Heathcliff isn’t trying to be rude or dismissive, his question is genuine. He doesn’t really know what to do in this situation. Catherine was always secretive whenever she wasn’t feeling well and the same was true when she was on her period. Nelly never helped him get a better understanding either since she just kept repeating that “it’s unladylike to talk about such things”.
He’s completely ready to do whatever you need. You need sweets or snacks? He’s ready to even break into Charon’s stash. Need period products? He’s the first person off the bus at the next stop. Want to yell at him or beat him up? He’s taking it all without complaint.
“A burden shared is a burden halved.”
Yi Sang can’t fully understand your pain but he can understand your feelings. He will bring you anything you need but his main concern is not letting you be alone. Always staying nearby. He won’t speak if you don’t want him to and he’ll leave you alone if you ask but if you don’t he’ll always be close.
He really just hates ignoring the situation. It reminds of his past when he would just wait and do nothing. He remembers when Dongbaek would have her periods and get irritable while he just went on with his day. He doesn’t want to give you the same treatment.
“Oh… I’m sorry?”
Sinclair doesn’t really know what to do. Outside of his pretty basic education on menstruation he hasn’t really had encounters with it. He never saw any period products since he had his own bathroom and he’s pretty sure his mother and sister stopped having periods altogether after their procedures. Kromer also never mentioned anything outside of letting him know when she was ovulating.
So he’s pretty much lost on what to do. He’ll most likely ask Faust what he can do since all the other options are too embarrassing. He will do anything he’s told but he keeps looking at you with this very apologetic face almost like it’s his fault you’re in pain.
“Hmm… I’ll ask Miss Faust if she has any painkillers.”
Gregor doesn’t have experience with periods. All the women he met in the army stopped having them after their procedure. What he does have experience with however is dealing with pain. If he can’t get you something for the pain from Faust he will give you some from his personal stash. He also has cigarettes if you smoke.
He’ll bring you whatever you want to your room but he’ll never stay with you unless you explicitly ask him to. He thinks he bothers you with his presence despite a complete lack of evidence.
“Your period should start in approximately 7 days.”
Meursault notifies of your period before it even starts. He had tracked and calculated your menstrual cycle as precisely as he could. He has also asked Vergilius for the route towards your next destination and compiled a list of all the products available at the stops you’ll be making so that he can get you anything you need.
He is also willing to make space in his schedule for any activities you wish to partake in for comfort. He also offers to take over any of your work while you are absent. If there are any punishments for your absence he takes those over too.
“Oh, I know just the thing.”
Hong Lu has had to help out in situations like these with Xichun so he knows exactly what to do. At the first stop he’s off the bus and getting things for you. What kind of menstrual products do you use? Doesn’t matter he’s getting one of each. Snacks? Also going all out. The entire bus ends up having a party due to his overspending.
No matter your mood his attitude doesn’t change. He will stay positive no matter what’s thrown at him. You could be yelling at him and he would just continue carrying you into the bath he prepared for you.
Hii, can I please request yandere Lord of Hongyuan oneshot with a reader who is his closest advisor, like whatever Zigong is to Jia Qiu, and he kind of forces them to stay in Yihongyuan with him?
HIII SORRU FOR THE DELAY I GOT WAY TOO CARRIED AWAY
Lord Hong Lu x Advisor Reader (9.9k words)
n/a: These past two weeks have genuinely been trying to kill me. After I posted those 3 Argalia fics in one night I had the worst tooth ache AND stomach ache ANDDDD headache ever. And then I made the mistake of trying to write for Lord Lu... (I'm telling you toothaches are not jokes.) BUT OMDS ENOUGH COMPLAINING FROM ME. I hope you guys like this fic even if I don't 💗💗💗💗
Warnings: Gore, body horror, manipulation, jealousy, probably insanely ooc man, violence, abusive dynamics, Lord Lu is insane
The marbled walls were painted a murky red, leaving the stench of iron to engulf the halls. Eviscerated soldiers lay strewn about in your path, warning you of your fate should you continue onward. In the middle of all the carnage stood the final barrier between you and freedom, your lord, Hong Lu. Who calmly turned to face you, wielding his guandao.
“How foolish, only now do you expose your traitorous heart. I thought such trivialities were beyond you, but I suppose I was wrong.” With every step he took towards you, your heart rate rose tenfold. You were going to die here, that’s certain. But for what? You had served him for years at a time, imbuing his teachings into your heart. You had always obeyed him, even when his orders were admittedly, a touch irrational. All of your hard work and efforts had amounted to this, leaving you as another sacrifice for his cause. Well, if Hongyuan’s ‘absolute lord’ wouldn’t listen to his closest advisor, then maybe Hongyuan always was ‘doomed’.
After his ascension to the throne, he’d become a man possessed, slaughtering wicked and righteous alike in the name of carving his own path. In the name of actualising his ideal Hongyuan. And you tried so very hard to place your faith in him, you really did. But the killings never stopped. Bustling streets turned silent— with citizens shrinking back in fear of his majesty's rule. Anyone who went against his decrees was promptly hunted down and slaughtered, regardless of their reasoning. It was nothing more than unnecessary brutality under the facade of maintaining order. You couldn’t simply remain complacent in the face of this injustice. Steeling your shaking body, you clutched your fan one final time—lowering your head in acceptance.
“My lord…” You started shakily “I have already stated my position. I cannot stand your meaningless slaughter any longer, it’s nothing short of tyrannical.” Trying to maintain a level—head, you cast your gaze onto the mounds of flesh and gore that remained of the palace’s guards. “Looking around us only proves my point, these guards had no reason to meet such untimely deaths.”
“Perhaps,” He adjusted his grip on his polearm, narrowing his eye at you. “But to pave the way for the prosperity of Hongyuan, you must first eradicate any threats to that goal.” Nestling itself underneath your chin, the blade of his guandao lightly pierced your skin. “It’s a shame that it’s come to this, I quite liked you.” He lightly shifted his weapon, juxtaposing the marring of your skin with the undeniable care he takes in raising your head. “Despite what you may think, I'm quite the merciful lord." Regardless of the fondness held in his voice, he had a distinct presence, quite unlike anything you'd ever encountered previously. A gentle dagger, you'd call him. "I grant you permission to share your final words with me. If you so wish, I may even let your name be kept in future chronicles.” Despite the somewhat teasing quip, his expression was deathly serious. His singular black eye was a vortex, devoid of all light. It trembled: narrowed and closed before reopening in quiet resolution. With a hesitant sigh, you began to speak..
“Then my Lord, I hope you’ll forgive your humble servant. My parting words to you are thus." Taking in a final, greedy breath of air, you spoke. "I’ll never regret my years in your service.” At that, his eye softened, the grip on his guandao wavering imperceptibly, before any traces of his fleeting vulnerability disappeared. Leaving only room for cold detachment. At your final comment, the bloodied blade left your neck, dropping to his side. A wave of both relief and disappointment washed over you. In the same breath, he raised his arm, lifting the weapon high above his head.
“The feeling is mutual.”
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It all started a year or so ago, Your lord seemed.. on edge, to put it lightly.
At first, the changes were minor enough to dismiss. He'd become distracted during the Chronicler's analoging and scarcely remained seated on his throne. Often, he'd be caught pacing the estate's halls restlessly. When spoken to, his replies were clipped and curt, or so you'd been told.
As his advisor, you knew that it was your duty to ease his burdens during these trying times. However, you felt… hesitant. An unexplainable dread overcame you whenever your Lord fell into one of these ‘moods’. It reminded you of how much he'd changed as of recently. With his ascension to the throne, both you and him became preoccupied with handling the duties that came with his new role. His responsibilities consumed nearly every waking hour, as did yours.
One such duty was extracting and organising information passed down through the anamnaworm, leaving precious little time for anything beyond work. Surely he could stand your absence for a littleeee bit, right? With your certainty wavering by the second, you clutched the doorhandle with your trembling hand—swinging it open.
The room was unsettlingly quiet, devoid of the rustling of paperwork that you had grown accustomed to. Scrolls and reports laid strewn about the wooden flooring, many still bearing unbroken seals. The incense had long since burned itself to ash, leaving only the scent of drying blood. This was.. strange. Hong Lu was never one to leave work unfinished. He laid motionless atop his blankets, overcome by lethargy. His unkempt hair pooled over his pillows as dirtied bandages laid carelessly scattered across his desk. An arm lazily draped over his face. He didn’t move an inch, as if frozen in time. If you hadn’t known any better, you'd have mistaken him for a corpse.
“…My lord?" He began to stir, offering you no verbal response.
"My lord, how have you been faring as of late..?” You took a careful step towards him.
“Terribly.” His reply came rather bluntly. “Surely even the sorriest of imbeciles could discern that much.” Nodding awkwardly, you turned to the door. (quite eager to leave)
“Right then, I’ll go call Faust for you-”
“Stay.”
His response came immediately, almost rushed. When you had turned your head—you found his tall frame risen from the comfort of his blankets, now towering over you. He stood only a breath away, his gaze never once leaving your face. “It's an order.” His piercing gaze silenced any complaints before they could arise.
“Fine then.. I must warn you though, I have no stories to entertain you with. I'll simply bore you with more talk of work.” To that he simply grumbled, raising his hand. For a fleeting moment, it gently reached for your cheek, ghosting over your skin before hesitating. It remained suspended in the air for a few moments before settling elsewhere. Instead he curled his rough fingers around the cuff of your wrist.
“Then I'd prefer you be silent." A faint crease formed between his thin eyebrows. "Silent but.. here. With me.” He murmured last words with a strange fondness, you'd chastise him for his display if he weren't so.. visibly weakened. “[Name],” he whispered quietly, his hand travelling to your sleeves.
“My Lord, what’s come over you?” Gently resting your hand on top of his, you tried prying him off of you. “You've been acting quite unlike yourself.” But he offered you no response, pulling you against his chest abruptly.
