the title, attempting to give the LCB Sinners a surprise hug!
一 headcanons , gn reader , mostly implied established relationship but can be read as platonic , may be ooc I'm just typing shi... also my first post hi guys.. hi limbus fanbase.. , ~2.8k wc ( it was NOT supposed to be this long )
一 YI SANG #01
He's not that hard to sneak up on, considering he's usually in thought.
Gets surprised when you initially wrap your arms around him, but quickly relaxes once he realizes it's you, a small smile blossoming on his face as he lets you hug him while asking if you want anything from him.
If you just want his company, he's more than happy to oblige, although he would be a bit flustered as he returns to his train of thought with you leaning against him. He's also happy to tell you about what he's been thinking about or working on if you ask, explaining himself with a gentle smile.
If you just wanted to hug him or check on him, he tells you he appreciates it, though he would also let you know that if you ever wanted a proper hug from him, you could always tell him.
Overall, Yi Sang enjoys it, provided you don't interrupt and try to pull him away from a line of deliberate thought, though he never gets genuinely annoyed at you for it.
一 FAUST #02
Good luck even trying to sneak up on her.
I don't know why, but I just see her as the type that'd be impossible to sneak up on. You can try, but she turns her head around before you so much as even step near her vicinity and asks you what meaningless tricks you are trying to pull.
If you wanted a hug, you could simply ask her (also, there's no guarantee she will oblige, but you have a better chance than by attempting to sneak up on her). But no chance she'll ever let herself be ambushed by a surprise hug, not while risking losing her dignity in front of the Gesellschaft. Faust has already heard enough berating from them.
Although if you somehow, somehow successfully sneak up on her and manage to hug her, she will stiffen up for the slightest second before realizing it's you and gently pushing you away, then acting like it was a sin that you dared to even go near her genius presence. The audacity!
In truth, Faust does not hate it. Although the feeling is pretty foreign to her, she doesn't even dislike it (well, she might be a bit irritated that you snuck up on her to do it). She just really has to hide those feelings to protect what honour she has left in the Gesellschaft.
一 DON QUIXOTE #03
Lets out the most comical squeal if you manage to sneak up on her. On that topic, she's on the harder side to sneak up on, just because she's usually upright and energetic, and also seems to have an uncanny sixth sense for things.
Quickly relaxes and laughs when she realizes it's you, returning your hug eagerly while complimenting your skills. "Oho, it appears you have launched a sneak attack most ingenious!"
Expect her to return the favour soon. Once you start the war, she only believes it's right that she treats you the same! You will be seeing many surprise hugs from her. Sometimes she purposefully exaggerates her footsteps so you anticipate her, but when she wants to be, she can be decently sneaky.
Don sees it a bit like a very light-hearted, playful game. She looks forward to your hugs and does the same thing to you.
一 RYŌSHŪ #04
Another one who's hard to sneak up on. I just get that feeling from her.
Most of your surprise-hug attempts will be immediately foiled as she turns around with a "Don't even try" expression before (playfully) insulting your stealth skills.
Though if she knows you better, or she's in a more teasing mood, she'll walk over, grab you, and give you her version of a loving embrace while still insulting your terrible stealth skills. Now you're on the receiving end. This is what you wanted, right? No complaining. Her hug is solid enough not to necessarily hurt, but enough so that you have no chance of escaping. Ha.
If you do successfully sneak up on her and manage to hug her, she instantly stiffens before she realizes it's you. She might let you have a few seconds of your glory before she pushes you away. "S.T.B."
Like Faust, if you wanted a hug, you can just ask her for one, and she's more likely to oblige.
一 MEURSAULT #05
Also similar to Faust in the sense that he will be able to just... miraculously tell when you're trying to sneak up on him. But in all seriousness, he's pretty watchful and active, so managing to surprise-hug him successfully is a very hard feat.
Nine times out of ten, he will turn to look at you and ask you if there's anything you need, just as you thought you really got him this time. If you just ask him for a hug, he'll do it with some blunt statement like "Commencing hugging."
The one time out of ten, he overall seems unbothered about it; you may feel a slight pause when you wrap your arms around him as he processes the feeling, but that's about it.
He quickly recognizes it's you and accepts the physical contact without so much of a flinch, though he does ask you about the hug's objective or if you needed something from him. He doesn't mind receiving them, though he would appreciate it if you were direct about the hug in the future.
一 HONG LU #06
Relatively hard to sneak up on. He might catch you in the act of attempting to, but he's more chill and perceptive about it and will likely deduce that you want some sort of affection from him and tease you about it, though he does eventually give you the hug you wanted.
When you do, he's surprised at first but eases into it very quickly, teasing you and reciprocating it smoothly. He's happy to keep you there and let you look at whatever he was doing, or just chat with you.
Like Don Quixote, you can expect that he will absolutely start initiating surprise hugs for you, too. He's very playful about it and might do those things where he creeps up on you and covers your eyes, pokes your cheek, or goes "Surprise!" and laughs when you squeak in surprise. (Though he's pretty considerate and makes sure he isn't catching you at a bad time)
You have no idea what you started. He will do this a lot to tease you from now on.
一 HEATHCLIFF #07
Do not do this to him. Listen, he's fine if you want to ask him for a hug (though he will absolutely be very awkward and shuffly about it), but he's just too on guard to be receiving a surprise hug.
If you manage to sneak up on him, and you're lucky, he'll just quickly push you away and tell you not to do that, and that you can always ask him for a hug next time. If you're unlucky, you're getting shoved or punched out of sheer muscle memory.
Obviously, he feels bad about it immediately, though after obviously making sure you're okay first, he'll tell you that you should ask him in the future.
There are a few ways you can work around getting this bad reaction. If you're chatting or beside him beforehand and move to hug him out of nowhere, he'll be caught off guard and will pretend to dislike it, though he really does enjoy it, even though his body language doesn't necessarily show it (he's either shuffling around like crazy or as stiff as a board). He's still getting into this thing, so give him some time, okay?
一 ISHMAEL #08
Hard to sneak up on, since she's pretty down to earth and alert. If she catches you, she'll just squint and ask what you're trying to do.
If you do manage to surprise her, Ishmael stiffens up immediately. If she's in a good mood or somewhat anticipated it, she kind of relaxes when she realizes it's you, but keeps the hug very brief since she's really, really not used to affection like this. Otherwise, you might be quickly getting pushed away (lightly). She really, really, prefers it if you tell her that you want a hug beforehand and will let you know that.
She doesn't dislike affection from you; she's just one of those in the list who would dislike getting surprise affection in particular. I can see her as the type to be a bit irritated, scolding you before quickly dismissing herself for some time.
She cools off fine enough, though she might give you a few suspicious side-eyes the next few times she sees you approaching from her peripheral vision in the future.
一 RODION #09
Gets a little surprised when you first hug her, but Rodion is Rodion: she's super smooth and gets into it very easily, reciprocating the hug with ease.
Assuming you hugged her while she's in her usual good spirits, she's a tease about it; she will poke light-hearted fun at the initial action before dropping a cheerful and familiar nickname, before playfully asking about what you've been up to or engaging in some banter with you.
I feel like she generally prefers it if she could anticipate your hugs, but she never gets irritated at them unless you choose to hug her during those moments where she's more gloomy, though during those times, she's more likely to push you away, then act as if nothing happened or avoid the subject when she feels better again.
I can definitely see her as the type to get into them. Might teasingly sneak up on you and hug you, just to see your reaction.
一 DANTE #10
Very flustered. It's easy to sneak up on them if you can catch them at the right time, like when they're focused or muttering away at some work they have to do.
As soon as you hug them and catch them by surprise, they let out an erratic burst of nonsensical tick-tocking and flustered words, flailing their arms a bit before they process what is happening and slowly ease into it. They're super awkward about it, but will eventually, although gingerly, reciprocate it and stiffly pat you on the back a few times.
Afterwards, Dante asks you if there's something you wanted from them or what the entire purpose of that hug was. They might scold you with no real weight behind their words, reminding you that you should ask or let them know next time, as they could be busy or dealing with something important. (They're happy you gave them a break)
Dante, truthfully, enjoys the hug and the affection, just not the surprise part of it. They're very hesitant about it, but to be fair, it's been a while since the poor manager felt real fondness, like the hugs you give them.
一 SINCLAIR #11
Very flustered 2.0.
Like Dante, it's also pretty easy to sneak up on him successfully, given that he's in thought or concentrating on something.
When you land your oh-so-evil surprise hug, he yelps, freezes up immediately, stutters, and his face begins to heat up like a tomato the more he processes that Oh, it's you, and you're hugging him. He's so flustered that he can't even move his legs to run away. What did he do to ever deserve this? (He likes the hug, he really does, but... just take it easy on the poor guy)
Once he regains his senses, which takes a while, he manages to stutter through asking you what you did that for, face still steaming red from embarrassment, only to turn even redder once you tell him you just wanted to be affectionate with him.
Like Ishmael, he'll give you a few distrustful side-eyes when he sees you approaching him from the side in the future, though he's more flustered about it. Just thinking about the moment will get his cheeks warming up.
一 OUTIS #12
Probably the hardest to sneak up on. She's very guarded and vigilant and will spot you coming.
When she inevitably catches you on an attempt, her head snaps around, and she begins to berate you, asking you what kind of immature tomfoolery you are attempting to pull on her and scolding you on the professionalism of the working environment and how it is highly frowned upon to sneak up on someone like that.
Look, if you ask her for a hug, she might seem reluctant, but will eventually let you do so, assuming there's a good reason for it; though under no circumstances would she ever allow herself to fall for such cheap, childish pranks like this one.
If you somehow do it successfully, she stiffens up, responds immediately and pushes you away in a blink, and begins to berate you again, reminding you that you can just ask her instead of resorting to such juvenile acts. So no matter the route you take, you're getting scolded.
一 GREGOR #13
Do not do this to him 2.0. Really, this is a bad idea. He's already hesitant and stiff with physical affection as it is due to his bug arm.
Regardless of whether or not he processes that it's you, he pushes you away almost immediately, hesitantly stepping back a few paces before telling you not to do that again. He won't act extremely angry or lash out in front of you, so he leaves as fast as he can for a smoke.
He's willing to forget about it as long as you understand that it's not a good idea to try that again. He really wants affection from you, he truly does, but that paralyzing fear and disgust for himself will never let him properly accept such sudden affection from you.
YI SANG bites on to one end with a pleased little smile. You can practically see the little flowers around him as he nibbles the pocky stick, bringing his face closer to yours little by little. If you end up kissing, it'll be short and sweet before he asks for another round.
