Why I disappeared and why I am finally back.
Alright, I feel I owe an explanation to everyone for my sudden meltdown two months ago and why I just disappeared.
So now it’s story time. I was born with a bad heart. 3 holes in the ventricles of my heart as well as it was half the size of my chest. I almost died right after birth. Fast forward 28 years to a person who wasn’t informed my health was ever this bad. Was in and out of hospitals with severe chest pains, constant pneumonia, shortness of breath. I could t even go a week without ending up in the ER. Found out from my parents about the severe health issues, found a heart specialist. Turns out, my heart is permanently enlarged, and I have low diastolic function. These paired together put me at high risk for sudden heart failure. This my friends means if I get to stressed, it could literally KILL me. My heart rate should be between 60-100 in one minute but it is actually 95-110 in only 20 seconds.
Now with all that being said....I have to give up my career if I want to live. I have always wanted to be a chef, wanted to own a restaurant. Been studying and working in the field for 15 years now, since high school! Well obviously it’s way to high stress of a job. I can’t handle it and stay healthy. So after 15 years of chasing my dream I have to give it up.
So I need a much less physical job. I applied for several different locations 2-3 weeks ago. Had my second interview on Tuesday, thought it went absolutely horrid! Well I got a call this morning (Wednesday) very first thing. It was for the job!! They said I was by far the best candidate for the position and if I wanted it, the job was mine!! I start on the 26th. And while I am still very depressed that I have to give up my lifelong dream, it’s not really a life if I am dead. I will be part of a marketing team, making amazing money, full benefits, travel, fantastic perks like a free iPad. As well as an option for adoption or fertility treatments WITHIN the companies healthcare plan! Meaning not only am I going to be able to finally start getting healthier but my husband and I might finally be able to start a family!!! I am so happy I want to cry!! This job has given me hope that even though life has been completely turned on it’s head, I still have a chance to come out on top!!!