#intentionally vague

[elizabethplaid]

Not gonna explain the my details, but the news about my state's senate race is on my mind. The current dem candidate is facing assault (etc) allegations from former partners.

I was already getting weird vibes after the tattoo controversy. Something one of the women said connected some old thoughts in my head. Big, big oof.

I've had a vaguely unsettling vibe haunting me lately, and I hadn't been able to give it substance just yet. Sometimes you have to watch someone else rearrange the pieces before your brain makes the connections.

Still picking at the problem slowly. I've made slow and subtle progress, though.

I recently imagined a scene where I destroyed something symbolic, so it wouldn't hurt me again. It was a stream-of-consciousness thing, so I really didn't understand it at the time.

Sometimes I wish I could share these odd meditations I have. They get pretty clever, even when I'm not actively shaping the scene. But this ain't LiveJournal, and I need to keep some things to myself. Better to curate my content than hide my account.

[sadismsexual]

I’m still yet to see a decent argument when it comes to clean animal bones and taxidermy

[pokedext]

Irony hurts. Ppl asking how can someone not tell you about their health issues until the moment is gone. Well you’re being insanely emotionally difficult now. Some ppl don’t want dwell in that anxiety of what has already been processed and accepted individually.

It’s been years and your emotional/mental health is why I can’t tell you things while you wail to me about others. I do not have any courage to burden you with any thoughts that may not even bear fruit. It’s not lack of thought, I just imagine they also cannot stand the hurt that comes after. It’s usually overthought rather than that simple.

[holidayinhell]

Caretaker exists as a pawn. it's as though his sole purpose is to amplify Whumpee’s torment, serving as a constant reminder of the stakes that keep Whumpee bound by fear and guilt.

whatever comfort that Caretaker may have given Whumpee happened off-screen, and Whumpee is an unreliable narrator anyways, so can we really trust that Caretaker ever gave him that much help?

are we sure Caretaker exists?

he must. surely he does. Whumper says he does. and Whumper says he'll kill him if Whumpee ever defies his orders.

but strangely, when Whumpee tries to remember what Caretaker looks like, he can't see much beyond the drug-induced haze.

actually, come to think of it, Whumper and Caretaker look a lot alike...

[cat-cosplay]

Feels good to be prop making regularly again.

VaguePreview

[feathered-devotion]

I wish I had some grand, romantic story about how I came to be a godspouse but… I don’t really have one. And I don’t even call myself that outside of this site but. Here I am. 🤷🏻‍♀️

It came after a period where she was begging me to see her for who she is. Not who I’ve been told that She is. I had a very specific version of her in my mind. One that’s common and kinda forced upon you if you’re part of… a certain online community around Her.

She helped me put up boundaries around them and helped me see that this ‘community’ is toxic. She spent a long time working with me on spiritual discernment. And human discernment.

Around this time, I had multiple medical procedures so I had a lot of downtime to recover… and we spent a lot of time together. It’s not like I really had a choice, tbh. I’d be lying if i said she wasn’t more or less a therapist to me then, lol.

During this time, I finally loosened my expectations and began to let her show me who she is. And it’s something so complicated and terrifying and beautiful and weird and wild and so paradoxically loving and secure and protective that I don’t have a better way to describe it. We grew close. And I found another follower of hers IRL + we have built an amazing community with Her at the center. [We are not solely Her priesthood, but she is our goddess. If that makes sense.]

And well. Things just kinda naturally progressed, gently, without any fanfare or grand gestures. There have been beautiful moments- ones that are too sacred to share here, and others that I may share at some point- but overall, our relationship is very… normal. Steady.

Sometimes it’s like we’ve been doing this forever already.

It isn’t exciting, but that’s my story, boiled down to a few paragraphs. Idk, maybe sharing this will help someone else with a more ‘normal’ relationship. :)

[jupiterzerinome]

they made me GAY!!!!

[allforhavoc]

i mean. i can't be the only one.