This is the safest place he has known since the war began. And now, not even this place is safe for him, for A-Yuan. He has a baby to look after now. He wants to go home. He wants to go home and cling to Shufu like he's a little boy who had a nightmare. He misses his mama. He doesn't know how long he stands there, staring at the corpses, before a familiar, gruff "Wangji?" breaks through the haze. He looks up sluggishly, and Nie Mingjue is looking at him with genuine concern in his eyes.

Whatever the man sees there, he doesn't seem to know what to do with it, because his eyes widen and he wraps an arm around Lan Wangji's shoulders. He's walked through the camp of death and piles of corpses until he's suddenly sitting down in a tent of sorts and Nie Mingjue is gone, saying something that sounds really muffled. He holds A-Yuan closer, hand stroking against his face, and then Gege is in front of him. His mouth is moving, forming the word 'A-Zhan?' He never calls him A-Zhan unless he's really worried. Why is he worried? Lan Zhan opens his mouth to speak, but all that comes out is a strange sound and oh. Oh. It's a sob. He's crying. Even though he's now cognisant of it, he can't seem to stop. He's wrapped up into Gege's arms and he just can't stop crying, face pressed against his shoulder and steadily getting the fabric there wet.

[iheartrobron]

Someone make it better please.

Those episodes were brutal....

[acespeon]

not me sitting here thinking about how Knuckles Wachowski only knows a) it's a possibility that he'll be killed at any moment, b) there's very little in the way of food and so c) the only way to live and eat is to kill/severely maim his next opponent in the gladiator arena and earn his next meal

[kebriones]

oh hey you look hungry

I got you a pita gyro with extra 5th century athenian statesman and general Alcibiades, I hope you like it, have a nice day!

[bricheco]

Well I don't know if someone is going to see this but anyway, I will try to be more active, I mean I hope so cuz I actually like Tumblr but ehhhh, I don't know a lot of people anyway

[quartzlegacy-archive]

the scene cuts to this shot of steven just before pink puts the shards in her mouth 

but you hear her swallowing so loud.. it just.. sounds even more sinister without the visuals asdgdfvgdh

[snufflesmajor]

Sirius hugs his knees to his chest and let's his BEAUTIFUL AND VERY UN-SNIVELLY-LIKE HAIR fall around his face. If you listen closely, you can hear him mumbling about how " @miss-marlene-mckinnon doesn't know what she's talking about," and "she's just jealous, so jealous."