I actually love the yearning touch au you made like nearly everyone dislikes or just don’t wanna be involved with the reader and that’s something I don’t see much people do! And do you think the reader will snap? Like from to much pressure, or when their being left to die?
Something amidst.
Tick tock tick—
WARNING: Gore, etc(THAT IDK HOW TO CALL SO FORGIVE ME IF I MISS ANY WARNINGS THAT I SHOULD'VE WROTE). I also didn't proof red these, so i apologize for any misspelled or mispronouns
Note: Snapping? Oh no, Dear Soup. No, no, no, no, no..
During one of the rounds, others would leave you behind whenever you hopped on a generator to go spawn knows where. Yet as the round progresses, you can't find where they are.
You limp, barely escaping death. You're low and bleeding from the wound Jason left on your body. You hope Jason did not follow you inside the mansion.
You sob, leaning on the walls near the closed door and sulk into yourself. The wound gasses and bleeds, you sadly don't have any medkit to patch yourself with.
With a heavy weak sigh, you slowly got up. Walking out the mansion careful not to be detected to try and find a medkit.
You hope and wish someone would find you and help, maybe Elliot? No— he would never help.
You reached the high mountain-like place, seeing Elliot and Builderman. Great, just great. Two people you hoped to avoid.
Builderman caught a glimpse of your limping form and furrowed his brows, watching as you climb up the steps to the top.
Upon reaching the top, Elliot let out an annoyed sigh but kept quiet as he sat next to the dispenser. You approached, sitting the opposite of where he sat. You could feel the glare burned on the back of your head and on your side, but you just ignore it, focusing more on resting and healing.
I'll just go once I feel a bit better.
Hearing a shuffle, you saw Shedletsky got to the top and once he met your gaze he put on a grimace but it quickly left his face. He turned to Builderman, mentioning how Chance and Guest is helping Dusekkar.
You decide to get up once you feel a bit better. Though you can't help but listen to them talk a bit longer. You listen as Elliot offers Shedletsky a pizza which he gladly took even as he has more health than you. You just shrugged it off and left. Hearing their relief sigh.
The timer was almost down, seeing as your cooldown finally gone you decided to help the two sentinel protect Dusekkar. Arriving at the graveyard, you took one glance at how tired Dusekkar was and heavily injured Guest is whilst Chance gamble away.
Quickly you took out your gun, aiming it precisely to stun Jason. Letting Dusekkar escape. And without a thank he left with Guest, though you don't understand why Chance lingered.
Seems like Jason precisely or knows how much weakness Chance has and turns his attention to the gamble addict. Chance would still gamble while being chased, he runs up you and—
SPLAT
You choked, feeling the burning pain of the machete making contact with your neck. Unfortunately, it didn't go through. Staying lodged into your neck, half way into cutting it.
Jason tilted his head before pulling it back with a quick motion, deepening the graze of the wound. Blood spray out from the gashing wound like a fountain. Some skins surrounding the wound were torn and some barely hanging.
You choked out bits of blood as it flowed out your mouth. Jason, oh seeing how sweetly nice to see you suffer, left you to bleed out and resume his chase with Chance who, I remind you, still gambles away with a blank face. Though you cannot lie he has bits of guilt etched at the corner of his lips.
You fell to the ground, covering the wound with your hand as if it would stop the heavy bleeding, draining your body from its source of oil.
The time ticked to zero, but— it didn't end.
You've had enough, your feelings were mixing with grief and agony. You just wanted to move on and yet the people around you treat you as if you're the same old you.
The hatred in their eyes and the disapproval glance would keep you awake at night. Spinning your head makes it hurt to the point you can't think of anything else other than your unwelcome presence.
You want to repay, you want it to end. You put more pressure onto your wound, finding the strength in your to get up.
Now. Do it. End it. STOP IT.
Shedletsky looks both confused and worried, the round supposed to end. And yet there they are, still in Yorick's resting place. The other ex-admin and the owner looks as confused as he is, they don't remember any extra rounds for today.
"Where are you?"
The words caught everyone's attention, it echoes through the map with an eerie underlined tone. It sounded familiar, yet he can't recognize it due to the gurgling over the voice, like they're chocking.
Taph was the first to recognize, his body shift with nervousness, hoping it was not the person he knew.
He watched as Builderman , Shedletsky, and Guest left the mansion— to investigate— leaving him with Chance and Elliot. Two time had left long ago.
At first he heard a shout, then screams followed by someone choking on something and Builderman running inside in a hurry. "Everyone go and run out through the ba—"
A sword, specifically Shedletsky's sword, penetrates through Builderman's eye socket. The eyeball hangs on the tip of the sword out of its socket. A glitch seems to seep into Builderman's body, covering his face as the sword was pulled back.
The said support limped before reanimated to life, judging it's due to the glitch. It stares.. no.. it watches Taph's and rest movements. Both Reanimated Shedletsky and Guest peeked on either side.
They're nothing but puppets controlled by the gui. Forced to hurt their once fellow survivors.
The rest didn't stand still as Elliot yelled for Taph to move it as he ran out the back door with Chance.
Taph turns back, the traps triggered by the reanimated corpse. He runs out, following behind Elliot's and Chance, he tries to keep up with their speed but he's slow from his worries. Where are you?
"There you are..!"
That familiar voice echoed and glitched from the owner behind him. It carries cold winter instead of the warm summer it used to have. The tone felt hard and not soft in the way they would always talk.
Taph slowly turns and there you are, standing, watching his movements. Your smile widens once you finally get their attention.
"Tap— THAT HURTS!!?!"
