#isuckass

[moneylessbitch]

I want my xanax back, how do you function without that.

[moneylessbitch]

music (and art in general) is the only thing that can save me, everything else makes me feel dead, I would love to start a band but I only know the basics of violin and can't afford any other istrument, I would love to write lyrics and would be fine with singing cause it would help me out prolly (even if I don't at home cause there's always my family) how do u start a band of beginners ahhhh (I am already 19 btw:(()

[moneylessbitch]

TW SH TW BURNING just burned myself with a cigarette but I wasn't brave enough to turn it off on my own skin even if I deserved that

[moneylessbitch]

maybe I fucked up too bad, but I miss when we used to be so close and hang out everyday at your place or mine, now I feel like I am rotten and you would rather be with everybody else but me.

I know you don't like when I say sorry because I suck at showing I mean it. I'll ruminate on what we had knowing I let it wither without noticing, all while I was so scared of breaking it.

[moneylessbitch]

I suck so bad I should kms.

Also why keep telling me I'm gonna fail, I know, you make it sound like I have to change from one day to another.

[moneylessbitch]

I feel so fucking ugly, I wanna scrab my face off right now.

[moneylessbitch]

btw she was the proof for me that I can be loved.

[moneylessbitch]

btw I wish that everyone that I love would hate me because I know that I am fucked in the head, I wish they would pull away before truly seeing me. I don't wanna be loved for who I am.