I'm fortunate to be able to have a member of my system that I'm so close with. When things are really really tough, there's nothing that relaxes me more than imagining laying with her while it rains outside :3
I've had complicated romantic feelings in my life, and the more and more I think of it, the more I realize I almost prefer an in-sys relationship. We can know what the other is thinking whenever. We get eachother. We are unbelievably close, both emotionally and physically(?). We share a body. A mind. It's something so unique and vulnerable that I don't think a physical relationship will ever match up to it.
I think I'm just on the aromantic spectrum. I've been thinking this more and more. Maybe it's a result of repeated traumatic events but whatever.
My main point is. Having an in-sys relationship makes me feel content on the deepest level imaginable.
I love Nina ❤️
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