“Don't move so much..” his arms wrapped tightly around your waist as he groggily nestled his face against your neck. A wet sensation trickled down your arm, and before you knew it, you were soaked in blood. His blood. A sickening mixture of red and black swirling around one another, pooling at your shoulder. Sighing quietly, you tried to twist yourself out of his grip, yet he wouldn't budge. If anything, he tightened his hold just to spite you. “I thought that I had ordered you not to move.” His tongue clicked in irritation, “Lest you wish to worsen the lingering pains of my eye.”
“Of course not my lord. It's just that..” you cautiously eyed your stained shoulder. "It's unprofessional for me to have-" A malicious glimmer burned in his iris, dilating in fascination.
"Unprofessional? I quite prefer seeing you like this." His eye remained fixated on the growing splotch of blood, turning darker and nauseatingly damp the longer he stared. You trembled uncomfortably, unable to stand the weight of his obsessive gaze. Rarely did he blink within those brief yet torturous minutes, the sickeningly warm stream of blood only further soiling your garments.
"M-my lord..!" a panicked whisper left your lips. "Maybe we should do something about your eye? It's clearly.. leaking."
"So it is." Hong Lu's reply remained flat, his eye trained on your quivering form.
"I'll send for a servant. Immediately."
He fell silent in response, stepping away from you (albeit hesitantly) and seating himself on the edge of his mattress. "There's no need," Again, his hollow stare followed you, this time a slight smile crept onto his pale lips. "You'll suffice." Meeting his expectant gaze, you became increasingly aware of your medical inexperience. Stood awkwardly, you clenched your robes, praying that he wouldn't catch onto your confusion.
“Well?" an obnoxious yawn left his lips. "I'm beginning to grow tired of this-”
“Please, just.. give me a second!” Rolling fresh bandages between your trembling fingers, you lightly brushed aside his bangs. A sanguine trail flowed, revealing the festering remains of his eye socket. That gaping hole was an abyss of rot and decay—a carcass of the dreams he once held dear. You found yourself to be quite taken by it, entranced even. The small bits of flesh spiked upwards, trying to reform what had already been destroyed. Much like sticks of a tarnished birdsnest.
Snapping out of your haze you immediately grew repulsed at the sight, forcing a pressure pad over it. Your first attempt at dressing his wound came undone almost immediately. The second fared slightly better; the third unravelled any prior progress. Unceremoniously, the loosened bandages slid down to his neck.
A cold silence hung over the pair of you. Sweat trickled down your brow as you nervously stepped away from him, preparing for the worst.
Instead, you were met with a pleasant surprise.
“Pfft-” His face didn’t flash with irritation or anger, instead he found amusement in your failure. “My, maybe I should've lent an ear to your suggestion. A servant would've been far more capable.” Honestly, you would've much preferred his wrath.
With a somewhat relieved sigh, your eyes narrowed at him.
“Its not as easy as it looks. If anything, why don't you try doing it yourself?” You could already feel a headache forming.
“Fuhu, but I already do~” he grinned slyly, raising the loose lines of cotton to his face.
“You see, I don't trust anyone else to dress them properly." Taking your hand in his, he began idly dressing your finger. "And you've only given me more reason to keep things that way.” You tried your best not to react to his jeers, but you could already feel your veins popping.
“Y-you..!”
“Worry not,” he interrupted you again, only further souring your mood. “Your generous lord is more than willing to teach you.” Despite his previously mocking tone, it was clear that he actually meant what he said. After all, he'd always been a good teacher.
Wasting no time, you positioned the bandages over his eye again.
“Mm, now follow my lead.” He gently placed his hand over yours, guiding your palm to his head. His other hand fixed a pressure pad over his eye, letting you wrap the bandage around his forehead. "Lighten your grip." He murmured, his palm lightly adjusting your movements. Three times you had spun it round; before resting it underneath his ear.
Following his instructions, you directed the bandages diagonally upwards, covering his eye socket successfully. “Good.” By the final knot, the bandages rested neatly over his ruined eye. Pressing a hand to his freshly dressed wound, he tested its durability. The dressings faded to red all the same, but this time—he seemed quite pleased. Once your momentary pride had subsided, you'd found that his singular eye hadn't left yours. An uncomfortable silence settled over the chamber.
“I'll see to it that you dress my wounds regularly.” You blinked in confusion.
“My Lord, we'll both be extremely busy—”
“That was a statement, not a question. I'll take no objections.” Sulking to yourself, you nodded.
Satisfied, he returned to his earlier vegetative state. As you reached the door, the firmness of his voice brought you to a halt.
"Advisor," His expression remained neutral. "Do try to arrive earlier tomorrow."
".. Pardon?"
"You always hesitate before the doorhandle. It's a terrible habit of yours, really."
Promptly, you slammed the door shut. Unbenknownst to you, your lord's crescent lid never strayed away from it, even hours after you'd left.
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Ever since that incident, you had only grown busier and busier, prioritising your newly assigned role. Your job was simple enough: visit the common people and report anyone trying to revolt against your lord. Supporting Hong Lu's campaign also came with several challenges; the most prominent one being your Lord's chosen method of rule. He thrived off fear and dominance, rather than establishing relations with his people. It didn't quite resonate with you. Hongyuan had only been able to prosper due to the people that lived within it. What it needs isn't mindless slaughter—but instead community. Only then can Hongyuan prosper, at least you'd like to say as much. Though, you lacked ghd experience the back your beliefs. Perhaps your Lord's calculated pragmatism is far more efficient than your socialism.
On that note, your lord hardly spent time within the estate anymore. On the rare occasions that you did encounter him, his hanfu was stained with streaks of crimson—his face an eerie calm.
Tonight, your palanquin had driven you to a different region of Hongyuan, the once bustling marketplaces now silent relics of the past. All you had to do was make small talk with them, keep them in line and report them if otherwise. It shouldn't have been hard. It really shouldn't have. But nothing could've prepared you for this.
When strolling past a secluded alleyway, a violent force had you to the ground, causing you to lose your balance. Snapping your gaze upwards, you were met with two trembling eyes peering back at you. Tearful things they were. Lost, weary and terrified. They quivered, almost protruding out of their sockets.
"P-please spare my life..!"
It shuddered, his body writhing on top of yours. "M-my family.. spare my family…!" Each breath he drew was followed by an almost contagious wail of despair. Upon closer inspection, you recognised him. A member of the Xue family, no older than you. The last, you'd suppose.
His once vibrant shawl stained, tainted by a browning red. A deep gash rested over his stomach, whilst dust clung to his sunken face. "My wife.. my children-m—t-they're cough still waiting for me. I-I have to see them, I must..!!" He was delirious and inconsolable, unable to differentiate the distant past from the present. His family had been buried months ago, not even receiving the grace of proper burials. There was no place to grieve them, and soon—there would be no-one left to either. He was displaced, estranged with no home to return to.
But, as pitiful and convincing as this display was, it wouldn't stir you. This was simply an inevitability that would've taken place sooner or later. His family was an unfortunate, yet necessary sacrifice to pave the way for your master's rule. That's all there was to it. You couldn't afford him any pity—you just couldn't. Stories like his weren't too uncommon in Hongyuan after all, let alone the City.
It didn't take more than a swift push to shake him off. He was quite light, unnaturally so.
But that's when you noticed it.
His lower half was nowhere to be seen.
Agonising shrieks rose an octave, as he writhed and flailed in a pool of his own blood. His hysterical howling never seemed to cease. That was all he could do—continuously dampening his tattered clothing. His sanguine entrails flopped about alongside him, littering the pavement in his gore. His body twisted and contorted; flinched and flung. Each arm weakly grasping onto the pale slabs of stone. He was desperate. He'd lived, he'd loved and now, it was all coming to an end. Here, his world would disappear forever.
His voice grew hoarse, gasping over and over and over and over, like nails scratching at a chalkboard. It was horrifying, repulsive, revolting—yet enchanting all at once. The powerlessness that overcame you as you could do naught to alleviate him of his anguish. The abject horror of staring death in the eye. The strange fog of morbid curiosity that clouded you momentarily. It frightened you, excited you even.
Until, abruptly, he'd stopped. His head slumped, like a marionette freed of its strings, laying there motionlessly. With your chest heaving uncontrollably, you sat upright—dusting yourself off.
Don't look at it. Don't stare.
Weakly, you gripped the reddened hilt of your fan, searching for any semblance of comfort. But it was wet, slightly sticky and sickeningly sweet. The moon's silken sheen coated you both in its apathetic glow. Staring into his lifeless pupils you began to shudder, gripping your sleeves as an unforgiving cold overcame you.
Shame. You felt so deeply ashamed of your growing fascination with that macabre scene. Yet, it was vastly overpowered by a growing nausea that you could no longer hold back. Your throat burned with acid, as you struggled to catch your breath. Steadying yourself against a wall, you clutched your stomach—half expecting your organs to splatter onto the pavement alongside your sickness. Walking was a taxing task. You were tired, revolted and confused, weakly limping down the streets.
With each heavy drag of your feet, two identical ones followed behind you. Perhaps you had finally lost your mind, or maybe it was simply your lord's heishou surveilling you. You only knew one thing for certain. You would be back, no matter what.
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As the days came and went, you became increasingly distracted. Meetings became impossible to pay attention to, your mind trailing back to the sobbing man's remains. His lips, parted in agony, or perhaps quirked in ecstasy. Was there a difference? Death was one of life's many unexplained spectacles. There lingers a fear of the inevitable, yet a beauty in its finality—promising an end to the suffering, even if not always painless. Perhaps joining the list of sacrifices wouldn't be too much of a bad idea-
"[Name]," you jolt in your seat, eyes fixated on the familiar splotch of white invading your vision. "You appeared to be.. rather preoccupied. Faust’s concern for you should be accounted for. As well as our lord's." Her soft eyes narrowed, as if assessing you. Avoiding her gaze, you nodded stiffly.
