Someday, Maybe. I Hope. I Imagine.
I use to write letters to you for awhile. And somewhere I stopped. Maybe cause I wasn’t sure if I was saying anything substantial, worth hearing. Or maybe I wanted to save all the things I had to say until I met you. Someday I would very much like to meet you. I don’t know if it will be at a concert because I don’t know that I will be able to go to one. But how I’ve always imagined it is someday we by chance see each other, and if you had a minute I would say hello and then ask if you ever had a day where you had an hour free, or hour and half free at the most, if I was feeling brave enough I may ask if you ever had a day free, would you feel okay and comfortable and have the time to talk? In my head I would always add, if this was a question that couldn’t be given an answer to until a year from then, or until months from then or if the answer was flat out no, I understood why. But I’d imagine if you couldn’t give an answer right away, I hear back someday and it could happen. For me, when I picture meeting you, or any of my idols and heroes, I always think of getting to have a long conversation over a variety of things. Things I’ve been wanting to say both presently and to who I was 7 years ago, things I’ve wanted to hear your outlook on because there are things I still don’t understand or how to do right, and advice if you had any to give because I realize you don’t have the answers to everything but you know how to listen and have observant way of living, and get to ask questions about your music “why did you write that song that way?” “how did you think to produce it this way?” “I never understood that lyric, what does it mean?” and other music we can’t get enough of. I would take long conversation over photos any day. Think because what you say, what you get to say, especially those you admire and love what is said between the two of you stays with you. I see how all the other fans and swifties freak out and get easily excited and I love that because everyone else does really good job at articulating how easily excited I get about things and about you. Since everyone else does a great job at articulating that excitement, I feel like I don’t need to add anything else and wouldn’t be able to. I just enjoy the happiness of others and take in that feeling. I know that since I’m usually quietly and internally overjoyed at whats happening, (I don’t really have other fans or Swifties to share that with so I’ve learned to get excited with just myself) it may not seem like I care a lot but I do. So many have said you look extremely happy now, and man I can picture having a 5 hour conversation about that alone. I read somewhere there was international (more than one I believe) Swiftie who got chosen for the Reputation Secret Sessions and that makes me smile huge for those fans. I’ve been international fan of yours for such long time (or for anything else) so it can be difficult when you aren’t sure that in this specific country in this part of the world you are there. You exist and you are rooting for them. I hope more than anything international fans both longtime ones or just these past few years keep getting invited to special events and things. Not that local fans aren’t important, just that international fans have more of difficult time. Taylor, if you don’t read this right now, I’m okay with that. I’m happy I was able to find the words to say and put this out there. If you do read this Taylor, if you decide you want to meet me and its possible some day in the future whenever that may be, I can’t wait to talk to you about everything. When I reach those parts where I cry or crying to the point where I’m hyperventilating depending on what I’m trying to explain, I get to receive a warm hug from a dear older friend of mine. I love you Taylor. @taylorswift Monique.