You screech as a bullet hits your head, you cover your face to try and regain your sight. Once you recovered from the injury you saw Chance behind Taph.
"oh. You're with them."
The next second was a blur, all Taph could describe was a chase before his end. The last thing he saw was their face, softening into guilt before they whisper in that ever so warm tone,
TW: mention of abuse, mention of murder (obviously), mention of pedophilia, mention of exposed organs (heart)
killer!Reader who dated Bruce in college, but they broke up due to a disagreement;
killer!Reader who went on to kill abusive men, pedophiles, and rapists;
killer!Reader who is just an architect by day;
killer!Reader who wears an ornate black mask when she goes to execute someone;
killer!Reader who became known to the FBI and GCPD as Devotion;
killer!Reader who, at each crime scene, leaves the victim's heart embedded in the wall;
killer!Reader who knows Batman's identity but never spread the information and never took advantage of it.
I am stressed as hell right now with everything going on in the US so Imma going to write what I think some of my favorite killers are like when they're darling reader comes to them stressed as hell. Many of them are going to be readers I've already written about at least once so feel free to check the masterlist. If you want more head canons feel free to ask.
The Knight is startled when Eldritch!reader asks to just cuddle, you're smaller then usual body tense and when he touches your skin he can feel the hidden shadows trying to pull him in. "Anything for you Szeretet," he whispers picking you up and holding you against his chest. He takes you to his bed though it looks more like the nest you have in your castle then an actual bed. You smile realizing he's slowly bringing pieces of you in. He doesn't find himself worthy of you, but if you insist on asking him for comfort it would be his honor to provide it.
The Ghostface is confused as hell watching Hyde!reader pacing the room. You're killer side is usually scarily calm most of the time. However you look ready to lash out. Ready to pounce and shred the next person who so much as looks at you. You turn around seeing him there and he was bracing himself to get rushed and pinned against the wall, but it never came. Instead he watches you slowly move to him picking him up holding him in your arms as you move to the couch slumping down. You don't say anything to him, but you do hold him almost painfully tight against your chest. "Everything alright?" He asks you. Not sure how to feel about the non-committal grunt you give.
The Hillbilly doesn't think twice already wrapping you tight in the warmest knit blanket he's got, he's got popcorn, hot cocoa, and all the sweets you can gorge yourself on. Your favorite movie is on and he's just enjoying your company as you both lay on the couch, though if you don't calm down he might be inclined to help his little critter out by using other methods of getting your brain to shut down.
The Trapper doesn't react much just pulls you into bed and asks you to just speak. It doesn't matter if he understands he just wants to listen. He wants to hear everything, wants to make sure you feel heard. He smiles when you finally break your worries spilling like a faucet as he takes everything in asking questions when you pause. You seem at ease once you're done looking so peaceful tucked up under his arm. His Brat looks so sweet when they lay in bed next to him so peacefully. Burden him will you, it makes him feel less alone to hear you. Makes him feel lighter when he helps you share the emotional load.
The Executioner is use to it. You're already stressed about this and that. You aren't dating, but he does know how to get you calm down, you pinned beneath him in the bed as he humps against your ass. So fucking perfect he thinks feeling you melt against his touch. Such a needy toy, maybe he'll force you on your knees as he sharpens his knife, your face pressed against his thigh nose buried into his clothed groin. You're surrounded by his musk and for some reason that pacifies you. Not that pyramid head can complain.
The legion, they're solution to everything is horror movies and cuddle puddle. The neediest person in the center of the puddle a killer in each arm, a third holding behind while the fourth finds himself between your legs. The look smug when they finally get you to sleep. Your snoring soothing. It isn't long before they're passed out too.
considering making “I owe you a black eye & two kisses” into a series for adrian/vigilante and killer!reader (which sounds crazy in retrospect lol, I swear it’s just an affectionate nickname from the 11th street kids). like, a sequel to the rooftop party, a flashback to some season 1 moments (i.e., adrian pining after her pathetically & killer being aggressively turned on by how annoying and lame he is), domestic scenes, more angst, an exploration in their complicated intimacy (killer’s trauma and adrian’s aversion to most touch…), more of her dynamics with the rest of the gang (i admittedly got too invested in her & harcourt’s friendship), andddd obviously a write-up of THAT adrian crying scene post-chris-flop-abandonment. aaaaanddd of course anything else you guys would like to see…potentially…..
So lemme know if this is something you’d be interest in!!! & send any requests you’d like from them :)
Finality on Good conscious.
This whole thing is based off of an idea by @komorebiisgarden !!!
[This was an old post I never made...please accept my humble apolocheese since I've been Gone and dead lolz :,]
"Come on Elliot! They've never done anything bad, why'd you think they'd ever do something now?" Chance grinned at the pizza boy, their coin flipping every second or so as Elliot looked at your idle form. Your eyes fixated on him with such an empty gaze it made him shiver. "...I don't know. It's....unsettling to think that they want to be nice. By choice, I mean. You don't think it could all be some- act?" Chance rolled his eyes beneath his glasses, raising the flintlock from seemingly nowhere and firing a shot directly at you. The bullet moved faster than registered and hit you square in the shoulder; though your absence of a reaction just made them grin. "See? All fine." Elliot just shook his head as the world's light faded into a bleak scene of a table of survivors, all as rested as they usually were after a round with you. However you yourself, were not as happy.