FAUST only agrees to playing because she wants a kiss. She's hesitant with her bites, but her cheeks turn the slightest shade of pink the closer her lips get to yours before she finally gets the kiss she was waiting for. If you pull away before the kiss and lose, she'll sulk about it.
DON QUIXOTE enthusiastically takes big bites at first, both enjoying the taste of the pocky stick and sure that she'll win. She realizes a little too late that she's going to end up kissing you when she sees how close your face is to hers, which causes her to either hastily pull away with her face flushed red or close the remaining gap and kiss you.
RYOSHU doesn't show much interest but goes along with it because it's what you want. That said her lack of interest doesn't stop her from having fun with teasing you whatever opportunity she gets, such as taking big bites to close the distance between your lips as much as possible before swiftly forfeiting so you can't have your kiss.
MEURSAULT ends up kissing you so long as you don't pull away and lose the game, and unless you pout about losing and ask him to lose once for your sake he'll continue winning or earning kisses from you. He doesn't care much for how this game turns out, but he will prioritize your happiness no matter how small.
HONG LU bites onto his end with an innocent smile like he isn't planning anything. His nibbles are both slow and small to urge you into making a move, be it pulling away and losing or closing the distance between your lips and kissing him. Regardless of what you choose to do, it's a win for him.
HEATHCLIFF thinks it's stupid at first before becoming competetive about it. His bites are hesitant at first but it isn't long until he's impatiently nibbling closer to your end of the pocky stick. If you pull away, he'll gloat about it. If you kiss him, he'll ask for another round until you lose.
ISHMAEL gets flustered early on. She takes bites hesitantly, her embarassment growing the closer your faces get before she pulls away and she mutters about how stupid this is. She tells you to just let her know when you want a kiss next time before cupping your cheeks and pressing her lips against yours.
RODION is more interested in the pocky sticks than she is in kissing you. She happily takes big bites, barely giving you the opportunity to even considering pulling away when she kisses you; both as an additional treat and an attempt to distract you while she steals some pocky sticks for herself.
Since DANTE doesn't have a mouth and can't properly participate in the game, the two of you come up with an alternative of sorts: they'll hold up the pocky stick while you nibble it all the way. Whoever gets flustered first loses and more often than not it will be them.
SINCLAIR wants to kiss you, he really does. The only reason he agreed to play was because of how bad he wants to kiss you and this game was the perfect excuse for him to do so. Unfortunately, just when your lips are about to touch it dawns on him that he's about to kiss you, causing him to chicken out and pull away.
OUTIS is both reluctant and disinterested in playing at first. She thinks that if you want pocky and a kiss then you should just say so and she'll give you both, but eventually agrees to play. The first few rounds she still thinks the game is stupid, but after a couple of kisses she can maybe be convinced to play again.
GREGOR stammers when you first offer, unwilling and unsure of how this would even turn out but eventually accepts it for you. His bites are small and hesitant, and while there are a few rounds here and there where he ends up kissing you, he'll pull away and lose more often than not.
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Yi Sang | Faust | Don Quixote | Ryoshu | Meursault | Hong Lu
Heathcliff | Ishmael | Rodion | Dante | Sinclair | Outis | Gregor
Heathcliff isn’t trying to be rude or dismissive, his question is genuine. He doesn’t really know what to do in this situation. Catherine was always secretive whenever she wasn’t feeling well and the same was true when she was on her period. Nelly never helped him get a better understanding either since she just kept repeating that “it’s unladylike to talk about such things”.
He’s completely ready to do whatever you need. You need sweets or snacks? He’s ready to even break into Charon’s stash. Need period products? He’s the first person off the bus at the next stop. Want to yell at him or beat him up? He’s taking it all without complaint.
“A burden shared is a burden halved.”
Yi Sang can’t fully understand your pain but he can understand your feelings. He will bring you anything you need but his main concern is not letting you be alone. Always staying nearby. He won’t speak if you don’t want him to and he’ll leave you alone if you ask but if you don’t he’ll always be close.
He really just hates ignoring the situation. It reminds of his past when he would just wait and do nothing. He remembers when Dongbaek would have her periods and get irritable while he just went on with his day. He doesn’t want to give you the same treatment.
“Oh… I’m sorry?”
Sinclair doesn’t really know what to do. Outside of his pretty basic education on menstruation he hasn’t really had encounters with it. He never saw any period products since he had his own bathroom and he’s pretty sure his mother and sister stopped having periods altogether after their procedures. Kromer also never mentioned anything outside of letting him know when she was ovulating.
So he’s pretty much lost on what to do. He’ll most likely ask Faust what he can do since all the other options are too embarrassing. He will do anything he’s told but he keeps looking at you with this very apologetic face almost like it’s his fault you’re in pain.
“Hmm… I’ll ask Miss Faust if she has any painkillers.”
Gregor doesn’t have experience with periods. All the women he met in the army stopped having them after their procedure. What he does have experience with however is dealing with pain. If he can’t get you something for the pain from Faust he will give you some from his personal stash. He also has cigarettes if you smoke.
He’ll bring you whatever you want to your room but he’ll never stay with you unless you explicitly ask him to. He thinks he bothers you with his presence despite a complete lack of evidence.
“Your period should start in approximately 7 days.”
Meursault notifies of your period before it even starts. He had tracked and calculated your menstrual cycle as precisely as he could. He has also asked Vergilius for the route towards your next destination and compiled a list of all the products available at the stops you’ll be making so that he can get you anything you need.
He is also willing to make space in his schedule for any activities you wish to partake in for comfort. He also offers to take over any of your work while you are absent. If there are any punishments for your absence he takes those over too.
“Oh, I know just the thing.”
Hong Lu has had to help out in situations like these with Xichun so he knows exactly what to do. At the first stop he’s off the bus and getting things for you. What kind of menstrual products do you use? Doesn’t matter he’s getting one of each. Snacks? Also going all out. The entire bus ends up having a party due to his overspending.
No matter your mood his attitude doesn’t change. He will stay positive no matter what’s thrown at him. You could be yelling at him and he would just continue carrying you into the bath he prepared for you.
Hii, can I please request yandere Lord of Hongyuan oneshot with a reader who is his closest advisor, like whatever Zigong is to Jia Qiu, and he kind of forces them to stay in Yihongyuan with him?
HIII SORRU FOR THE DELAY I GOT WAY TOO CARRIED AWAY
Lord Hong Lu x Advisor Reader (9.9k words)
n/a: These past two weeks have genuinely been trying to kill me. After I posted those 3 Argalia fics in one night I had the worst tooth ache AND stomach ache ANDDDD headache ever. And then I made the mistake of trying to write for Lord Lu... (I'm telling you toothaches are not jokes.) BUT OMDS ENOUGH COMPLAINING FROM ME. I hope you guys like this fic even if I don't 💗💗💗💗
Warnings: Gore, body horror, manipulation, jealousy, probably insanely ooc man, violence, vomitting, abusive dynamics, Lord Lu is insane
The marbled walls were painted a murky red, leaving the stench of iron to engulf the halls. Eviscerated soldiers lay strewn about in your path, warning you of your fate should you continue onward. In the middle of all the carnage stood the final barrier between you and freedom, your lord, Hong Lu. Who calmly turned to face you, wielding his guandao.
“How foolish, only now do you expose your traitorous heart. I thought such trivialities were beyond you, but I suppose I was wrong.” With every step he took towards you, your heart rate rose tenfold. You were going to die here, that’s certain. But for what? You had served him for years at a time, imbuing his teachings into your heart. You had always obeyed him, even when his orders were admittedly, a touch irrational. All of your hard work and efforts had amounted to this, leaving you as another sacrifice for his cause. Well, if Hongyuan’s ‘absolute lord’ wouldn’t listen to his closest advisor, then maybe Hongyuan always was ‘doomed’.
After his ascension to the throne, he’d become a man possessed, slaughtering wicked and righteous alike in the name of carving his own path. In the name of actualising his ideal Hongyuan. And you tried so very hard to place your faith in him, you really did. But the killings never stopped. Bustling streets turned silent— with citizens shrinking back in fear of his majesty's rule. Anyone who went against his decrees was promptly hunted down and slaughtered, regardless of their reasoning. It was nothing more than unnecessary brutality under the facade of maintaining order. You couldn’t simply remain complacent in the face of this injustice. Steeling your shaking body, you clutched your fan one final time—lowering your head in acceptance.
“My lord…” You started shakily “I have already stated my position. I cannot stand your meaningless slaughter any longer, it’s nothing short of tyrannical.” Trying to maintain a level—head, you cast your gaze onto the mounds of flesh and gore that remained of the palace’s guards. “Looking around us only proves my point, these guards had no reason to meet such untimely deaths.”
“Perhaps,” He adjusted his grip on his polearm, narrowing his eye at you. “But to pave the way for the prosperity of Hongyuan, you must first eradicate any threats to that goal.” Nestling itself underneath your chin, the blade of his guandao lightly pierced your skin. “It’s a shame that it’s come to this, I quite liked you.” He lightly shifted his weapon, juxtaposing the marring of your skin with the undeniable care he takes in raising your head. “Despite what you may think, I'm quite the merciful lord." Regardless of the fondness held in his voice, he had a distinct presence, quite unlike anything you'd ever encountered previously. A gentle dagger, you'd call him. "I grant you permission to share your final words with me. If you so wish, I may even let your name be kept in future chronicles.” Despite the somewhat teasing quip, his expression was deathly serious. His singular black eye was a vortex, devoid of all light. It trembled: narrowed and closed before reopening in quiet resolution. With a hesitant sigh, you began to speak..
“Then my Lord, I hope you’ll forgive your humble servant. My parting words to you are thus." Taking in a final, greedy breath of air, you spoke. "I’ll never regret my years in your service.” At that, his eye softened, the grip on his guandao wavering imperceptibly, before any traces of his fleeting vulnerability disappeared. Leaving only room for cold detachment. At your final comment, the bloodied blade left your neck, dropping to his side. A wave of both relief and disappointment washed over you. In the same breath, he raised his arm, lifting the weapon high above his head.
“The feeling is mutual.”
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It all started a year or so ago, Your lord seemed.. on edge, to put it lightly.
At first, the changes were minor enough to dismiss. He'd become distracted during the Chronicler's analoging and scarcely remained seated on his throne. Often, he'd be caught pacing the estate's halls restlessly. When spoken to, his replies were clipped and curt, or so you'd been told.
