I borrowed this from @ever-searching, and will not be tagging anyone directly since this can be pretty rough. However, if you decide to fill this out for your character, or if you would like to see results for another character of mine, do tag me!
The test may be found here: https://www.idrlabs.com/lifetrap/test.php
Edit: For those curious, I collated the results text for all 11 categories here.
Description and further commentary is under the cut due to heavy psychological themes.
The emotion most recurring in you is shame. Shame is what you feel when your defects are exposed. Consequently you go to great lengths to keep your defectiveness hidden. You feel that your defectiveness is inside you and not immediately observable. You feel like you have to pretend to be someone you are not to be accepted. You hide your true self to fit in, but that also means that many people in your life will never know the real you.
At your core you feel completely unworthy of love. It is possible that you struggle with feelings of depression - a kind of low-level depression always lurking in the background. You may be drawn to partners who are critical of you and put you down. They generate high chemistry, but reinforce your feelings of defectiveness.
It is likely that you spend a lot of time comparing yourself unfavorably to others and feel inadequate as a result. You feel like an impostor when you are successful. You are anxious that you cannot maintain your success. Your sense of well-being is fragile, and even small setbacks or failures may be enough to make you nervous and stressed. You often feel humiliated and inadequate, as if the whole world is about to catch sight of your defectiveness.
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The wording on the description is a little too specific to fit completely, but this is accurate for Zhah’ra in a general sense.
Zhah’ra believes that in order to be loved and accepted (and to have one’s basic needs met), one must be worth keeping. If that is not the case, then one must be useful to offset the resources being taken up.
He believes that he is fundamentally both worthless and useless, and that any needs he might express therefore create a burden for others.
While Zhah’ra acknowledges that he is undeniably skilled in a few areas, he believes that they all constitute a performance which either presents the appearance of being what others need, or creates an artificial want where there was none. All he can offer is therefore either a useless luxury (the first thing given up to make room for necessities) or a stopgap substitute (to be -- quite correctly -- left behind as soon as the real thing becomes available).
His fear, then, is not that someone will find out that he has some specific defect, as such. Rather, he expects that his performance will eventually be seen for what it is, and he will be (correctly) rejected -- and quite possibly punished for asking for more than he deserved.
His runner-up lifetraps all relate to this core in some way:
Social exclusion: “I don’t fit in.”
Zhah’ra feels that his worthlessness has always been extremely evident to others (unless he makes active efforts to obscure it), leading to fear of being cut off from relationships with others when they inevitably grow tired of being charitable -- or, worse, having his social debts to them be suddenly called to reckoning.
Failure-Impairment: “I feel like such a failure.”
He believes that, because he is fundamentally useless, if he is so arrogant as to try to do something actually useful, he will inevitably fail -- and humiliate any who supported him.
Subjugation: “I always do it your way.”
He often falls into a pattern of people-pleasing and fawning to avert rejection and/or violence.
Unrelenting standards: “It’s never quite good enough.”
He feels a heavy pressure to perform to others’ liking in order to preserve others’ willingness to give him what he needs to survive.