Your mind was fogged, restless, messy. The sword slashes, the bullets, the daggers. All of them left sore pains on your body. All of them had a shape imprinted against your skin through the millions of seconds you'd spent giving those worms people a break. Your upper jaw ground your teeth against each other, eyes unfocused as you thought about the things 1x1 had told you before. "D0n't l3t th3m tak3 advantag3 0f....g00d c0nsci0us. Y0u'r3 b3ing stupid. Kill th3m. Kill th3m all." Why shouldn't you do it? He'd never liked that you spared them, especially that chicken man. Always glared at you from beneath their bangs. Why shouldn't you indulge yourself? The swirl of wind faded the edges of your vision into purple, a change from the black it normally was. You felt your stomach churn with a new feeling; RAGE. Why should you have to sit down and ignore the treatment you were given? The spines on your back rippled with movement as your mind began to clear, a single thought pure and true.
Why shouldn't you.
Your vision flickered back into view as the map lay itself out before you, a playground that you would rule. The Ferris wheel behind you creaked in the wind and alerted you to movement in your vision. The same gun that would fire into your shoulder, your back, your chest- The wounds burned, so did your fingers. They came strolling up, flipping that damn coin- You acted first. Your clawed fingers slammed against their jugular and pulled. Blood splattered on your arm as their body crumpled easily. Weakness as high as ever. Good. Nobody would realize that it was you, they'd assume it was a 'one shot wonder.'
Your mouth watered at the blood, and you realized how much you needed that. More movement flickered in the corner of your vision and you started running. Though after that first kill, your eyes didn't focus on the features; you focused on the heartbeat. It was slow, clearly not expecting you. Good. Good. Good. More fun for you. an itch crawled on your skin and you pointed at the vague outline from the corner you saw them around. A chilling cold sprouted from your veins and slammed into the area you were staring at. The outline turned blue, and you grinned; all sharp teeth. The pop of a generator alerted you that you hit the target you aimed for. As you sprinted forwards again, the blue burned a bright hot teal against the skin of whatever unfortunate worm had crawled into your nest. Your claws met flesh and your teeth let your tongue taste blood. You'd been hungry. So hungry. It wasn't a craving, it was a desire. A lust. A requirement.
idea on how the The Other Killers See Headless!Reader
The Other Killers See Headless!Reader
Noli He sometimes teases you about your fate. in hide your head. He tried pranking you. Multiple times.
1x1x1x1 Well, all of they feelings are mixed with hatred so i guess you could put it that way. they impresed by you hate toward the survivor for just being alive.
John Doe He doesnt really have any specific feelings towards you, His corruption is basically eating him alive.
Coolkid see you as cool, respects your persistence and terror. think you in a costume.
do the other killer
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Voting ended onJul 1, 2025
part 2 the polls not over but it look like it is a yes so did part 2. When the polls done part 3 (;
So on Sourle request, seen like my request became very popular so...I made killer!Reader in my own style. feel free to made some story and fan art of it!
Making your own headcanon, oneshot or scenario about it? Go ahead! i would love to read it!
Blurb: It's simply complicated. For starters, you're supposed to be the villain, and he's supposed to be the hero. Separated as teenagers, neither of you thought you would ever see the other. But fate retwines your paths after twenty-five years as a Murderer and a Detective. You're wanted in the worst ways possible, but he still wants you because you're his Trouble. And he needs to catch you alive before someone else shoots you dead.
Tags/Trigger Warnings (18+): language, voilence, gore, flashbacks, yearning, murders, hitwoman, police/detective novel, mentions of human trafficking and selling children (not too graphic), car accidents, major character deaths (sort of, but not really), minor character deaths, mentions of glioblastoma multiform (brain tumor), headaches, dizziness, hospital visits, angst, fluff, alcohol, cigrettes, hacking, lovers-to-enemies-to-lovers, tons of miscommunication and misunderstandings, mentions of cheating (doesn't happen but it's mentioned), mentions of jail and aryan brotherhood (undercover work), etc.
A/N: So, this was just supposed to be a small one-shot based on a prompt (emboldened AND italicized in the chapter) challenge I took up with the lovely Hepza_Hart from Wattpad. But I'm gonna turn this into a series as soon as possible, lol.
In the meantime, do go and check out the wonderful story posted by my author-in-crime in her book "Multifandom Shots", under the title, "Home". And shower her with love, y'all, her awesomeness demands it 😘🫂.
Also, a special shoutout to the lovely @bettystonewell for all the encouragement she gave me when I got nervous about getting out of my comfort zone. Thank you to Beth for helping me with the book cover as well, and @jollyhunter for the same! You guys are literal angels 🥹😘❤️.
Lastly, vote, comment, share, and follow for more! Your feedback keeps me going 🥰❤️.
{ Series Masterlist ; Main Masterlist }
Chapter 1 ~ Detective, Meet Trouble.
How many masks does one have to wear before they forget their own face?
The back of your fingers traced down your painted s/c cheek, curled eyelashes sticking out from heavily shadowed eyelids that frequently blinked to hide your deadly e/c-coloured orbs that you didn't want anyone to interpret. Your lips were thickly coated in a deep red; happenstance had it that it was the colour of your hands after the number of murders you wore on your hands like some women wore bangles.
You dropped your hand, frowning at yourself in the mirror.
It was a sexy dress, if not also beautiful. The royal blue velvet wrapped around you fittingly, showing off the sharp angles; once upon a time, you had curves, when you were softer. The size of your stubborn body was forced to reduce by the people who made you believe they owned you. You became sharper, too: useful as a knife, deadlier than a machete, unwanted like a blade.
You pretended to dab your face with a tissue when the door to the restroom swung in. Pretending was reflex now.
