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[s3c0ndhandddd]

The beginning of the kawosin week, eey

@kawoshinweek

[athenanfaymont]

The Truth ☀️🦇

Chapter 12

13. The Shape of Truth

Location: Clark’s apartment, Metropolis. No more places to run. Time: 2:13 a.m. State: Desperate after a week.

Clark hears the window before he hears the boots. Not because Batman is careless—Batman never is—but because Clark has spent an entire week listening for him and his heart has been racing ever since he heard him cross the bay.

The cape moves first in the darkness. Then Bruce enters the apartment, clad in black armor, shoulders rigid. A statue barely daring to set foot on the generic living room-kitchen floor.

Clark slowly puts down the book in his hands.

Neither speaks immediately. The rain taps softly against the windows.

Bruce looks exhausted.

Clark stands.

Clark: Hi.

Bruce clenches his jaw.

Bruce: I need to say something before I lose my nerve.

Clark feels his chest tighten instantly. Because Bruce never says things like this, and he wonders if it’s because normally he doesn’t feel them and is now in a crisis—or if he always does feel them but hides it, unnoticed by anyone.

Clark nods once.

Bruce doesn’t move further into the apartment.

Bruce: I owe you an apology.

Clark blinks.

Clark: An apol…?

Bruce: Let me finish.

The words come out rough, unmodulated.

Bruce: I’ve spent weeks trying to avoid this because I thought… because I believed it would taint something important.

A sudden chill runs through Clark.

Bruce: You’re my friend. My partner. The person I trust the most. And I…

His voice almost breaks.

Bruce: …I’ve tainted it.

Clark’s heart cracks a little. He steps forward immediately.

Clark: Bruce, no…

Bruce finally looks at him. The white eyes of the cowl, but even covered and in darkness, seem terrified.

Bruce: I constantly desire you.

The room falls silent. Bruce breathes once, and a human could have heard it. Bruce, who is shadows.

Then it all begins to spill out of him, as if truth has finally broken a dam.

Bruce: I think of you when you’re not here. I wait for you. I feel calmer when you’re near. I trust you with things I trust no one else with. Sometimes I hear or think something and wish you were there to share it with me. You make rooms feel safe. You make me feel safe. Me.

Clark checks that his mouth is closed. Bruce clenches his fists at his sides.

Bruce: I love your kindness. Your ridiculous hope. Your self-control. I love the way you look at people, as if they deserve to be saved. I love your voice. Your laugh. I…

He swallows hard.

Bruce: I think I’ve loved you longer than I know now, because I appreciated many of these things before the Rann mission, but I couldn’t admit it to myself because I wanted to feel there was something I hadn’t poisoned or ruined.

Silence.

Then Bruce looks away abruptly, embarrassed that these words exist outside of him.

Bruce: I’m sorry. The outburst and… I’m so sorry for loving you, Clark. You deserve better.

Clark crosses the room before he can think. He gently takes Bruce by the arms.

Clark: Better?

Bruce freezes.

Clark smiles, helpless, warm, face unmasked by relief.

Clark: Bruce… I love you too.

For a moment, Batman seems completely vulnerable.

Carefully, Clark releases one of his arms and reaches up to pull back the cowl. He’s never as handsome as with his hair mussed and stuck, his huge gray eyes.

Bruce blinks once.

Clark stares at him. A moment passes.

Clark: I’m going to kiss you.

Bruce breathes in, unable to speak, only nods like a starstruck teenager.

It’s a soft kiss at first and at the end.

Bruce’s gloved finger brushes Clark’s cheek as they part, staring without blinking.

Clark: Tell me the sky is red. Or that you voted for Mayor Hill. Or that… or that you don’t love me.

Clark’s voice is fragile. Bruce opens his mouth, ready to say any lie except the last one.

Bruce: It’s… it’s…

And he can’t.

Clark’s face falls, but Bruce just presses a little closer.

Bruce: Don’t be sad. It’s okay. At least you’ll never doubt what I’ve said.

A scant consolation, in Clark’s opinion.

Bruce exhales, exhausted, over Clark, as if he’s finally laid down the pillars of the Garden of the Hesperides.

