#madd relatable

[a-random-daydreamer]

Sometimes if I’m watching a good video like a tiktok or something, I’ll be like “oh I gotta show my para this!” so I’ll turn my phone completely around as if I’m actually showing it to someone irl and show them THE WHOLE VIDEO. Even though I’d already seen it and now I can’t even see the screen cause it’s turned away from me, I’ll play it all the way through just for them. It’s so annoying and time consuming and like I HAVE to do it. It’s like a compulsion thing. I do the same thing with like stories and things like that. Say I want to tell my paras a story of something that happened or I just want to explain something to them, I have to tell them the entire thing in full detail. And I do this multiple times (out loud) for multiple paras and it’s just so exhausting. Like couldn’t I just pretend that they already know so I don’t have to keep repeating myself?? That’d be so much easier but nooo, I have to do it. It’s really annoying. Does anyone else do this???

[bee-cried]

[fallingmaddlyinlove]

Me when I randomly remember that my paras aren't real

[mddinmyhead]

Finally !! I succeded to say to my best friend that I have MADD 😭

[a-random-daydreamer]

A conversation with myself:

“Okay this para isn’t going to have any trauma in their past, you got that?”

“Ok fine but... but just hear me out. I’ve got a great idea for a tragic backstory!”

“No-“

“-it’ll make you cryyy”

“........ I’m listening...”

[a-random-daydreamer]

Does anyone else unconsciously have their paras hanging around them in the real world and instinctively talk to them constantly? Like as if they are real people? :/

[a-random-daydreamer]

MaDD thing

A lot of the time, my paras will be here in the real world with me like in the background hanging out. Sometimes one will be chilling on my bed while I do schoolwork. Other times if I’m with my friends and they’ll be in the background laughing along. I guess I’m still kind of daydreaming when this happens (cause otherwise they wouldn’t be there) but since they’re in the real world with me, I can get more done and it effects my social life and daily life less. (This in no way effects the plot, and I just pretend it never happened when I actually enter their world) Does anyone else do this?

[a-random-daydreamer]

I keep trying to ask myself how much MaDD actually interferes with my life but it’s a bit hard to answer because a) I’m homeschooled so I have a lot of flexibility for assignments so I end up finishing everything on time. So it doesn’t really interfere with homework. (Although sometimes I do procrastinate or stop working on it due to daydreaming) b) I don’t socialize very much. But not because of daydreaming, I just already don’t hang out with people very often. MaDD interferes with how much time I spend with my family sometimes though.

I do often spend hours staring at a wall in my room and if I’m interrupted I’ll do anything to get back to daydreaming. Sometimes it makes my family mad at me cause I’ll get really irritated at them for making me come out of my room (although they don’t know it was because I was daydreaming). There are other examples of how it interferes with my life too but I’m too lazy to write a bunch right now. I guess sometimes I just feel I’m faking it cause it doesn’t interfere in the same way that it interferes with other’s lives. But it still interferes. Just in different ways.