I love the touch of reality in episode 5.
Akin is an actor with a decade of experience so it's very natural for him to be proud, confident and a little arrogant cause he definitely earned it. In the first scene in that dream like state, we saw his inner feelings. He, just like everyone who's at the top of their game would feel the same way as him, that innate fear of being replaced. He knew that he's not always going to be number 1 and he even prepared himself for it just like what he said in that interview flashback but it still stung when it actually happened. He still found it hard to accept that he lost the title he's so very proud of. Found it hard to look at Jin without feeling hurt and anger.
Jin and the other hand doesn't really care about anything. All he want is to be able to stand beside Akin. To be someone who's worth standing beside Akin. Akin is his North Star that shines brightly down on him. he doesn't want to be just another person in the dark looking up at the sky to see the stars, he wants to be closer, to be one of the stars right beside Akin. He probably did not expect that to do that, he will need to kick Akin out of the number 1 spot. The pressure of their careers is starting to crawl in between them.
I'm very interested with Ford's line. Though it is true that personal and professional matters doesn't affect one another, it is also true that not everyone will see it that way. There will be someone who will not accept their relationship and they'll probably protest about it up until they die. The fact that they included his line despite the negative feedback they will get from the audience made me realize that it really does happen in Thai entertainment industry. As a foreigner who loves BL, Thailand for me is like a safe haven for all LGBTQ+ people, I did not expect that even there, this kind of treatment is still rampant. It made me realize why BL actors are limited to BL roles and even if they get non-bl, it's a role that their own company produces, not because another company seek them out for it. I wonder how they will tackle this topic. Will we get something like Po? Sacrificing his entire career just to be with Thame? Like Thame who risked his dream just to be with Po and Mars?












