The promise you couldn't keep
Loki x reader
Summary: You had a future. A future full of love hope and happiness together with Loki. He had promised you this after all. But sometimes promises couldn't be kept and futures could be broken...
You had hoped, you had believed, god, you even prayed to which ever power was above you... but in the end you still lost...so much.
The situation you've always feared the most had reached you in the end.
You were kneeing on the ground next to Thor who looked like a total mess, who WAS a total mess. Bleeding, bruised and at the end of his powers.
You were just feeling like shit yourself; it seemed like with every passing second it got harder to breath and your whole body felt like it was on fire.
But what hurt the most right now was your heart, it was shattering in million of pieces...
You had a good sight through the member of the black order, who held both you and Thor in capture. It seemed like they had great pleasure seeing you fall apart while they give you enough room to see HIM standing not far away from you.
"No...no...no, please, no..." these words were constantly coming out of your mouth like water, silent and not seeming to stop.
But no words, no cries, no pleads could stop him from his next words.
"Almighty Thanos, I, Loki, prince of Asgard...Odinson."
Loki, your beloved, brave and yet so dumb Loki stopped his sentence for a second to give his brother a short look, laying all of his faith and love in it.
Before his gaze landed on you...
And everything inside of you felt like it was dying.
You moved, struggling to get out of the arms that were holding you firmly.
Loki put every bit of sorrow, desire, and the deepest pleading for forgiveness in his gaze.
It was his last goodbye to you.
This was the part where a sudden impact of adrenaline appeared in your veins, giving you strength and you used this power to push past a member of the order who stood next to you, trying to get out... trying to get to Loki and stopping him from a decision he had already made a long time ago.
But you were only able to make a few steps forward before a woman punched you in your stomach causing you to bend over in pain.
A frustrated gasp escaped you and a strand of wet hair felt in your face.
The next second you were already dragged back again by rough arms and no fighting was useful anymore.
You looked up... just out of an impulse... meeting once more Loki's eyes which were now full of utterly sadness.
As you tried again to get your arm out of the firm, hurtful grip your gaze landed casually on the cold ring you wore on your thumb. But it was so much more than just a mere ring... it was a promise, a future, a sign of hope.
The day Hela had attacked Asgard you returned together with Loki to fight her and save your home.
You still remember how he hold your hand firmly in his as you two walked out of the space ship, greeted by Asgardians who had gathered around to meet their prince.
You could nearly feel his soft hand again in yours...
Then Thor came and Valkyrie... and the four of you fought against Hela's army.
Loki had never left your side, not even for a second. You two were always fighting back to back, defending and keeping each other safe.
And of course never missing an opportunity to tease the other or you just being the target of Loki's sarcasm.
And like at the end of every battle he would stop to look over you in concern, searching for any wounds or bruises.
Only when he noticed the worst things were mere scratches he would relax.
But this day he had put you into a deep kiss. You had noticed the sudden change, the way he watched you, the way he held you almost every single moment as if you would just vanish, dissolve into air.
You laid a hand on his cheek and stroke softly a strand of his dark hair behind his ear.
"Tell me, my dear... everything will turn alright, won't it? We will save Asgard and defeat Hela. And then there will be just the two of us, right?"
You were naïve, and you knew that. You knew that there are by far worse things the future has in hand for you than just a crazy sister.
Loki bend down and pressed his lips softly on your forehead, causing you to close your eyes wanting just to remember this feeling for ever.
"I love you, Y/N. And by Odin I've never thought I would ever feel this way, yet alone say this words to someone but you... you are my life now and I promise you someday this will all end and we will have peace."
You took a deep, shaky breath and nodded. Just wanting to believe his words of a happy ending.
"Here," he said and took a ring of his finger, the one in his colours, green and gold. "I've wanted to get you a proper one but it seems like this won't happen in the near future."
Loki took your hand carefully in his, as though he feared you would break. He pulled the ring on your thumb where it fit just perfectly as your fingers were way smaller than his.
You hold your breath, just feeling like your heart wanted to explode in fireworks and confetti any second.
"This is my promise, Y/N," he continued and gently lifted your chin so he could see deep into your now teary eyes. "My promise to always love you, always care for you and I promise I will be with you as long as you want me to."
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Back in the cruel reality you looked down at the ring, which sparkled for a moment, mocking you, showing you all the things you will never have, which will be reaped apart just in front of your own eyes.
You looked up and you knew it would be the last time you will see his green, beautiful eyes. Eyes which blurred by the tears that were now streaming down your face.
He wouldn't keep his promise...
Loki closed his eyes for one single second and when he opened them again his cold, determined gaze landed on Thanos. "-The rightful king of Jotunheim, god of mischief," he continued. "Do hereby pledge to you, my undying fidelity."
His voice broke a little at the end and your heart stopped when he suddenly pulled out a knife, implying to stab Thanos in his throat .
No.
Of course Thanos wasn't dumb enough to fall for this.
No.
Instead he grabbed Loki's throat.
"Undying?" The Titan sneered and grined as Loki tried to get out of his hold.
No.
No, no, no, no.
"You...will never be... a god...." These were the last words you heard, the last whisper of a hero... who still fought even when death was already reaching for him.
You would never forget the sound of Loki's neck cracking. Never. It will forever haunt you in your dreams alongside with Thor's shout of pure pain.
But in this moment your world turned numb. You didn't registered falling into your knees, you didn't registered the loud and broken cry. You only felt this unbearable pain and there was this whole new experience of having your heart broken.
Thanos stepped in front of you and watched you with pure despise in his eyes before he throw Loki's body down, like he was a sack of thrash.
Loki's eyes which were always filled with mischief, with so much life... were now utterly empty- staring into nothing.
This was the moment you completely collapsed.
The world turned purple by the use of a infinity stone, Thanos and his members vanished and left you and Thor alone, shattered and broken.
He was gone...
He was gone...
He can't be...
He can't...
Thor fell down on his knees, holding his brother's arm. "Loki... wake up. Come on, brother, I know... you can't be... you can't..."
Softly you stroke Loki's dark hair out of his bruised face, sobbing and barely breathing straight.
"Come on... You promised me... you promised me to never let me alone. I need you..."
But none of your pleadings were heard.
His souls was gone, and with him a part of your own.
"You promised it..."