Bruce: Diana was right. It’s a relief.

That’s a better consolation, if you ask Clark. So he laughs softly against Bruce’s hair, hugging him tighter.

The end.

[sshxamy]

Sofia | Steve Harrington

Pairings: Steve Harrington x Fem!Reader

Summary: Between drugs, the cinema toilet floor, a confession, and a surprise… what could possibly go wrong? Especially when Robin admits she’s in love with Steve’s girlfriend, and that Lila once loved her too.

And the first girl I ever loved.

- Listen... this is hard to admit. Especially for you, Steve. But I really like you guys. I mean it. But I'm not like your other friends. Definitely not like Nancy Wheeler or whoever.

- Why is that a problem? Steve asks. We're not asking you to be Nancy Wheeler. We already have one, and that's more than enough. He smirks.

I smack him lightly.

- You know when, in the Russian base, I told you about Mrs. Click's class? About being jealous? And obsessed?  Robin continues.

I frown, confused.

- Yeah,  Steve says.

- No, I add, making her laugh nervously.

- It wasn't because I wanted to date you, Steve. Her eyes fill with tears. It's because... she wouldn't stop looking at you.

- Mrs. Click? Steve asks, confused.

- Lila Hopper Mayfield, Robin says softly, tears shining in her eyes as she looks at me. My own vision blurs. I wanted you to look at me. But you couldn't stop looking at him and he's stupid hair. A tear slides down my cheek as one falls down him. I didn't understand. You dropped bagel crumbs everywhere. You asked the dumbest questions. You were kind of an asshole. You hid her from everyone when all I wanted was to scream that she existed. I'd go home and scream into my pillow.

- But Lila's a girl, Steve says slowly.

- Steve.

- ...Oh. His eyes widen. Oh.

- Yeah. Oh.

She looks back at me.

- Lila... you pass out or something? she jokes gently.

I smile sadly.

- How long did you feel that way about me?

- The first time was before high school... she admits.

- You should've told me.

- What would've been the point?

- I would've told you that back then... I cried into my pillow too. Because I felt the same way about you. And I couldn't admit it to myself. So I kept it inside.

Another tear slips down my bruised cheek. Steve and Robin stare at me.

- Wait- what?! Steve blurts. You like girls? That explains so much...

- I thought it was obvious. The way I'd comment on girls you complimented. The way I'd blush around Robin. The fact that I dressed up as David Bowie because I'm obsessed with him. I laugh softly. That doesn't mean I don't love you. I figured out I liked boys because of you, Steve. I don't regret falling in love with you for a second. But if I'd known about Robin three years ago... I don't know what would've happened. I lower my gaze, then look back at her. Robin, you should never have been ashamed. Loving someone isn't shameful. It's the most beautiful thing there is. I reach for her hand. You're the coolest girl I've ever met. And the first girl I ever loved. That means something. I'm sorry I'm not the right one but you'll find someone even more amazing than me. Even if that's hard, because I'm kind of perfect. They both laugh. Who knows? Maybe it's Nancy Wheeler.

Her eyes go wide and she blushes before laughing too.

I lean in and hug her tightly.

- I love you, Rockin' Robin. Thank you. For everything.

- I love you too, Cherry Bomb. I don't regret you being my first heartbreak.

When I pull back, Steve is staring into space.

I touch his shoulder.

- Steve? Did you pass out?

- No. I'm just... thinking. He smiles faintly. I mean, yeah, you're both... hot and everything. But still. You're such losers.

Our mouths drop open.

- Excuse me?! I shove him lightly. Robin is your friend and I am your girlfriend, dumbass!

- I stand by it, he teases. Robin, you're in marching band writing melodies for Tammy Thompson, who sings like a Muppet. And Lila, you're on the school paper with all the nerds but still play in a rock band with Eddie Munson and his gang of freaks. Embarrassing.

- They're hobbies! Robin defends. At least we have some. Unlike Mr. Basketball who got outplayed by his girlfriend's stepbrother.

My jaw drops then I burst out laughing.

