#lonely rant

[unheardinvisible]

I’LL LET GO(D).

to let go is to let God

[unheardinvisible]

CHOOSING YOURSELF WILL NEVER BE WRONG

No matter how many times they call you selfish, no matter what they say, no matter how they judge you, remember this: choosing yourself will never be wrong. Protecting your peace, your dreams, and your heart is not a mistake. Choosing yourself is survival and strength. Choosing yourself is the only way to keep going when the world tries to break you. You are allowed to rest, to walk away, and to put yourself first.

[thegayestbi]

I don't know what's so wrong with me. I can be perfectly happy the whole week I am home alone, actually being productive member of society. And then my family returns and in hour I am stressed, sobbing mess in bed. I don't want to this. I love them to pieces I just wish.. They made my life easier and not the actual opposite. I can't wait to live alone.

[hange-the-titan-crazed]

There are days when I find myself wishing to rp a really good rp but know that it probably won't happen again cause I'm lazy. Also there are days when I just want to talk about what I should do and what I should draw but I realize I hardly ever talk about such things with even my friends now a days. And just do whatever I feel like.

[tumblingstreamofconsciousness]

Small vent

I seriously wish I could be like best friends with Danny Sexbang. Or at least someone like Danny Sexbang. We'd do awesome stupid shit together and sing and rap and play games and talk about going crazy and getting fucked and eating out each other's pussies at the same time. LET ME BE YOUR ARIN HANSON!!!

[23andsingle]

i’m so fucking lonely

it’s days like this where all my friends bail on the one day i would really like some human interaction, everyone bails. 

i mean, i haven’t made it known that i just need to go out and get things off my mind, but then i feel like i’m forcing someone to hang out with me. and after a while, that feels worst. 

i just wish someone would try to hang out with me. someone would be like ‘hey you, wanna get lunch?’ instead of me asking to hang out, and someone pushing me off to lunch, and then bailing on lunch. 

being 23, you’d think i’d have more friends. but living in vegas at 23 leaves you with three options (that you might find everywhere else, but i’m being specific to my location) 

Option 1: your friend is either married or in a serious relationship. by serious i mean you turn in a single into a plural “do you want to get drinks with us?” “Oh blah blah blah has an early day so we’re going home early” those aren’t too bad with the right friend. although having one on one time is preferred, sometimes you just have to deal. 

Option 2: your friend is a slut. now that’s not always bad, but it’s bad when they hook up with people you’ve hooked up with. and you told them you hooked up with said person, and they still have sex at the party you’re physically present at . 

Option 3: the rare, yet not as uncommon as you think, home body. now these are the types of people that have such an active lifestyle, they have their routine of doing stuff and never really stray away from it. so when you ask to hang out, they are either too tired or have a weekly previous engagement.

Option 4: the party animal. now you see these people all over instagram and facebook with their constant clubbing or drinking posts. these people have the connections everywhere and are super fun. but i can never keep up with drinking to recover from a hangover. or an entire pack of cigarettes in one night. 

i feel like i’m a mix of Option 2, Option 3 and Option 4. now don’t get me wrong, i don’t hook up with every other guy i meet, i have had slutty days in the past (honestly more PG than you think) but i also like to stay home when i’m tired and go out to drink when i’m happy or need cheering up. 

i try to go out as much as i can, because i like to think back to the memories. but these days it’s all about work and family and recently i just want to get really fucking drunk and make out with someone. do something stupid you know? i love my family, but about 95% of the time, i don’t feel 23. i feel 33. and the fact that i’m single and sitting home alone for two nights now, makes me feel worst. like i don’t even have to go out and get drunk, i just want to go out and hang out with someone besides my dog. 

i’m super stoked that next weekend is life is beautiful and there will be three days of drinks, music, and hopefully, making out. i have one person in mind as my target, but lets hope i actually succeed this time in stead of chickening out like i always do with him. maybe the alcohol and festival vibe will give me the courage to do it. but who knows. 

am i the only person that feels like i don’t have a decent group of friends anymore? 

goodnight for today, this rant has gone on long enough, 

-D

[lizardskeletons]

I just wanna date someone who accepts the fact that I am completely fucking disgusting. 

[amber-champagne]

Can I get some hot guy who actually is interested in me... It's k, I'll wait like I have been for a while. Maybe I'm just a bad guy or too fat for some gay guys. Le sigh, I just wish it was easy to find someone, but I know it'll come one day, probably years from now. I just wish somehotbdude was like "hey let's go play games at Dave and busters", like that is the best pick up line to use on me. Can I just get some one with a nice face ~,~ who is driving distanc from me. Ehh maybe I'm just ugly. I just really want a tall guy to hug me from behind. Or be the little spoon (that feels great)