"Sorry, work's just been piling up. I haven't had much time to sleep." It was total bullshit, you were sure that she knew it too. Yet, she decided not to press you any further. Instead, nodding quietly and offering you a small glass of water, before taking her leave. Sat alone at your desk, you found your gaze lingering on the untouched drink. Idly swirling its contents about, you noticed the restless eyes reflected in the transparent glass. Fatigue was nothing new to you. Trying to quench your parched throat, you hesitantly brought the cup to your lips, the liquid trailing down further and further before touching your tongue. It tasted of iron, rust and filth.
Taking a moment to process what had happened, you found dull shards, scattered along the marble tiles. Inhaling sharply, you found yourself unable to tear your eyes away from the mess of your own making.
You couldn't keep going like this.
From then on, you'd bring bandages with you on your journeys to the more isolated areas of Hongyuan, no longer relying on a palanquin. You walked, patching up the increasingly injured population. If ever asked about your progress in hunting down rebels, you'd simply relay that the people of Hongyuan are rather malleable—bending to the Lord's will without complaint.
Men and women alike huddled in fear, each wounded in a variety of ways. For once, you were able to use your lord's teachings for the betterment of others. With every new person tended to, ten more wounded would follow. It was frankly exhausting, but a job no other could do. Some outright refused your help, faces curled in disgust and contempt. You could hardly blame them. One such encounter stuck out to you in particular: a young woman, with her two children.
When trying to dress her arm, her immediate violence made you recoil. She had slapped you, as though your hands were lined with poison.
Though, it was nothing you weren't used to. After pausing for a moment, you continued on as usual—much to her dismay.
"Why do you keep coming back!?" She spat venomously. "Do you get a kick out of pretending to aid us?" Ignoring her ramblings for the sake of your own diminishing sanity, you dabbed some cotton on her festering wound. It was a deep gash in her arm, a deep, flowering red. Must've been recent. "Listen to me..!" She snapped, earning an eyebrow raise from you. "Everytime you come, he takes more and more of us. He takes more and more from us. Until nothing is left but a great weeping." Her breath hitched as she began to tremble uncontrollably. "We didn't do anything to you..! W-we promised not to—we were good, right?" You nod, a small yet subtle attempt to soothe her. Unfortunately, it seemed to have the opposite effect.
"Then why does he keep coming?? When will he stop taking and taking from us? We've given him enough.. I-I can't." Her venomous onslaught began to slow as she fell limp on your shoulder. Her breathing was ragged and uneven, eyes bloodshot with rage. You couldn't even begin to try and understand the horrors she spoke of, all you could offer was the half-hearted sympathy of an outsider. Someone more privileged than herself.
"I'm sorry." She merely scoffed in response.
One of the kids had clung to her side, probably trying to soothe his mother. His hushed murmurs were almost unintelligible. Though, you managed to make out one word, a title. Papa. She froze instantly, her complexion paling drastically. "He's not here." She replied feverishly, falling into a hollow tranquility. Each word spoken with unnerving clarity. "He's somewhere better off.. somewhere away from the stenches, the corpses, the dust, the filth, the gore. He's away from us, from everything and everyone and he's abandoned us and left us here and-"
As if awakening from her daze, she stared at you with an almost scandalised shock, before lowering her head in shame. Now casting her gaze to the floor, she fell silent. Nobody spoke, neither you nor her.
"I.. saw him." she admitted quietly, her voice now a mere whisper. "Vivisected. Dead and terrified." Her lifeless gaze met yours, a brief moment of connection. Mutual despair.
"Why didn't you help him..?"
After that, you had never seen her again. Her two kids sometimes came to you, nervously inquiring about the whereabouts of their mother. Unfortunately, you had no answer to give them.
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The woman was right, everytime you returned, there were fewer and fewer people to tend to. The ones that remained no longer sought your aid, instead begging for a quick release from their agony. But you couldn't offer them that luxury. You wouldn't. Not when you knew you could still do something for them. But then again, were you actually helping them at all…? Bandaging their wounds was simply a temporary solution to a permanent problem. Of course, H-corp certainly has the technology to aid these people. However, most providers had all gone into hiding. None of them wished to evoke your lord's ire. And at times like these—you can't help but be reminded of the costs that come with his infamy.
The potent stench of death lingered about the streets. Each alley filled with either dead or dying bodies of these citizens. Those barely clinging onto consciousness often rambled on about that same mysterious figure, ‘he’ who robbed them, who tore them apart.
For what? You had no clue. These were citizens that you were meant to be protecting, forming bonds with. Yet they were being brutalised and massacred under your very nose. Yes, it's naive to hope for a H-corp built on unity, but it's far more preferable than whatever.. this was. But, despite all your frustration, you ultimately lack the power to bring about any significant change. So, you brought it up with your lord.
Upon returning to the manor, you immediately noted Hong Lu's furrowed brows, a tell-tale sign that he likely wasn't in the mood for any ‘unfavourable’ news. Regardless, you pushed onwards.
“My Lord," bowing politely, you approached him in measured steps. Unbeknownst to you, his gaze softened. "There’s a growing problem that I'd like to bring to your attention. It’s.. quite urgent.”
“Speak.” He beckoned you closer. “If it’s enough to disgruntle you then clearly it’s worthy of my time.” Returning to your full height, you trailed your hand over the stone carved dragon-heads on his armrests. Pressing your fan to your lips, your voice lowered to a conspiratory hush.
“The streets of Daguanyuan are littered with bodies.”
“Well, that is to be expected, no?” Taken aback by his lax reply, you shook your head.
“No, my lord this isn't quite the same. It's not the bodies of any other traitorous foes or rebellious gangs. They're.. ordinary people. Limbs removed, faces paled. And yet the numbers continue to rise.” Your hand lightly quivered, clutching onto your fan. “They're all scared of someone, only ever referred to through male pronouns. There could be a serial killer within our midsts, my lord. I say this out of as much fear for you as I do the people.”
His eye narrowed, taking on a contemplative stare, his hand lazily stroking his chin.
“That does sound quite troublesome. I'll leave this in Faust's hands." a quiet beat passed, "However—” His eyes trailed from your face to the messily packed bandages in your satchel.
“What exactly do you intend to do with my bandages, hm?” Lazily his fingers brushed against the few rolls sticking out of your bag.
"…?" You were completely and utterly dumbfounded. Surely, now wasn't the time for petty inquiries.
“I often leave to tend to the minority of those still alive, my lord..” his eye narrowed perceptibly.
"You've been dressing strangers with the same hands that tend to me?"
"My lord..?"
"I see.” He waved his hand at you carelessly, with a slight growl to his voice. “You're dismissed.” In a haze of confusion, you simply nodded—before bowing again in gratitude. You couldn't quite shake your conflicting thoughts about his strangely dismissive manner behind you.
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Hong Lu had begun asking for your presence quite frequently, even when it wasn't entirely necessary. Sometimes, he'd ask you to read aloud as he worked, others he'd simply watch you organise reports in silence. More often than not, he'd summon you simply to draw you against his chest, insisting that you remain there until his work was finished.
"Closer." He'd whisper into your ear, almost lovingly. And you obliged him, what right had you not to? Threading carefully through your hair, his hands moved to rest on the nape of your neck. A quiet sigh escaped, almost content.
"Perfect." His forehead nestled itself against your shoulder. “Stay here, exactly as you are.” thin lips ghosting over your collarbone. You felt a strange weight in the pit of your stomach, an unrivalled guilt that you couldn’t quite decipher.
“My Lord, I apologise for interrupting but..” a deep sigh left you, taking a brief moment of respite before responding. “Have there been any developments regarding the killings in Daguanyuang?” immediately, the fingers entangled in your hair stilled.
“You wish to bring this up now of all times..?”
"Possibly." He sighed in exasperation, offering no further response.
“Please my lord, the people are suffering greatly.”
"As do many, everyday."
“Yes but this is different-!" He hummed quietly to himself, holding you a little closer to his chest.
“[Name]." You fell silent, his hands now trailing down your back in soothing motions. "Do you not trust that I'm looking into it?”
“No.. I-” you inhaled sharply, curling your hands into weak fists. “I do, my lord.”
“Good.” He hummed in slight amusement. The corner of his eye seemed to crinkle at your submission. “Then, no more.. unnecessary interruptions.” He stroked your head with gentle care, as a master would their pet. “Threats to Hongyuan are threats to me, regardless of their severity," A small chuckle left his lips. "I treat them all with utmost importance.”
For a brief moment, you almost believed him, almost. But a sense of dread remained instilled within you.
Regardless of what he'd said, you couldn't erase the image of the shuddering civilians. Limbs disjointed from their bodies as they screamed in agony. They wailed and wailed and would not stop until an end was put to this madness. Until there was an end brought to this meaningless onslaught. But you could do nothing for them. You lacked the power to bring significant change to their lives. Yet, he could.
Instead, how did he choose to spend his days? He delayed meetings, insisting for you to redress his wound. Ignoring petitions and dismissing reports became terrible habits of his. And yet he only sought to do them in your presence. Nausea hung over you like a haze of fog.
He noticed, he always does.
“We should pick this up another time. As you know, I'm quite busy so-”
“Leaving already?” He replied all too quickly, eyes trained onto your satchel. His observant gaze trailed from the bandages, to your now quivering hands. “Off to visit that same street?” He scoffed in condescending amusement. “Not surprising in the slightest. If I didn't know any better, I'd assume that you're quite fond of the deceased.”
Your world had come to an abrupt halt as you turned to face him slowly.
“I-I uhm.. well.” Further emboldened by your nervous reply, he pressed further.
“So I was correct~ Maybe I wasn't too far off with my assumption, hm?”
"My Lord.. now's seriously not the time for-"
"Oh? But it's time to surround yourself with heaps of corpses, hm?" You tore your gaze from his, clutching at your robes in growing frustration.
