I’ve started to see random changes in reality.
It feels like looking at an old film where they have spots of white or black seeping into view except it’s my Dr. I’ve also increasingly noticed- when I work out (started again just to be more connected to my drself) I’ve found myself thinking like how my drself would or really just reminding myself of how I/my drself is.
Examples:
when I’m doing endurance training on the walking pad, when I turn it on max I’ve realized it’s made running really easy. Hell I even felt that immense happiness when I push myself like my drself does. I normally do NOT enjoy running or working out but my entire attitude towards it has shifted to the way my drself thinks while doing so and it feels amazing.
My drself releases more dopamine and endorphins while doing any sort of physical activity, which is why she gets happy/feels really good when putting a physical strain on the body (in her case running track or volleyball. She might even dabble in a little lacrosse).
I’ll close my eyes and full on see my DR room. Deadass.
I found myself missing my first childhood best friend in my Dr and wanted to text him(so I just used my notes app like o was texting him)
My mom acts like my Dr mom randomly. That one shocked me the most cs those two aren’t really alike.
More on that, when I visualize/“pretend” I’m in my Dr, feeling it is a lot stronger. Like I’ll try with all my might to see my Dr hands- which really isn’t hard (since I’m a lucid dreamer too) but it feels realer than a lucid dream.
I feel like I’m right there but I believe in myself
