another yap post on main but atp @adzbunny is my professional account -
I struggle soo sooo so much when it comes to my interests sometimes and a lot of times surprise myself 😭
like its always either I’m so casual that I didn’t really even notice any of the details even though there are like with RDR2, or I’m js kind of there for the show and I can’t really make much insightful commentary like Apothecary Diaries
Then w/ TF2 on the otherhand its like boom bwoosh bwoosh I’m like some kind of mad scientist and I’m having this whole yap podcast in my head while washing the dishes, walking during passing period, big comic idea while taking a shower, before I sleep, when I’m brushing my teeth, — I am dreaming about TF2 and there is a reoccurring generic femscout model look alike who keeps trying to hit on me for some reason
and its amazing but also at the same time I get so scared I’m gonna lose all of that and all of my flow once I get more interested in something different — and it happens a lot where I start like a ton of different thinks and then dont finish, I had like 2 different novels I was planning on making that both ended in purgatory because I didnt have a proper plot for them
My last crazy was FNaF and it lasted for a while then ended 🥀
But I’m so hopeful for my current TF2 crazy, because its different than the old last ones, I’m more focused on a main character (already a good sign, FNaF I was focused on the Tormentors and more on ocs ), things that are set in stone rather than an AU, the canon itself the lore and everything and I’m convinced it’ll actually stay with me this time and not have to step down to teeny scale where I can’t grasp anything I used to.
My mind thrives like this fr ough I will be unstoppable once I actually get a PC , I hope to become one of those cool SFM bros too