As his advisor, you knew that it was your duty to ease his burdens during these trying times. However, you felt… hesitant. An unexplainable dread overcame you whenever your Lord fell into one of these ‘moods’. It reminded you of how much he'd changed as of recently. With his ascension to the throne, both you and him became preoccupied with handling the duties that came with his new role. His responsibilities consumed nearly every waking hour, as did yours.
One such duty was extracting and organising information passed down through the anamnaworm, leaving precious little time for anything beyond work. Surely he could stand your absence for a littleeee bit, right? With your certainty wavering by the second, you clutched the doorhandle with your trembling hand—swinging it open.
The room was unsettlingly quiet, devoid of the rustling of paperwork that you had grown accustomed to. Scrolls and reports laid strewn about the wooden flooring, many still bearing unbroken seals. The incense had long since burned itself to ash, leaving only the scent of drying blood. This was.. strange. Hong Lu was never one to leave work unfinished. He laid motionless atop his blankets, overcome by lethargy. His unkempt hair pooled over his pillows as dirtied bandages laid carelessly scattered across his desk. An arm lazily draped over his face. He didn’t move an inch, as if frozen in time. If you hadn’t known any better, you'd have mistaken him for a corpse.
“…My lord?" He began to stir, offering you no verbal response.
"My lord, how have you been faring as of late..?” You took a careful step towards him.
“Terribly.” His reply came rather bluntly. “Surely even the sorriest of imbeciles could discern that much.” Nodding awkwardly, you turned to the door. (quite eager to leave)
“Right then, I’ll go call Faust for you-”
“Stay.”
His response came immediately, almost rushed. When you had turned your head—you found his tall frame risen from the comfort of his blankets, now towering over you. He stood only a breath away, his gaze never once leaving your face. “It's an order.” His piercing gaze silenced any complaints before they could arise.
“Fine then.. I must warn you though, I have no stories to entertain you with. I'll simply bore you with more talk of work.” To that he simply grumbled, raising his hand. For a fleeting moment, it gently reached for your cheek, ghosting over your skin before hesitating. It remained suspended in the air for a few moments before settling elsewhere. Instead he curled his rough fingers around the cuff of your wrist.
“Then I'd prefer you be silent." A faint crease formed between his thin eyebrows. "Silent but.. here. With me.” He murmured last words with a strange fondness, you'd chastise him for his display if he weren't so.. visibly weakened. “[Name],” he whispered quietly, his hand travelling to your sleeves.
“My Lord, what’s come over you?” Gently resting your hand on top of his, you tried prying him off of you. “You've been acting quite unlike yourself.” But he offered you no response, pulling you against his chest abruptly.
“Don't move so much..” his arms wrapped tightly around your waist as he groggily nestled his face against your neck. A wet sensation trickled down your arm, and before you knew it, you were soaked in blood. His blood. A sickening mixture of red and black swirling around one another, pooling at your shoulder. Sighing quietly, you tried to twist yourself out of his grip, yet he wouldn't budge. If anything, he tightened his hold just to spite you. “I thought that I had ordered you not to move.” His tongue clicked in irritation, “Lest you wish to worsen the lingering pains of my eye.”
“Of course not my lord. It's just that..” you cautiously eyed your stained shoulder. "It's unprofessional for me to have-" A malicious glimmer burned in his iris, dilating in fascination.
"Unprofessional? I quite prefer seeing you like this." His eye remained fixated on the growing splotch of blood, turning darker and nauseatingly damper the longer he stared. You trembled uncomfortably, unable to stand the weight of his obsessive gaze. Rarely did he blink within those brief yet torturous minutes, the sickeningly warm stream of blood only further soiling your garments.
"M-my lord..!" a panicked whisper left your lips. "Maybe we should do something about your eye? It's clearly.. leaking."
"So it is." Hong Lu's reply remained flat, his eye trained on your quivering form.
"I'll send for a servant. Immediately."
He fell silent in response, stepping away from you (albeit hesitantly) and seating himself on the edge of his mattress. "There's no need," Again, his hollow stare followed you, this time a slight smile crept onto his pale lips. "You'll suffice." Meeting his expectant gaze, you became increasingly aware of your medical inexperience. Stood awkwardly, you clenched your robes, praying that he wouldn't catch onto your confusion.
“Well?" an obnoxious yawn left his lips. "I'm beginning to grow tired of this-”
“Please, just.. give me a second!” Rolling fresh bandages between your trembling fingers, you lightly brushed aside his bangs. A sanguine trail flowed, revealing the festering remains of his eye socket. That gaping hole was an abyss of rot and decay—a carcass of the dreams he once held dear. You found yourself to be quite taken by it, entranced even. The small bits of flesh spiked upwards, trying to reform what had already been destroyed. Much like sticks of a tarnished birdsnest.
Snapping out of your haze you immediately grew repulsed at the sight, forcing a pressure pad over it. Your first attempt at dressing his wound came undone almost immediately. The second fared slightly better; the third unravelled any prior progress. Unceremoniously, the loosened bandages slid down to his neck.
A cold silence hung over the pair of you. Sweat trickled down your brow as you nervously stepped away from him, preparing for the worst.
Instead, you were met with a pleasant surprise.
“Pfft-” His face didn’t flash with irritation or anger, instead he found amusement in your failure. “My, maybe I should've lent an ear to your suggestion. A servant would've been far more capable.” Honestly, you would've much preferred his wrath.
With a somewhat relieved sigh, your eyes narrowed at him.
“Its not as easy as it looks. If anything, why don't you try doing it yourself?” You could already feel a headache forming.
“Fuhu, but I already do~” he grinned slyly, raising the loose lines of cotton to his face.
“You see, I don't trust anyone else to dress them properly." Taking your hand in his, he began idly dressing your finger. "And you've only given me more reason to keep things that way.” You tried your best not to react to his jeers, but you could already feel your veins popping.
“Y-you..!”
“Worry not,” he interrupted you again, only further souring your mood. “Your generous lord is more than willing to teach you.” Despite his previously mocking tone, it was clear that he actually meant what he said. After all, he'd always been a good teacher.
Wasting no time, you positioned the bandages over his eye again.
“Mm, now follow my lead.” He gently placed his hand over yours, guiding your palm to his head. His other hand fixed a pressure pad over his eye, letting you wrap the bandage around his forehead. "Lighten your grip." He murmured, his palm lightly adjusting your movements. Three times you had spun it round; before resting it underneath his ear.
Following his instructions, you directed the bandages diagonally upwards, covering his eye socket successfully. “Good.” By the final knot, the bandages rested neatly over his ruined eye. Pressing a hand to his freshly dressed wound, he tested its durability. The dressings faded to red all the same, but this time—he seemed quite pleased. Once your momentary pride had subsided, you'd found that his singular eye hadn't left yours. An uncomfortable silence settled over the chamber.
“I'll see to it that you dress my wounds regularly.” You blinked in confusion.
“My Lord, we'll both be extremely busy—”
“That was a statement, not a question. I'll take no objections.” Sulking to yourself, you nodded.
Satisfied, he returned to his earlier vegetative state. As you reached the door, the firmness of his voice brought you to a halt.
"Advisor," His expression remained neutral. "Do try to arrive earlier tomorrow."
".. Pardon?"
"You always hesitate before the doorhandle. It's a terrible habit of yours, really."
Promptly, you slammed the door shut. Unbenknownst to you, your lord's crescent lid never strayed away from it, even hours after you'd left.
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Ever since that incident, you had only grown busier and busier, prioritising your newly assigned role. Your job was simple enough: visit the common people and report anyone trying to revolt against your lord. Supporting Hong Lu's campaign also came with several challenges; the most prominent one being your Lord's chosen method of rule. He thrived off fear and dominance, rather than establishing relations with his people. It didn't quite resonate with you. Hongyuan had only been able to prosper due to the people that lived within it. What it needs isn't mindless slaughter—but instead community. Only then can Hongyuan prosper, at least you'd like to say as much. Though, you lacked the experience the back your beliefs. Perhaps your Lord's calculated pragmatism is far more efficient than your socialism.
On that note, your lord hardly spent time within the estate anymore. On the rare occasions that you did encounter him, his hanfu was stained with streaks of crimson—his face an eerie calm.
Tonight, your palanquin had driven you to a different region of Hongyuan, the once bustling marketplaces now silent relics of the past. All you had to do was make small talk with them, keep them in line and report them if otherwise. It shouldn't have been hard. It really shouldn't have. But nothing could've prepared you for this.
When strolling past a secluded alleyway, a violent force had you to the ground, causing you to lose your balance. Snapping your gaze upwards, you were met with two trembling eyes peering back at you. Tearful things they were. Lost, weary and terrified. They quivered, almost protruding out of their sockets.
"P-please spare my life..!"
It shuddered, his body writhing on top of yours. "M-my family.. spare my family…!" Each breath he drew was followed by an almost contagious wail of despair. Upon closer inspection, you recognised him. A member of the Xue family, no older than you. The last, you'd suppose.
His once vibrant shawl stained, tainted by a browning red. A deep gash rested over his stomach, whilst dust clung to his sunken face. "My wife.. my children-m—t-they're cough still waiting for me. I-I have to see them, I must..!!" He was delirious and inconsolable, unable to differentiate the distant past from the present. His family had been buried months ago, not even receiving the grace of proper burials. There was no place to grieve them, and soon—there would be no-one left to either. He was displaced, estranged with no home to return to.
But, as pitiful and convincing as this display was, it wouldn't stir you. This was simply an inevitability that would've taken place sooner or later. His family was an unfortunate, yet necessary sacrifice to pave the way for your master's rule. That's all there was to it. You couldn't afford him any pity—you just couldn't. Stories like his weren't too uncommon in Hongyuan after all, let alone the City.
It didn't take more than a swift push to shake him off. He was quite light, unnaturally so.
But that's when you noticed it.
His lower half was nowhere to be seen.
Agonising shrieks rose an octave, as he writhed and flailed in a pool of his own blood. His hysterical howling never seemed to cease. That was all he could do—continuously dampening his tattered clothing. His sanguine entrails flopped about alongside him, littering the pavement in his gore. His body twisted and contorted; flinched and flung. Each arm weakly grasping onto the pale slabs of stone. He was desperate. He'd lived, he'd loved and now, it was all coming to an end. Here, his world would disappear forever.
His voice grew hoarse, gasping over and over and over and over, like nails scratching at a chalkboard. It was horrifying, repulsive, revolting—yet enchanting all at once. The powerlessness that overcame you as you could do naught to alleviate him of his anguish. The abject horror of staring death in the eye. The strange fog of morbid curiosity that clouded you momentarily. It frightened you, excited you even.