The opening of the door broke the quiet that had sealed you in a moment of self-retrospection. The booming music outside reminded you of the inebriated bunch of people who were letting loose outside; it reminded you that a weapon didn't dance. A weapon wasn't supposed to think.
You put on the masquerade mask that was a requirement of this party, tied the delicate strings around your head, trying not to damage your designer hair - people trusted other people who came in pretty packages.
You grabbed your purse, beaming pleasantly at the lady who was washing her hands beside you, having finished her business. You walked towards the door on your short heels. It took you a moment to slip into your "predator" mode.
The door opened, and your life changed.
Mark's head was murdering him.
He'd been having headaches more frequently these days. He was avoiding going to the doctor, mostly because he didn't have the time or the patience. Besides, work had been so busy.
An anonymous tipper had wired over information about a hitman who was after the visiting business tycoon from New York. His private jet had to be parked locally after some system failure, and despite the fucking threat on his life, he didn't feel like getting "bored" at the airport.
Just to be difficult, James Rivera accepted a previously declined invitation to a wedding of a local businessman who was trying to befriend James. James didn't believe in sitting idle or hiding because he'd been through enough threats in his life. Obviously, he didn't give the mafia enough credit.
'Take this,' Finau said, entering the bathroom, suited and booted before Mark. It was that damn bowtie that had pissed him off. With his squinting eyes and more than half the concentration on his hammering head, he'd had to retie the thing four times now.
A flimsy, black object was flying at him by the time he was making finishing touches on his bow. He caught it before he thought about it, taking only a moment to inspect it to feel exaggerated indignation.
'A fucking masquerade?' Mark huffed. He hadn't been outside yet, having reached here right before the first guests started seeping in. 'Isn't it enough we gotta dance at these parties like some show monkeys?' He fully believed that the only reason James Rivera brought the police with him to the wedding was because he fucking could.
Finau's lips curled upwards, fixing his own mask. 'You okay, man? You've been moody.'
'Yeah. Feels like my brain's not working,' Mark mumbled, fidgeting with the mask's strings.
'Is that new?' Finau lightly teased.
Mark shot him an equally playful glare.
'You going to show a doctor your brain?' Finau asked.
'Later,' was all Mark said. He did realise he would have to go at some point - his headaches were getting worse, and he was starting to wonder if it was late-onset migraines or some shit that came with growing age.
For now, he was going to focus on this publicity stunt where the rich took relish in the fact that they were rich enough to be fucking hunted. Finau entered the room before him, probably to find a wall he could be a fly on and keep an eye as a lookout. The rest of the police lurked on the next block. Some of them had been absorbed by the raving crowd.
It was Mark's job to blend in, too. Mix and mingle. Find the killer from within, if he could.
He coerced his mind into believing that the headache was just a few dull throbs and pulses, letting the feeling be subsumed by adrenaline and purpose, letting the hard mask in his one hand and the walkie in the other to dig into his palms.
He blew one last breath out, smiling at an old man who was making his second trip since Mark had joined the washroom to change a few minutes ago. The old man had a toothless smile that reminded him of an old restaurant owner in Victorville.
He dismissed those memories as fast as they came. He'd stopped thinking about what that restaurant meant to him years ago.
The music had punctually begun, and the lights had been set to strobe.
Between the pub-esque lights and his blinding headache, he wasn't paying attention when he crashed into a smaller body. An elbow to his abdomen winded him, his hands released what he was holding so his arms could grab the woman, who had become far more unbalanced than him.
'Oh!' your hands clutched his broad shoulders to keep yourself upright, reflexes nearly as lithe as his. 'What the fuck, man-?'
Your eyes met.
Your mind blew.
'Sorry,' Mark sincerely apologised, letting your waist go like he hadn't had the same explosion devastate his mind.
He sidestepped you so he could crouch down and pick up his fallen mask.
You stood frozen in your spot, although your life seemed to have been uprooted.
'Are you okay?' Mark wondered, voice only just audible over the music.
You blinked at him; wondering if you blinked enough, he would start flickering, and then he would be the ghost you knew him to be.
Your lips trembled without your consent.
'Miss?' he asked, somewhat alarmed at your reaction.
You tore your eyes away from his stupidly handsome face. 'I, um, yeah. Sorry.' It was way too breathy. Since when did you apologise for things you didn't do? 'Um, sorry,' you shook your head, apologising to yourself now. 'I just . . . saw someone I wasn't supposed to. I, um, distracted.'
'Ah.' But his nod was polite. He smiled small, 'I hope your evening picks up.'
And he walked away from you.
Again.
Your eyes bore into his back as he melted into the crowd.
He hadn't fucking recognised you.
'Two Budweisers,' you shot two fingers up in the air, leaning on the bar counter while your eyes swept the room like two tiny scanners.
'We don't serve beer here, madam,' the British bartender said in his accent.
You turned your head, fixing a condescending smile on your face. You let your gaze trail down his bodice as he wiped a wine glass, making him shift on his feet with discomfort, the longer you "judged" him for his profession.
Successfully, the fresh-faced, barely more than twenty-one-looking adult squirmed in his shoes. He was stationed alone on the bar - and why not, after the bottles you smashed in the back room, drawing the guy responsible for liquor away from the bar, leaving this new meat in charge. You'd also knocked out the other hire outside the lavish hotel, booking him a cab and passing him off as a drunk.
No one even questioned you. How would they? You were a woman.
It was why your boss had asked you to do this job; told his right-hand guy, Milano, who you got this job instead of, to be on stand-by. That was two months ago, when Prince thought that this was too high a profile for a man to get away with murder. You had been rigorously planning ever since.
