Jun 3, 2017
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#to be honest#sometimes i consider deleting all of my accounts#on every platform that im on#not because the internet makes me unhappy#but because i want to erase every trace of my existence#and pretend i was never really there#because i feel like i have no significance#and that once i disappear#ill be forgotten#i dont feel like i matter to anyone#im second best#second-rate#just that one person you occasionally talk to#but you'd never call a close friend#you have a best friend already#and this is just another person you sometimes enjoy spending your time with#but who will never be significant to you#i don't like being alone#its the most horrendously painful thing to me#but there's just no one to be with#no one i trust#no one who looks at me like im the best friend or an amazing person that they were destined to be friends with their whole life#someone life-changing#i guess this is pretty selfish huh?#itd be better if i disappeared so no one would have to deal with my selfishness#vent