"Well, maybe they'd be in better conditions if you actually cared enough to help them..!" You glared at him, full of animosity and disgust. "All the time, you speak of the prosperity of Hongyuan, but when faced with those dying in Daguangyuan, you turn a blind eye??" Unable to soothe your growing temper, you stood up hastily, putting some distance between you and him. "It's sickening."
"Hm.." He sighed, as though chiding a disobedient child "Have you considered that perhaps, they're being neglected for a reason?" Narrowing his lone eye, his pale complexion donned an empty smile. A peculiar beauty, he was.
"You do recall why I assigned you the role that I did, correct?" He gently cupped your cheek in his hand.
"To report anyone who didn't follow your laws.."
"Exactly~ Now humour me, how many people have you reported so far?" Your heart fell to the pit of your stomach.
"T-three..?"
"No~ Two." His face deadpanned as his grip grew tighter. "Only two rebels found after wings knows how many visits." He hummed idly, prying open a fist that you hadn't realised that you'd clenched. "As lovely as the implications are, I doubt that our people are that fond of their ruler.” Intertwining his fingers with yours, he squeezed it.
“It wouldn't be too unreasonable for me to begin to doubt my dearest advisor over this, no?" Nearly choking on your saliva, your throat began to clog. Any syllables uttered came out as strangled whispers. "I thought so." he scoffed, releasing his grip on your chin rather harshly. “So, I had the Heishou investigate Daguanyuan's trenches. Would you like to guess what they'd found~?” He didn't wait for a response, lowering himself down to your height, bringing you both face to face.
“Several banners towering still, all dedicated to the fallen lineages of the four families.”
His breath intermingled with your ragged breaths. “And yet, you continue to insist that they're 'innocent', even going as far as to lie on their behalf~” His cruel eye almost seemed to dilate in sadistic delight. “My dear, sweet, stupid [Name], aren't you aware of how terrible an impression this leaves? My very own advisor, now siding with the enemy. How.. interesting.”
“T-that wasn't my intention, my lord.. I had no idea-”
“Oh but you must've, right? Or else you wouldn't have been touching them with such-" He blinked. "bandaging their wounds, I meant.” Clearing his throat, he shook his head in disapproval.
“Hah.. If I knew you'd do this, I would've never allowed you to dress my wounds.” At that admission, you fell silent. That moment of brief vulnerability between you and your lord, now reduced to evidence poised against you. You would laugh if it wasn't so jarringly infuriating. Clutching onto your sleeve nervously, you played with the loose seams of the fabric.
"M-my apologies.." You wouldn't dare lift your head. But deep down, the lingering shadow of hesitance began to dwindle. "But-!
"But?" His looming figure cast an imposing shadow over you. You couldn't run or hide, you had no right to. This was your judgement. This was what you deserved for doubting your lord.
"If you had seen the state of them, my lord I'm sure you'd do the same." Despite the festering guilt within you, you continued. "Neither alive nor dead, they dragged their disfigured bodies along the pavements aimlessly. Most of them had no hope of a tomorrow and simply lived in fear of their imminent deaths." Resting a hand on your chest, you began to steady yourself. In contrast, his eyelid began to twitch. "Regardless of their beliefs, they're citizens of Hongyuan. They're our people, my lord. And I think that we could only allow for the development of Hongyuan through offering help to those in need. It's our duty."
A silent contemplation overtook him. His lips curled in displeasure, as he clicked his tongue. "Such idealistic naivety. How do you expect to correct Hongyuan's wrongs without establishing order?"
"Order shouldn't have to be established through such.. barbaric massacres." He flinched slightly at the word. "Instead we could help each other and-"
He latched onto your arm with a desperation that even stunned him. Quickly composing himself, his crazed eye softened with a plethora of indicipherable emotions. "Massacres…? Leaving a few rebels to die is hardly anything worth mentioning, trivial even." His pupil wavered, the grip on your arms tightening. But you weren't having it.
"Hong Lu.. what could those defenseless people have done against you?? All the Heishou branches are yours to control, and I'm certain that the people weren't stupid enough to act on their wishes." You briefly recalled that distressed mother, her youthful face drained by scars and wrinkles. "They.. promised to be good."
"And you'd fall for their deception..?" He snapped, a vein on his face popping. "My dear advisor, you truly are foolish." While trying to defend your case, he successfully seized your wrists, pressing them against the rough wall behind you.
"Deception….???" You scoffed in disbelief. "Please, tell me, were the missing limbs ‘deception’ too? Or maybe do you think that they'd simply painted their wounds?" Writhing against his grip, you tried (and failed) to pry him off you. "Of course, you can't imagine it, can you..? The dull acceptance of their circumstances, faces and bodies alike stained with blood and purpling bruises. Their eyes were either bloodshot or gouged out entirely.." You shuddered, feeling a wave of nausea overcome you. "Or maybe you just haven't been made aware of the stench of gore that runs rampant throughout the streets..? Or the people violently slashed and fed to-"
Your cheek stung, a pain that boiled and burned at your skin. It hurt. Your widened eyes trailed over to his. Shock and repulsion overcame his features, before settling into an icy glare. Yet his gaze was squarely focused on his palm, as if scrutinising it. He returned your stare, yet, he lacked his prior confidence. Just as you were about to continue speaking, he shoved his hand over your mouth.
"Silence." That cold command cut through the tense atmosphere. In response you opened your mouth, baring your fangs and sinking them into his palm.
He froze.
His tense glare wavered, making way for barely suppressed glee. "..You finally reveal yourself." Adorningly stroking the cheek he'd struck, his half lidded eye trailed to your teeth. Then the bite itself. It was unfortunately quite weak, not strong enough to break skin, nor draw blood. But that fact only seemed to excite him more. He became rigid almost—as if overcome by an intense passion.
"Leave." For once, his orders came out in weakened pants. An insatiable hunger hung from his every word. "I fear that I may no longer be able to control myself if you don't."
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Buried under layers of cushion, you hid yourself in your chambers for hours at a time. Sunny days blended into dreary nights, as your paperwork began to pile up. You'd have to return to your daily life, you knew. You'd be called to him again, you also knew. But was it so wrong of you to indulge languor? For once, would it be so bad to fill your mind with nothing but scenes of beautiful gardens? Each flower blooming brightly, swaying their pristine petals about without a care in the world. Perhaps they would wave and sing, as if to plead for water. Or maybe their stalks would twist and turn as they grew, forming adorable knots. You could almost feel flowers towering over you in your lifeless haze. Sometimes their luscious leaves would wither and crumple, looming over your cheek in a loving caress. Other times the petals would turn shrivel, paling to a dull maroon. As more time passed, you began to notice that your little garden had become rather isolated. Flowers unjustly ripped from the soil, others devoured by wandering insects. The picturesque meadow turned to a barren wasteland, save for one flower. A spider lily, decayed and fettered—yet undeniably beguiling.
"[Name].." The gentle voice called to you, almost awakening you from your deep slumber.
"Faust believes that it's unwise to remain holed up in your room." Unconsciously, you began to drone out the rhythmic knocking on the door. "It's detrimental to your health. Additionally, our lord has been-"
Once again, it bloomed.
"Faust.." you croaked, noting the fact that your door was now slightly ajar. "Tell him that I refuse to see him." Turning to face away from her figure, you buried yourself beneath your blankets. "In fact, I don't want to see anyone or anything.." A quiet yawn escaped your lips as you prepared to return to the land of dreams.
"[Name]." Her usually mediated tone became stern. "As disciples of our lord, how can we learn from him if we stray from our assigned paths." Paths..? You could almost laugh at her absurdity. People were dead and dying all around you both, yet she speaks of 'paths'?
"Then Faust, tell me. How righteous is a path that tells us to ignore helpless victims? What's 'just' about unnecessary genocides?" Your dull eyes met her cool ones.
She seats herself beside you, on the edge of your bed—carefully observing your obscured form. A contemplative silence befalls the two of you before she finally replies.
"When evaluating a government's success, one must account for long-term consequences alongside immediate suffering." Her fingers lightly tugged at the covers, exposing your tousled hair. "For example, many areas of Hongyuan have begun to prosper under our lord's will. It's been quite a while since I had last seen children wandering the streets." An imperceptible smile graced her lips.
Unable to stomach her musings any longer, you sat up, your limbs cramping with every shift.
"Then please, explain why the abandonment of citizens, that we are very much capable of aiding, is necessary..? Is wanting to save even one life such an obstacle to those 'paths' you speak of? Are they even worth following?" Faust's eyebrows furrow in conflict, crossing her arms absentmindedly.
"That's for you to decide." she replied matter-of-factly "Following the path of my lord is simply a choice, not an obligation." Leaning back to rest on your lap, she closed her eyes in quiet deliberation. Snowflakes, they were, delicately brushing against her cheek. Sighing to yourself, you stared at your curtain. What time was it? How many days had you spent slumbering? How were the residents doing? Did it even matter?
"Faust."
"Yes?"
"Does our lord.. really prioritise the prosperity of Hongyuan..?"
"That's.. debatable." You sat up promptly. Noticing your expectant gaze, she reluctantly continued. "As of late, he's become increasingly disturbed. By what? I'm unsure." she sent an almost apprehensive glance your way. "If Faust were to infer.." she briefly stops herself before shaking her head. "No, please excuse my ramblings."
With a quiet hum, you begin braiding her hair.
"Fine then. But, be honest with me, Faust. Do you think my efforts are wasted..?"
She holds your gaze for a long period before casting her gaze to your curtains. "No."
"No?" your fingers stopped threading through her hair. "No," she repeats "virtue, whether honest or false, is never wasted."
"Though, Faust has determined one thing for certain, our lord's priorities have shifted." Her eyes narrow subtly. "Neither Hongyuan nor order seemed to sway his judgement anymore. Instead, his reasoning has become almost.. inconsistent. Even so,"
She stands up, turning to face you with an almost admirable resolution. "I cannot abandon my lord. There is still hope that he may return to the path of righteousness." And with that, she left.
