Things that I did/do probably because autism
-Braking down and crying in the first few weeks of schooling
-Not wanting to go to school, not wanting to talk after hard school days, wishing I could just teleport away sometimes
-Struggling to learn math in primary, but doing better with the different teaching methods in high school
-Sitting in the same spot on the school bus
-Having few friends in school
-Being stubborn, sympathy lacking, and very black and white
-Specific environments don’t exhaust me, and when I have to leave them I don’t wanna leave
-Clicking/biting things/drawing a figure 8 with my pointer finger when exited/stressed/randomly, hand gesturing a LOT,
-Narrating what I’m doing, saying things like “Ruh”, randomly making guttural noises
-Tiptoeing, hopping around like a frog, “velocipatoring” down the hallway
-The urge to bite people (this is affection), strong emotions often end up with me feeling some type of angry, laughing when I’m angry and sad
-Pausing between words, not making eye contact/stering into your sole and judging you on the moral plain, not getting sarcasm, thinking REALLY hard about how to interact in specific situations, stuttering when saying lots, talking to slow/fast, changing the tone I speak in
-I cannot the texture of peas
-Being “not hungry enough” to eat yet
-Being obsessed with birds until I was 11, then became interested in the military but didn’t share that interest with anyone because I was scared of being judged
-Very quickly learning things relating to my interests
-Getting confused when people over explained things, needing structure and direction, hating sudden routine changes, wearing the same things/having clothes that are very simlar
-Worrying about very specific details of things, and being impatient because I’m stressed.
-Felling like I wasn’t my self, and that my real self didn’t fit in, trying to fit in.
-I can magically recognise patterns for some reason
-Self doubt and second guessing my self
-Taking forever to get my Ps. (I keep forgetting/avoiding to drive and I haven't got enough hours)
-Feeling weird because I finished school and that’s a major change to my routine and life.