'Did I say serving me was optional?' you raised a ruthless brow.
'N-No, but—'
'Bup, bup, bup!' you imitated a mouth shutting closed with your puresless hand. 'Listen up, kid.' You leaned in further. 'I woke up in a pool of my blood today,' you pointed a finger down to indicate your uterus for the sake of a lie, 'unless you want me to end it in a pool of yours, you're gonna find me two fucking beers!'
'Y-Yes, ma'am,' he swallowed, eyes wide, face flushed. Yeah . . . the shark week was an amazing excuse to be rude; it was just a bonus that it flustered most men.
When he kept twisting the cloth in his hand, you scoffed. 'Waiting for me to wave my knife around?'
He scampered off like a rat.
The bar was deserted, so you could easily slip behind the counter when no one was looking. People were mostly clumped on the dance floor and at the tables where the guest-to-waiter ratio was two-to-one - why the hell would those lazy bums then bother to lift a finger, or walk all the way over to the bar for a fiesta?
You plugged in your Bluetooth. You would only have five minutes before a waiter found you, in desperation, to make a Sex On The Beach you wouldn't promise not to sip from.
'Finally online, bitch?'
'Narcs are here,' you huffed indignantly, moving past her affectionate greeting.
'What?! Impossible! Do they know we bribed the pilot?'
'I don't think so,' you frowned, collecting bottles of alcohol on the platform so you could appear to be working.
'And you're sure they're cops?'
Your eyes lifted to Mark on the singles table (you knew every inch of this party while he'd just sat on the first seat he'd gotten), scanning the room for suspicious activity. You didn't tell Justine about Mark, though, your hands landing on a champagne bottle that was marked with a note. It was exactly what you'd need for Plan C, if it came to that.
'Is this my first day on the job, bitch?' you retorted instead, putting the bottle at the back of a drawer and locking it in with a key.
When you rose, your gaze veered to Mark again, without your permission. His eyes were frequently fixing upon a point on the opposite end of the room; you followed it. There was a tall man of colour serving as a lookout; even Mark would be dwarfed in front of this muscular man whose persona screamed "police".
'The place is crawling with them, chica. Someone tipped them off.'
'Shiiiit,' your hacker friend said. 'Now what?'
You puckered your lips.
You'd stalked this place way in advance, working the joint as an employee for two months before you got "fired"; right before this wedding, in fact. You'd cased all the exits and the cameras; that's also when you'd taped your gun to the back of one of the toilets.
All that planning and someone fucking tipped the police off.
Your jaw worked up a muscle. 'Who snitched?'
'Uhhhh, I can find out. Just gotta hack into the CAD system-'
'Gibberish to me,' you cut her off. 'Just tell me who it was when you find them.'
'You got it.'
She went static just in time for a waiter to meet you at the bar, sweating and winded. You didn't recognise him because there were several additional waiters present tonight, volunteering their time for a few extra bucks.
'Who the hell are you?' he demanded, sceptical of your dress.
'Filling in for Brad,' you answered, smiling. You rotated a drink-shaker on your palm to show off your skills. 'Don't worry, man. I work this joint,' you lied. 'Just took the night off for the wedding - should've fucking known it wouldn't last!'
He nodded like he couldn't care less. 'Well, can you make me a Sangria or not?'
'Coming right up,' you smirked.
No one wants to be hunted when they're the hunter. But you may have jinxed yourself by staring at Mark relentlessly.
Between drinks, your eyes had been wandering to him, so it wasn't a surprise when his eyes veered to yours like the pull of a magnet. You immediately averted your gaze, of course, but the attention had been attracted. The man was sharper than the boy you remembered, fully bloomed into the fearlessness and intelligence he always seemed to carry; he trudged his way down to the side of the room where the power of the music didn't pulse in the ground as much.
'Hey,' he said, lips spreading in a small smile that didn't reach his eyes.
You caught up for a moment, staring into them; the green of his eyes wasn't visible in the dimmed surroundings, but you knew that the mask seemed to sculpt his face in a way that his piercing irises stood out. You should be scared because he's obviously clocked your suspicious behaviour, but here's the catch: you wanted him to know who his prey was.
Unlike him, your smile was soft and melancholic. 'Hi, handsome.'
'What are you doing behind the bar?' he cut right to the chase.
Your expression wavered between disappointment and stoicism. The man you had spent hours learning had seemed to have forgotten you. Dismay flopped in you like a fish on land, and you got the urge to scream in his face; throw your mask at his feet and beg for forgiveness, beg him to remember you, beg him to take you back.
And yet.
It had been just a little more than twenty-five years since you'd last seen him.
'Miss?' Mark prompted with an edge in his voice.
Time to win some Oscars.
You used the time you froze as a part of your act, pitching in a swallow and letting your eyes skitter nervously across the floor at large before you signaled him to lean in.
'Can you keep a secret?' you asked, injecting desperation into your act.
Mark tilted his head like he could be convinced for a good enough reason.
'I stole the wedding champagne,' you whispered theatrically.
His brows smushed in confoundment, and his lips turned down slightly like he was being made to hear something he wouldn't give two shakes of a rat's ass.
'Please don't tell anyone,' you hurried to add. 'I can't afford another warning!'
'. . . A warning from the police?'
You made an exasperated expression. 'The police? Fuck, no. Much worse!' you said with urgency. 'My parents can't find out about this.'
From that point, it could spiral in two ways. Either a good-mood Mark would smirk because you were a beautiful woman he found amusing, or the bad-mood Mark would roll his eyes. Today mustn't be a good day for him because he did the latter, subtle all the same, because he wanted to be "respectful".