Pushing open the curtains, you gazed at the city beneath you. For a moment, you were taken aback. The alleys were mainly clean, the streets anything but silent. Those dreadful restructuring days never came, instead people walked about. Wandering to their heart's content. Of course, there weren't as many people roaming about as before but.. this still held its importance. You felt your mind drift to.. Simpler times. When travelling with your lord was a luxury rather than a burden. With everyday that passed, you had considered a new path, learned lifelong lessons and most importantly—you enjoyed yourself.
Feeling your heart thump with nostalgic melancholy, you stilled your breath.
Under your lord's rule, life most definitely could prosper.
Perhaps Faust had been right. Hongyuan wasn’t wholly desolate, somewhere beneath the bloodshed; his dream still endured.
Hesitantly, you rose. If even a fragment of the man you had once served remained, maybe he could still be reached. You'd have to try.
Pulling on your robes, you stared at your room one last time. The room suddenly felt strangely unfamiliar, as if it were no longer yours. Shrugging off your lingering regrets, you pushed the door open.
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When you arrived, the halls were deathly silent. The polished marble tiles reflected a hollow imitation of warmth, their pristine surfaces concealing the coldness beneath. He was already seated upon his throne, expecting you.
"I wondered when you'd return to me." He drawled in a tone of faux affection.
"Hong Lu," his eye twitched slightly. "I've realised something important.” Positioning yourself at the centre of Hongyuan’s grand hall, you continued. “You're not a careless ruler by all means. If anything, I'm sure that you've brought joy to many families-"
"Your point being?"
"Well.." slightly disheartened, you continued. "Just as you've helped those in this region, perhaps you could reconsider your negligence of-"
"Advisor of mine, you seem to forget that I've not once claimed to be anyone's saviour." Your blood ran cold.
"E-excuse me..?"
"My role is simply to follow the path presented to me. Hongyuan is more than those who presently inhabit it." Trying to regain your composure, you approached the throne. Yet, your voice wavered, your steps had become heavy. He sat comfortably in contrast, his face rested against his hand.
"But then my lor- no. Hong Lu, what is Hongyuan to you?"
He sighed, rising from his seat.
"Hongyuan is the future." He leaned in closer. "It cannot be governed for the sake of the pre-existing populace. Every sacrifice, every decree, they're made for those yet to come."
Your throat ran dry.
"Then what of the living..?" You clenched your fist tightly, "Are we simply expendable tools to you?"
"I wouldn't say that." he hums to himself "We're all simply.. temporary."
"And the deaths of the already 'temporary' masses are supposed to pave a future for who? There will be nobody left to rule." You glare at him harshly.
"The chronicles would disagree~"
A sly grin played on his lips, pacing around you in slow circles. Once he’d stopped, he stood squarely in front of you.
"Humour me, would you say that I should’ve spared those elders?"
That was hardly a fair question, comparing the working class to the revered Xianren. His smile only widened, a hollow thing.
"…No."
"So you agree that sacrifices are necessary on occasion?"
"There's a difference between necessary sacrifice and unjust slaughter." His eye crinkled with mirth.
"Then, dear advisor, where precisely would you draw the line?" He took a measured step forward. "One death?" And another, "One hundred deaths?" and another, "One thousand?" until you're backed against a wall, trapped against his notably taller figure. "Tell me, when does it become irresponsibility, hm?"
Taking a deep breath in, you sigh. "This is exactly my point. These people aren't sacrifices in the name of some virtuous cause, they're simply meaningless numbers to you. You don't understand the weight of these deaths. In fact," you point the tip of your fan at his chest "you speak of Hongyuan's future, but all you’ve done is neglect it."
He blinks back in surprise, taking a step back. Before his eyes narrowed to serpentine slits, an intrigued smirk played on his lips.
"What exactly are you trying to say then?" He chuckled darkly, his eye boring into your soul. But you refused to relent. If anything, you're further motivated to expose himself to his own folly.
"You leave piles of petitions to collect dust, weekly."
"They're hardly worth giving attention to. Far more important tasks await me, after all"
"Like what, sending for me?"
His eye widened subtly. Speechless, he was.
"Is it so wrong to want to surround myself with what's mine?"
Now it was your turn to fall silent. Hesitating to face him, you again felt crushed by an overwhelmingly oppressive force. The weight of his favour is what you’d like to call it. However, it felt much more akin to a burden.
"Hong Lu, I'm not yours.."
"Aren't you?" his small grin widened into a smirk. "You've always been my closest advisor~"
Attempting to cool the rush of blood to your head, you pressed your palm to your forehead. "That's not the point. You're being negligent."
"Hm, am I?" Taking your raised hand in his, pulled you closer to him. "Let's say then.. if Hongyuan were to lose a valuable asset such as yourself.. would it not weaken?"
"Well.. it might."
"Then how could keeping you by my side be an act of neglect?"
You were getting nowhere with him. Clicking your tongue in irritation, you couldn’t bring yourself to be surprised.
"You've changed, my lord." He stilled, eyeing you curiously. "In the past you'd always despised melodramatics. Instead, you preferred to keep a clear head." You narrowed your gaze at him. "Unfortunately, you no longer uphold such principles anymore."
"Hah. And you believe that you're qualified to judge me, your lord?" Lifting your chin up, his thumb absentmindedly stroked your cheek. "Sheltering traitors, arguing against my decrees, concealing dissent. " His grip tightened. "Any other ruler would call that treason." His bangs crept over his singular eye, fixating his gaze on you with tangible malice.
"Then, are you going to cut me down as you did to those in Daguanyuan?" You held your stead, staring him down. But he didn't budge.
"No," His fingers slipped away from yours, "What a foolish question." Strangely, he laughed, his lips split in ecstacy. "Because.. I need you."
Your expression fell. And you realised.
Digging through your memory, you searched and searched. Rereviewing your every encounter, every conversation. Every passing gift, each encouraging nod. Everything had been built up to this very moment. Your devotion had become a cage, tethering you to him. And all this time, you'd thought nothing of it, even praising him at times.
Ahh.. you wanted to die. More than anything. You weren't stupid by any means, but.. this was far too much. Even for you.
Backing yourself further and further against the wall, you tried all you could to get away from him. Every shiver, every breath was accounted for in terrifying detail by his husk of an eye.
“I had always hated when you left, you know?” He started conversationally, “Every morning you’d disappear into our dreadful city, returning with the scent of someone else’s blood.”
“You’d come back exhausted, fretting over irrelevant vermin. Smiling and chatting away with them..” Furrowing his brows, a scowl began to overtake his features. "Yet, you always found ways to evade me. Whether tending to the injured masses, signing paperwork, or conversing with others. It's always something with you." He hummed, "So I simply sought to.. remove those distractions."
"…You're sick." Your voice came out hoarse, almost unrecognisable. It trembled and wavered despite your best efforts to remain composed. You couldn’t help it. With every truth laid bare, another wave of nausea churned within you.
This was never about Hongyuan.
"Perhaps," he smiled a wild, unrestrained grin, eye curved to a lonesome crescent. "But if that allows me to keep you," he leaned into your ear, purring almost. "I'd much rather stay this way~"
“So,” His hand gently brushed your hair out of your face. “I’ve decided.” Wrapping his arm around your waist, he buried his face against your neck. "You'll serve me until the day you die."
And, cruelly enough, he had kept his word.
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Now dyed in shades of crimson and shadow, the halls had long since forgotten the warmth they once held. A sickly sheen clung to every surface, as though even the stone itself had grown tired of witnessing the great violences performed within these walls. The repugnant scent of iron lingered in the air, seeping into cracks between the tiles. Stained silk banners hung lifelessly over the corpses of soldiers. Some had died as decorated veterans, others as frightened recruits. In the end, neither glory nor inexperience spared them. Death welcomed them with equal indifference all the same.
They were warnings no longer, simply reminders of the cost that came with liberation.
And there he stood, unbothered by the remains that surrounded him.
Hong Lu, your lord, remained solely focused on you.
His guandao rested in his hand, its blade reflecting the dim light above. He wore a veneer of serenity, yet it did little to mask his apprehension.
For a moment, neither of you moved. It was quite peculiar. After all the blood spilt in his name, all the teachings he relayed to you so enthusiastically..
You had finally committed a transgression he couldn’t forgive. Abandonment.
Now you're stood before him, at the mercy of his weapon. If he'd truly grant you the mercy of death—you wished it to be as cruel as the deaths suffered by your companions. Unfortunately, you no longer had the luxury of deciding your fate. All that was left was to accept it.
In one fell swoop, his blade descended.
—
Almost immediately, a deafening shriek of steel tore through the hall.
Between yourself and death stood a familiar head of white hair.
Faust.
She stood tall, her sword trembling beneath the weight of Hong Lu's polearm. Both weapons were locked together with enough force to send sparks skittering across the marble. She had come, finally.
Yet, the expected relief never came. Her posture lacked any sense of triumph or conviction—it had a unique rigidness to it. Instead, her hesitant steps were that of someone mourning. Someone who’d arrived far too late.
Not once did she look at you. Her troubled eyes remained fixed upon the edge of Hong Lu's weapon, as though the polished steel were easier to bear than the sight of your face. At first, you thought it were concentration, embarrassment perhaps. Instead, she was hiding something far worse. Guilt, growing- no, festering within her.
Hong Lu's unreadable expression dropped for a split second, softening into quiet recognition.
"...Interfering again, hm, Faust?"
Her grip tightened around the hilt of her sword—amplifying the force of her blade against his.
"Faust determined that this execution would only result in unnecessary losses."
"Unnecessary?" The corner of his lips lifted ever so slightly. "What an... interesting choice of words." With neither willing to yield completely, the clash dissolved into an uneasy stalemate. They both withdrew, Faust—protectively by your side—whilst Hong Lu stood alone.