Until, abruptly, he'd stopped. His head slumped, like a marionette freed of its strings, laying there motionlessly. With your chest heaving uncontrollably, you sat upright—dusting yourself off.
Don't look at it. Don't stare.
Weakly, you gripped the reddened hilt of your fan, searching for any semblance of comfort. But it was wet, slightly sticky and sickeningly sweet. The moon's silken sheen coated you both in its apathetic glow. Staring into his lifeless pupils you began to shudder, gripping your sleeves as an unforgiving cold overcame you.
Shame. You felt so deeply ashamed of your growing fascination with that macabre scene. Yet, it was vastly overpowered by a growing nausea that you could no longer hold back. Your throat burned with acid, as you struggled to catch your breath. Steadying yourself against a wall, you clutched your stomach—half expecting your organs to splatter onto the pavement alongside your sickness. Walking was a taxing task. You were tired, revolted and confused, weakly limping down the streets.
With each heavy drag of your feet, two identical ones followed behind you. Perhaps you had finally lost your mind, or maybe it was simply your lord's heishou surveilling you. You only knew one thing for certain. You would be back, no matter what.
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As the days came and went, you became increasingly distracted. Meetings became impossible to pay attention to, your mind trailing back to the sobbing man's remains. His lips, parted in agony, or perhaps quirked in ecstasy. Was there a difference? Death was one of life's many unexplained spectacles. There lingers a fear of the inevitable, yet a beauty in its finality—promising an end to the suffering, even if not always painless. Perhaps joining the list of sacrifices wouldn't be too much of a bad idea-
"[Name]," you jolt in your seat, eyes fixated on the familiar splotch of white invading your vision. "You appeared to be.. rather preoccupied. Faust’s concern for you should be accounted for. As well as our lord's." Her soft eyes narrowed, as if assessing you. Avoiding her gaze, you nodded stiffly.
"Sorry, work's just been piling up. I haven't had much time to sleep." It was total bullshit, you were sure that she knew it too. Yet, she decided not to press you any further. Instead, nodding quietly and offering you a small glass of water, before taking her leave. Sat alone at your desk, you found your gaze lingering on the untouched drink. Idly swirling its contents about, you noticed the restless eyes reflected in the transparent glass. Fatigue was nothing new to you. Trying to quench your parched throat, you hesitantly brought the cup to your lips, the liquid trailing down further and further before touching your tongue. It tasted of iron, rust and filth.
Taking a moment to process what had happened, you found dull shards, scattered along the marble tiles. Inhaling sharply, you found yourself unable to tear your eyes away from the mess of your own making.
You couldn't keep going like this.
From then on, you'd bring bandages with you on your journeys to the more isolated areas of Hongyuan, no longer relying on a palanquin. You walked, patching up the increasingly injured population. If ever asked about your progress in hunting down rebels, you'd simply relay that the people of Hongyuan are rather malleable—bending to the Lord's will without complaint.
Men and women alike huddled in fear, each wounded in a variety of ways. For once, you were able to use your lord's teachings for the betterment of others. With every new person tended to, ten more wounded would follow. It was frankly exhausting, but a job no other could do. Some outright refused your help, faces curled in disgust and contempt. You could hardly blame them. One such encounter stuck out to you in particular: a young woman, with her two children.
When trying to dress her arm, her immediate violence made you recoil. She had slapped you, as though your hands were lined with poison.
Though, it was nothing you weren't used to. After pausing for a moment, you continued on as usual—much to her dismay.
"Why do you keep coming back!?" She spat venomously. "Do you get a kick out of pretending to aid us?" Ignoring her ramblings for the sake of your own diminishing sanity, you dabbed some cotton on her festering wound. It was a deep gash in her arm, a deep, flowering red. Must've been recent. "Listen to me..!" She snapped, earning an eyebrow raise from you. "Everytime you come, he takes more and more of us. He takes more and more from us. Until nothing is left but a great weeping." Her breath hitched as she began to tremble uncontrollably. "We didn't do anything to you..! W-we promised not to—we were good, right?" You nod, a small yet subtle attempt to soothe her. Unfortunately, it seemed to have the opposite effect.
"Then why does he keep coming?? When will he stop taking and taking from us? We've given him enough.. I-I can't." Her venomous onslaught began to slow as she fell limp on your shoulder. Her breathing was ragged and uneven, eyes bloodshot with rage. You couldn't even begin to try and understand the horrors she spoke of, all you could offer was the half-hearted sympathy of an outsider. Someone more privileged than herself.
"I'm sorry." She merely scoffed in response.
One of the kids had clung to her side, probably trying to soothe his mother. His hushed murmurs were almost unintelligible. Though, you managed to make out one word, a title. Papa. She froze instantly, her complexion paling drastically. "He's not here." She replied feverishly, falling into a hollow tranquility. Each word spoken with unnerving clarity. "He's somewhere better off.. somewhere away from the stenches, the corpses, the dust, the filth, the gore. He's away from us, from everything and everyone and he's abandoned us and left us here and-"
As if awakening from her daze, she stared at you with an almost scandalised shock, before lowering her head in shame. Now casting her gaze to the floor, she fell silent. Nobody spoke, neither you nor her.
"I.. saw him." she admitted quietly, her voice now a mere whisper. "Vivisected. Dead and terrified." Her lifeless gaze met yours, a brief moment of connection. Mutual despair.
"Why didn't you help him..?"
After that, you had never seen her again. Her two kids sometimes came to you, nervously inquiring about the whereabouts of their mother. Unfortunately, you had no answer to give them.
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The woman was right, everytime you returned, there were fewer and fewer people to tend to. The ones that remained no longer sought your aid, instead begging for a quick release from their agony. But you couldn't offer them that luxury. You wouldn't. Not when you knew you could still do something for them. But then again, were you actually helping them at all…? Bandaging their wounds was simply a temporary solution to a permanent problem. Of course, H-corp certainly has the technology to aid these people. However, most providers had all gone into hiding. None of them wished to evoke your lord's ire. And at times like these—you can't help but be reminded of the costs that come with his infamy.
The potent stench of death lingered about the streets. Each alley filled with either dead or dying bodies of these citizens. Those barely clinging onto consciousness often rambled on about that same mysterious figure, ‘he’ who robbed them, who tore them apart.
For what? You had no clue. These were citizens that you were meant to be protecting, forming bonds with. Yet they were being brutalised and massacred under your very nose. Yes, it's naive to hope for a H-corp built on unity, but it's far more preferable than whatever.. this was. But, despite all your frustration, you ultimately lack the power to bring about any significant change. So, you brought it up with your lord.
Upon returning to the manor, you immediately noted Hong Lu's furrowed brows, a tell-tale sign that he likely wasn't in the mood for any ‘unfavourable’ news. Regardless, you pushed onwards.
“My Lord," bowing politely, you approached him in measured steps. Unbeknownst to you, his gaze softened. "There’s a growing problem that I'd like to bring to your attention. It’s.. quite urgent.”
“Speak.” He beckoned you closer. “If it’s enough to disgruntle you then clearly it’s worthy of my time.” Returning to your full height, you trailed your hand over the stone carved dragon-heads on his armrests. Pressing your fan to your lips, your voice lowered to a conspiratory hush.
“The streets of Daguanyuan are littered with bodies.”
“Well, that is to be expected, no?” Taken aback by his lax reply, you shook your head.
“No, my lord this isn't quite the same. It's not the bodies of any other traitorous foes or rebellious gangs. They're.. ordinary people. Limbs removed, faces paled. And yet the numbers continue to rise.” Your hand lightly quivered, clutching onto your fan. “They're all scared of someone, only ever referred to through male pronouns. There could be a serial killer within our midsts, my lord. I say this out of as much fear for you as I do the people.”
His eye narrowed, taking on a contemplative stare, his hand lazily stroking his chin.
“That does sound quite troublesome. I'll leave this in Faust's hands." a quiet beat passed, "However—” His eyes trailed from your face to the messily packed bandages in your satchel.
“What exactly do you intend to do with my bandages, hm?” Lazily his fingers brushed against the few rolls sticking out of your bag.
"…?" You were completely and utterly dumbfounded. Surely, now wasn't the time for petty inquiries.
“I often leave to tend to the minority of those still alive, my lord..” his eye narrowed perceptibly.
"You've been dressing strangers with the same hands that tend to me?"
"My lord..?"
"I see.” He waved his hand at you carelessly, with a slight growl to his voice. “You're dismissed.” In a haze of confusion, you simply nodded—before bowing again in gratitude. You couldn't quite shake your conflicting thoughts about his strangely dismissive manner behind you.
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Hong Lu had begun asking for your presence quite frequently, even when it wasn't entirely necessary. Sometimes, he'd ask you to read aloud as he worked, others he'd simply watch you organise reports in silence. More often than not, he'd summon you simply to draw you against his chest, insisting that you remain there until his work was finished.
"Closer." He'd whisper into your ear, almost lovingly. And you obliged him, what right had you not to? Threading carefully through your hair, his hands moved to rest on the nape of your neck. A quiet sigh escaped, almost content.
"Perfect." His forehead nestled itself against your shoulder. “Stay here, exactly as you are.” thin lips ghosting over your collarbone. You felt a strange weight in the pit of your stomach, an unrivalled guilt that you couldn’t quite decipher.
“My Lord, I apologise for interrupting but..” a deep sigh left you, taking a brief moment of respite before responding. “Have there been any developments regarding the killings in Daguanyuang?” immediately, the fingers entangled in your hair stilled.
“You wish to bring this up now of all times..?”
"Possibly." He sighed in exasperation, offering no further response.
“Please my lord, the people are suffering greatly.”
"As do many, everyday."
“Yes but this is different-!" He hummed quietly to himself, holding you a little closer to his chest.
“[Name]." You fell silent, his hands now trailing down your back in soothing motions. "Do you not trust that I'm looking into it?”
“No.. I-” you inhaled sharply, curling your hands into weak fists. “I do, my lord.”
“Good.” He hummed in slight amusement. The corner of his eye seemed to crinkle at your submission. “Then, no more.. unnecessary interruptions.” He stroked your head with gentle care, as a master would their pet. “Threats to Hongyuan are threats to me, regardless of their severity," A small chuckle left his lips. "I treat them all with utmost importance.”
For a brief moment, you almost believed him, almost. But a sense of dread remained instilled within you.