Well, you have a script ready for both scenarios.
Mark had an aversion to rich bitches, men or women, who sat up in their ivory towers looking down on folks. If you were pretending to be one, you would infuse some emotionality into it so you didn't push him away completely.
'I know how this sounds,' you insisted. 'Okay? But I just—I just can't fucking take this anymore!'
That brought his eyes back to your face. There was a certain tint of assessment in the way his face was screwed up with concentration.
It made your heart pound because, innumerable times now, he'd projected that expression on you, bypassing all your shells like you hadn't spent several lonely years encrusted in them.
You just hoped to fucking God he didn't see through your drama completely.
'I just need to prove to my father that the all-fucking-precious Linda,' (the bride), 'isn't fucking perfect!'
The on-call tears didn't fret when you wanted them to gloss over your eyes. It was easier to feel awful when the love of your life was standing oblivious to you, in front of you.
As expected, Mark thawed - more out of discomfort and forlorn sympathy, but it was a break, and you were going to crack it wide open.
'These deserve Hell, okay?' you sniffed, looking down like vulnerable people tended to. 'They owe me a bottle of fucking champagne!'
'Sounds rough,' Mark said in condolence.
'I swear, I'm not a murderer though,' you lied earnestly, wiping the tear that streamed down as soon as it touched the skin since you wanted to seem strong, too, and just a smidge embarrassed.
'I didn't say you were,' Mark said, half-amused and half-sceptical - that's how you knew you'd finally hooked him into conversation.
Time for a joke.
'No, I know, but like,' a well-placed sniffled, 'isn't stealing liquor, like, a step away from murder or something?'
His lips twitched upwards. 'And how would that happen?'
'I don't know,' you shrugged. 'Aren't most murderers durnkards?'
He chuckled!
'You obviously know nothing about crime, sweetheart.'
Bingpot!
Hook, line, and sinker, my love.
'Oh, and you do?' you huffed over a low chuckle like his smile was getting to you (which it was).
'I've dabbled,' he replied smugly.
'You better mean like movies and shit,' you said despite knowing otherwise.
'When in LA . . .' he winked, not correcting you either.
'I wouldn't know,' you said. 'I haven't watched many crime thrillers.'
'Shocking,' he teased with a shit-eating grin.
'Just because I like light-hearted television, I don't become a loser,' you wagged your finger at him.
Before he could respond, a waiter came with an order.
You were incredibly aware of Mark's gaze as you whipped up a Mai Tai, quick and seamless, sending the waiter on his way.
'Impressive skill,' Mark commented.
'When you have overprotective parents, you learn to make the drinks yourself,' you claimed. 'Besides, I figure the waiters would run around like headless chickens if I didn't hand them the drinks.'
'Speaking of, where is the bartender?'
'I distracted one of them, sent the other on a fool's errand,' you answered "honestly".
'For the grand larceny,' he snorted.
'Yep,' you popped your "p", beaming at him mischievously. 'I have no one to blame but myself for this job.'
'That's how the judge is gonna see it,' he joked.
You snickered, placing two shot glasses on the bar. 'Although . . . it comes with perks.'
'Drinking on the job?' he tsked. 'Not very professional of you.'
You filled the glasses to the brim with vodka. 'I plan to fire myself later,' you assured him. 'Bottoms up!'
You followed that with a quick downing of your drink. When your glass touched back down, Mark's was still untouched. You raised a brow.
'I'm working, too,' he admitted. 'And I don't wanna get fired.'
'More for me,' you shrugged, slamming the drink back, allowing the pleasing burn to calm your mind. You hummed, then sighed as you put the glass back down. 'Man. Never have a father.'
Mark's smile grew even more amused, and more importantly, it had a sweet tinge of empathy. 'I know a thing or two about those,' he said.
You knew he did.
You fiddled with a bigger glass, getting down to making a mocktail.
'Rough childhood?' you asked because that's how a stranger would.
'Got me here,' Mark vaguely said.
That only meant you needed to be better at poking him.
'Where? Tweaking your hips for some rich brats like a keyed-up toy?' you teased, filling the shot glass with vodka again for yourself while you worked on the other, more complicated drink for him.
He laughed. 'Not a fan of the money?'
'It got me here,' you threw back at him. It only had him more interested. 'As the cousin of the fucking bride.'
'What's your name again?' he asked.
'Chelsea,' you lied. 'What about you, handsome?'
'Detective Mark Meachum,' he said, sidelining his jacket to display his badge. 'LAPD.'
'No way!' you laughed breathily. 'You're not a detective.'
'Why not?' he questioned with a hint of a smile, wondering if he should be going down the road of offense.
You softened as one does when you're sharing an inside joke with your loved one. 'Because you look like goddamn mischief impersonified,' you quipped.
'And how would you know that?'
'Trouble finds its kin and kith, Mark,' you stated. 'I'm Trouble.'
His smile flickered on his face like he was reminded of something . . . Or someone.
'You good?' you queried, knowing exactly what you were fucking doing to him.
'Yeah.' He cleared his throat. 'Excuse me. I should get back to work.'
Ergo, you were in.
It was just a whiff of memory, but it consumed him whole. He was transported to twenty-five years ago, and the deep yearning he had buried under layers of grief, job, and forced pep talks of "I've moved on" came barreling at him like a freight train.
He wasn't supposed to miss you anymore. But then he would see an old man in a bathroom giving him a toothless smile, and he would be reminded of the old man from his hometown who used to smile at you both whenever you went to his restaurant for your dates.