- Okay, fine, Steve shrugs. At least we don't sing like a Muppet.

- You're exaggerating! Tammy Thompson does not sing like a Muppet, I argue.

- I agree, Robin says, pointing at me.

- You're both insane. She can't hold a note. It's torture. He starts singing in a ridiculous nasal voice.

- Shut up, Robin laughs. She does not sound like that.

- I'm doing a perfect impression.

- No. You sound like a Muppet! I point at him.

- She sings like a Muppet! he laughs. Like a Muppet giving birth!

We all burst into laughter and start singing together:

🎶 And if you could hold me tight, we'll be holding on forever... 🎶

We're in full hysterics when the bathroom door slams open and Dustin and Erica storm in, furious.

- Okay! What the hell now?! Dustin snaps. Lily, you too? Seriously?

The three of us look at each other for two seconds and burst out laughing again, Steve collapsing against my leg while I lean against Robin's shoulder.

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[msrpusher]

Chapter 7: Paroxysm

https://archiveofourown.org/.../66617185/chapters/172574743

Final chapter!

This was supposed to be Part 2 in a 3 Part series but I am going to stop here.

Thanks to all those that took the time to comment on the fic! It meant a lot especially as this was my first foray at posting a fanfic!

The quiet hum of the hotel room did little to soothe Scully’s restless mind as the evening wore on. Her hand automatically reached for the untouched case files, but her thoughts were already miles away, replaying the chaotic ballet of the afternoon. The memory of Mulder’s body, heavy and warm over hers in that tiny closet, still hummed in her veins, a stark contrast to the sterile gleam of the lampshade. His breath on her cheek, the unexpected weight of him, the raw awareness that had flared between them—it pressed in on her, leaving her breathless even now. She needed to talk to him. About the case, yes, but about everything else too.

A soft knock, polite but firm, sounded at her adjoining door.

“Scully?” Mulder’s voice, blessedly modulated, floated through the wood. “Are you decent? I was thinking we should review the latest atmospheric data I pulled last night, compare it with your medical findings. It’s a lot to process alone.” His voice was muffled, but the underlying invitation was clear.

A professional reason. A credible, perfect excuse. Scully’s pulse quickened. “Come in, Mulder.”

The door cracked open, and Mulder’s silhouette filled the frame, tall and familiar. He had changed into a comfortable, worn T-shirt and sweatpants, his hair still damp from a recent shower, a rogue strand falling over his forehead.

“Hey,” he said, his gaze searching hers, reflecting the unanswered questions swirling between them. He stepped fully into her room, looking around for a place to sit. The only real option was her small, rinky-dink desk chair, which was currently piled high with case files.

“You can just sit on the bed, Mulder,” Scully offered, her voice soft, indicating the neatly made queen size bed. “It will be easier to spread out the files.”

He nodded, a flicker of surprise, perhaps, but also a quiet acceptance in his eyes. He moved to the bed, settling down with an ease that felt both natural and profoundly intimate. Scully sat at the foot of the bed, spreading her own notes, their knees almost brushing as they leaned over the scattered papers. They worked for what felt like hours, dissecting the atmospheric readings, cross-referencing them with the victims’ fragmented medical records. Their minds clicked together effortlessly, two halves of a whole, each challenging and complementing the other. It was a familiar, comforting rhythm, a sanctuary from the unspoken tension that still simmered beneath their carefully constructed professional masks.

“Alright, Mulder,” Scully finally said, stretching slightly, the professional discussion wrapping up. “I think we’ve covered everything we can for tonight. We’ll follow up with the local precinct in the morning regarding those seismic anomalies.” “Sounds good, Scully,” he replied, gathering his scattered notes into a neat pile. He glanced at her, a silent question passing between them, before standing. “Goodnight.”

“Goodnight, Mulder,” she echoed, her voice softer than she intended.

He turned to leave, walking towards the adjoining door that connected their rooms. His hand went to the knob, and he began to pull it closed, a reflex born of years of professional distance, of respecting the private space between them.

“Mulder,” Scully said softly, her voice barely a whisper, yet firm enough to stop him. “You can… you can leave it open.”