Regardless of what he'd said, you couldn't erase the image of the shuddering civilians. Limbs disjointed from their bodies as they screamed in agony. They wailed and wailed and would not stop until an end was put to this madness. Until there was an end brought to this meaningless onslaught. But you could do nothing for them. You lacked the power to bring significant change to their lives. Yet, he could.
Instead, how did he choose to spend his days? He delayed meetings, insisting for you to redress his wound. Ignoring petitions and dismissing reports became terrible habits of his. And yet he only sought to do them in your presence. Nausea hung over you like a haze of fog.
He noticed, he always does.
“We should pick this up another time. As you know, I'm quite busy so-”
“Leaving already?” He replied all too quickly, eyes trained onto your satchel. His observant gaze trailed from the bandages, to your now quivering hands. “Off to visit that same street?” He scoffed in condescending amusement. “Not surprising in the slightest. If I didn't know any better, I'd assume that you're quite fond of the deceased.”
Your world had come to an abrupt halt as you turned to face him slowly.
“I-I uhm.. well.” Further emboldened by your nervous reply, he pressed further.
“So I was correct~ Maybe I wasn't too far off with my assumption, hm?”
"My Lord.. now's seriously not the time for-"
"Oh? But it's time to surround yourself with heaps of corpses, hm?" You tore your gaze from his, clutching at your robes in growing frustration.
"Well, maybe they'd be in better conditions if you actually cared enough to help them..!" You glared at him, full of animosity and disgust. "All the time, you speak of the prosperity of Hongyuan, but when faced with those dying in Daguangyuan, you turn a blind eye??" Unable to soothe your growing temper, you stood up hastily, putting some distance between you and him. "It's sickening."
"Hm.." He sighed, as though chiding a disobedient child "Have you considered that perhaps, they're being neglected for a reason?" Narrowing his lone eye, his pale complexion donned an empty smile. A peculiar beauty, he was.
"You do recall why I assigned you the role that I did, correct?" He gently cupped your cheek in his hand.
"To report anyone who didn't follow your laws.."
"Exactly~ Now humour me, how many people have you reported so far?" Your heart fell to the pit of your stomach.
"T-three..?"
"No~ Two." His face deadpanned as his grip grew tighter. "Only two rebels found after wings knows how many visits." He hummed idly, prying open a fist that you hadn't realised that you'd clenched. "As lovely as the implications are, I doubt that our people are that fond of their ruler.” Intertwining his fingers with yours, he squeezed them.
“It wouldn't be too unreasonable for me to begin to doubt my dearest advisor over this, no?" Nearly choking on your saliva, your throat began to clog. Any syllables uttered came out as strangled whispers. "I thought so." he scoffed, releasing his grip on your chin rather harshly. “So, I had the Heishou investigate Daguanyuan's trenches. Would you like to guess what they'd found~?” He didn't wait for a response, lowering himself down to your height, bringing you both face to face.
“Several banners towering still, all dedicated to the fallen lineages of the four families.”
His breath intermingled with your ragged breaths. “And yet, you continue to insist that they're 'innocent', even going as far as to lie on their behalf~” His cruel eye almost seemed to dilate in sadistic delight. “My dear, sweet, stupid [Name], aren't you aware of how terrible an impression this leaves? My very own advisor, now siding with the enemy. How.. interesting.”
“T-that wasn't my intention, my lord.. I had no idea-”
“Oh but you must've, right? Or else you wouldn't have been touching them with such-" He blinked. "bandaging their wounds, I meant.” Clearing his throat, he shook his head in disapproval.
“Hah.. If I knew you'd do this, I would've never allowed you to dress my wounds.” At that admission, you fell silent. That moment of brief vulnerability between you and your lord, now reduced to evidence poised against you. You would laugh if it wasn't so jarringly infuriating. Clutching onto your sleeve nervously, you played with the loose seams of the fabric.
"M-my apologies.." You wouldn't dare lift your head. But deep down, the lingering shadow of hesitance began to dwindle. "But-!
"But?" His looming figure cast an imposing shadow over you. You couldn't run or hide, you had no right to. This was your judgement. This was what you deserved for doubting your lord.
"If you had seen the state of them, my lord I'm sure you'd do the same." Despite the festering guilt within you, you continued. "Neither alive nor dead, they dragged their disfigured bodies along the pavements aimlessly. Most of them had no hope of a tomorrow and simply lived in fear of their imminent deaths." Resting a hand on your chest, you began to steady yourself. In contrast, his eyelid began to twitch. "Regardless of their beliefs, they're citizens of Hongyuan. They're our people, my lord. And I think that we could only allow for the development of Hongyuan through offering help to those in need. It's our duty."
A silent contemplation overtook him. His lips curled in displeasure, as he clicked his tongue. "Such idealistic naivety. How do you expect to correct Hongyuan's wrongs without establishing order?"
"Order shouldn't have to be established through such.. barbaric massacres." He flinched slightly at the word. "Instead we could help each other and-"
He latched onto your arm with a desperation that even stunned him. Quickly composing himself, his crazed eye softened with a plethora of indicipherable emotions. "Massacres…? Leaving a few rebels to die is hardly anything worth mentioning, trivial even." His pupil wavered, the grip on your arms tightening. But you weren't having it.
"Hong Lu.. what could those defenseless people have done against you?? All the Heishou branches are yours to control, and I'm certain that the people weren't stupid enough to act on their wishes." You briefly recalled that distressed mother, her youthful face drained by scars and wrinkles. "They.. promised to be good."
"And you'd fall for their deception..?" He snapped, a vein on his face popping. "My dear advisor, you truly are foolish." While trying to defend your case, he successfully seized your wrists, pressing them against the rough wall behind you.
"Deception….???" You scoffed in disbelief. "Please, tell me, were the missing limbs ‘deception’ too? Or maybe do you think that they'd simply painted their wounds?" Writhing against his grip, you tried (and failed) to pry him off you. "Of course, you can't imagine it, can you..? The dull acceptance of their circumstances, faces and bodies alike stained with blood and purpling bruises. Their eyes were either bloodshot or gouged out entirely.." You shuddered, feeling a wave of nausea overcome you. "Or maybe you just haven't been made aware of the stench of gore that runs rampant throughout the streets..? Or the people violently slashed and fed to-"
Your cheek stung, a pain that boiled and burned at your skin. It hurt. Your widened eyes trailed over to his. Shock and repulsion overcame his features, before settling into an icy glare. Yet his gaze was squarely focused on his palm, as if scrutinising it. He returned your stare, yet, he lacked his prior confidence. Just as you were about to continue speaking, he shoved his hand over your mouth.
"Silence." That cold command cut through the tense atmosphere. In response you opened your mouth, baring your fangs and sinking them into his palm.
He froze.
His tense glare wavered, making way for barely suppressed glee. "..You finally reveal yourself." Adoringly stroking the cheek he'd struck, his half-lidded eye trailed to your teeth. Then the bite itself. It was unfortunately quite weak, not strong enough to break skin, nor draw blood. But that fact only seemed to excite him more. He became rigid almost—as if overcome by an intense passion.
"Leave." For once, his orders came out in weakened pants. An insatiable hunger hung from his every word. "I fear that I may no longer be able to control myself if you don't."
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Buried under layers of cushion, you hid yourself in your chambers for hours at a time. Sunny days blended into dreary nights, as your paperwork began to pile up. You'd have to return to your daily life, you knew. You'd be called to him again, you also knew. But was it so wrong of you to indulge languor? For once, would it be so bad to fill your mind with nothing but scenes of beautiful gardens? Each flower blooming brightly, swaying their pristine petals about without a care in the world. Perhaps they would wave and sing, as if to plead for water. Or maybe their stalks would twist and turn as they grew, forming adorable knots. You could almost feel flowers towering over you in your lifeless haze. Sometimes their luscious leaves would wither and crumple, looming over your cheek in a loving caress. Other times the petals would turn shrivel, paling to a dull maroon. As more time passed, you began to notice that your little garden had become rather isolated. Flowers unjustly ripped from the soil, others devoured by wandering insects. The picturesque meadow turned to a barren wasteland, save for one flower. A spider lily, decayed and fettered—yet undeniably beguiling.
"[Name].." The gentle voice called to you, almost awakening you from your deep slumber.
"Faust believes that it's unwise to remain holed up in your room." Unconsciously, you began to drone out the rhythmic knocking on the door. "It's detrimental to your health. Additionally, our lord has been-"
Once again, it bloomed.
"Faust.." you croaked, noting the fact that your door was now slightly ajar. "Tell him that I refuse to see him." Turning to face away from her figure, you buried yourself beneath your blankets. "In fact, I don't want to see anyone or anything.." A quiet yawn escaped your lips as you prepared to return to the land of dreams.
"[Name]." Her usually mediated tone became stern. "As disciples of our lord, how can we learn from him if we stray from our assigned paths?"
Paths..? You could almost laugh at her absurdity. People were dead and dying all around you both, yet she speaks of 'paths'?
"Then Faust, tell me. How righteous is a path that tells us to ignore helpless victims? What's 'just' about unnecessary genocides?" Your dull eyes met her cool ones.
She seats herself beside you, on the edge of your bed—carefully observing your obscured form. A contemplative silence befalls the two of you before she finally replies.
"When evaluating a government's success, one must account for long-term consequences alongside immediate suffering." Her fingers lightly tugged at the covers, exposing your tousled hair. "For example, many areas of Hongyuan have begun to prosper under our lord's will. It's been quite a while since I had last seen children wandering the streets." An imperceptible smile graced her lips.
Unable to stomach her musings any longer, you sat up, your limbs cramping with every shift.
"Then please, explain why the abandonment of citizens, that we are very much capable of aiding, is necessary..? Is wanting to save even one life such an obstacle to those 'paths' you speak of? Are they even worth following?" Faust's eyebrows furrow in conflict, crossing her arms absentmindedly.
"That's for you to decide." she replied matter-of-factly "Following the path of my lord is simply a choice, not an obligation." Leaning back to rest on your lap, she closed her eyes in quiet deliberation. Snowflakes, they were, delicately brushing against her cheek. Sighing to yourself, you stared at your curtain. What time was it? How many days had you spent slumbering? How were the residents doing?
Did it even matter?
"Faust."
"Yes?"
"Does our lord.. really prioritise the prosperity of Hongyuan..?"
"That's.. debatable." You sat up promptly. Noticing your expectant gaze, she reluctantly continued. "As of late, he's become increasingly disturbed. By what? I'm unsure." she sent an almost apprehensive glance your way. "If Faust were to infer.." she briefly stops herself before shaking her head. "No, please excuse my ramblings."
