summary: years after treating you like you don't exist, Zack decides he cannot take it anymore. What was supposed to be an apology, ended up being something entirely else.
warning: Mild violence, cult leader mentioned, feeling left out
It had been 4 years.
4 freaking years.
But zack made absolute no efforts on getting the friendship the three of you had back on track. Everything just had to be about Johan and Mira. Despite being in the same class, he never even spared a glance at you. Always spending time with either Mira or his rats.
It wasn't like Mira was any better. She always looked at you with so much guilt you hated it. After all why wouldn't she feel guilty when you took the hit for her when the weird cult leader wanted to inflict it upon her.
Realizing it will never be the same as it was, you gave up. Because why should you care about the people who don't care about you? You dropped off everything you all would do together. Their clothes when they came over would now be found in the trash can. You disposed the things that reminded you of them. You became free. You felt free.
The only thing you didn't drop off was boxing. You were a prodigy. YOU were the one to introduce them to boxing. So why should YOU quit it. The coach was basically your second father. There is no way you would let them ruin boxing for you. So there you were, in front of the person you swore to forget.
His hair was was messy. His white t shirt now drenched in sweat , revealing his toned body. You both looked at each other in surprise. Before continuing your business. You slid the zipper of your track suit down as you looked around trying to find another punching bag .
You wrapped the bandages around you hand that was supposed to protect you knuckles. You wore you gloves and went toward the punching bag that was at the other side of the room. Connecting your headphones to your phone you play your favorite song. Doing your warm up before violating the punching bag. You could feel the eyes of zack. But chose to ignore it.
After an hour of kicking and punching the bag ruthlessly he decided to take a break. A stupid excuse to watch you actually. He wanted to see whether you changed or not. He could only pray to Buddha that you changed for the better.He won't lie he wanted to apologize, wanted to embrace you, talk to you like how he did when nothing happened but he knew he would only make it harder for you. You had a great group of friends that cared for you. He knew that and couldn't help but ignore you. As if you didn't exist. He felt his chest tighten at the memory of you looking at him with such betrayal after the cruel things he said to you. He decided it was enough. He went up to you, wanting to apologize.
"Hey, let's fight and see who is more stronger."
Shit. He didn't mean that. You on the other hand, were dumbfounded.
"Ummmm..... Okayyyy. Sure. " It was quite awkward.
Both of you got inside the ring. You in a red gloves and him in blue.
As both of you threw punches at each other. 30 mins in the fight,Zack realized that you were stronger than him and were just toying with him. He swiped his feet, catching you surprised and landed his first punch. Right on your nose. With a bleeding nose you kicked his jaw with your heel and and punched right under his jaw.
As he was falling he caught on to your arm and pulled you down with him. Causing you to straddle his waist.
Both of you stared at each other. With so much to say.
"I'm sorry. "
"For what. "
"Everything"
"What is 'everything' ? "
"I am sorry i ignored you. I am sorry i never made an effort. I am sorry i never bothered asking how you were doing. I am sorry I was never there when you needed me the most. I am so so so sorry. "
"I see. "
" Do you forgive me? "
"Not really"
"Y/N I am so sor-"
"Stand up. "
When he stood up your back was facing him. The moment you felt something shift you twisted you leg and threw a punch at him.
"OWCH" He clutched his whole face.
"Now I forgive you. " You told him as you wore the brightest smile in the world. Blinding him.
You walked towards your bag. Packed your stuff. Zack was still there watching your every move.
You opened the glass door halfway before saying.
"Hey , you stink by the way . See you tomorrow at the school, chestnut. "
Zack had a stupid love stricken smile as he watched you leave.
He missed that nickname so goddamn much. Not that he would admit.
With a blushing face and a thumping heart Zack couldn't help but pray that the morning comes early.
My biggest issue with Dean’s death was “I’m fading fast” then proceeds to have a 5 minute monologue like a normal conversation...
I think that shows how truly strong and brave Dean was. He could have let go instantly. That thing went through his heart, probably a lung, his spinal cord. He should have died instantly. Could have let go at any moment, but he stayed. He hung on, struggled not to scream against the pain, held himself conscious for 5 more minutes with Sam. He had to make sure Sam was going to be OK. He had to make sure Sam knew that Sam was going to be OK.
I've seen people speak to how this was a disservice to Dean...but I don't believe that is the case. From the first lines... "Dean, take your brother outside..." Dean's entire life was raising Sam, taking care of Sam, making sure Sam could go on and live and have the life he wanted. Dean never wanted a life for himself...only one for Sam. He devoted his entire life to caring for Sam, and in his final moments, he had to make sure that Sam would go on...because that was all that mattered.
Is it sad that Dean felt his only purpose was Sam's care and happiness rather than his own? Yes. But also...no. There is great joy and purpose in devoting yourself to another person in such a way. Dean was forced into it, but eventually, he chose it. He chose to accept it, live it. It's what he wanted in the end.
Dean was never going to life the Apple Pie Life. He always knew it. He told us over and over again, we just wished for better for him.
But you know what?
He did get better.
He got to be happy. He got True Heaven. He is alive in the next life...happy. Content. Free. And he is with the people he loves, doing what he loves.
He's on the road...Sam is by his side. Mom and Dad and Bobby are prepping a big dinner for everyone. Cas is coming by tonight, a little reprieve from helping Jack run things. Jo brought over a pie. She couldn't stay, she's running around with her soulmate while Ellen rolls her eyes. Kevin and his mom live near by, but they don't see them much. Rufus was being cranky and opted for a night alone. He does that a lot.
But Dean is happy. He's got what he's always wanted. He has peace.
Down in the depths of Crotas Temple, this thing is creepier than any Hive could ever hope to be. It legit scared me because I didn’t see it going in but on my way out all I saw were the eyes. Like what the actual fuck! 😂
Edit: Or Shrine of Oryx... it’s in one of those spots and I’m too lazy to look again for it lol