He paused, his hand frozen on the knob. He looked back at her, his eyes searching hers, a profound understanding passing between them. He nodded, a slow, almost imperceptible movement, acknowledging her daring invitation. Without another word, he simply stepped through the doorway into his room, leaving his adjoining door wide open, revealing the twin doorway to his room. It was a silent, profound testament to the fragile thread of hope that connected them, an open invitation in the face of so much unsaid.

Scully watched him, her breath catching in her throat. In the sudden, silent expanse of their two rooms, separated only by a threshold, not a barrier, the delicate dance of their shared history, their entwined souls, felt profoundly real. A convection current of unspoken desires rose in the charged air, thick and palpable.

Then, a sharp, insistent rap echoed from Mulder’s main door. Scully froze, her head snapping up. Her heart gave a sudden, hard thud against her ribs. Who the hell could it be? If it was Potts, surely he would knock on her door, not his. An uneasy tremor ran through her.

Mulder, already striding to his main door, pulled it open. Potts stood there, looking even more impeccably groomed than yesterday, a confident smile already forming.

“Agent Mulder,” Potts began, but Mulder cut him off, a hint of impatience in his voice.

“Potts. Agent Scully’s room is next door.” He gestured vaguely in her direction, his hand brushing against the open frame of his own door, a subtle barrier.

Potts’s smile faltered, but his eyes, sharp and direct, met Mulder’s. “I know where her room is, Agent Mulder. I was there last night.” His voice was low, deliberately challenging, a velvet barb.

Mulder’s jaw tightened, the mask of polite indifference cracking. “So what are you doing here?” he asked, his voice a low growl, barely controlled. The question was a demand, a challenge.

Scully, straining to listen through the now open adjoining doors, could hear their voices, but they were frustratingly indistinct, a murmuring tide against the frantic beat of her own heart. She moved closer to the threshold, her ear cocked, desperate to catch a clear word.

Back in Mulder’s doorway, Potts stepped closer, his voice dropping, though clearly intended for Mulder’s ears alone, a final, cutting blow. “You know, Mulder, you are the luckiest son of a bitch on earth to have someone like Dana Scully in your life.” His gaze held a surprising depth of sincerity, mingled with a harsh, cutting edge. “She’s brilliant, she’s loyal, she’s more fiercely devoted than anyone I’ve ever met. And you, you take her for granted, burying your head in your conspiracies while she’s right there, right beside you. You need to wake up, Mulder. Because eventually, someone will eventually come along and worm his way into her heart. Someone who knows what she’s worth.”

Mulder’s lips thinned, a caustic retort forming on his tongue, a desperate defense mechanism. “Oh, I assure you, Dr. Potts, I’m quite awake. And I’m also quite sure you’re confusing the concept of appreciation with something far less… professional.” His voice was laced with a sarcasm so thick it could be cut with a knife, a desperate attempt to deflect the truth.

Potts’s expression remained unperturbed. He simply looked at Mulder, a slow, pitying shake of his head. “You’re pathetic, Mulder.” He didn’t wait for a response. He simply turned, a quiet dignity in his posture, and walked away down the hall, leaving Mulder standing in the frame of his open door.

As Potts’s footsteps faded into the distant hum of the hotel, Mulder stood rooted to the spot, the word “pathetic” echoing in the sudden silence of his room, mingling with the raw truth of Potts’s earlier words. "I know," he whispered, the admission a raw, ragged sound, barely audible, a confession to the empty air and to himself. He knew.

He turned slowly, his gaze drawn, as if by an invisible thread, to the adjoining room door, the portal to Scully’s space. A whirlwind of emotions coursed through his veins: anger, humiliation, a searing jealousy, but beneath it all, a profound, aching tenderness that threatened to overwhelm him. He took a single, deliberate step, then another, drawn forward as if being pulled by an irresistible, ancient force. He reached out, his hand trembling slightly, and touched the knob. Slowly, with a reverence that spoke of years of unspoken longing, he turned it.