The old man was now dead. Mark's sometimes his memories would be, too . . .
Then, there was the fucking word trouble.
He hated that word. Avoided it like the plague, but it seemed to haunt him like a swarm of locusts. He had tried not to speak it for twenty-five years, went silent whenever someone else said it - he often withdrew after one mention of it, and had to rescue himself from the conversation.
One would think it would get easier over the years. Missing you, grieving you - but it came with the hefty side of guilt and self-loathing. It came with a bag of "what ifs" and a self-sustained promise of comparing every woman who comes after you in his life with you.
Because you were Trouble; even in your death, you kept troubling him . . .
His phone vibrated with a text, and he checked it to see a photo of a young adult with a man bun. Light complexion, eyes bloodshot because it was probably taken when he was high. A message was attached to it: This is our hitman. I'm going to search the building.
Mark didn't find Finau in the room, so he assumed his friend had already left. His eyes swept the room for the criminal and came up empty. He was about to shrug his sadness off for his job's sake when:
'Hey,' a voice chimed in, cutting his chain of thoughts.
Mark hastily turned his phone off.
His eyes came up to Chelsea; his chest clenched tightly because even this new woman was reminding him of you.
There was a lilt to Chelsea's laugh that was like a punch to Mark's gut, an exaggeration of her hands that made him want to hold her, a pull in her eyes that made Mark's entire being thrum with attention.
It was maddening.
He was fucking addicted to it.
It was like taking a sip of alcohol or a breath from a cigarette after being sober for twenty-five fucking years. It was self-medicating for the permanent wounds in his chest.
Even the way Chelsea talked was making Mark think of you. The wisecracks, and the drama, the pouting - those damn lips!
He can't remember when he wanted to kiss a woman more in the last two-point-five decades.
She slid a glass towards him on the table, turning a chair to sit down in front of him. 'The bartender in charge came back and kicked me away.' Before Mark could remind Chelsea that he still couldn't drink, she spoke. 'It's a mocktail,' she said. 'Try it. You'll like it.'
He wanted to take a sip and dismiss her; get back to the job. But the flavours that sat on his tongue once the contents tipped over were . . . perfect.
'. . . Huh? Yeah?' she clocked the admiration in his eyes with the growing smile of satisfaction.
'Aw, shit,' he scoff-chuckled despite himself. 'Are you sure you shouldn't be owning this place? . . . What did you put in it?'
'You're the detective,' she teased, choosing to keep it as big a mystery as her face was under the mask. He secretly wanted the lights to stop flashing just so he could note the colour of her eyes. 'Like it?'
'Love it!' Mark could begrudgingly admit, spirits lifting with the sugar in his blood.
'Hmm. Knew you would,' she said, like she had a secret journal about him stashed somewhere - it held the map to his heart.
Mark's visage fell into doubt with that perspective, and like she had been all night, she seemed to have anticipated it.
'Okay,' she raised her hands defensively, 'okay, I know this . . . whatever this is - it's weird, right?' She chuckled nervously, and Mark's gaze eased on her.
Maybe he needed to stop psychoanalysing every person he met in his life. Not everyone's a criminal. Some people just have a natural chemistry.
Like the one he used to have with you.
'I mean, there's something here, right?' she gestured between him and herself. 'I'm not hallucinating it?'
Mark's eyes darted away from hers guiltily because it just didn't feel fucking right.
'Okay,' you exhaled slowly. 'Look, at the risk of sounding like one of those rom-com chicks . . . I think we were meant to meet.'
Mark's face hardened, and he hid it behind another sip; meeting her eyes with mountains of disbelief, trying not to be harsh with her. It wasn't her fault that he was damaged beyond repair.
'Don't look at me like that!' she groaned like she was reading his mind.
'Sorry.' It was his turn to raise a hand like a white flag. 'When you said you liked light-hearted television, I just didn't peg you to be the one sitting on your hands when two clichés kiss at the airport.'
What am I doing? his mind chimed in. His fingers tightened around his phone. There was a criminal he had to look out for.
'I'm an all-rounder,' she quipped pleasantly.
'By your choice, or is that another act you put up?' he snapped, having had enough of the polite coyness. It was clearly manufactured. If this girl could read him as well as she was, she was behaving like a barely surviving damsel on purpose.
'What act?' she asked, tensing a bit.
'The one you're putting on right now,' he finally called her out, having had enough of it. 'The one where you pretend you aren't clever enough to make sure your situations don't define you.'
She seemed impressed, leaning back in her chair after some thought and crossing her legs at the knees. Mark had expected her to be offended, waiting for her to snap while he took another sip.
The last thing he expected was for her to play ball.
She smiled.
'You're good,' she conceded. 'And when my own parents don't know me that well,' she smirked like she was sharing a secret. 'You have a gift of reading people, Mark.'
Except why would she lay down her defences for a stranger like Mark?
It distracted him. Again.
He had purposely encroached on her emotional walls to get her to throw a drink in his face.
Either she knew his strategy was to get rid of her. Or she was a psychopath.
But then, her head tilted, and he was struck with how eeriely familiar that gaze was. It was like he was almost staring into the face of his entire past - someone he thought would stay with him for the rest of his life; and you did, just not in the way he wanted you to.
'Can I be real with you?' she said, bolder now after Mark had outwardly noted her defenses. 'Sometimes . . . I do wish someone would scoop me on a horse and ride into the horizon. But I think fate likes to play with me.'
'I don't believe in fate,' was his sharp retort. 'Or all that magical, "whatever happens, happens for good" crap.'
'No?' Calm and curious.
