hey there uh im struggling with gender rn and uh, so i feel super cnnected with the male gender but also, kinda not? def not feminine tho, (presentation dont matter to me tbh) but like, leaning towards masc but still not completely boy. like a nonbinary boy. i don't know.
nice to know you, anon. I feel that you communicated very well your experiences to us. although I'm not you to define your feelings, I can elaborate in what you ascribed to me.
gender alignments are a good way to say you're connected to certain gender even when you're not exactly that gender. helian (and solarian) could be what you said about being connected to the male gender. gendervir is also supposed to encompass that, among other things.
you could be a masc-leaning non-binary folk. I imagine that the leaning part is something you feel more strongly when compared to other gender qualities.
if you feel nonbinary boy describes your experience better than anything else, go for it. regardless of anything, just because you're determining yourself as a boy, that should never dictate how you quantify your boyhood. does that make sense?! you don't need to specify, but if you want, you could say demiboy.
these identities are personal. exploring subjectivity while staying in balance with surrounding world is a journey. honestly, sharing your identity collectively, as in with other groups of people, could influence how you feel about your gender. in the end of the day, you can use your own words to describe yourself daily. you're good at it.
take a look in the words enboy, minby, masculenby, and menby, then come back and say how you feel about such things.