The door swung inward with a soft, almost imperceptible click, revealing Scully standing there, framed in the soft light of her room, her gaze fixed on him. Her eyes, wide and luminous, met his. “I thought I heard someone at your door?” she asked, her voice a little breathless, a little too soft, betraying her desperate need to know.

He nodded, unable to speak, his throat tight with a surge of emotion. He bit his lip, a tiny, nervous gesture she knew so well, a tell of his deepest vulnerabilities. She took a step closer, her own gaze searching his face, picking up on the profound, shattering shift in his demeanor. “Who was it, Mulder?”

He looked at her then, his eyes brimming with unshed tears, reflecting the vast, luminous sea of her own. His voice, when it came, was a low rasp, raw with a truth he had guarded for years, a confession whispered from the very depths of his soul, cracking through the carefully built defenses he’d maintained for so long. “Did you know Scully?” He cleared his throat, “Did you know that you are the best friend I have ever had, Scully?”

She nodded slowly, her own eyes softening with understanding, agreeing with the familiar, comforting truth that had been their anchor.

Then, he took another breath, a shaky, desperate intake of air, and added, his gaze never leaving hers, his voice barely a tremor, heavy with the weight of absolute certainty, “And the love of my life.”

The words, profound and utterly unexpected, yet undeniably true, rooted her to the ground. The weight of his confession, whispered into the charged silence of their now open space between them, held her captive, breathless. He moved, slowly, gently, raising his large hands to cup her face, his thumbs tracing the line of her jaw, possessive, tender, as if to finally claim what had always been implicitly his. And then, finally, after six years of shared shadows and unspoken longing, of a bond that defied logic and conventional understanding, he leaned in and kissed her.

It was a kiss born of years of held back passion, of stolen glances and silent yearning, of shared terror and unwavering loyalty. At first it was a pressing of the lips, an experiment, and then the ache, the longing broke through the swell of their emotions, and their quiet kiss turned into a torrent. His lips, soft at first, quickly grew hungry, pressing against hers, demanding a response she was powerless to deny. His mouth opened, a silent invitation, then consumed hers, a possessive, breathtaking claim. A low moan escaped him as his tongue traced the seam of her lips, then plunged, deep and seeking, into the warm cavern of her mouth. She met him, tongue tangling with tongue, a dizzying current sweeping through her as their mouths explored, tasting, learning, a raw intimacy igniting every nerve ending. The friction, the heat, the wet slide of their tongues made her head spin. He pulled back just an inch, his eyes still locked on hers, searching her soul, needing to know. His breath, hot and ragged, ghosted across her swollen lips. “Do you,” he asked, his voice rough with emotion, raw with a vulnerability that stole her breath, “do you want this? Want me?”

A soft, almost wry smile touched Scully’s lips, a familiar, comforting part of her reemerging even in this dizzying moment. “Ever the gentleman, Mulder,” she whispered, her voice husky with emotion, a sudden rush of tears blurring her vision. She could only quickly nod her head, a desperate, frantic reassurance, her eyes pleading with him to understand, to know, that she had always, always wanted him.

He groaned, a low, guttural sound of relief and fervent hunger, and resumed the kiss. Suddenly, Scully’s arms reached out, finding purchase around his neck, pulling him tighter, holding him fast to her as if to anchor herself in the storm. Her fingers tangled in his damp hair, tugging gently, deepening the angle of their embrace. In one fluid, powerful motion, he swooped her into his arms, lifting her effortlessly against his chest. Her legs instinctively wrapped around his hips, the sheer intimacy of it breathtaking. He carried her backwards, across the short expanse of her room, and gently, carefully, laid her down on the soft expanse of her bed. His eyes, wide and disbelieving, yet filled with a desperate, burgeoning hope, devoured her face.

This was them. This was finally them. He couldn’t quite believe it, but God, he wanted to, with every fiber of his being. He wanted to believe this was finally real, finally hers, finally theirs.

The years of space between them compressed into this single, burning moment.

[fameadventura]

The One Who Got Away

But that's the thing about life, right? It doesn't care about your plans. It doesn't stop to ask if you're ready or if you need more time. It just moves forward, dragging you along, leaving you scrambling to catch up. And now here I am, stuck in this awkward space between letting go and holding on, knowing that no matter how much I try to convince myself otherwise, it won't be me walking next to you. It's a cruel irony—knowing what you want, seeing it so close, but watching from a distance as someone else gets to live it.