'Nah,' he said, trying to bring back his rudeness. 'You do what you do, and you gotta deal with the consequences.'
She hummed. 'I suppose that's good,' she mused.
She read the question on his face.
'I mean,' she continued, 'if we're incompatible, I won't have to worry about getting my heart broken by you.' She included a Cheshire grin with that comment so he knew she was flirting with him.
'I don't know, sweetheart,' he said, almost like he was hypnotized. 'Maybe you got some heartbreaking to do.'
'Maybe,' you said, like you hadn't thought of that. 'And do you think your heart could use a little breaking tonight?'
God, he wanted to. A resounding "yes" echoed in his mind.
His brain made his mouth blurt something else, though: 'I'm engaged,' he said. Or rather, he realised at the same time as Chelsea did.
Her face fell like he'd announced her personal tragedy.
While Mark tried to understand why he hadn't stopped this conversation in its tracks much earlier, with this very fact.
Melinda Bates was a lovely woman. And he thought he loved her.
That's what he had to be doing, right? If he were marrying the girl, he had to love her . . .
Still, your memories were embedded deep in him. And recently, he'd been trying to convince himself that that's all you were - history, in all senses of that meaning.
Yet, talking to Chelsea had seemed like his personal reckoning.
If nothing else, he recognised the noose tightening around his throat every time he thought about waiting down that aisle for a woman who wasn't you.
Could he really let his loneliness bully him into a marriage with a woman he only sometimes loved?
'Well,' Chelsea said softly. 'Guess I missed my window, huh?' There was a dangerous, reckless smile on her face as her eyes almost glared at Mark.
She rose. 'It was nice meeting you, Mark.'
That's good! excalimed the rational part of him. Finally leaving.
He was about to stand up, let the horrible experience roll off his shoulders, when she doubled back to whisper something in his ear.
'Also . . . your target is leaving,' she said, gesturing in the direction of the washrooms where the hitman was casually leaning against a wall.
'Shit!' he shot up, bringing his walkie to his lips to throw instructions in it.
He didn't even question how she knew; part of him assumed she'd seen it on his phone before he'd locked it. The guy he was after was Tony, the snitch. And you'd set Tony up by sending the police his picture - anonymous, like Tony had been, which made it so much easier for you.
'Goodbye, M&M,' you muttered to yourself, paying the last tribute to your love by uttering your nickname for him.
Now.
It was Murder o'clock.
You dunked the murder weapon in a toilet's flush tank to erase your prints.
You'd simply flirted with your target, and he'd gladly followed you to the ladies' restroom. You'd shot him with a silenced gun and were climbing out of one of the windows in the bathroom. The party was thirty floors up since the wedding was on the topmost floor, so you would be climbing down into a room on the twenty-eighth floor with the help of a rope you'd hidden in the washroom.
You landed on the balcony softly, massaging your arms to work out the kinks, walking past the floor-to-ceiling windows you'd left open into the lonely room. You place a bucket at some distance from a smoke detector, removed your wig and your clothes, along with the rope that you set a spark loose on. But you didn't have the heart to throw away your mask.
You changed into something more comfortable, like your gym clothes, while the fire slowly swallowed your fake personality of Chelsea, and then you left the keycard on the table, setting your hair in a pony and cleaning the makeup that had made you look like a different person. You wore your gloves and rubbed the room clean with a napkin.
A few minutes later, you were taking the stairs down.
When you were on the seventeenth floor, the fire alarm finally went off.
You smiled, and you'd only crossed one more flight of stairs down when people joined you.
In the mayhem, you belonged.
You made it out without fanfare. On the curb, you saw the kid you'd sent on an errand, staring at the chaos with a slightly ajar mouth, holding a six-pack of beers in his hand. It seemed like you'd dismissed him ages ago, but actually, it had only been a little more than half an hour - and knowing that this hotel didn't sell the brand you wanted, he must've had to find the nearest store for it.
An idea gripped you.
You fished out a pen and a paper and wrote a message on it with your non-dominant hand, a handwriting you'd acquired after being separated from Mark:
Dear Mark.
From one assassin to another, I greatly admire your work. Don't be too hard on yourself. I had a significant advantage today - better luck next time! Until then, have a beer on me - it's Budweiser, my favourite.
~ Your actual target,
Not Chelsea.
You paid the college kid a hundred bucks to get the note and one can to Mark. You took the rest of them from him, cracking one of them open and sipping on it, walking away from the crime scene to meet Justine a block away with the runaway car while the fire department zipped past with their blaring alarms.
'Hey, bitch!' she grinned, happy to see you. She was already seated in the driver's seat, the car parked in a blind spot.
'Good job framing Tony,' you complimented without an expression.
'It was your idea,' she shared the victory. 'He was so desperate to maintain his cover with us that he walked right into our trap. When Prince hears of it, Tony'll be glad he's in jail. Fucking safer for him there.'
'Let's get as far away from the crap hole as we can before the police realise they have the wrong guy,' you said instead of addressing any of that.
'Done!' she said, waiting for you to climb shotgun.
'Can I have a beer?' she asked as she pulled out of the park to drive in the opposite direction.
Your lips thinned; the idea of sharing beer with anyone but Mark irked you.
'No.'
'Oh. Okay,' she said, not minding it. She knew you by now. 'Who was that guy you were chatting up, by the way?'
You inhaled deeply and exhaled slowly, staring out the window. 'Just some guy who knows how to master Trouble,' you confessed.
But Justine wouldn't understand it on the same level you had meant because no one but Mark knows the hold he had on your devoted heart.
