#i shouldn't exist

[opudont-donut]

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[kirtashfowl]

I feel like I can't do anything

Studying? No motivation nor concentration.

Reading? No concentration.

Drawing? No inspiration.

Writting? No inspiration.

Playing ukelele? (I recently started to learn how to play it) I don't want to annoy my neighbours.

Aaand we can't forget the intrusive thoughts. No matter what I'm doing I just think that I should be studying (even when I'm studying they appear because I'm studying one thing but have so much more to do).

[lesserbeans]

Reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[wretcheddollthings]

bleh.....

[akai-hito]

It's ridiculous to feel this way, at the end of the day I don't even exist for them or even most of the people who are on my dash and I'm too awkward to make a move

Someone like me shouldn't be around, I'm just drowning people in my nonsense that nobody want to hear about

I'll stay disconnected for now, I know that the mental state I am right now doesn't matter

We're all in this together I've heard but really we aren't, I know that too well, I know that my stuff will not be missed in the grande scheme of thing because that's always been this way

I'm surely going to be forgotten anyway so why i don't just make it end, why do I stay, why do I hope to make a difference, why do I have this stupid ego forcing me to be in

None of what I do matter, I just don't... I'm tired to try, my voice will never reach anyone, it'll always be like I never lived

I'm sure that being with that relative will not even help me but it doesn't matter being there doesn't either, a parasite like me can just bother people around them

I'm sure nobody want to hear about this, I know I'm just a pain when i am like that

I'll stop there, I uninstall the app for the remaining time it's not even like I'll be messaged over this anyway

[escapingreality51]

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[doorstoplord]

I'm sorry I'm so sorry

[heartshapedblossoms]

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