A quiet laugh escaped him.
"So then..." His eye lazily drifted over you, eyeing your trembling form with an almost perverse delight. Noticing this, Faust shifted, as if to shield you from his vision. "What do you propose I do with this traitor?"
Instinctively, you stepped forward, squeezing her arm.
"Faust, I really don’t mind—"
But, she didn’t react. Gripping onto her, you spun her around, making sure that she was facing you.. "...Faust?"
Nothing.
Not even the slightest glance. It was as though your voice had never reached her to begin with. Her iris’ swirled with an inexplicable dread as silence settled like frost. Slowly, she turned away from you, grimacing at your confusion,
At last, Faust spoke.
"...Let them live."
The words came out in a quiet whisper, sounding almost pained.
In response, Hong Lu's unsettling grin simply widened.
"Live?" He repeated slowly, tasting the word with open amusement. "But surely that contradicts the very path we've walked together, no?." Dragging his weapon alongside him, he strode forward with confidence.
"Faust."
His voice remained gentle, as if coaxing her to his side.
"I’d like to hear your reasoning."
In an instant, her head bowed. Hesitation had never been an emotion you’d thought Faust capable of, yet it clung to her now with unsettling clarity. Her fingers idly traced the flat of her blade, searching for a certainty it couldn’t offer. The composure that had always defined her seemed to waver as her gaze drifted—from the bloodstained floor, to the forgotten guards, and finally to the edge of her sword, clasped within her trembling hands. Everywhere, save for you.
"...Their death would be entirely meaningless." His eye crinkled with mirth as he continued his interrogation.
"How so?"
"Faust believes that they’re valuable."
Taking an unhurried step towards the two of you, he let out a quiet laugh.
"Valuable? What an amusing sentiment.” His head tilted playfully. “To whom, Faust?"
The oppressive silence continued to haunt the hall, lingering a beat longer this time.
"...To Hongyuan."
"Oh, but of course." A weary, almost affectionate sigh fell from his lips. "They were my most precious advisor once." His gaze never left her. “But times have changed, have they not? They’ve long since abandoned their path.” A small smile played on his lips, peering at you from the corner of his eye. “They are of value to Hongyuan no longer.”
Faust’s lips parted in an attempt to refute him. Yet, no words came.
“I ask again, Miss Faust. Who are they valuable to?”
For the first time since she'd arrived, Faust faltered. Her eyes had shut, as she stood in silence. For the briefest of moments, you thought she’d stop entertaining his madness. That perhaps she would draw her sword once more. That perhaps—
"...To you."
Her voice barely carried over.
"Pardon?"
The silence that followed seemed endless.
When she finally spoke again, each word emerged as though dragged painfully from her throat. Hoarse and raw.
"They’re valuable..."
Her fingers tightened against her sword’s holster, leaving her knuckles whitened and bruised.
"...to you, my lord."
The admission echoed through the empty hall, sealing your fate.
You looked to Faust, waiting patiently. Surely she would object. Surely she'd remind him that attachment clouded judgement—that his fixation on you ran contrary to everything he once claimed to value. Surely she'd tell him to let you go.
Tentatively, you reached for her hand, your fingers curling around hers. They hung limp within your grasp, neither returning the gesture nor pulling away.
"...Faust?"
Nothing. Not a single word was uttered. Her shoulders remained burdened by an invisible weight. Her eyes never rose to meet yours, lingering instead upon the bloodstained marble below.
And then it struck you.
Faust had never come here to save you, instead she had come to bargain. And your life had never been the subject of negotiation. It was your freedom.
Closing his eye with a quiet satisfaction, he hummed to himself.
"I thought so."
With a quiet motion, Faust slipped her hand from your grasp, never looking back. Instead, she faced Hong Lu alone, lowering her head until silver strands curtained her expression.
"My lord..." she whispered softly. "...Please."
Hong Lu regarded her for a long while, his gaze unreadable. He looked upon her desperation with the same detached consideration one might spare the weather. Then, at last—
His guandao lowered.
"Very well then." Relief flickered across Faust's face so briefly you almost believed you'd imagined it. "I’ll spare them."
You let out a breath you didn’t know you were withholding.
"However..." That word alone was enough to still your heart, hollowing your chest. His eye drifted lazily towards you.
"They will return to Yihongyuan."
His voice carried neither anger nor triumph. It was simply law.
"From this day onward, they are forbidden from leaving my side."
Faust stiffened, her fingers tightening around the hilt of her sword.
"...Or my estate."
He began walking towards you with that familiar unhurried confidence he'd always possessed. Every measured step echoed through the bloodstained hall, until only a single breath separated you. His hand rose to brush a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
"They won’t disappear from my sight again."
His smile was almost gentle. There was an unmistakable tenderness to it, one that all but withered beneath the emptiness of his eye.
"After having almost lost them once." His thumb lingered against your cheek. "I have no intention of repeating that mistake."
Your knees threatened to give way.
"Come," He offered you his hand with an effortless familiarity, easily mistakeable for kindness. But you knew better.
"We've both had quite enough excitement for today."
His gaze never left yours.
"Let's go home."
Death had stood before you only moments ago. Now, it seemed almost merciful in comparison to the fate that awaited you.
꒰꒰ 🌸 GIVING THEM FLOWERS , the title! gifting the lcb sinners flowers out of the blue and their reactions!
一 headcanons , fluff , gn reader , can be read as platonic or romantic , probably ooc , not proofread !! ~2.1k wc
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一 YI SANG #01
One of the best gifts to get him, really.
He slowly accepts them, and he has a happy little smile as he admires the flower and inquires about the reason you gifted him these flowers. Regardless of the reason, he's truly touched that you gave him such a gift.
Will literally cradle it and look at it as if it's his baby and either put it somewhere safe in his room, where he'll make sure it stays fresh for as long as possible, and yes, he will stare at it whenever he can.
After it inevitably dies, he'll preserve it as a bookmark in one of his notes (he will mourn it).
He strikes me as the type of person to gift you flowers anyway, whenever the Sinners are lucky to stumble upon the rare sight of one, but he will actively seek one out to repay you as well. Wants to put your two flowers together in the sun in his room.
Takes great care of it, there won't even be a single tear in the petal, no matter how delicate the flower is. 10/10.
一 FAUST #02
Will act detached and noncaring, but she does seem curious about the gift.
She'll identify the species, lifespan and even the symbolic meaning of the flower and quickly deduce why you chose that flower or if it was truly just a random flower you picked out for her. I can imagine her as the type to be a bit caught off guard if you truly just wanted to gift her flowers without any hidden motives.
Faust is not big on gifts, but she'll uncharacteristically accept them anyway since they're from you.
Probably puts it in a simple cup by her room or somewhere, at the very least, where she knows someone like Don won't knock it over and glances at it from time to time, though she has to hide most of her feelings towards it for the Gesellschaft.
Takes good care of it, she doesn't actively make an effort to preserve it, but she's dutiful enough so that it survives for a while and stays in great quality. 9/10.
一 DON QUIXOTE #03
Loves the gift and is very happy about receiving it.
"Ah, you've gifted me a token of great valour!"
She probably places it in a little cup of water alongside all her beloved Fixer merchandise, because your flower is definitely important enough to be beside them!
Will literally turn Mephistopheles upside down looking for a good-looking, suitable container or cup to keep them in.
Also, will actively search for a flower to gift you back as soon as possible! Like by as soon as possible, I mean as soon as possible, when the Sinners arrive at their next stop, she's already running out to find some for you and will end up very dejected if she doesn't find any, which is likely given the... environment.
Though Don's a bit clueless about how to, well, actually take care of it. With the best intentions in her heart, she puts it in a place where there's lots of sun, unaware that actually makes a picked flower shed its petals faster...
You will hear a scream of utter horror once the flower inevitably withers. 6/10.
一 RYŌSHŪ #04
Scoffs at them and judges them, especially if you gave her ordinary, generic flowers. They really do not fit her aesthetic or taste.
Unless you did consider what she likes. For example, if they were to have a thorny or macabre aesthetic, she'll be a bit more interested in them. "N.B."
Despite her initial behaviour, Ryoshu will accept them just because they're from you. She, truthfully, doesn't really know what to do with it; she might keep them around for a bit if it's just a stem or two. If there's more, she places them somewhere in her room and doesn't really touch them that much after that.
If you do get her flowers that she ends up liking, I can see her as the type who might keep a petal or so neatly tied to the red ribbon of her scabbard, where it inevitably becomes soaked in blood by the next battle (even better for her).
一 MEURSAULT #05
Accepts them rather mechanically before asking you what the exact purpose of gifting him these flowers was.
Once you establish the point of the flowers, he does appreciate the gesture, though he barely shows any outward reaction to them. He's careful when touching them and might make a note about the flowers, inquiring if you liked this particular kind or not.
He takes good care of them, though, and he'll look for some place to put them safely and keep them astonishingly well taken care of.
He will trim their stems and make sure the water temperature's right and they're in a good, cool spot in his room. They'll end up surviving for a good week or so under his care. 10/10.
一 HONG LU #06
One of the better reactions to the flowers. He really likes them and will tease you gently about them.
Will proudly carry the flowers around for a while, only basically putting them down when he has to fight or do something where his hands are occupied.
If you gave him multiple, he likes to "share" some of the flowers with you as well. He will tuck one behind your ear or tie a few into your hair so the two of you can match.
He's another person who would get you flowers back whenever he can! If he can't find any, he has no qualms with going and buying a fancy bouquet for you once the Sinners reach their next stop.
He also makes sure to keep some behind for himself, and he does make an effort to preserve them, though he's not as meticulous as someone like Meursault, he will still work out a good way to keep them fresh for a while. 9/10.
