They keep saying, “all that has happened, is behind you”. But it's been with me all the time. It's been there all along. When happiness knocks at the door of my life, I hesitate letting the guest into my life, for I do not know what will it take away from me. When love arrives, I unwillingly remember you and it's not the same after that. I get excited for only a couple of seconds and after that, everything just seems distant. I have been living knowing that life's never going back to how it was before you or any of it happened to me. I’ve lived believing that nothing is better than worse. And everything that's happened, has stayed with me.
— Hajra A. Shaikh














