Lavellan/Solas - Morbid Thoughts
Haven haunts her still. All the people she was too late to save. The screams of the dying, the dead burning, smoke choking her lungs, ashes in the snow…
“If I die,” Lavellan whispers, late at night when they’re alone and darkness fills the room, “I don’t want a pyre. The humans must bury me, like my clan would, and plant a tree over my grave.”
It’s a morbid thought, perhaps, but a necessary one. Solas opens his eyes; his mind had already been half in a dream. She is grateful that he doesn’t protest. He doesn’t tell her not to dwell on such grim things, nor does he mention the historical inaccuracy of this and every other Dalish rite–although Lavellan is certain he wants to.
“Ma nuvenin, vhenan,” Solas murmurs, holding her a little tighter. “But I hope it never comes to that. Losing you would…”
“I know.” And she does, even though he has never been able to finish that sentence. Maybe it’s too painful a reality for him to consider. At least she can rest easier now, knowing she will not be reduced to ashes one day.
They slip into the Fade together, their minds turning to happier things.