一 HEATHCLIFF #07
He'll definitely be surprised when you gift them to him, very baffled about why you'd be giving him these flowers and turning a bit red while holding onto them for dear life (please don't do that Heathcliff)
Once you tell him you just wanted to gift him some flowers, he'll grumble a bit, trying to play it off as a stupid gesture, though he really, really likes it.
Eventually manages to thank you and speedily power-walks to his room while looking at the flowers in his hands with a very conflicted expression on his face.
He ends up putting them into some LCB standard-issue mug or container by his bedstand with an uncharacteristic amount of care. Like his hands will be shaking as he places them in, as if they'll explode if he moves them too hard.
He's clueless about how to take care of a picked flower, but he makes his best attempt, and it survives surprisingly long. He's also oddly protective of it and will get all defensive and tense if someone walks too close to it.
一 ISHMAEL #08
Honestly, she's pretty cynical about it at first and will scan for any ulterior motive. You're gonna ask her for something in return, aren't you?
However, once Ishmael realizes you genuinely gifted them out of the goodness of your heart, she gets rather flustered and will look at the flowers in her hands with an unsure expression, thanking you for the gift.
She'll hold the flowers tightly and refuse to put them down, however, and promptly finds a suitable cup or place to store them in. Leaves them in her room and actively checks on them to make sure it's still fresh and the water is renewed.
Also gets defensive when she feels like someone may endanger them and will remind everyone not to touch them or move them around too much, lest they fall over or die faster.
She really appreciates the gesture, even if she's awkward at expressing it, and will probably gift you something similar in return once she has the chance to in the future.
一 RODION #09
Pretty ecstatic about receiving the flowers and will definitely tease you about it, saying something along the lines of, "Oooh, you shouldn't have!"
Assuming that you bought the flowers, Rodion might lightheartedly complain that the money could've been spent on a hearty meal or some snacks, but there's zero bite behind her words because she truly appreciates the gesture, even though she's really not used to such affections.
Spends the rest of the day proudly carrying them around.
Eventually, she does look for a way she can set them down, though she's less meticulous about it than some of the other Sinners. She might just leave them on her desk or in a cup and cherish them for as long as they stay fresh.
She's not above showing them off to the other Sinners to. If they come near her while she's holding them or enter her room, she'll flaunt the flowers you got her like a museum artifact.
一 SINCLAIR #11
Another one with a good reaction, he gets very flustered and will stutter out a thank you as he graciously accepts the flowers.
It takes him a while to get him out of his flushed daze after he receives them, where he'll just hold them carefully, terrified that the slightest movement will ruin them. Once he thinks he's alone, he'll look at them with a boyish grin. He's just genuinely so happy about the small gesture of affection.
Finds a good place to put them in and definitely keeps them in his room, tolerating some amount of teasing and knowing looks from the rest of the Sinners.
Protective of the flowers, too! He'll make sure Sinners like Don or Heathcliff stay away from them, given the risk that they may knock them over, and will constantly check on them and absolutely panic if he sees that a petal is beginning to fall or the stem is beginning to brown.
Another one who gets really dejected when they inevitably wilt. He'll look really ashamed about it too, even if it's not his fault that they withered.
一 OUTIS #12
She's rather cynical about it. I can see her distrustfully asking you why you got her the flowers while turning them around in her hands to assess them.
When you tell her that you wanted to gift her something, she remains uptight about it, though the gesture clearly catches her off guard. Outis scoffs and looks at them with a conflicted expression while awkwardly clearing her throat.
Ends up keeping them with a reluctant facade. It's not that she dislikes the gift at all, but she's seen far too much to really be accustomed to such affections at this point in her life, so she's really not sure what she feels about them, but something within her keeps her from simply throwing them out.
She takes care of it fine enough, though; she might just leave it in a cup in her room and leave it at that. (It's in your best interest not to point out the fact that she kept them.)
一 GREGOR #13
Deeply caught off guard and will be all awkward about it.
Gregor has, and I mean 100% has, never received flowers and gifts like this, and he's unsure why you'd even give such delicate flowers to someone like, well, him. So he definitely doesn't know how to act about it either.
He settles for an awkward chuckle as he looks at the flowers you gave him. He's unsure about what to do with them, but he ultimately decides the best choice is to just keep them in his room or somewhere safe where they won't get crushed up or knocked over. He also has zero clue about how to take care of them, but he gets the gist.
He's earnest and might try to water it or something to keep it fresh, and he glances at it from time to time with a reflective look and feels guilty when they die, and ends up thinking he did something wrong.
Sleeping HC's with the female sinners! (+ Intimidating evil clockhead on the background)
Dreadcore yap session: first request <3 should probably be popping a bottle of champagne or something like that xd. Im really happy for the support the last one got although i found it a bit crappy i will try harder this time😔 aside from PM i can see myself writing for jjk or hoyoverse (i have a csm school au headcanon wip from like god know how long ago, probably wont write any csm apart from that one after THAT ending)
Faust
She stays up late every night. I feel she would only get to bed at like 4 am when you're already asleep.
She's a bit of a hypocrite, i can imagine her lecturing you about your sleep habits. What about her? Faust is built different apparently, geniuses of her caliber must adapt and overcome but as long you stay below her you WILL sleep your 8 hours.
Faust will usually be the big spoon, i imagine her liking being the small one but since she gets to bed ultra late thats the easiest way to snuggle with you.
When she wakes up earlier than you she just stares at you, watching drool slowly drip from your mouth to the pillow. Apparently being a good cuddle parter is something faust can pride herself in, no geselchaft involved.
Don quixote
Has a lot of those pijama sets with the santa hat looking thingy, she would be very happy if you wore one with her.
Its you, donqui and your color fixer plushie collection against the world. If she ever catches you sleeping while cuddling one of those she would be SOOOOO jealous, she will wake you up and demand explanations. She will NOT stand this (she says as she cuddles onto your chest)
She moves so much on her sleep. she is stealing the blankets, as much as you try before you even realize the blanket is gone and you're cold and miserable while she sleeps besides you totally oblivious about the evil acts she inflicts upon her most beloved.
Ryoshu
While one may think she wakes up at 5 am from the rigorous training she went at the house of spiders you would be wrong, whats the real reason?
She needed to get Araya ready for school thats all😭 if it wasn't for the habit she picked up with Araya she would have started waking up at 5 pm as soon as she got out that place.
She definitely has drawn you while sleeping. She has a sketchbook she keeps tucked somewhere with drawings upon drawings of you drooling on HER pillow cases (honestly i cant decide if she would have some fancy ass pillow cases or no pillow cases at all… i guess im truly a larper sfter all😔).
Ishmael
Every days is an adventure with her. Trying to untangle from her hair might as well be consider on the same level as a travel to the outskirts.
You swear it has a life on its own the way it just seems to magically target your mouth and orifices. and then your most beloved has the nerve, the absolute GALL to complaining about you getting her hair dirty? She must be out of her- oh you two can shower together? Now that you mention it…
Honestly i really dont see her as the snuggler type, she seems like someone who would enjoy to have you brushing her hair while you both talk. Doing your morning routine together is absolutely her favorite part of the day.
Thats why you two are sleeping at the same hours (yes, shes forcing you).
Rodya
Y'all arent getting anywhere im so fucking sorry 😭
She's like a big ass teddy bear, i feel it would start with any of you two as the big spoon only to end with this non euclidian mess of arms that is nothing more than a crime against nature, arts and God itself.
Its SUCH a hastle to try and untangle yourselfs so why not just chill? 5 minutes, right? We dont have anything to do today, right? (You must definitely had something to do that day)
Outis
Look i would love to be like "oh she would do an exception for you she would do x and y but like…" :/
She's running this shit as a boot camp im so sorry. I see her getting more lax as the canto's go on but she would be strict about sleep schedules.
The struggle to get those extra 5 minutes is one that shall go in history. Thousand of cheek kisses, hundreds of whimpers yet nothing. You are not getting them im so sorry
Dante
If im not wrong in the nocturnal sweeping intervallo its stated they dont need to sleep. They would enjoy just staring at you while working on some stuff or occasionally cuddling you for mental health purposes.
I feel they would feel like such a weirdo for things that are relatively normal for couples
Like, wow you decided to watch a horror movie just so your partner gets scared and cuddles you? Absolute WEIRDO behavior
Belive it or not they end up the one being scared, ending up in your lap? Mission failed successfully i guess?
Reader with the ability to see and communicate with the dead (even if they are erased by someone or something)
Canto spoilers from 1 - 9
The reader is a sinner. Don’t ask how pls. This is my first time doing this but HOPEFULLY I GOT THEM IN CHARACTER ATLEAST!
Also thx to @existence-is-a-pain87 for the inspo from their series <3 READ THEIR WRITNG PEOPLE IT IS DELICIOUS!
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Honestly, you have no idea how this ability manifested. BUT HEY YOU ARE NOW THE MESSENGER BETWEEN THE SINNERS AND THEIR LOVE ONES NOW!
Also you can see some of the ghosts glaring at each other out except for those in the back
Yi Sang would ask you to rely his remorse about unable to intervene when things were going to a boiling point meanwhile Dongbaek is casually reassuring him while beating the hell out of Donrang for his betrayal to the League of Nine. Dw you are just watching it go down with a slight smile on your face on how stupid this is now
Gregor is relieved knowing Yuri and his sister has been following them for all this time despite not seeing them. Slightly feel better after having words relayed to him on how much he meant and done for them, even if it may be a short time. You have definitely let him cry on your shoulder with Pablo on your other shoulder while seeing some of his dead comrades around.
Don is happy. Happy in an understatement, overjoyed would be the perfect word. She is glad that her family is doing well without the constant need of blood. While papa don is rambling on how proud he is to see her grow and how she is accepted by the sinners despite being a bloodfiend. I hear a certain bloodfiend got jumped for breaking an important rule. Honestly you are seeing curses thrown by them that you don’t even understand while stepping away.