With a quiet hum, you begun braiding her hair.
"Fine then. But, be honest with me, Faust. Do you think my efforts are wasted..?"
She holds your gaze for a long period before casting her gaze to your curtains. "No."
"No?" your fingers stopped threading through her hair. "No," she repeats "virtue, whether honest or false, is never wasted."
"Though, Faust has determined one thing for certain, our lord's priorities have shifted." Her eyes narrow subtly. "Neither Hongyuan nor order seemed to sway his judgement anymore. Instead, his reasoning has become almost.. inconsistent. Even so,"
She stands up, turning to face you with an almost admirable resolution. "I cannot abandon my lord. There is still hope that he may return to the path of righteousness." And with that, she left.
With a heavy sigh, your dragged yourself out of the comfort of your duvet. Pushing open the curtains, you gazed at the city beneath you. For a moment, you were taken aback. The alleys were surprisingly cleanly, the streets anything but silent. Those dreadful restructuring days never came, instead people walked about. Wandering to their heart's content. Of course, there weren't as many people roaming about as before but.. this still held importance. It was a sign. A sign of change.
You felt your mind drift to.. Simpler times. When travelling with your lord was a luxury rather than a burden. With everyday that passed, you had considered a new path, learned lifelong lessons and most importantly—you enjoyed yourself.
Feeling your heart thump with nostalgic melancholy, you stilled your breath.
Under your lord's rule, life most definitely could prosper.
Perhaps Faust had been right. Hongyuan wasn’t wholly desolate, somewhere beneath the bloodshed; his dream still endured.
Hesitantly, you rose. If even a fragment of the man you had once served remained, maybe he could still be reached. You'd have to try.
Pulling on your robes, you stared at your room one last time. The room suddenly felt strangely unfamiliar, as if it were no longer yours. Shrugging off your lingering doubts, you pushed the door open.
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When you arrived, the halls were deathly silent. The polished marble tiles reflected a hollow imitation of warmth, their pristine surfaces concealing the coldness beneath. He was already seated upon his throne, expecting you.
"I wondered when you'd return to me." He drawled in a tone of faux affection.
"Hong Lu," his eye twitched slightly. "I've realised something important.” Positioning yourself at the centre of Hongyuan’s grand hall, you continued. “You're not a careless ruler, by all means. If anything, I'm sure that you've brought joy to many families—"
"Your point being?"
"Well.." slightly disheartened, you continued. "Just as you've helped those in this region, perhaps you could reconsider your negligence of-"
"Advisor of mine, you seem to forget that I've not once claimed to be anyone's saviour." Your blood ran cold.
"E-excuse me..?"
"My role is simply to follow the path presented to me. Hongyuan is more than those who presently inhabit it." Trying to regain your composure, you approached the throne. Yet, your voice wavered, your steps had become heavy. He sat comfortably in contrast, his face rested against his hand.
"But then my lor- no. Hong Lu, what is Hongyuan to you?"
He sighed, rising from his seat.
"Hongyuan is the future." He began walking towards you in turn. "It cannot be governed for the sake of the pre-existing populace. Every sacrifice, every decree, they're made for those yet to come."
Your throat ran dry.
"Then what of the living..?" You clenched your fist tightly, "Are we simply expendable tools to you?"
"I wouldn't say that." humming to himself, he met your gaze. "We're all simply.. temporary."
"And the deaths of the already 'temporary' masses are supposed to pave a future for who? There will be nobody left to rule."
"The chronicles would disagree~"
A sly grin played on his lips, pacing around you in slow circles. Once he’d stopped, he stood squarely in front of you.
"Humour me, would you say that I should’ve spared those elders?"
That was hardly a fair question, comparing the working class to the revered Xianren. His smile only widened, a hollow thing.
"…No."
"So you agree that sacrifices are necessary on occasion?"
"There's a difference between necessary sacrifice and unjust slaughter." His eye crinkled with mirth.
"Then, dear advisor, where precisely would you draw the line?" He took a measured step forward. "One death?" And another, "One hundred deaths?" and another, "One thousand?" until you're backed against a wall, trapped against his notably taller figure. "Tell me, when does it become irresponsibility, hm?"
Taking a deep breath in, you sigh. "This is exactly my point. These people aren't sacrifices in the name of some virtuous cause, they're simply meaningless numbers to you. You don't understand the weight of these deaths. In fact," you point the tip of your fan at his chest "you speak of Hongyuan's future, but all you’ve done is neglect it."
He blinks back in surprise, taking a step away from you. Eyes narrowing to serpentine slits, an intrigued smirk played on his lips.
"What exactly are you trying to say then?" He chuckled darkly, his eye boring into your soul. But you refused to relent. If anything, you're further motivated to expose himself to his own folly.
"You leave piles of petitions to collect dust, weekly."
"They're hardly worth giving attention to. Far more important tasks await me, after all"
"Like what, sending for me?"
His eye widened subtly. Speechless, he was.
"Is it so wrong to want to surround myself with what's mine?"
Now it was your turn to fall silent. Hesitating to face him, you again felt crushed by an overwhelmingly oppressive force. The weight of his favour is what you’d like to call it. However, it felt much more akin to a burden.
"Hong Lu, I'm not yours.."
"Aren't you?" his small grin widened into a smirk. "You've always been my closest advisor~"
Attempting to cool the rush of blood to your head, you pressed your palm to your forehead. "That's not the point. You're being negligent."
"Hm, am I?" Taking your raised hand in his, pulled you closer to him. "Let's say then.. if Hongyuan were to lose a valuable asset such as yourself.. would it not weaken?"
"Well... it might."
"Then how could keeping you by my side be an act of neglect?"
You were getting nowhere with him. Clicking your tongue in irritation, you couldn’t bring yourself to be surprised.
"You've changed, my lord." He stilled, eyeing you curiously. "In the past you'd always despised melodramatics. Instead, you preferred to keep a clear head." You narrowed your gaze at him. "Unfortunately, you no longer uphold such principles anymore."
"Hah. And you believe that you're qualified to judge me, your lord?" Lifting your chin up, his thumb absentmindedly stroked your cheek. "Sheltering traitors, arguing against my decrees, concealing dissent. " His grip tightened. "Any other ruler would call that treason." His bangs crept over his singular eye, fixating his gaze on you with tangible malice.
"Then, are you going to cut me down as you did to those in Daguanyuan?" You held your stead, staring him down. But he didn't budge.
"No," His fingers slipped away from yours, "What a foolish question." Strangely, he laughed, his lips split in ecstacy. "Because.. I need you."
Your expression fell.
You realised.
You realised everything.
Digging through your memory, you searched and searched. Rereviewing your every encounter, every conversation. Every passing gift, each encouraging nod. Everything had been built up to this very moment. Your devotion had become a cage, tethering you to him. And all this time, you'd thought nothing of it, even praising him.
Ah so that was it.
Ah...
You wanted to die. More than anything. You weren't stupid by any means, but.. this was far too much. Even for you.
Backing yourself further and further against the wall, you tried all you could to get away from him. Every shiver, every breath was accounted for in terrifying detail by his husk of an eye.
“I had always hated when you left, you know?” He started conversationally, “Every morning you’d disappear into our dreadful city, returning with the scent of someone else’s blood.”
“You’d come back exhausted, fretting over irrelevant vermin. Smiling and chatting away with them..” Furrowing his brows, a scowl began to overtake his features. "Yet, you always found ways to evade me. Whether tending to the injured masses, signing paperwork, or conversing with others. It's always something with you." He hummed, "So I simply sought to.. remove those distractions."
"…You're sick." Your voice came out hoarse, almost unrecognisable. It trembled and wavered despite your best efforts to remain composed. You couldn’t help it. With every truth laid bare, another wave of nausea churned within you.
This was never about Hongyuan.
"Perhaps," he smiled a wild, unrestrained grin, eye curved to a lonesome crescent. "But if that allows me to keep you," he leaned into your ear, purring almost. "I'd much rather stay this way~"
“So,” His hand gently brushed your hair out of your face. “I’ve decided.” Wrapping his arm around your waist, he buried his face against your neck. "You'll serve me until the day you die."
And cruelly enough, he had kept his word.
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Now dyed in shades of crimson and shadow, the halls had long since forgotten the warmth they once held. A sickly sheen clung to every surface, as though even the stone itself had grown tired of witnessing the great violences performed within these walls. The repugnant scent of iron lingered in the air, seeping into cracks between the tiles. Stained silk banners hung lifelessly over the corpses of soldiers. Some had died as decorated veterans, others as frightened recruits. In the end, neither glory nor inexperience spared them. Death welcomed them with equal indifference all the same.
They were warnings no longer, simply reminders of the cost that came with liberation.
And there he stood, unbothered by the remains that surrounded him.
Hong Lu, your lord, remained solely focused on you.
His guandao rested in his hand, its blade reflecting the dim light above. He wore a veneer of serenity, yet it did little to mask his apprehension.
For a moment, neither of you moved. It was quite peculiar. After all the blood spilt in his name, all the teachings he relayed to you so enthusiastically..
You had finally committed a transgression he couldn’t forgive. Abandonment.
Now you're stood before him, at the mercy of his weapon. If he'd truly grant you the mercy of death—you wished it to be as cruel as the deaths suffered by your companions. Unfortunately, you no longer had the luxury of deciding your fate. All that was left was to accept it.
In one fell swoop, his blade descended.
—
Almost immediately, a deafening shriek of steel tore through the hall.
Between yourself and death stood a familiar head of white hair.
Faust.
She stood tall, her sword trembling beneath the weight of Hong Lu's polearm. Both weapons were locked together with enough force to send sparks skittering across the marble. She had come, finally.
Yet, the expected relief never came. Her posture lacked any sense of triumph or conviction—it had a unique rigidness to it. Instead, her hesitant steps were that of someone mourning. Someone who’d arrived far too late.
Not once did she look at you. Her troubled eyes remained fixed upon the edge of Hong Lu's weapon, as though the polished steel were easier to bear than the sight of your face. At first, you thought it were concentration, embarrassment perhaps. Instead, she was hiding something far worse. Guilt, growing—no, festering within her.
Hong Lu's unreadable expression dropped for a split second, softening into quiet recognition.
"...Interfering again, hm, Faust?"
Her grip tightened around the hilt of her sword—amplifying the force of her blade against his.
"Faust determined that this execution would only result in unnecessary losses."