And I guess, deep down, I knew. I knew that it wasn't going to happen. But there was always this tiny sliver of hope, a stubborn part of me that believed it could. That maybe, just maybe, you'd wake up one day and realize that I was right there, ready and willing. But that day never came, and now I'm left with nothing but these thoughts I can't shake. It's annoying, really, because how do you stop feeling something so strong? How do you let go of someone who feels like a part of you, even though you never really had them?

I want to be happy for you, I really do. I want to be the person who can smile and mean it when I say, "I'm glad you found someone who makes you happy." But I'm not there yet. I'm still tangled up in the 'what ifs' and 'could have been,' still hoping for a reality I know will never exist.

And the hardest part is knowing that, at the end of the day, you won't even know. You won't ever fully understand what you meant to me or how much it hurts to see you with him. Because I never told you. And it's my fault; it's on me. I don't blame you—I can't. Maybe I was scared; maybe I was just waiting for the "perfect moment" instead of allowing our perfect moment to happen.

Either way, it doesn't matter, and as much as I wish I could rewrite the ending, I'm not the writer this time.

And that's the hardest part—because, as a writer, I know how to create these stories and build worlds that don't exist. I get to choose who's happy, who gets hurt, who falls in love, and who loses. I can put together words to form the most beautiful images. I've really mastered that—except for this story. Our story.

I envision a million different ways it could have gone—a world where I was the one who renewed your faith in love, eased your hardest days, and brought sunshine to your cloudy skies. I was supposed to be the one who made you smile every day—the one who made you forget everything you'd been through. But those are just drafts of a story never meant to be told.

I thought I could pen my way out of this heartache, and if I wrote about it, it would make sense somehow. But this time, I'm just a character, an afterthought within the margins...

I really just said a bunch of words to say that I am truly happy for you; it's just that I wish it were me. 

[beatlesficrecs]

the end by monkberrymoon

the end by monkberrymoon

LINK: https://archiveofourown.org/works/58484038

SUMMARY: A screenplay-style fic set in New York, Autumn 1980. John hears from a friend that Paul is in town, and goes to visit him at his hotel. A long-overdue conversation is had.

PAUL John… Do you think it could have played out differently then?

JOHN Nothing ever can, right? Besides, I wasn’t looking at the bigger picture - so self-centred - but we were in the fucking Beatles.

PAUL Right, I mean, that’s what we- that’s what we said… At that time… the whole word was watching.

JOHN Yeah, it was - I just couldn’t think past- but you were right. It wasn’t the time.

PAUL Mmm. And now?

NOTES: a kind of “what if they communicated” AU, which has a super realistic view of what might have actually happened if John and Paul had had a chance to talk about what went on between them. reads almost like a scripted sequel to the film, “two of us”. it’s also written in such a unique way - has that really compelling freshness that comes from being outside the norm of usual fanfiction tropes and styles.

also has a really good grasp of character voice, both the emotive seriousness, and the playful in-jokes are incredibly well-pitched. and considering what we know of how little John and Paul talked about their issues, this is a really fascinating case of “he would not fucking say that” reworked into “well, what would it sound like if he did”?

[itspeterkha]

"𝐈𝐧 𝐘𝐨𝐮, 𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐅𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐌𝐲 𝐇𝐨𝐦𝐞: 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐲𝐦𝐩𝐡𝐨𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐔𝐬"

From the moment you entered my life, it wasn’t love at first sight, but something entirely different—something I couldn’t quite name back then. There was no sudden rush, no overwhelming infatuation, but a quiet, lingering curiosity that settled deep in my chest. The very first time I laid my eyes on you, something in me stilled. It wasn’t just the way you stood, bold and fierce, or how the fire in your eyes commanded attention—it was something else, something that whispered to me that my life was about to change. In that instant, I knew you were going to mean more to me than I could comprehend. I was taken aback. Yet, even then, I was in awe.