Ishmael is happy that Queequeg is free and the whole crew able to speak freely now after the whole whale thing. They are definitely planning on how to spite Ahab after what she has done to them. I mean reasonable knowing how fuck up the City is. The crew is definitely dragging you around after both of your contracts are over cuz you all deserve a vacation of sorts.
Heathcliff is tearing up in his room knowing that there is someone else beside him and Dante that knows Catherine. Yeah they are going to go on about how much they love each other and their regrets about the past they have done. You do have to pat Heathcliff’s back the moment he sobs. The other sinners have zero clue on who Heathcliff is talking or crying about sadly.
RYOSHU! She may not remember Aryra but she knows how much that names means for her. You see Aryra following Ryoshu like a duck with its mom or a kitten following its mother’s footsteps. Did you cry? Probably. It is painful for accidentally killing your child. Also Sora, Ren, and Lucio are also in the bus for some apparent reasons- Nevermind the nurse fathers are here as well.
Hong Lu is actually genuinely smiling knowing his childhood friend, Jia Huan, has been following him all this time. They spent the first 30 minutes expressing their regrets before going on how fun it was together. Jia Huan was DEFINITELY GIGGING HIS ASS OFF AFTER WHAT HAPPEN TO JIA MU! Meanwhile you are casually conveying Huan’s words to Hong Lu while giggling on how ironic Jia Mu fate ended up along side the elders.
It took quite a lot of convincing to Rodya and Sinclair to talk with their previous friends and love ones. And it went sorta… well??? As they understood why Sinclair and Rodya did what they done but didn’t mean for their deaths. Except for some people that are pissed off despite it being years.
Faust said she doesn’t need it as she doesn’t have anyone that she is attached to. (I SENSE LIES FAUST!)
Outis got her family at home still alive somewhere; DONT MIND THE DEAD VETERANS CUSSING HER OUT OKAY! They’re from the Smoke war
Meursalt probably had a few small talk with his mom before accepting the fact that she has been with him constantly after her death. (Honestly I hope we get hints of his previous life)
BONUSS
you are now the UNOFFICIAL THERAPIST OF LIMBUS COMPANY BUS! With Dante as well, honestly you two need a damn raise. Also the bus is definitely more lively than before you manifested this ability, hopefully nobody decided to make a religion out of you 😅
✦ OPEN HEART, OPEN MIND — NEVER KNOW WHO YOU’LL FIND!
LCB sinners x reader.
overview. kissing headcanons! yay! featuring a select few of the sinners.
warnings. discussion of spoilers (their cantos). possible mischaracterization.
notes. hehehe… the entire lcb has an unmatched face card. lowercase cont’d.
:: sinclair.
he’s very hesitant at the start. while he recalls the faintest memories of his parents—before their decision to go through the procedure of replacing parts of their body with prosthetics, and then their subsequent demise—he hasn’t had much else in terms of affection; he doesn’t necessarily count the actions of his colleagues as such, either. that is, until you came in.
the 11th sinner was, to put it bluntly, a wreck during his first attempt at a kiss. he was quick with it; flustered beyond belief, a stuttering mess… the works. the only reason why he had the courage is thanks to the 9th sinner, rodya. he leaned forward, placed a soft, chaste peck on your cheek, and ran away before you could do anything. hah!
that is to say, he does get better at this. he’s not at the point of kissing you directly on the lips, but he’s getting there. generally, sinclair likes to press his lips on your forehead and cheeks; it’s efficient, yet sweet.
:: don quixote.
she’s open in her affection towards you; to anyone, truly. the version of herself from many, many years ago—sancho—would never ever be this touchy and lovey. perhaps the thought lingered in her mind—to be vulnerable, and allow herself to be soft and loving—but she’s quick to dismiss these thoughts. she can’t be this bare. she won’t allow herself to be.
however, don quixote, the 3rd sinner, both pre and post memory loss, is un-shamelessly lovey-dovey. her first kiss left you dazed; she placed both of her hands against your face, “officially” proclaimed herself as your knight, and placed a biiiig ol’ kiss on the lips. truly—she holds no shame!
don quixote places her lips alllll over you; your forehead, your nose, your cheeks, your neck… the list goes on. she just can’t do the bare minimum when it comes to her lover!
:: gregor.
he’s—honestly not entirely sure on how to go about something like this. not once has he received pure-good affection or attention; his mother…haah, she’s a can of worms that he wants to get rid of but cannot. his colleagues… he knows that they don’t usually mean harm with their words when they’re directed at him, but it hurts all the same. it truly does. because of this missing piece in himself, he’s unsure of what to say or do when it comes to being affectionate to—you. but he’s trying. and that’s all that matters.
he was also nervous when going forward with the first kiss. not as unprepared as sinclair, but definitely a bit scared. rodya—bless her heart—was, again, the pusher, hyping him up to the best of her abilities, which is a grand scale of things. he reached out with his human hand, leaned in, and kissed the corner of your mouth. not too direct, but not too indirect, either. despite so, the faint flavor of smoke lingered.
loves him some side-kisses. quick and simple, yet full of love anyways. he won’t let this become a fleeting thing. he can’t let that happen.
A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
In public it depends on how bored she is, usually it would be her teasing you in some way, perhaps a joke at your expense but not one that would be harmful. In private she is significantly more affectionate and she likes to show it through touch mainly.
B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
As a friend she'd be the type who playfully insults you, maybe giving you a new insecurity by accident. You two are 100% guaranteed getting into some kind of legal trouble, if not for murder, definitely something else. The friendship would start either through admiring her gorey masterpieces or by actually managing to understand her SANGRIA.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
I like to think she does enjoy cuddling. It would be a nice, silent moment between you two, at this stage you're probably comfortable enough to not need words. She's always big spoon.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
Ryoshu would want to settle down and maybe even have a kid as well eventually, she's certainly a great cook but cleaning isn't really her forte and she is likely messy herself. You two will take turns with the chores (she made this decision for you and she's unwilling to change it) and will death glare at you if you don't do your share of chores.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
The break up would be UGLY. You're not allowed to see her ever again, and if you do bump into each other she won't even need her eyes to burn a hole in the back of your head. If things get especially bad this is definitely ending with one of you dead, and chances are it isn't her.
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
She'd only really be afraid of commitment if she's still being hunted down by the Fingers - putting your life at risk for her mistakes is the last thing she'd want to do - if we exclude that however, she'd be more than happy to get married, the wedding itself would be small and quiet. It might even just be the two of you...
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
In the beginning she's not all that that gentle, especially if we're talking emotionally. After a while though she'll treat you as if you're made of glass, only willing to do anything to you if you ask and somehow manage to convince her.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
From you? She definitely enjoys hugs, her hugs are usually pretty soft, all you have to worry about is burning yourself on her cigarette. She won't hug you too much, but that's mainly because her hugs last rather long.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)
She doesn't say it at all. Ever. She believes it sounds fake. She will only say she loves you through her actions.
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)
Ryoshu is somewhat of an immature woman as we can see from how she threatens death over the slightest things, and this likely isn't an exception... if it's not family, she's probably gonna be jealous, and that murder is probably happening.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
Her kisses start out pretty slow with just a few gentle pecks at first, but then they slowly begin devolving into something more animalistic and passionate, and you know you'll be there a while.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?)
She is amazing around kids! Doesn't matter if they're her own or not, she knows the ins and outs of raising a kid as we can see from Spring Cultivation.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
The swordswoman likely isn't too happy in the mornings, she'd probably be more akin to a bear waiting to be poked. It really is best you just let her fully wake up and shake the grogginess off. She won't blow up on you but she will be frustrated.
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
Nights with her are usually pretty quiet, maybe you two are on the balcony with a couple of cigarettes before bed, maybe she'd occasionally give you some SANGRIA to translate. Overall it would be a sweet moment.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
Oh lord will you have to wait for her to start opening up... basically the only time she ever shares anything about herself is when it illicits some sort of negative emotion from her. If it's about her past involving the Fingers you probably knew about that before you two got together, but overall she won't reveal much
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
Ryoshu and patient do not go together. Of course, you're not a stranger anymore, and you're more than a close friend so she definitely gives you more leeway. It is still easy to get on her nerves.
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
She puts in effort to remember, she won't remember everything but she'll remember most of what you tell her.
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
Her favorite moment would be the first time she made art with you - it was the time she got to admire how shocked, maybe even scared you were at the moment. Maybe she had you as a little helper, asking for tools to help make the piece better and opinions on what should be changed or about the meaning of the piece she’s currently making… that was a truly special moment for her.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
Ryoshu is on maximum security around you, she refuses to let anything hurt you, and she is fierce about it. Any harm coming your way will be swiftly met by her odachi. She doesn't want you protecting her at all, but if you do manage to save her life when she's near death she'd be thankful (but she'd never say it).
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
Definitely the type to rip her face off coming up with something. You're special to her, you deserve the best. Once she does come up with something she will be playing it off cool and like it was no problem for her though. You know the truth, but you don't wanna find out what happens when you point it out.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
Smoking obviously. Besides that probably the fact she kills people and turns their bodies into art?
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
To her, looks don't matter too much. She just does the bare minimum to look presentable to you and for the occasion.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
Absolutely! Even if it ended in a break up and she'd hate to see your face ever again, it would take her quite some time to recover from it. If you were to die that would be one of the lowest points in her life, it would probably leave her unable to speak for some time, and her smoking would definitely worsen if she ever were to lose you. Afterward she will act like everything is alright and like she never truly cared, but would anyone really believe her?
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)
I like to think she's quite fond of spiders and keeps them around the house not just because they kill other bugs but also because she just finds them fascinating. She won't squish any of them no matter how much you beg her, at most she'd throw them outside, and she won't be pleased.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)
She probably wouldn't want anyone who's a bit too cheesy when it comes to the romantic moments, she likes them quiet and without being all that grand. Not understanding her art would be a red flag, but she could probably live with it.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
This woman is a lot like your father passed out on the couch - snoring loudly and in her underwear.