"Unnecessary?" The corner of his lips lifted ever so slightly. "What an... interesting choice of words." With neither willing to yield completely, the clash dissolved into an uneasy stalemate. They both withdrew, Faust—protectively by your side—whilst Hong Lu stood alone.
A quiet laugh escaped him.
"So then..." His eye lazily drifted over you, eyeing your trembling form with an almost perverse delight. Noticing this, Faust shifted, as if to shield you from his vision. "What do you propose I do with this traitor?"
Instinctively, you stepped forward, squeezing her arm.
"Faust, I really don’t mind—"
But, she didn’t react. Gripping onto her, you spun her around, making sure that she was facing you.. "...Faust?"
Nothing.
Not even the slightest glance. It was as though your voice had never reached her to begin with. Her iris’ swirled with an inexplicable dread as silence settled like frost. Slowly, she turned away from you, grimacing at your confusion,
At last, Faust spoke.
"...Let them live."
The words came out in a quiet whisper, sounding almost pained.
In response, Hong Lu's eerie grin simply widened.
"Live?" He repeated slowly, tasting the word with open amusement. "But surely that contradicts the very path we've walked together, no?." Dragging his weapon alongside him, he strode forward with confidence.
"Faust."
His voice remained gentle, as if coaxing her to his side.
"I’d like to hear your reasoning."
In an instant, her head bowed. Hesitation had never been an emotion you’d thought Faust capable of, yet it clung to her now with unsettling clarity. Her fingers idly traced the flat of her blade, searching for a certainty it couldn’t offer. The composure that had always defined her seemed to waver as her gaze drifted—from the bloodstained floor, to the forgotten guards, and finally to the edge of her sword, clasped within her trembling hands. Everywhere, save for you.
"...Their death would be entirely meaningless." His eye crinkled with mirth as he continued his interrogation.
"How so?"
"Faust believes that they’re valuable."
Taking an unhurried step towards the two of you, he let out a quiet laugh.
"Valuable? What an amusing sentiment.” His head tilted playfully. “To whom, Faust?"
The oppressive silence continued to haunt the hall, lingering a beat longer this time.
"...To Hongyuan."
"Oh, but of course." A weary, almost affectionate sigh fell from his lips. "They were my most precious advisor once." His gaze never left her. “But times have changed, have they not? They’ve long since abandoned their path.” A small smile played on his lips, peering at you from the corner of his eye. “They are of value to Hongyuan no longer.”
Faust’s lips parted in an attempt to refute him. Yet, no words came.
“I ask again, Miss Faust. Who are they valuable to?”
For the first time since she'd arrived, Faust faltered. Her eyes had shut, as she stood in silence. For the briefest of moments, you thought she’d stop entertaining his madness. That perhaps she would draw her sword once more. That perhaps—
"...To you."
Her voice barely carried over.
"Pardon?"
The silence that followed seemed endless.
When she finally spoke again, each word emerged as though dragged painfully from her throat. Hoarse and raw.
"They’re valuable..."
Her fingers tightened against her sword’s holster, leaving her knuckles whitened and bruised.
"...to you, my lord."
The admission echoed through the empty hall, sealing your fate.
You looked to Faust, waiting patiently. Surely she would object. Surely she'd remind him that attachment clouded judgement—that his fixation on you ran contrary to everything he once claimed to value. Surely she'd tell him to let you go.
Tentatively, you reached for her hand, your fingers curling around hers. They hung limp within your grasp, neither returning the gesture nor pulling away.
"...Faust?"
Nothing. Not a single word was uttered. Her shoulders remained burdened by an invisible weight. Her eyes never rose to meet yours, lingering instead upon the bloodstained marble below.
And then it struck you.
Faust had never intended to save you. She had come to bargain. And your life had never been the subject of negotiation.
It was your freedom.
Closing his eye with a quiet satisfaction, he hummed to himself.
"I thought so."
With a quiet motion, Faust slipped her hand from your grasp, never looking back. Instead, she faced Hong Lu alone, lowering her head until silver strands curtained her expression.
"My lord..." she whispered softly. "...Please."
Hong Lu regarded her for a long while, his gaze unreadable. He looked upon her desperation with the same detached consideration one might spare the weather. Then, at last—
His guandao lowered.
"Very well then." Relief flickered across Faust's face so briefly you almost believed you'd imagined it. "I’ll spare them."
You let out a breath you didn’t know you were withholding.
"However..." That word alone was enough to still your heart. His eye drifted lazily towards you.
"They will return to Yihongyuan."
His voice carried neither anger nor triumph. It was simply law.
"From this day onward, they are forbidden from leaving my side."
Faust stiffened, her fingers tightening around the hilt of her sword.
"...Or my estate."
He began walking towards you with that familiar unhurried confidence he'd always possessed. Every measured step echoed through the bloodstained hall, until only a single breath separated you. His hand rose to brush a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
"They won’t disappear from my sight again."
His smile was almost gentle. There was an unmistakable tenderness to it, one that all but withered beneath the emptiness of his eye.
"After having almost lost them once." His thumb lingered against your cheek. "I have no intention of repeating that mistake."
Your knees threatened to give way.
"Come," He offered you his hand with an effortless familiarity, easily mistakeable for kindness. But you knew better.
"We've both had quite enough excitement for today."
His gaze never left yours.
"Let us return home."
Death had stood before you only moments ago. Now, it seemed almost merciful in comparison to the fate that awaited you.
Okay so Velvet's -> @flowerdustedstars yandere talkings got me thinking about the Limbus cast and their yandere potential so here are my thoughts
a/n: I generally don't tend to consume yandere stuff often so this might be off. Also these are BASE SINNERS, not IDs. Anyways enjoy :D
Disclaimer: On intervallo 5.5, so if something's wrong blame it on that
Faust: I feel like Faust would have great yandere abilities once she got over her mental block. I think for our Faust, she's so hardset on being perfect and methodical that at first she'd reason against her obsession. But once she's in? Yeah no she'll learn every detail about you from every single mirror world, making sure to calculate every single variable that could lead to you leaving her grasp. After all, since Faust is always right you should always listen to her, no?
Don Quixote: This is tough for me because I've only seen her silly side so far but I know Sancho exists. But I think generally if she became fixated on someone then she'd cling to them endlessly, doing anything and everything for them. If by any way you became the image of "justice" in her mind then it's essentially game over. Anyone disrespects you? Dead. But I feel like at some point she'd become more obsessed with the idea of you and you yourself, which could lead down a whole different path. You're her knight of justice, and she'll make sure you'll never be anyone else's.
Ryoshu: I feel like I say this a lot whenever it comes to Ryoshu but I DON'T KNOW. I'm so bad at characterizing her sorry lol. For her, she'd most likely view you as the most pleasing art, something truly worth looking at and admiring. Judging from what I've heard of her family, I don't really think she'd use them to control you, but who knows. I certainly don't. Regardless, I don't see her as a yandere that'd lock you away but rather one that would make you follow what she thinks is right, believing that she's leading you down the right path.
Meursault: Another character that I think would have to take a while to reach the point of being able to have those thoughts. He tends to live so devoid of emotions that it'd take a while to get to the point of love, much less obsession. But once he's there, he's essentially the perfect yandere. He knows every single detail about you, things that you don't even know about yourself. He knows exactly how to control you, what makes you happy and what makes you angry. Would want to spend every minute with you, constantly analyzing every detail there is to notice.
Hong Lu: Velvet talked a lot about him already but I'll add some humble thoughts. While other characters might have the ability to understand you and manipulate you, Hong Lu has the power to control you. Now granted he has the other two as well, but him being rich certainly gives him far greater powers than the other sinners. You're just so precious, how could he ever bring himself to let you go~?
Heathcliff: I think he'd be the devoted yandere type. Your guard dog in the shadows or whatever. He'd never show that side to you, always being sweet and kind whenever the two of you are together. But if someone even looks at you wrong, they're getting pummeled in the back alley until they have no more teeth in their mouth. He won't even let a single fly get too close to you. He will protect you from everything and everyone, vowing to never leave your side.
Ishmael: She'd try to stop herself, as she'd vowed to herself to never get as obsessed as she did over Ahab. But then she'd rationalize it to herself, saying that it's not the same. After all, this isn't hatred, but rather love. You'd become her new compass, and from that moment she'd never stop following you. You're her light in the darkness, her path forward. She would fall into a blind obsession, making sure that you'd be nobody's but hers and hers alone.
Outis: Velvet once again talked about her, and I have significantly less thoughts to add here lol. I really don't know how Penelope would be handled, if Penelope is even Outis's wife in Limbus. But if I ignore that part for a second, she definitely has both the strength and the tactical abilities to keep you firmly under her leash.
Rodya: She's a bit of a tricky case for me. I feel like beyond just giving her food and being generally nice, I think she'd become obsessed with someone who's like who Sonya was supposed to be. Someone who genuinely cares for the common folk, and somebody that won't make the same mistake that she made. I feel like if she were to find someone like that, she'd become obsessed. Perhaps she ruined her old life, but you're right in front of her promising not only her, but other people that need help salvation. You're like an angel from the skies above, and she will never stop following you.
Sinclair: Ah yes. He'd be a mix of insecure and savior complex. On one hand, how could someone like him fall in love with you? Someone so pathetic, without a single bit of value. That's how he'd think of himself at least. But on the other hand, he feels like he needs to protect you. That he needs to lift you from your darkness, since you loved someone as worthless as him. He might not be much, but he's sure that if nothing else he can protect you from the rest of the world.
Gregor: He'd be so pathetic in his scenario. The instant that someone loved him, even despite his bug arm and all of his flaws, he'd quickly fall down a rabbit hole. How does someone so perfect even exist in the world? And how come they love me? And most importantly, does anyone else like you exist? No, of course not. And so Gregor will cling to you, doing whatever he can to make sure that you stay with him, even if it's just for a little bit longer.
Yi Sang: No, I did not forget about my darling love of my life. Rather, I kept him for last because I genuinely find it so so hard for Yi Sang as a sinner to become a yandere. The thing is, after the League of Nine disbanded, Yi Sang was shackled by his past. He ended up mindlessly working on the mirror, void of happiness. And the thing is, he couldn't even bring himself to care, because there was nothing else for him to want. He had one place of joy, and it was gone. But in the end, with the help of Sang Yi And Limbus, he finds his wings and his happiness. And this is exactly why I find it so hard to imagine him as a yandere. He knows the pain of feeling trapped, of feeling like everything is hopeless. And he would never want to inflict that one anyone else, especially onto someone he loves. If you were fine with his obsession, he'd find himself willing to indulge, but he'd still restrict it. But if there was even a slightest chance that he could make you unhappy, make you feel like he did in the past, then he'd rather never see you again than make you suffer. The ONLY way I can see him being a yandere is if he found himself believing that his love and guidance could help you find your own wings and freedom. But tbh, without ids or intense delusion (that I don't think he would have) it's just not something I really see being possible.