I didn’t know what it was that drew me to you. It wasn’t just your confidence or your spirit; it was something deeper, something that spoke to me without words. I stood there, watching, and I knew that you were meant to be part of my life. Not just in passing, but in a way that would leave an imprint on me. I didn’t know how or why, but from that moment, my heart knew you were someone special.

When you asked, "What are your intentions?" I remember feeling a mix of nervousness and honesty that I hadn’t experienced before. I had no answers then—no plans, no path mapped out for where we might go—but I knew I wanted you in my life. Whether we were to remain friends or become something more, all of that felt secondary to the simple truth that I wanted to know you, to be around you. I didn’t need labels or expectations, just the space to be with you, to see where this connection would lead. And, for someone who had spent years building walls around my heart, that was a feeling both terrifying and exhilarating.

I took that leap, a shot in the dark, when I added you and reached out, and since then, our friendship has been nothing short of a wild, beautiful ride. There were moments in the beginning when we didn’t quite understand each other, where you probably thought I was a little too mysterious or odd.

I laugh now, thinking about how you jokingly accused me of being some kind of spy, always observing. But looking back, I was just trying to figure out how someone like you—a force of nature—could make me feel so at peace. It took me a while to understand what was happening inside of me. I’ve spent so much of my life thinking that love or deep affection had to come with a rush of adrenaline, a dizzying euphoria. But what I felt with you was different—so much more grounding, so much more real. Yes, you make me smile, you make me laugh, and I genuinely love being in your company, but it’s more than that. You make me feel safe, like I can let down my guard, like I don’t have to pretend or perform. For the first time, I feel like I can just be.

And that’s where I realise this is different from anything I’ve felt before. It’s not just the excitement of being with someone who lights up my world—it’s the calm you bring. It’s the way everything around me quiets when you’re near, the way all the noise and chaos fade away. When I’m with you, I don’t feel like I need to prove myself, because you see me. The real me. And somehow, that feels more intimate than any of the love stories I used to dream about.

You have this fire in you, this passion that burns so brightly, and it’s impossible not to be drawn to it. But it’s not just the fire—it’s the warmth you bring, the way your presence makes everything feel lighter, easier. You make me feel like no matter what I’m facing, it’s going to be okay, because when I look at you, I feel like I’ve found my home. That sounds cheesy, I know, but it’s the truth. In you, I’ve found not just excitement, but peace. Not just passion, but comfort.

There’s a depth to this, to what you’ve sparked in me, that I didn’t know was possible. You’ve somehow sunk beneath my skin, into the core of who I am, and nurtured something there—something I didn’t even know needed nurturing. You’ve made me question everything I thought I knew about love. How could I have thought I’d loved before, when I hadn’t felt this? This steady, calm knowing that no matter what happens, we’ll figure it out together.

And that’s the most beautiful thing about this connection. You’ve made me realise that love isn’t just about the highs, the excitement, the butterflies. It’s about feeling completely safe in someone’s presence. It’s about the comfort of knowing that with you, I don’t have to be anything other than myself. You’ve nurtured this familiarity, this deep-seated bond that has grown into something so fierce and strong, it makes me wonder how I ever lived without it.

Being with you feels like being part of a symphony—a harmony I never knew I needed. Every glance, every word exchanged between us is like a note that fits perfectly into the melody of my life. The highs and lows are no longer jarring but part of a greater rhythm, and even in moments of silence, there’s music. With you, nothing feels forced or rushed; instead, everything flows together as though we’ve been playing this piece for years. You’ve brought balance to my chaos, and now I understand that love doesn’t have to be loud or overwhelming—it can be gentle, steady, and still so powerful.

So here I am, writing these words, tearing down the walls I’ve spent a lifetime building, finally showing you the parts of me that I’ve kept hidden for so long. It’s terrifying, but with you, it feels right. You make me want to be braver, to be more vulnerable, to let you in. And I don’t know where this journey will take us, but I do know that whatever happens, I’m grateful that our paths crossed. Because in you, I’ve found not just a companion, but a place where I can truly rest.

[caliel66]

Day 4: Nimbus

(After SPN 15.20)