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Don't you love it when you're sitting in class having a good time and suddenly your body decides your clothes are Not Okay

#the dumbass unfiltered #adhd #actually adhd #autism #actually autistic #neurodivergent #sensory issues #im suffering help

“now go sleep on the floor!”

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i wake up and i immediately have an anxiety attack. an anxiety attack for me is like a cup of coffee for you. i can’t start my day without an anxiety attack

#im suffering help #its let up recently but damn this kinda sucks

A Pawn in His Game (Fyodor Dostoyevsky)

( 1/2) A pawn will never be a king's queen. You were surrounded by the blinding light of high society,yet you knew how fake they are. You lived as an orphaned child of a powerful family , but in reality.. You are a killer. You are an ability user. Your target? Fyodor Dostoyevsky. The harsh snow storm in Russia made you curse as to why you even agreed to do a favour for your old friend, Osamu Dazai. Gripping your winter clothes close to you, you made your way to the underground base of the Rats in the House of Dead. You have planned the infiltritation by doing the dumbest yet worthwhile plan. Making Fyodor Dostoyevsky, a man who calls himself god, fall in love with you. You opposed to the idea at first,but it seems to be the only way to get his trust. Pfft. Trust? Did that man ever trust someone? You will never know until you get to betray him. As you entered the base, Ivan greeted you with a smile. Not the kind of smile you see on people,more like mischievious and mad. "Ah, ____. Came to see the master?" He said as he guided you to the metal door leading to Dostoyevsky's office. Upon opening it, there was no one there. You stepped inside and looked around. . . . Then came a huge rock in your direction. You swiftly shift to the side and flawlessly avoided the rock. "Nice try, Ivan" You smirked as you turn to the man whose smile was now like someone who is completely crazy. You used your ability, Red blossoms, to manipulate the red metal bracelets on your arms and create a red sword-like feature to threaten Ivan. "But next time, You do something like that. I'll have Fyodor and myself personally kill you" Ivan smiled. "That would be an honor for me to die in my masters' hands" He simply said then you retracted your weapon. You went out of the room and in the other direction to find Fyodor. After all, Your plan seems to be working without fail. But.... You find yourself falling for this Russian man. Your communication device that you and Dazai shared started to blink, meaning an impending message: Escape. Now. Fyodor. Kill . You Your breath hitched as you caught on,yet you still wanted to be with him. You found the anemic rat... I mean the leader of the Rats in one of the rooms that was never occupied before. "Got bored in your old one?" You jokingly said as you entered the room. Fyodor was staring at the computer in front of him while he bit the tip his thumb. You sighed and walked towards him. Placing your arms around his shoulders and kissed his left cheek. The mission got harder when you realized you fell in love with him. Not even Dazai knew about this change. "The time where the sinners will pay is near" He mumbled and stopped his habit. You removed your arms around him as he stood up and faced you. "What do you mean?" You asked, hoping to get useful information from him. "Its nothing, my dear. Though, I need to make some arrangements." He said walking past by you,but you grabbed his arm. "I want to help" You said before you can even think about what you are saying. Fyodor looked at you with a surprised expression for a second then went back to his normal one. "I believe you won't like that....because I'm planning a date." With those words, you pulled back your hand and blushed. Fyodor looked a bit flustered as well and avoided eye contact. "F-Fyodor..." You stuttered. "I must get going" After placing a gentle kiss on your forehead, He looked down and cupped your cheeks. "I'll be back" then headed to the door. "W-what? W-Wait!" You reached and pulled him back. "A-A date??? its freezing outside!" It really is freezing. I mean you wouldn't be inside the base if you didn't know that. Fyodor put a finger under his chin and thought. "I was pretty certain that the snow storm stopped now." "W-wait, how do you know that?" Is he fucking serious? You thought. "I'm a God, of course" He said as if he's proud. You reached out at a door that leads outside the base. That door is quite good for an escape anyways. As you opened it, it surprised you how the snow storm did, in fact, stopped. "Wow. You are Satan." You giggled. "That wound me, my dear. But I did get that a lot. But it still doesn't change the fact that I am the only one who can erase this world of sinners." He said as he stepped out and reached out his hand. You sighed. "There you are again with your 'world full of sins' speech.Also, I prefer not to go outside. I am not fond of coldness" You shivered as the wind blows. Fyodor's expression is somehow unreadable. He just nodded and closed the door. To your surprise,however, He carried you to the other room that Ivan did his small attack aka Fyodor's actual office. "So....? uh? We're going on a date in your...office?" You asked, slightly nervous. He had placed you on his chair and leaned. "Snuggle" "Snuggles? Why?" You asked as you held back your laughter. "I thought you are cold?" You blushed at his words. "And now you're heating up. How do you women do that? manipulating your temperature that your face is red now..." He said,cupping your cheeks. "O-Oi, Fyodor...Stop that!" You blushed even harder and removed his cold hands away from your face. "You look.........nice." He awkwardly said. "I know and your face is too close." You lightly pushed him away and sit up straight. "You could have told me to bring a blanket and I could have made some hot chocolate for the both of us if you had said earlier that you want to snuggle" You are a blushing mess...I swear to god. Cue the awkward silence. He carried you again to the arm chair near the fireplace of his office. He sat down with you on his lap and gently pulled your body close to him. "Am I doing it right?" He asks, a hint of nervousness can be detected in his voice. You just nodded and snuggle him. After a comfortable silence and warmth. You looked up at Fyodor and saw his sad expression. "Is something bothering you?" You asked, concerned about his thoughts. "I can't be happy,dear ____." He said as he looked at you. "Why?" "Because when I become happy, I would lose something and someone important to me." This made you speechless...Did he really think that he was not worthy to be happy? "Were you happy with me?" You asked, sadness was evident in your voice as you expected him to tell that he was not. "I was" He said. "But I want to savour this feeling for now because later, this will change." "What do you mean?" "I know why and what you are here for, dear ____"