✧ what gifts would the sinners get you? (limbus sinners x gn!reader)
💌: hi guys... did you remember i was an account that existed? i'm sorry for taking such a long break, my ldr visited me for a week and then i got caught up doing schoolwork. i'm on spring break now, though, so there'll be at least one more post this week!
this is my first time doing an x reader... i just felt like doing one and seeing how it does. if this performs well, i'll do more!
NOTE: I HAVE NOT DONE ALL OF CANTO 8 AND 9, SO PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR ANY MISCHARACTERIZATION! all (minus dante) under cut!
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yi sang uses what he is best at to charm you: his words. he’ll give you presents on important days, take you out on dates and pay when it’s your birthday, but the real gift comes from the cards and speeches he makes that encompass all his feelings using pure rhetoric. most of the time, they’re either poems or short paragraphs, but they’re enough to make you tear up every time. it’s difficult for him to truly express himself on the spot, he says, and he isn’t the most emotive person in the world, so he knows that his talent comes in handy during moments when he’s overwhelmed by how much he feels for you. to him, you are not only good practice for literally using love language, but a person that writing cannot express. no word is enough to describe how beautiful you are in his eyes, so that’s why he keeps trying with every paper he comes across.
faust somehow manages to know exactly what you want without you ever asking. you’ll come to her room one day at her request and find that she’s bought you something you wanted but didn’t get – you didn’t even tell her that you liked the item in the first place, having only given it a passing glance, so it’s a mystery how she figured it out. it’s always random too, her gifts. every time, without warning, she’ll just casually mention having something for you and you know that she’s used her magical powers to buy you another thing that you wanted. the truth, in reality, is simple: she just pays attention to you a lot. that, and the gesellschaft provides some hints, but it’s mostly her intuition and careful observation that allows her to make appropriate purchases. one of the fausts warned her that she was spoiling you, but she doesn’t care as long as it makes you smile, since it means she knows another way to bring out that lovely expression from you.
don quixote loves to give you her things. things that she’s collected over the years, been extremely gentle with because of the memories they hold. old fixer posters and figures, preserved through the years and almost in perfect condition. she’ll let you hold them and turn them over in your hands because she trusts you, and she loves it when you ask about them so that she can ramble. to her, the best thing about it is how you always listen to what she has to say and always show your interest. other than that, she also finds little trinkets that remind you of her and gives them to you, no matter how small or big they are. if she finds a stone that has a heart-shaped hole in it, she’s giving it to you. if there’s a ring from an obscure alleyway store with a unique pattern engraved into the metal, it’s getting put on your finger. anything that reminds her of your bond will always be given to you.
ryoshu doesn’t really do gifts. she doesn’t see the point in those kinds of things, because she thinks that as long as she shows it, material items hardly matter in a relationship. of course, there are some exceptions, like the lighter that you engraved your initials into, but she’d still use the lighter if you didn’t do that. just less, because there’d be less reason to look at it. if there’s anything she would consider a gift, it’s the things she lends to you, like her coat when you’re cold or a cigarette (even if you don’t smoke) just to match what she’s doing. it’s a two-way street, too – she hardly feels the need to accept anything you give her unless she feels it’s absolutely necessary. but luckily for you, that tends to be often.
meursault, true to his nature, will not get you anything unless you explicitly say you want it… but there’s no limit to it. if you say you want a drink, he’s getting one for you. if you say you want a new phone, he’s getting it. if you say you want a cat, he’s showing up later that day with one. no matter how expensive it is, it ends up in your arms – it gets to a point where you have to tell him whether you truly want something or are just making a passing comment. he’s satisfied following what you want, although it does pain him slightly to hear you take back some of your wishes. as far as he’s aware and analyzed thus far, whenever he gets you exactly what you want, you end up happy in the end even if there’s a bit of pushback at the beginning. so hearing you say that you’re only joking dissatisfies him, even if he never shows it.
at first, hong lu spoils you. he gets you expensive things, and like meursault, if you even mention an item, it’s going to be given to you within the next 24 hours. but eventually, he begins to slow down, both under your request and his own conscience. the gifts go from extravagant to more heartfelt, a bouquet of flowers full of colors you like instead of a giant arrangement that he thought truly showed his love. at first, he can tell that his sudden withdrawal concerns you, but he notices that the things you get from him this time make you smile wider than when he showered you with money. he doesn’t take any offense to it and instead realizes that he’d rather make your smile a rarity that he deserves instead of something so easily given to him by his own doing.
heathcliff gifts you things that remind him of you, mainly. although he doesn’t have any qualms about spending money when it comes to you, it’s a habit to make something out of nothing that he can’t seem to shake off. he’d rather treat you to something impressive with his cash than give you a bunch of small things, so he waits till then and instead gives you personalized items. with clumsy hands, he makes flower chains and crowns to adorn you, takes the time to learn how to bake and cook so that he can surprise you on date nights. he never asks you for anything unless you offer it first, and enjoys showing off the skills he’s acquired in his quest to make you swoon. his heart swells with pride when it works every time – it never gets old.
ishmael would be big into giving you trinkets. things she’s collected from voyages, bits and pieces of the places she’s visited that she couldn’t bring you to because she didn’t want you to be in the danger she puts herself in out at sea. she’d be big into handmade things too, similar to don, and spends hours to make sure it’s perfect for her and you – it has the type of aesthetic you like while maintaining her imperfect yet charming style. most of all, though, she likes things that she can see on you, to remind her that she’s a part of you like you are to her: bracelets composed of sailor’s knots made out of cord that’s your favorite color, necklaces that have a sunset-colored stone, a keychain that you and her made together. it reminds her that you’ll always be a compass that directs her to where her home is: where you are.
rodya, like heathcliff, promises to treat you when she strikes it big. so till then, she’s giving you everything she can and more, pulling out all the stops to ensure that everything she gets is shared with you in some way. if there’s someone inviting her to dinner, she’s bringing you along. if she can’t, she’ll bring any leftovers she can find so you two can share while watching something that you picked out on the tv. she prefers to gift you in experiences, whether that be lying in bed all day or taking a trip to the shopping district to try on all their outfits and laugh at the terrible taste of some rich people. the way she sees it, time spent with you is her gift, so she wants to prolong it as much as possible to enjoy each moment.
sinclair makes sure to pay attention to the things you like and dislike so that when he does give you things, they can be extra special. whenever you tell him about an achievement you’ve made, whether it be cleaning out your room or finishing a tough task you had, he uses it as an excuse to give you gifts. he does it sparingly, though, in order to not make you think that he’ll always give you things… but it doesn’t change the fact that he wants to do that. all the time. he likes spending time with you in any way, but seeing you enjoy the things he gets for you makes him happy, since he knows that you’re pleased. he’s a bit of an overthinker when it comes to your relationship, so the validation emboldens him.
outis gives gifts as she sees fit. she knows when to spoil you and when to hold back, waiting for more practical or special moments to hand you something that you’ve been wanting for a while. she’s attentive, which is how she knows these things about you, and keeps a mental (and physical) list of everything you’ve mentioned with a fond tone in order to ensure the most optimal gift schedule. she’s also big into handmade things, especially if they’re things that can stand for a while. if you mention liking a certain flower, she’ll find some place to plant it that you always pass by. if you mention wanting to start a new hobby, she’ll get you everything you need – if that hobby leads to you giving something to her, that makes her heart beat a little faster.
gregor, surprisingly, likes to give you everything you want. he hates to see you sad or yearning, so he does his best with what he has to make sure you get anything you like. he enjoys surprising you, too, so he’ll sometimes go behind your back to get you something you had your eye on just to see your eyes light up as you gush about how kind he is. it eases his mind to know that you enjoy everything you get from him, and those moments do take up a lot of his good memories, but he also values the quiet time you two have. especially when he can smoke late at night on the balcony and listen to you talk quietly about your day while you sip on some drink he made for you, since it makes him feel closer to you.
"No." She knows those eyes you are giving her. you are scheming, what are you scheming exactly? No clue but on her honor as a member of the geselchaft she will NOT fall for this trap.
02 - YI SANG
He's surprised at first but i can see him getting into it quickly. He's the weakest sinner so i doubt he could overpower you but who cares? Hes having such a good time, hes right where he wants to be.
03 - DON QUIXOTE
She squeals. "Oh how my noble squire has strayed from the path of the righteous." She says between giggles as she kicks her feet trying to get you off her, i kinda see this as more of a fair play fight
04 - RYOSHU
I feel she would stare at you before realizing "oh were doing this" and starting to fight back. Sorry but she beats your ass you end up with your hands pinned and getting tickled by the sides.
05 - MERSAULT
He's really big, you have to be REALLY strong to do anything besides shoving him lightly. He would just stare at you and ask you if there is anything you want. If you say you wanna playfight he would legit just pin you down
06 - HONG LU
Honestly best reaction of the cast? Idk man hes just happy to be there. He laughs, i feel that if he is stronger than you he will hold off a bit, for the sillies and the funsies.
07 - HEATHCLIFF
Sorry but this will most likely end with you receiving a well landed punch to the jaw. That's what living in the backstreets does to a motherfucker. He will feel AWFUL about it please console him, no he cannot sleep on the floor.
08 - ISHMAEL
She will get COMPETITIVE about this. Sorry but theres not "oh guess i loss" with her. She would get pissed off if she noticed you just give up
09 - RODION
She will use it to flirt with you. She would most likely be caught off guard before her legs wrap around your hips, oh how the tables have turned!
11 - SINCLAIR
Give him a break please. I can imagine him yelping as you flip him on the bed, your hands going to the sides of his body. Will loudly (although blushing like crazy) tell you to cut it off.
12 - OUTIS
I feel she would be a bit of a tsundere about it. "SUCH BEHAVIOR IS INAPPROPRIATE OF AN ENVIRONMENT AS THIS". It's not that she dislikes it but shes been on edge for so long she forgets how not to.
13 - GREGOR
Gets scared as fuck, imagine him already being hesitant to physical contact due to his arm. I can picture him getting a bit mad and scolding you although he wont stay angry that long, just dont do that again