Sometimes your friends clock your mental health in ways you cant. Look i think im perfectly average and my relationship to academia and examinations, especially life alteringly huge ones are perfectly normal. Not good but normal yk?
But my friend starts today morning (after I joke about having fried my brain with studying and needing some more sleep perhaps) off with: "hey I know you've been through a lot academically"
And im like ????? Sir what does that even mean???? Bro why would you say that academia didnt murder my family in front of me help?
We go back and forth and im so so convinced that hey that quite traumatising time in my life wasn't that traumatising after all and he keeps pulling up points that make me pause and go. oh. right.
Like it wasn't that bad? What was i thinking? Yes it was! how did I forget? I was fucking suicidal?????
Its a little unsettling having a friend re-orient your thought process so much. Maybe I am little academically traumatised. Who knew.
